I lay in bed, thinking it would be a very calm night, but now I tossed and turned, and I couldn't sleep.

The fourth brother Yin Xian had something to say, but he didn't know what it meant. He was saying that my mother's death was not as simple as it seemed, and that Chan had really eliminated me in advance.

The fourth brother said that I should not believe anyone, but I can't understand this, whether anyone asks me to help do something, how can I trust it or not? And even if I didn't want to care about it in my heart, those words kept spinning and turning in my head, as if I was no longer reminding me to be careful.

I have long been very aware of my position, but I am just a piece on the chessboard, and no matter who is holding the chess, at least I am still useful to others.

Although the value of my life is not based on the value of others, I am still very happy to be able to help my family.

But what keeps me awake is that I am willing to give, it is my own love for my family, if these feelings can be used, what else can make me persist in the palace?

People may need to play many roles in this life, some of which can be chosen, and some of which cannot be selected. As the daughter of Chengguo Gong, my identity has been determined as soon as I am born, and this is a fact that will not change no matter what. But there are a lot of relationships that are acquired, such as me and Yujing. So between the innate choice and the acquired choice, I chose the former.

First of all, I want to be my father's daughter, the sixth lady of the Chengguo Mansion, and for this, I gave up a lot of things, one of which is Yujing.

If I could have the courage and determination of Yujing, I might have gone away with Yujing, away from the hustle and bustle of the world, and only a team of fairy couples.

Probably not enough love, the love for Yujing is far less than the love for the family.

Early the next morning, the second and third sisters came, and I saw only the two of them, and looked around, but I didn't find anyone else.

"Why didn't you bring the child with you?" My sister-in-law asked me questions.

"It's rare to have this excuse to get rid of the child, and it's easy to go home, I also want to be idle and just be the third lady in the public mansion." The third sister still doesn't change her temperament, she is a mother, and her words and deeds are still like a child.

But it can be seen that Gu Xi treats her well, after all, such a heartless life is not something anyone can have, although I am the queen of the world, when it comes to the quality of life, it is really not as good as my two sisters.

"It's like you brought it, since your child was born, isn't it all Gu Xi who is busy taking care of it? I still want to serve you, but now you are crying out and crying tired. The second sister couldn't help but scold her twice.

"Pregnant in October, once delivered, such a hard thing was done by a woman, what's wrong with him being a little busy now?" The third sister did not repent at all, and looked up with shining eyes, which made people angry.

"Okay, okay, it's your own family's business anyway, if Lord Shangshu and Mrs. Shangshu get angry in the future, we will definitely not be on your side." The second sister smiled.

"Don't mention it, the old lady in my family was still angry with me a few days ago, as if saying that I was too jealous and didn't allow Gu Xina to concubine or anything, this is not wronged, I also specially asked Gu Xi if he wanted to set a few concubine rooms, Gu Xi himself said that the government was too busy, let me deal with the old lady, but now it's all my fault."

"Who made you love to bully Gu Xi when you have nothing to do, even if it's true now, others will only think that Gu Xi's family has a fierce wife, and they don't dare to mess with flowers and grass outside, and they don't dare to marry a concubine."

It is true that few sons of large families can be so pure-hearted, and the second brother-in-law is so attentive to the second sister, but is it still three wives and four concubines at home?

I thought about it for a while, in fact, it is not very difficult to understand, if the person I married was Yujing, I have no way to imagine that he will be with other women.

Gu Xi really likes the third sister, no, it should be said that it is love.

From this point of view, the third sister may be the best choice with Gu Xi, Pei Ran is just a cluster of fireworks flashing in life, although it is beautiful, but it is also very fragile, and it will be easily broken.

The days at home are quiet and pleasant, and soon the deadline to return to the palace will come, according to what I told the second sister in advance, when she returns to the Hou Mansion, take Pei'er away.

Now Pell didn't know anything about it, and while helping me pack my things, she sighed that she didn't know when she would be back.

I looked at her back, and suddenly felt a little reluctant, I don't know if I will have the opportunity to meet in the future, but it is better for Pei'er to have a good home than to follow me every day and be afraid.

"What's wrong with Miss today, I've been staring at the slave, but what's on me?" Pei'er was a little embarrassed by me and smiled slightly.

"It's nothing, it's just that I told the second sister that I want you to go over to take care of the second sister's child, do you think it?" I pretended to be casual and uttered this phrase that I had rehearsed in my mind countless times.

I thought that Pei'er would gladly accept me, or be a little reluctant to accept me, but she would still listen to me.

But I never thought she would have such an expression, the grief and begging of the abandoned puppy on the street, the heartbreaking humility.

"Does the young lady think that the slave maid is doing something wrong? Why do you want to drive away slaves and maids? ”

Pei'er was almost about to cry, she endured it strongly, but she couldn't hide her sad cry.

"You see, I still have Changyun in the palace, although the second sister has someone around to take care of her, but her children are also growing up day by day, I think you are more secure, and it is more comfortable to take care of the children, you probably also know that I am not as stupid and stupid as rumored, even in the palace, I can take good care of myself."

"No, don't you think I'm going to drag you down?" Pei'er knelt next to me and took my hand, "Although the slave maid has not been as capable of handling affairs as Changyun Nushi since entering the palace, at least the slave maid has also served you since childhood, this palace seems to be prosperous and lively, but in fact, it is empty and frightening, the slave and maid know that you have been thinking about the mansion for countless nights, missing the jade prince, but you never say it, the slave maid pretends not to know, the slave maid just wants to accompany you, even if the effect is minimal, but for the slave maid, the young lady is all I have." ”

Pelle's words were so earnest that even a hard-hearted person would be moved by them, but I had already made up my mind, and it was better to give them up now than to regret that I had not left her outside the palace then.

"Then are you willing to stay and live for me? Live a life that I can't live and enjoy a life that I can't get, the second sister will definitely take good care of you, find a good husband for you, and have a happy family. ”

"No, the slave doesn't want this, and if you can't be with Miss, it's all pointless." Pell held my hand firmly, as if to let go, and I would disappear and never come back.

"The emperor doesn't like Miss, and the Queen Mother just treats Miss as a tool, and now Miss is a fish on the chopping board, how can you rest assured that you are a slave? Aren't you poking your slave in the heart with a sword? Pei'er couldn't help crying, tears fell on the back of my hand, "You knelt in the snow that day, and when you came back, your knee hurt like that, and you said it was okay, the slave knows that you don't want us to worry, but how can we not worry?" Even if it's just a useless concern, if there are slaves and maids, at least there are people in this palace who are willing to protect you with their lives, even if the slaves and maids are not by your side, this heart can't be stopped, why torture two people like this? Miss Yin Yin herself is reluctant, so don't drive the slave away! ”

Peel's head rested on my lap like a spoiled child, and I touched her hair, shaking my determination.

People are not plants and trees, who can be ruthless. Pei'er is such a solid person, and it is indeed not a wise move to let her leave me suddenly, otherwise this stupid girl may not know what else to do in the future.