Ten long minutes, I felt like I had spent ten years, fortunately, I came back from the clouds, looking at all this, oh, it turns out that I have always been in the real world, what happened just now, where is the moment, what is the meaning of here, I don't know.

These things make me a little in a trance,

Now all I know is that a girl came over, the girl in pajamas had changed into normal clothes, stood in front of me, about a meter away, stretched out her right hand, holding a worn-out book in her hand, and said to me with a smile, "Return to the owner".

She was calm and terrible, and it also officially made me feel, is this the long-haired girl I knew, a hot current suddenly surged into my heart, there was a feeling of fainting, all this, I couldn't accept it, my hands trembled in the air, I didn't know if I should take the book back, I shouldn't have appeared in this place, I shouldn't have seen her, and even, these memories have long been sealed, and they shouldn't have escaped from the seal.

This may be my fate, the Creator ruthlessly created for me what normal people should not experience, should not see, maybe the Creator had an accident when he created me.

Seeing me in a daze, she took the initiative to stuff the book into my hand, "Your goal has been achieved, good night!"

It all happened so fast that I couldn't react and I could only see her back, I wanted to say something to her, but I couldn't open my mouth, my heart felt like I was hit by a boulder, is this a feeling of regret, it turns out that this feeling is regret, no, I don't want this feeling of being pressed.

I hate the damn back, "Wait a minute" I finally mustered up the courage to shout to say something to her. She also stopped, and looked back at me from a distance.

"What's the matter, is there anything else". She leaned against the door and watched me quietly.

The surroundings were quiet and terrible, not even the sound of frogs and cicadas, my nose suddenly became a little sour, tears of anger were rolling, I hated my cowardice, I hated my passivity, do you want to be a complete escaper, do you want to bring regret to the coffin board, no, I don't want to, then it is better to kill me, "I, I think, I want to say...... I'm so good to see you again"!

This sentence seemed to exhaust all my vitality, I looked at her breathlessly, I smiled, for the first time in front of a girl I once liked laughing unscrupulously, without pressure, without scruples.

She smiled too, nodded, made a goodbye gesture, then turned to open the door, closed the door, I couldn't see her anymore, and after five seconds, the lights in the room were gone, and the darkness was restored, and it was like a dream, and I stood where I was, at the mouth of this alley of memories, and the tears kept rolling in my eyes, and I couldn't say that the tears were because of the wind. At this moment, everything seemed to stand still, leaving me alone in the same place, unable to move forward.

Looking at the book in my hand, I trembled, tears welled up in my eyes, crying like a child, like the sensational guy I hated and hated the most, the kind of weak child who loved to cry, was this what the was me, I was like that? It turns out that people are all the same fragile? No matter how strong the pretense is, you can't deceive the truest self, but the guy who shed tears is really ugly!

I wanted to use the moonlight to flip through this book, but the moment I opened it, I suddenly changed my mind, this book, what is the use of keeping it, and then, I tore the book in half, so that it became fragments scattered in this uninhabited alley, and all the memories of her remained in this place forever, because the little boy seven years ago is no longer there, and now I have helped the boy fulfill his wish, since time cannot never be, then let it stay where it should stay forever!

It's just, unfortunately, does it really not exist, so why am I crying? Have I really been broken and my memories of her have been completely released, no, this is an illusion, this is the last trace of warmth left over from childhood, and now, this tenderness has also become a fragment, floating here!.

"Goodbye, my long-haired girl". This is the last time I will be so close to you, may you be well". That's what I really want to say, but I can't bear that sentence just now, and I want another personality to praise me once, after all, I need praise so much! Isn't it.

The city. I don't have any more regrets!

When I returned to Bingtong's house, it was half past eleven, my five-minute walk, road, I don't know what I did in the past half an hour, he hasn't slept yet, or watching TV in the living room, the sound is very small, I even mistakenly thought that he just looked at the picture and didn't listen to the sound.

"Coming back"?

"Hmm".

"I'm going to see Zhu Yunxin."

"How do you know".

"It doesn't matter, the key is whether you still go to F City".

"Go".

"When"?

"Tomorrow".

"Do you have to go"?

"I don't want you to see me again tomorrow"!

After a brief conversation with it, I went back to my room, forgot all about the day, and began to study a new journey.

In addition to the car, there is no other traffic to reach F city in D city, and I don't think about motion sickness at all, but the neighboring XM city has all kinds of traffic, planes, high-speed rail, and cars, and when I saw the high-speed rail, I realized that I had never taken the legendary high-speed rail, and I wanted to see how amazing the legendary high-speed rail was.

After comparing all the high-speed rail trains from XM to F, I finally decided on the G324 train tomorrow morning, but the fuck is that there are more than 100 kilometers from D to F, which means that I have to make the earliest car to XM, and then go to XM high-speed rail station non-stop.

But as long as I can get to F, it's nothing, and after buying the ticket, I'm very excited, which means that I'm going to set foot in F, I'm going to be in F, where I'm going to meet the girl I think about day and night, and I don't have to talk to her in my dreams, and I don't have to fantasize about when we'll meet and what will happen.

However, after the excitement, it really brought me a kind of nervousness and fear, and all their words about me going to F City came to my mind. What are you in, in what name, what if you go to her and don't see you. These words kept me awake and gave me a great fear of what was going to happen next.

Yes, I can't escape, as a pessimist, after the joy, it is this endless torment of pessimistic thoughts, saying that the good is not fantasy, this does not exist at all, my brain does not belong to myself in the middle of the night, but to the real guy, the subconscious arrogant guy, however, that guy did not come out to hit me at such an important moment, did not talk to me, which made me feel very unaccustomed.

I closed my eyes, and there were only faint red dots in my mind, beating rhythmically, hey, why didn't you come out to hit me, didn't you say that I was an evader, a loser, a humble dog, and now I want to tell you, who is the puppet, who is the leader of this body.

I hope that the other personality can be quiet forever, I feel that I can face everything alone, and I don't need to be alone in my head all day long, looking arrogant,

I'm dreaming about my life tomorrow and I should become like a normal person!