Today is November 29, 2019, the fourth day of the lunar winter month, the first day of the second month of the year of the pig, today is suitable for breaking ground, making a bed, traveling, engagement, burial, traveling, asking for heirs, repairing graves, going to office, breaking ground, praying for blessings, sacrifices, lifting, dismantling, making alliances, accepting wealth, accepting livestock, starting drills, catching, tailoring, dressing, removing clothes, opening light, Nacai, crowning, establishing coupons, seeking medical treatment, plastic painting, planting, fasting Jiao, word lawsuits, funerals, fishing, and litigation, avoid decoration, opening, marriage, entering the house, obtaining a license, starting work, opening a door, Shangliang, opening, Stoves, repairs, market openings, marriages, timbering, building houses, meridians, pillars, boats, and opening warehouses. Lao Ma held the old yellow calendar, squinted his eyes and read all the small words on today's calendar, word by word, and then threw away yesterday's page.

"Good fellows! It's December! ”

Sitting in the rocking chair and just taking out the hookah, the old horse suddenly reacted that the time was about to enter the last month of the year, panicked, and stared at Lao Huang for a long time before accepting this fact.

After two pots of cigarettes, Tsai Zai hurriedly went to school and left, Gui Ying told him to go to work, Zhiyuan took care of him last day and slept outside last night, and at this moment only he and Wa'er were left at home. When I came back from buying breakfast at half past eight and opened the door, the mobile phone rang, and when I saw that it was Ma Baoshan calling, the old village chief was particularly surprised, and his voice was a little louder, which seemed sonorous and powerful. It turned out that Baoshan wanted to rebuild the Guanyin Temple in the village, and asked for the contact information of the master who originally repaired the Buddha statue. After Lao Ma gave it, a few words were polite to see the field, and the two hung up the phone.

Fang was a little happy when he received the call, and he was a little disappointed at this time. How many things I have done for the village in those years, how many people have I helped, and how many miles have I run for poor households to get low premiums...... Now less than half a year away from Tun, as if he has gone to the ground, no one calls to greet him, no one sends fruits and beans, no one asks him to cheer for him during the Mid-Autumn Festival and National Day, and no one is willing to mention or even vaguely remember what he has worked hard to do for Majiatun...... The old man didn't believe it, and pulled the address book of the mobile phone from beginning to end, and sure enough, no one contacted him for several months, and the old man sighed in frustration.

In the past, I always felt that even if I kicked my feet (died) one day, relying on the residual warmth of the village chief for 20 years, I still had to be merciful to the people who still took care of the matter in the tun, and so-and-so still had to be merciless when he treated his second child, but now that he is not dead, he first encountered the ice lump, how can the old village chief stand it. Fortunately, I came to Shenzhen instead of being in the ground, and thanks to the fact that I finally discovered the forgetfulness and indifference of human nature, I am glad that I am alive to see this clearly. What can you do if you see clearly? The old horse couldn't stop sighing, as if he had two catties of cotton in his chest.

Thinking that the boss Xingbang was at home, Lao Ma wanted to call Xingsheng to ask. Sure enough, the two brothers were now at home. Xingsheng said that he and his brother had been idle recently, and the old horse saw that Xingsheng was happy to talk, so he simply hung up the phone of the second child and called the boss. As always, Xingbang always has a dodgy tone and does not want to talk more. After hanging up the phone without chatting a few words, the old man sighed. Now it's good, the factory is completely yellow, how much he lost in the past few years, how much Xingbang has earned, and he never mentioned what plans he has next, persuading him to stay in Shaanxi for a peaceful birthday, he didn't listen at all, as his father Lao Ma was sad.

He is the eldest son, and he is worthy of the responsibility of this eldest son to his parents, peers and brothers and sisters; Xingbang is also the eldest son, why is he so born with himself, and why is he so unsatisfactory. As a father, for the sake of face and utilitarian old horses, Xingbang has made mistakes before, and he has changed over the years, becoming soft and negotiable, becoming able to bother less without disturbing, and becoming considerate of him, who wants Xingbang to still be the same for him - to treat inquiries as spying, suggestions as contempt, and care as bad feelings. Over the years, there has always been a deep estrangement between their father and son, not a word of intimacy, not a single festive event, maybe, if the mother is here, their father and son will be better, Lao Ma is so utopian.

If you want to be hurt, just stop, the old horse got up to see Yangyang. No matter how bad it is, he still has two pistachios like Yangyang and Zaizai, no matter how bad it is, he still has a capable little girl to support the façade of his old village chief. Already sitting beside Yangyang, the old horse still sighed. Why is it only now that I have discovered the importance of my children and grandchildren? Why do you only experience the tension and estrangement in your family relationship in recent years? Why do you only know when you are old that a good face is a futile and empty effort? If I had discovered what was important and what was important in the early 20 years, and had planned more, helped more, and been more considerate for my children in the early 20 years, maybe the three of them would have lived a better life now. The strength spent in Tunli for so many years seems to have been wasted, and it has been a worthless twenty years.

The old village chief sat on a low pink bed, looking around at the small house the size of a palm, his heart was not happy, and he was always unable to breathe and get up. Looking down at the fleshy next generation, the delicate cheeks, the ruddy mouth, the small hands with fists, and the powerful feet...... The continuity of the bloodline can barely alleviate the frustration and depression of an old man. Leaning against the bed, he used the slightly hot cigarette compartment to warm his little feet exposed outside the bed.

“Ladidadidada……”

At three o'clock in the afternoon, in the quiet office, a strange music suddenly came. Everyone looked up at each other, and finally looked for a place. Bao Xiaotang also looked up, and suddenly reacted that his mobile phone was ringing, and he lifted his heart in surprise, quickly grabbed his mobile phone, and saw that it was a voice call in the QQ chat software.

"Hello?" Xiaotang asked in the corridor more than ten meters away from the door of the office.

"Hello, I'm walking in the rain. Sorry to disturb you, I'm a walk in the rain, a friend on QQ, do you remember? The other party is a male voice, gentle and leisurely.

"Ah......" Bao Xiaotang thought for a few seconds, his eyes glared in an instant, and when he remembered, he was so stunned that he didn't know what to say for a while.

"I'm bothering you, I can't contact you, I sent a lot of messages, maybe you don't play QQ. I'm in Shenzhen now, I want to see you, is it convenient? It's up to you to decide where to go. The other party said happily and sonorously.

"Oh...... I know you...... Belch...... I'm at work right now, so it's inconvenient. Xiaotang covered his mouth left and right and whispered.

"I'm sorry, I didn't know you were at work, I thought you were unemployed and resting like before. I made an appointment to visit a teacher tomorrow, I just arrived in Shenzhen yesterday, only today I am free, when do you get off work, I will go to you, in your convenient place. I said on QQ before that I would come to see you, if you don't have a location in mind, then I'll wait for you in the shopping park! The other party's tone is calm and the words are secondary, which doesn't seem to be a joke at all.

Xiaotang vaguely recalled that the two had a conversation on the Internet a few months ago, and he didn't want the other party to pay so much attention to it, and he was blushing and embarrassed for a while.

"Uh...... Do you see anything about me? Xiaotang asked quietly.

"I want to have a face-to-face interview, half an hour is fine, maybe not half an hour. If you don't feel at ease with me, find a public street or an open-air coffee shop, or a restaurant with a lot of customers, I just want to see you once, and I won't bother you for too long. The words word by word are full of compelling friendship, which threatens Xiaotang.

Xiaotang had never seen such a straightforward one, and she knew from the other party's tone that she couldn't hide, in order to end the knot early or send this person away, she replied: "I'll send you a position, I'll go over after work." ”

So, don't hang up.

In the second half of the panic, my mind was full of the mysterious man who came from afar to see me. Why did he not have any manly popularity in the ten years when he was like a narcissus blooming at the age of twenty, but now that he has passed thirty early and has decided not to be stained with red dust and settle down with fate, he has peach blossom luck everywhere. Xiaotang was happy and helpless, and she was also full of curiosity about the person who was full of interest in her.

At half past six in the evening, after getting off work, Bao Xiaotang walked towards a Starbucks café near the company, which was the place she had set, familiar and safe. When she arrived, she didn't rush in, but hid in a women's clothing store next to the coffee shop. Through the clear glass of the women's clothing store, she visited Starbucks, during which she messaged the person asking if he had arrived and what he was wearing. After seeing the man's back, the woman was worried, and the back was a little handsome and handsome, and some were thin and hearty. Frankly speaking, she has long lost interest in people who are looking for a partner through online dating, and she is not even interested in making friends or getting to know her, but staring at the four words "not seeing or leaving" that frequently appear in the dialog box, she is a little shaken and inexplicably moved.

After some struggle, the woman mustered up the courage to walk towards the back of the coffee shop.

"Hello! I'm Drunken Begonia, are you the ......" Bao Xiaotang walked up to the man nervously, and then reported his QQ name.

"Yes, yes, yes! A walk in the rain is me, please sit! The man of 1.78 meters stood up and pulled a chair for Bao Xiaotang.

After the two sat down, they walked in the rain and ordered coffee for Bao Xiaotang, and the two looked at each other tacitly between the coffees. Walking in the rain and seeing the drunken sun begonia (Bao Xiaotang's screen name), with long vertical and supple hair, a pale yellow princess dress, a red thin belt, and white sneakers, was instantly hit by a fresh breath emanating from the beauty opposite. Looking at it carefully, with red lips and white teeth, a steep nose, thick eyebrows and big eyes, and a goose egg face, the secular man is like a fairy for a while, consciously fluttering, the corners of his mouth are upturned, and his body moves back. On a whim, I recruited the clerk to order an extra star-rated light meal.

"You're so much prettier than the photos in your space!" Walking in the rain is heartfelt.

"I was young, I didn't know how to wear makeup." Xiaotang smiled slightly, it was really like a drunken begonia.

"I like your screen name very much, I have been following you, and I often look at your space, which is a literary atmosphere."

"Ah...... Actually, I stopped playing QQ for a long time. ”

"I sent a lot of messages and you didn't reply, guessed."

"I'm sorry."

"It's okay, there are indeed a lot fewer people playing QQ now."

After the clerk brought coffee and light meals, the two of them drank their own coffee. Xiaotang also took the opportunity to sneak a glimpse of strolling in the rain, slightly thin, very white skin, wearing black loose pants and a Chinese jacket on the upper body. The man's fleshy round face wore a pair of black-rimmed glasses, the temples of which were obscured by his hair. That's right, the man opposite has long Jackie Chan-like hair, a conspicuous appearance, a charming demeanor, and is full of artist's style. Bao Xiaotang was drinking coffee while searching for useful information about this person in his mind, who wants to have a white snow in his head. When the typhoon came a few months ago, the two of them did have a hot chat, and they talked about some personal situations with each other during the period, but Xiaotang didn't care at all and forgot about it. After seven or eight minutes of silence, the man spoke first.

"It may be a little presumptuous, but I still want to express that through the photos, texts, moods, articles, forwards, etc. you posted in the space, I think I fit your three views quite well, so I want to ask in person, is it possible for us to make friends?" The man stretched out his hands and smiled at Xiaotang and talked eloquently, not shy at all, as if he was talking about business.

"Haha......" Xiaotang was defenseless, laughed awkwardly, almost squirted out the coffee in his mouth, coughed a few times, cleared his throat and said: "The things in the space are what I sent casually, and I don't know what I sent." We...... Just chatting a little bit on QQ, I don't know anything about you or you about me, what's possible? ”

"Hmm...... In that case, let me introduce myself first. My name is Lian Chuanxing, a native of Hebei, a few years older than you. I used to be a sketch teacher at a fashion design college in Tianjin, but now I quit my job at the school and went to Dafen Village to paint full-time for a large oil painting export company. It was the largest oil painting export company in China, and it was very strong, and many of my friends worked as full-time painters there. ”

"Oh!" Xiaotang saw that the person in front of him was a painter, he was surprised for a while, couldn't close his mouth, and nodded.

"I've compared all the information between the two of us, and I think we're destined...... Please forgive me for being more direct, after all, at this age, you can understand. I think we are very compatible in terms of appearance, personality, life concept, and family concept, and now that I have come to Shenzhen, I can often meet and make phone calls in the future, go out on weekends, and check in Shenzhen's scenic spots......"

The other party's directness frightened Bao Xiaotang, and she interrupted the other party unconfidently: "What kind of character do I have...... Sometimes it's hard for me to figure it out myself, how can you be so sure you know me? ”

"I think the personality can slowly merge, that ...... You are so beautiful, your facial features are so exquisite, you must also hope to find a person with good conditions and suitable aspects as soon as possible to get married and live together, I think my conditions - material, spiritual, and talented - can meet you. "Walking in the rain with your chin slightly raised.

"I didn't think about ...... early Maybe I thought about it before, but now my mind has changed, completely changed. Xiaotang's smile was lost, a little serious.

"It's okay, I'm sure you'll recognize me or accept me after we get to know each other for a while. If you've seen my work, you'll be overwhelmed by me as a person, and maybe even take the initiative to be my model. In the future, when we are together, you will not have to work so hard, you can raise flowers at home and do maintenance, drink coffee with friends, go shopping, accompany me to art exhibitions, and go to auctions to meet customers...... Didn't you say that you are taking a self-exam, in fact, you don't have to work so hard, my friend teaches in a prestigious university, you can go to their school to study......" The man said wildly.

"Wait! Let me ask first, do you know me? Xiaotang smiled wryly and interrupted again.

"Didn't we talk? You like to travel abroad, you like Paris, you like painting and calligraphy, you say you want to find someone to marry you early, you say you've only been in love once......"

"I'm sorry to interrupt you again, but I have to tell you very bluntly that a lot of our chats are just random words that I have typed out while lying in bed, and I probably don't know what I said at the time or whether what I said was reliable. I didn't mean to lie to you, and I never thought we'd meet. Bao Xiaotang stretched his neck to declare.

"It's okay, I met today and I'm very satisfied. Not to mention that you are so sincere and frank, few girls do this. ”

"Huh...... Thank you for your review! What do you like about me before you see me honest and candid today, after I told you that our chat was a pastime? Bao Xiaotang asked.

"Hah! Of course it's beautiful! You are so naturally beautiful, you can't hide it like gold. I think any man will have his eyes lit up when he sees you. "The man crossed his fingers, very self-satisfied, as if he was confident.

"You've finally gotten to the point." Bao Xiaotang smirked, his heart sank, and he realized the strong shame of Israel's servants.

"You ...... me Any questions? The man asked loudly with his hands outstretched.

"No problem."

"I think we're a little nervous about our conversation, maybe it's better to change the environment, and I'll treat you to Japanese food in the evening!" Walking in the rain was completely conquered by Bao Xiaotang's appearance, and his eyes couldn't leave each other's faces at all.

"No need." Xiaotang just wants to leave at the moment, but he is worried that men will always be entangled in the future.

Looking at the ceiling, thinking for a moment, after a few sips of coffee, Bao Xiaotang changed his sitting posture and said sincerely: "Since you like me so much, and I am so sincere and frank, then I will also introduce myself!" Don't you think it's too hasty to be so eager to date me before you know who I am, if I'm single, if I'm married? ”

Swallowing her saliva, the woman raised her head and sneered: "When you knew me, I was thirty-two, and now, I am thirty-three years old. Let me tell you about my relationship experience this year, at the end of last year I fell in love with someone, it was that person who fell in love with me first, and it didn't take long for us to live together, and in the early summer of this year I was beaten in public by his wife, and then was kicked out of his company. I knew you after I lost my job, because it was so lonely to be alone at that time. It was also at that time that I found out that I was pregnant, pregnant with that person's child. At last...... At last...... Knocked out! Soon I fell in love with a man who was three years younger than me, and who, like you, was in good condition, handsome, and talked extraordinarily, but that man was a liar, a professional liar! Not only did he cheat me out of a lot of money, but he tricked me into getting laid! Hahaha...... Now that I'm back at work, there's another man rushing to chase me, and because it's a company, I can't say no. You said...... If he knew that I had been a junior, beaten by my original partner, had an abortion, or been deceived by a liar, would he still chase me? Hehehe......"

Seeing that the other party's face changed greatly and his body stiffened, Xiaotang continued lightly: "You are a painter, this rare profession should be respected by the public, but I ...... you You don't know anything about me, and you're so passionate about me, I can't find a second reason other than trying to trick me into getting laid. Put on your ring, the wedding ring is still there! ”

After Bao Xiaotang finished speaking, he smiled bitterly and pointed to the other party's ring finger, then took a big sip of coffee freely, stood up and said with a smile after drinking: "Goodbye!" With that, the woman left the table.

But when she turned her back to the man, when she walked through the crowd to the door, who saw her face full of tears falling like heavy rain from the sky.

Bao Xiaotang's back was just seen by his colleague Ren Sixuan. Ren Sixuan, who often comes to the coffee shop to replenish energy, didn't see the whole process, and only looked at the female colleague's tearful face but pretending to be calm and calm, which was particularly distressing. Feelings, it's really a grinding thing, Ren Sixuan looked at the man sitting at the table with Xiaotang, and secretly congratulated himself that he was a lonely man and neat, so he didn't have to be hindered by these grinding things, and at the same time, he couldn't help but laugh at women for being really wrong and unprovoked.

After walking in the rain and drinking coffee, he left Nanshan District, and never looked for Bao Xiaotang again, and even deleted the drunken begonia from the address book. Men themselves are filthy, but when they see a woman with a handle or an unclean woman, they see her as dirty and inferior.

If he hadn't been deceived, how would Bao Xiaotang recognize the evil of a married man to a simple girl - on the one hand, he carefully shows his loyalty to his wife at home, and on the other hand, he fishes for young and ignorant girls when he is free outside; On the one hand, he shows off his love for his wife through various manners, and on the other hand, he enthusiastically praises the virtues of other girls in their beds.

Sven scum can be so suave, it's ridiculous, I've never experienced such a ridiculous thing. At ten o'clock in the evening, Bao Xiaoxing was still angry in his chest. She was angry that she shouldn't have made people look down on her and herself, that the man was hateful, disgusting, and had evil thoughts, that she was angry that she always ran into rotten egg-like men, and that she was angry that she was still suffering this kind of sin at the age of thirty-three......

What a person is concerned with constitutes his whole world; When there is nothing in his eyes, then his world is blank; When what he focuses on disappears, then his world collapses. Therefore, Bao Xiaotang reflected, why does his world always attract such men? Is it because you are not religious, pure, or strong enough? She was disgusted with the current self who always invisibly attracted bad men.

Women should beware of those who give them glory and pride, for misery will come when those no longer give. Bao Xiaotang thinks that she is physically and mentally independent and inviolable, but she will still be hurt by people who praise her and covet her, even if she doesn't know that person at all. Together, these hateful people form something called society, which invisibly shapes her, oppresses her, and destroys her. In a haze, tears soaked the pillow towel, Bao Xiaotang didn't want to move or end the tearful state, she seemed to have returned to a few months ago, unable to control herself.

What a painful feeling it is to hate yourself. After crying for a long time in the dark night, Bao Xiaotang gradually calmed down in a daze. After calming down, his consciousness seemed to have returned to that time - when Cheng Xiaosan was rumored, when he was publicly slapped by Li Zhiquan's wife, when he was deceived by Zhu Haotian and was about to collapse, when he ruthlessly beat the child and couldn't sleep all night long...... The joy of life can be shared, but the suffering cannot be. People can't relate to the grief of others unless they experience it themselves.