186 Once you loved me, but now you are gathered together and dispersed
The address given by Han Mo was a nearby hotel, and Xue Jiaying sent me over and left, and she had to talk about my new album.
Even the driver was taken away, and she obviously knew that between me and Han Mo, five minutes would not be resolved.
Xue Jiaying was right, she said that I was escaping reality.
I was really running away, I thought that if I didn't go to see Han Mo, I wouldn't have to face many things.
But now I realized that I was too naΓ―ve, and I wanted to escape, but Han Mo didn't give me any chance to escape.
The lobby of the hotel is magnificent, which is very much in line with Han Mo's taste.
He was born into a rich family, and he picks the best in everything.
I just don't understand how he was willing to wronged himself back then to gnaw on such a "seven-colored flower" as me.
With a "ding" sound, the elevator door slowly opened, and I stood aside and waited for someone to come out before I raised my legs and walked in.
At this time, there were a lot of people in the elevator, and I pulled on my hat and looked down at the ground, not daring to look up at all.
A long hallway, a particular suite is always different.
As long as I got out of the elevator and kept going, the penultimate room was the room number Han Mo gave me.
Han Mo seems to have his own suite in these big hotels, I knocked on the door and he opened, and when he saw me, he moved, I raised my hand to close the door, and looked at him expressionlessly: "What do you have to say to me."
I never felt that there was anything else to say between me and Han Mo, you were willing to do it back then, and now it is a merit to get together and disperse.
His face sank, he didn't speak, turned around and walked in, and showed me a paternity test result on the table: "Xu Ran's child is not mine, but the Xu family does not allow me to make this matter public."
He raised his hand and pressed his temple, probably not sleeping much all night, the tiredness on his face was very obvious, and the dark circles under those beautiful eyes were very thick.
I glanced down at the report that he had stuffed into his hand, walked up to the table step by step, put it on it, and then raised my head to look at him: "This matter has nothing to do with me, if you want to say that this is the thing, then, I know, I still have something, go first."
I didn't want to do any more stops, even though it was only for five minutes.
Now that his purpose has been achieved, my duty has also been fulfilled, so I can leave.
But Han Mo has never been an easy person to deal with, I know, I always know.
If he hadn't said anything before I walked out of this room, I think I would have been lucky today.
It's just that the truth is always the opposite, my luck today is average, no luck in winning the lottery.
As soon as he walked to the entrance, he pulled him back, and finally pressed against the wall, and was tightly buckled by him, "Xu Ran's child is not mine, did you hear it, Fu Yao!" β
He looked at me, and the bloodshot in his eyes was very obvious.
I have a peaceful face, probably I have seen it too many times, and now that I am pressed by him like this, I am rarely at peace.
"I hear you, so you can let me go."
"What the hell do you want! I won't remarry Xu Ran, I haven't touched her, her child is not mine, what else do you want! β
He looked at me, sentence by sentence, loud as loud as the whole room.
I suddenly remembered that when he was pressed against this wall, it was me who was screaming hysterically, but I didn't expect that after five or six years, the positions between us were reversed.
But now I look at him, and I don't know what to say.
I really don't know what to say.
"You speak, Fu Yao, why are you talking to me!"
I swallowed and looked at him in a daze, "What do you want me to say?"
What to say?
I'm not the same Fu Yao I used to be, and I don't need to say what I want to say, because I know that it will only make him even more angry.
"Fu Yao, don't look at me like this."
Suddenly, he reached out and covered my eyes, and the warmth of his palms made my eyes a little hot.
I thought I could really be very calm when I faced Han Mo again, but it wasn't until his hand covered my eyes that I knew I couldn't do it.
In the blink of an eye, all the camouflage was punctured.
Han Mo raised his hand and hugged me into his arms, hugging me so hard, I finally confirmed that the person he was hugging was me this time.
"Fu Yao, shall we get back together?"
He put one hand on my back and the other on the back of my head, and I couldn't move at all.
With my eyes not blocked by his palm, I looked at the snow-white wall in front of me and smiled, "Have we ever been together, Han Mo?"
"I never knew when we were together, from the beginning to the end, our relationship was only a real deal. You give me money and I'll go to bed with you, don't you? β
It turns out that it is so easy to say, I never want to admit it, but after so many years, there is still no way to subvert this fact.
Han Mo said to start over, but we have never started, where did we start again?
He hugged me for a moment, and the hand that was pressing on my back tightened: "You haven't used me a penny, Fu Yao!"
"But I've used your connections."
How ironic, I tried my best to end up like this.
You see, this is the truest relationship between me and Han Mo.
"You said Han Mo at the beginning, I'll follow you. In the world of those of you, following a person is not a relationship of support, is it still a relationship of support? β
"Enough! This is all in the past! β
He let go of me, grabbed my shoulders with both hands, and stared at me deadly.
I blinked my eyes and let the tears that were in my eyes come out, "Then what do you want me to say?"
"What do you want? What the hell do you want?! β
I raised my hand and pushed him away, looking up at Han Mo in front of me, and my emotions were a little out of control: "I don't want to do anything, I just want to be you and I want to be at the beginning, and now it's good to get together and disperse."
"Don't you think! Fu Yao, don't think about it! β
He reached out and grabbed me, clasped my hands behind me, and forced me to press against the wall again, looking down at me with the same cruelty in his eyes as he had begged him not to touch me that night.
"And what do you want me to do? You've always been like this, seven years ago you forced me to follow you, and now you're forcing me to follow you! Han Mo, what else are you going to do besides forcing me?! β
He looked at me with a slightly pale face, and the two of us were in a stalemate, neither of us spoke.
I don't know how long it took before he let go of a hand and raised his hand to wipe the tears on my face: "Fu Yao, forget what happened before, okay?" I don't want to push you, but you don't want to push me either, okay? β
I didn't expect to be able to hear Han Mo asking my opinion in my lifetime, I really didn't expect it.
I have always felt that people like Han Mo have always been the only one who listens to him, where will he listen to you.
Now when he asks me if I'm okay, I find it ironic.
"Why didn't you ask me when you pushed me to Jiang Feiyi back then? Why do you say I want to love you when you love me, do you think everyone will be waiting for you in the same place? Sorry I won't! β
Don't call me hypocritical, really don't call me me.
You never understand how a person goes from disappointment to despair, to fear, and then to complete death.
It took me a full seven years, from the beginning to the present.
I don't deny that I love Han Mo, but the most important thing in love, in addition to love, is passion.
I really feel tired, as long as I see Han Mo, I will think of that child back then, and the first few years between me and him were all painful.
As soon as I closed my eyes, I thought of the humiliation of him holding me to the floor of the box, not of him escorting me out of the fire.
I admit that there have been good times between me and him, such as everything that the woman who was used by Xu Ran did to me back then, when he took me to settle accounts after the autumn.
But there are too few of them, and it is a desperate thing for us to pull out the hysterical games directly; But those beautiful and warm pasts, but I have to work hard to recall to be able to discover: Oh, it turns out that in those years of pulling, he also used to warm me like this.
This is like the relationship between the full moon and the stars, when the moon is full, there will be fewer stars in the sky; But when there are many stars in the sky, the moon will be hard to find.
There are too many stars between me and him, and the moon is too hard to find.
He looked at me, and his whole body was shaking: "Fu Yao, why are you so ruthless."
I closed my eyes and didn't look at him.
He said I was ruthless, but who could be more ruthless than him.
No matter how ruthless I am, it's just a little bit of weaving that he gave me back then.
"Han Mo, I'm not ruthless, I'm just scared."
I was scared, so I backed down.
I clasped his hand, "You let me go." β
This is good for everyone, why does the lover have to end up with a lose-lose situation.
What's more, we're not lovers yet.
He let go, but he held me tightly, as if holding me like this, I wouldn't go.
"Fu Yao, I love you."
My hand was in front of his chest, tugging at the distance between the two men, and I looked up, and the ceiling I was staring at was also white.
I pursed my lips and tears ran down my cheeks on his collarbone.
He opened his mouth and called my name: "Fu Yao, I love you, really."
I took a slight breath, looked at the white swaying ceiling and said word by word: "Han Mo, that Fu Yao, who wanted to be with you even when he was a junior, was sent away by you personally, and now even I can't find myself."