After signing up, I recently put my heart and soul into the driving school driving learning course.

In the morning, I was tidying up the cabinet and accidentally found the diary of my husband when he was in the army.

The mood that had just calmed down a little, with the ups and downs of fate between the lines of Mr., was thrown into the whirlpool of sadness again.

Several times interrupted because tears blurred his eyes, crying for a while, looking at it for a while, tears wet the pages of Mr.'s diary.

From the diary, I saw my young husband, a very motivated soldier. This was the beginning of a turning point in his fortunes when he was promoted to a medical examination in the army, when he was only twenty-three years old.

The sky-blue diary cover has a red Tiananmen pattern on the top of the refracted light, and the words "Dongfang Hong" on the bottom.

Each diary begins with a quote from Chairman Mao, followed by the content of Mr.'s diary.

"My diary should become a diary of learning and using Mao's thoughts, assiduously transforming my worldview, and recording my own growth and progress...... It is a record of my life, but also my silent friend, the camera I carry with me, the endorsement of thoughts, the portrayal of feelings, the unloading of baggage, and the exposure of my heart...... I want to write with an indomitable will that is not afraid of difficulties and tiredness, and I will always write and write, and my life will never stop. Communist Party members who are loyal to Chairman Mao have such determination,...... I'm going to write my diary with my life and blood...... This is my diary"......

This is the foreword to the diary of a gentleman, and a handsome young soldier with great ideals and full of vitality flashed before my eyes.

Each diary records the life, study, and training of Mr. in the army, a young man with a pure mind without the slightest impurity, his father is seriously ill in the hospital, in order not to affect his work, he chose not to go home. Because of his excellent work, his superiors considered preparing to promote him.

Who would have thought that at this juncture, he was diagnosed with hepatitis. This undoubtedly gave him a blow to the head, and he wrote down his fears, doubts, and sorrows in his diary:

Chairman Mao's quotations

The world is yours and ours, but ultimately yours is yours. You young people are full of vigor and prosperity, like the sun at eight or nine o'clock, and hope is pinned on you. …… The world belongs to you, and China's future belongs to you.

One of the most likely things for me is to destroy my youth and affect my life

It may require me to work in Corey for a long time, and the day before yesterday I was called to the health team for a check-up. Today, a comrade from the health team told me to go to "368" for a follow-up examination, and said that I might have hepatitis.

Will I have hepatitis? I couldn't believe I had it, and I never felt sick. But medicine must be scientific, and I dare not conclude that I am not sick.

It's an unfortunate thing, I'm still very young and I have a lot to do. How nice it would be if I had a very healthy body and a lot of energy to do what I should do, so that I could appear more active, uninhibited, and interact with the comrades around me.

But......

It is very likely that this matter will weigh on my head, "a person with hepatitis", how will society perceive me? People know that hepatitis is contagious, so when I meet people, I feel like I've committed a crime, like I've stolen something from everyone around me, and I have to be careful with everyone I meet, I can't just do anything, otherwise the people around me will scold me viciously.

Originally, I could do a lot of work, even if I had a lot of responsibility, but now for me, a person with hepatitis, can the leader still use me? Whoever doesn't want to use a healthy person wants a sick person.

Anyway...... All in all......

If I'm sure it's such an illness, it's the greatest misfortune of my life.

It destroyed my youth, it affected my revolution. How can I get my business done as I did before? It's really hard for me to think about it.

Now I always think like this: I hope the sickness doesn't come.

After reading this diary of my husband, I couldn't help crying and walked to the photo of my husband with the diary in my hand: "Husband, you have been carrying a heavy burden of thought for decades and silently bearing it alone, crawling forward alone, since you love me, why don't you let me share it for you?"

Although I have only lived with him for eight years, I have never heard him laugh, and there is always a faint sadness hidden between his brows.

This time, he personally brought out the apprentices to attend the memorial service and said to me, "Master, Mr. Gao often talks to me about you and your cheongsam team, and it can be seen that Mr. Gao is very satisfied with you and loves you very much......

My husband's teacher and his wife also said that my husband loved me very much, so why shouldn't I?

Eating with my husband's siblings and taking pictures after dinner, my husband always likes to hug me tightly, and I will naturally get close to him. Everyone was very envious and wanted to follow suit, but they all failed. At this time, the gentleman's eyes couldn't hide the satisfied smile.

As his brother and daughter-in-law said, because he loved me and was afraid of losing me, his husband hid his illness from me......

When we first met, my husband felt that I was prejudiced against people who had cars, and I replied in my letter to him:

Who told you to have a car on your profile? After all, many people are materialistic, and like me, my friends often joke that I am a "rare animal". It's no wonder that some gentlemen who have cars don't understand how I can easily reject them, and they look at me from a worldly point of view, and I'm afraid they won't be able to understand it for the rest of their lives.

I think that as long as we are sincere, appreciative, and understanding of each other, and there are no bad habits in life, happiness will not be too far away from us. Again, everything can only be known after meeting. If you're busy with your company (especially before opening), don't make meeting a task, maybe more correspondence will be better, you say? With the deepening of the letter, I have also stopped being on the marriage network (let's change the state together on the day of fate).

Maybe it's because I'm naturally more rational or because I read a lot, I know what I need, so I won't be tempted easily. Even if it is my daughter, I warn her not to worship money, it is important that the young man is smart and has potential. My daughter has always been very sensible, and when I was at my worst, she worked weekend jobs while going to college, which relieved me a lot of financial pressure.

Thank you very much for your love and trust! But I can't get involved in your private life until we have established a relationship, so even if you're busy, you'll have to take care of the property and other financial matters on your own (but I can give you advice as a friend). If so, I would like you to make your home in the city. Please understand me, okay? Quiet

I have lived with my husband for eight years, and I feel that his past has always been a mystery......

Inadvertently, this dusty diary made me begin to understand my husband's past, just seeing this, my heart already felt very painful, very painful......