It's not that I have to let Zhao Xu make a choice, but fate has to make me a choice.

I don't care about myself, but children are my bottom line.

Fu Yao said, Zhao Miao, you and Zhao Xu are together, no matter what, but if you have a child, you must be selfish.

I know that Fu Yao's mother is a junior, and she rarely mentions her past to me, but I also know that a junior child will not have a good life.

Therefore, I want to be selfish and selfishly force Zhao Xu to make a choice.

"Are you pregnant?"

This is his reaction to me, surprised, surprised, before I could react, Zhao Xu hugged me.

"Miao Miao."

A man of more than 1.8 meters hugged me like a child.

When I looked at him, I only felt sour in my heart, and the discomfort in my eyes became more and more obvious.

In the end, I still raised my hand and pushed him away: "Zhao Xu, I'm pregnant!" Did you hear that? I don't want my children to be nameless, you know what I mean? ”

Fame, for me, is just a passing thing.

But now it's different, I can be with him without a name, but my children can't be brought into this world by me without a name.

Every newborn life deserves to be treated fairly, not by the prejudices of the world.

He probably hadn't seen me so hysterical out of control, and he looked at me a little stunned, and only after a while did he cautiously reach out and try to pull me, but I opened it.

He didn't try to touch me again, and we just looked at each other half a meter apart.

Halfway through, he spoke: "I know, Miao Miao, you give me some time, you give me some time!"

I raised my head, looked at the dark sky, raised my hand to wipe my face, and then smiled: "Okay, I'll give you time, Zhao Xu, I'm eight weeks pregnant, the doctor suggested that I take it off within twelve weeks, you think for yourself."

It was the first time I said it so harshly, and it was the first time that he looked at me with such confused and sad eyes.

But what can I do?

I can't do anything, I just want to give my own children a chance to come into this world in the open.

If not, then, I'd rather he never came into this world.

"It's not early, I'll go back first."

He stood there, seemingly unreacting to my words for a long time.

That night I had a dream when I first met Zhao Xu.

I woke up in the middle of the night, and the cold air from the unclosed window was like ice, and I got up and walked to the window, only to find that the snow was falling heavily under the street lamp outside.

When Zhao Xu called me, I had just finished class and walked out of the classroom.

It was a week before he called me.

The answer is already obvious, whatever the reason, he gave up on me.

I knew, I always knew that, so I never wanted to embarrass him.

He said, "My mom is sick."

Just four words, but I already know his choice.

"I see."

I always knew that I was just making a fool of myself.

The moment the call fell, I walked the last staircase.

Fu Yao held the umbrella and looked up at me with some concern: "Miao Miao, are you okay?"

I'm fine, what can I do.

I'm just going to get rid of my own children.

But in this world, some things are just so coincidental.

Before I even had time to do anything to him, he left me first.

The moment I fell, I knew that there was no going back.

The phone was on the couch in the living room, and I wanted to make a call to get someone to save me. But the pain was like peeling flesh away, and I could clearly feel the blood flowing from the base of my thigh, and the strength seemed to be drained away, and I couldn't even scream.

I felt like I was going to die, and I gradually gave up on those powerless struggles.

Maybe this is the best ending, none of us have to worry about anything anymore, fate will arrange it for us.

If it weren't for Fu Yao, I think I would really die.

But I'm not dead, my children are gone.

The moment I knew I was pregnant, I had shamefully fantasized about what it would be like to be a mother many times.

Maybe I'm scrambling, maybe I'm panicking, but I think that one more flesh and blood relative in my life will bring it all down.

When I woke up, Fu Yao sat in front of my hospital bed, cautious, and didn't dare to say a word.

What kind of person is she, looking at me now, but she doesn't dare to say a word.

I thought I should say something to reassure her, or tell her that it would be okay, that I didn't want this child in the first place.

Anyway, few people want him to come to this world, so it's better to leave like this.

But as soon as the corners of my mouth moved, I found that I could not say anything as if I had lost my voice.

It's really a coincidence, I actually stayed in the same hospital as Zhao Xu's mother.

I guess Zhao Xu didn't expect that when I met him and Gao Minyi supporting his mother, I was standing in front of them, and I didn't even have a chance to hide.

Sometimes, fate just likes to play tricks on people.

I thought the worst of the pain was over, but I never thought that there would be such a thing as rubbing salt on the wound.

Zhao Xu obviously didn't expect to see me, or he didn't expect to see me in the hospital, wearing a hospital gown.

He rushed forward and pulled me by the hand, "What's wrong with you?" ”

I looked at him sideways and just thought it was funny: "What's wrong with me?" I don't know what's wrong with me. ”

As I spoke, I raised my hand and pulled his hand away.

Behind him, Zhao Xu's mother was so angry that her whole body was trembling: "Zhao Xu, you come back for me!"

I ignored them and walked forward step by step, and I knew that my heart was really dead.

Zhao Xu behind me called "Mom", I didn't look back, I didn't know what happened behind me, I just walked forward step by step, and I didn't know where I went.

Later, when I saw a chair, I felt a little tired, so I couldn't help but sit down.

There were two nurses chatting next to him: "Well, do you know the 45?"

"You know, what's wrong? I've seen the woman's son, and he's quite temperamental. ”

"Don't think about you! People have fiancées, do you know the Zhao family? The Zhao family in City A, although it is not as good as the Han and Jiang families, but they are also everyone, how rich! ”

"Huh, then why are you asking me?"

"You don't know that, do you? I heard that Mrs. Zhao was not sick at all, but Zhao Gongzi fell in love with a woman in the night market and wanted to break the marriage contract with the Gao family, but Mrs. Zhao didn't agree, so she pretended to be sick! ”

"Pretending to be sick? No way?! ”

"Shhhh Be quiet! Don't let anyone hear you! ”

"What are you afraid of, who is there at this time!"

"Alright, alright, it's time for me to go rounds!"

"I also have to go and see what Dr. Huang has to say, let's go first!"

The two of them left as they talked, leaving me sitting alone, not knowing whether it was better to cry or laugh.

"Zhao Miao."

Zhao Xu's voice came, I raised my head, and saw that he didn't know when he was standing in front of me.

I suddenly remembered the words of the two nurses just now, and couldn't help laughing: "Did you hear Zhao Xu?" Did you hear your mom pretending to be sick?! ”

He looked at me with a very bad face, but he never answered my question: "How did you get into the hospital?"

His eyes kept falling on my hospital gown, I followed his gaze and glanced down at my hospital gown, and laughed directly, laughing and laughing, tears came out.

"I didn't do much, I just had a miscarriage."

Zhao Xu's face turned white directly, and he looked at me with a look of disbelief: "Miscarriage - how-"

I have never been so tired, and stood up holding on to the wall: "Zhao Xu, let's just do it, let's get together and disperse, anyway, there is no involvement at all in the end, and it is good to break it cleanly."

"No-Zhao Miao, listen to me, I won't marry Gao Minyi! You don't-"

I looked back at him, my whole face was cold: "Zhao Xu, you have said this many times, I don't want to hear it anymore."

I know he meant it, but I also knew that I would always be second compared to his mother.

I don't want to fight for anything, because I don't want to fight for anything, so I don't want anything.

"Zhao Miao, don't treat me like this, I love you, I love you!"

He had always had more strength than me, and he pulled me back, and I didn't resist at all.

Zhao Xu hugged me with so much strength, the cheeks were against my sideburns, and when the hot tears fell, my whole body was stiff.

But soon, I reacted and raised my hand to push him: "You let go of me, Zhao Xu!"

"Zhao Xu!"

As soon as my words fell, Gao Minyi's voice came.

"Zhao Xu, let go!"

I clasped his fingers, one by one.

But he's like a child who is dragging his beloved model, and he just doesn't want to let go.

"Mom had a heart attack, and this time it's real."

Zhao Xu, who was holding me, stiffened for a moment, and just like that, I raised my hand and pushed him away directly.

He raised his leg and wanted to chase after him, I looked back at him, and the whole person was cold: "Zhao Xu, don't force me to hate you."

"Miao Miao—"

He looked at me, his eyes red, but his steps didn't go any further, his hands hanging at his sides, his great arteries in his neck tense.

The gaze that fell on me was like a nail in the eye, with pleading and pity.

It's a pity that everything is too late.

I withdrew my gaze, raised my hand to wipe away my tears, and walked forward step by step

Gao Minyi's voice behind him was not big or small, but it was enough for me to hear clearly: "Zhao Xu, my mother really fainted, and now she is rescuing, you go back with me!"

"Let's go, she won't turn back Zhao Xu, come with me, Mom is rescuing!"

I walked farther and farther until I couldn't hear anything, and I knew that Zhao Xu and I would never go back.