My life is still the same as before, working hard for money.

When my mother called me and told me that my second brother was sick, I finally couldn't help but burst out, "I don't have any money when I'm sick!" That's your own son, you can't raise it yourself, why do you have to take care of me? If you dare to call me every month, I won't even give you the 4,000 yuan!" ”

"What are you talking about, Zhao Miao? The pork guy in the next village said that he still wanted to buy Niuniu, but this time he gave a big price, 30,000 yuan! ”

I couldn't help but sneer, in the past two years, the money I sent back to them was more than 30,000 yuan?

"Then you can sell it, I won't give you a penny in the future!"

After saying that, I hung up the phone directly.

In the past six months with Zhao Xu, I have never eaten or worn anything short, let alone 4,000 yuan a month, even if it is 40,000 yuan a month, I can take it out.

So I didn't think about it so much when my mother proposed to me to add money, and now I know that they probably are holding on to my sympathy and pity for Niuniu.

I dropped my phone on the wall, and Fu Yao came in and asked me what was wrong.

I shook my head and lay on the bed looking at the white ceiling above me.

I don't know why people who want to survive in this world have to live so hard.

Fu Yao went out with Han Mo again, in fact, I really envy her, she can carry her better than me. As a person who can't see the light of day with Han Mo, she has never had half of her feelings.

Where like me, from the beginning, was a moth to a fire.

But I also know that the fire is too big, and if I continue like this, I will burn myself out sooner or later.

Zhao Xu called once, this is the second month after I separated from him, in the middle of the night, he didn't say a word, and he didn't hang up the phone with his phone.

But I knew it was him, even though the caller ID on it was just a string of numbers.

I don't know why I didn't hang up, I held the phone and was silent until later, when the sound of the car engine came downstairs, I raised my hand and hung up the phone, then turned it off and stuffed it under the pillow.

Now that I've made my decision, I don't want to turn back.

Fu Yao has always done a good job of this, just like Su Zheyuan.

I knew that she liked Su Zheyuan, but she never said it, and even if Su Zheyuan said that she liked her, she could insist on refusing like that.

But I didn't have Fu Yao's determination or courage like her, so I escaped a call from Zhao Xu, but I couldn't escape him.

At first, I thought that Zhao Xu and I would be like this, just like that, no one should contact anyone anymore, and slowly, after a long time, everything will be settled.

I always thought so, but it wasn't until he came to my school to look for me that I realized that I could never be cruel to this man.

I've struggled, and I've said a lot of embarrassing things in the struggle, but when he hugged me, I felt like I was stuck in a quagmire, and I couldn't get out.

"Zhao Miao, I'm sorry, but I can't do it, I can't do it."

He hugged me, and all the words he said hit me in the face, it was the first time I heard Zhao Xu say such helpless and compromising words to me.

Zhao Xu's personality is different from Han Mo's, it is because of his personality that I know that I should make a choice, not wait for him to choose.

He's like that, he's used to listening to everything at home and to his parents.

The marriage with Gao Minyi was agreed three years ago, and the two families had already discussed it. He didn't like anyone back then, Gao Minyi was his childhood sweetheart next door for more than ten years, although Zhao Xu resisted such a marriage, but his mother went to the hospital because of this incident, and Zhao Xu directly relented the next day.

Zhao Xu's biggest stubbornness has been used on me, he has asked me more than once, can it be like this, two people live a good life?

I could, but I knew he couldn't.

I, Zhao Miao, am alone, I have nothing, I can put everything down.

But Zhao Xu couldn't let go of anything, I didn't know that he was sincere when he said he loved me, and he was sincere when he said that he wanted to leave with me.

But I also know that if one day, his parents make a mistake because of me and him, it will be a gap that I will never be able to bridge between me and him for the rest of my life.

But now, he hugged me like a child who had been robbed of his beloved toy, and told me aggrieved and sad that he couldn't do it.

I couldn't do it, and even though I knew it was an abyss, I couldn't pull back from the precipice.

I knew I lost, from the time I said the word "yes" to Zhao Xu at the beginning, I lost, and it was a mess.

Fu Yao looked at me and Zhao Xu, and wanted to speak and stopped several times, but many times he stayed in the middle of wanting to speak and stopping.

She and I are not very blessed people, especially on the road of love.

We all understand a lot of truths, but we can't do it, but it's another thing.

I always knew what the problem was between the two of us, and Zhao Xu knew it, but both of us tacitly agreed not to mention it.

After getting back together, Zhao Xu can't wait to move the whole world to me, in the past, he only looked for me three or four times a week, but now he comes to me almost every day.

In winter, it gets dark early, and Fu Yao and I sometimes get out of class when it's already dark, and when it's snowing, he stands on the side of the car and waits for me.

"Are you stupid, you won't wait inside the car when it's warm?"

That's the question I've asked him several times, but every time he just smiles, "I'm afraid you won't see me, it's dark." ”

For the first time, I found myself so sharp-tongued that I couldn't say anything to him.

"Miao Miao, I will break off the marriage contract with Minyi."

This is what he said to me three months before he and Gao Minyi got married, and I know that he must have meant it when he said it.

It's just that in this world, the most terrifying thing is time.

Zhao Xu himself probably didn't expect it, but in just one month, everything has changed.

The weather was very good on the day Zhao Xu's mother asked me, she was in a high-end French restaurant, her face was wearing exquisite makeup, she was wearing a handmade cheongsam, and her slender fingers were pinching knives and forks, and every stroke was declaring her nobility and elegance.

It's not like me, it's nothing but a little pretty.

"Miss Zhao."

She opened her mouth to call me, and the voice was so high that even if I was standing, I was still pressed by her as she sits.

I nodded, sat down across from her, and she reached out and handed me the menu, all in French, and I couldn't read a single letter.

"Oh, I'm sorry, I forgot, Miss Zhao can't read French."

Her casual words were just as obvious as the sneer at the corner of her mouth.

If she wasn't Zhao Xu's mother, I would definitely be able to resist it.

Fu Yao once asked me what Zhao Xu's mother said to me and why my face was so pale that night.

In fact, I remember every word she said, but every word.

"Zhao Miao, just like you, a person who would be embarrassed to even come to a high-end restaurant for a meal, do you think you are worthy of our Zhao family? That is, Xiao Xu is young, playful, and thinks your uneducated is cute. In the future, he will find out what a superficial and vulgar person his wife is, and you are with Xiao Xu now just for money. Your mom asked you for money again this month, right? And your roommate, what Fu Yao, thought that if you hugged such a big tree as Han Shao, would you be able to come sideways? ”

She took a bite of the dish as she spoke, and only looked at me for a while before continuing to speak: "But you people, that is, a little bit interesting in the past few years, our Zhao family does not allow you people to come in and stir up, and I won't say much else, this is three million, don't let Zhao Xu look for you in the future."

I didn't say a word the whole time.

I think I should endure it, after all, she is Zhao Xu's mother.

But in addition to her words, she was so bitter and mean that people were embarrassed, and she even scolded Fu Yao.

At the beginning, Fu Yao provoked Han Mo for me, but now she is worse than death, but she said this about Fu Yao.

My hand holding the knife and fork was shaking, but in two seconds, I directly broke the red wine in front of me and poured it in her face: "Thank you, I will!"

With that, I took the check for the three million and walked out step by step.

This is what I deserve, this is what Zhao Xu owes me.

But when I walked out, I couldn't help crying when the snowflakes covered the sky.

Tears flowed down from the corners of my eyes, like pouring into my heart, drowning me to suffocate.

I know what I shouldn't do, but I also know that between me and Zhao Xu, it shouldn't start.

When I saw Zhao Xu, I knew that I should really be resolute this time.

Zhao Xu stood downstairs at my house, smoking a cigarette, the black hair on his head was almost covered with snow, and he frowned when he saw me: "Zhao Miao."

He called me, his voice muffled and deep.

I looked at him and suddenly smiled: "When will you and Gao Minyi break off the engagement?"

He was stunned for a moment, but instead of answering my question, he asked another question: "Is my mother looking for you?"

I suddenly remembered what Zhao Xu told me more than a month ago, and I couldn't help but laugh, laughing and laughing, and I felt that my eyes were starting to get hot again.

He looked at me, and the eyes under the lenses became more and more puzzled.

I didn't answer his question, I just looked up at him in a daze: "I'm pregnant."