You are the sorrow that I have picked up with my soul in my memory.

Our love is separated by mountains and seas, and the mountains and seas are not flat, so I went to hug the lover who was only a turning distance.

Qiu Ye, I wish you someone to love you and someone to love.

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One

The first company I interviewed after graduation was the resume that Ano sent to me, and although there was already a gap between us, he still helped me.

At that time, he and I had tacitly deleted the memories of our previous together, but probably because of Sangxu, he was reluctant to have too much contact with me now.

I didn't shy away from this kind of good thing that came to my door, so I picked up my business card and the company information given by Ano and started researching.

After getting to know the company almost scratch the surface, the interview went well.

This interview seems to have suddenly shortened the distance between us, and Ano is ready to celebrate my transformation into a good young man.

I politely declined.

The reason is simple, I don't want to see Sangchu, and there must be Sanchü at this party, and the three of us can't sit together.

Since she returned to China, she has just kept it on the surface and not wanted to see me, even though we had a good relationship before.

I don't know if her attitude towards homosexuality has affected Aye, but anyway, I started to doubt myself when I was despised.

Paradoxically, I don't like her.

But then and before I wanted to be Sanch more than anyone else.

Just because she is Sangxu, she is loved by Aye.

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Two

I've known Ano for a long time.

When my mom decided to rent another storefront next to her supermarket, fate hammered down our encounter.

At the time, I was a big fan of rock, R&B, and the Eagles and the Beatles were my favorites.

So I asked my mother to open a video store and start selling some foreign rock and current pop songs, although it was Eason Chan and Jay Chou who were popular at the time, but obviously there were more categories of foreign rock.

The meeting was in the summer of sixteen.

I sat behind the counter biting on a popsicle and lying on a recliner with the California Hotel outside, absent-mindedly watching the slam dunk.

The electric fan blows hot air.

I took the last bite of ice and was about to go next door to get a bottle of soda, when I went out and bumped into a hot Aye.

"Tsk."

I looked at him dissatisfied, but he looked at the store with great interest.

"It's a real video store."

"Is it difficult or fake? Excuse me. ”

I went next door and got a soda and came back, and Ah Ye had already picked out three tapes and two albums, both of which were Eason Chan's.

I stared at him with a soda, and just as he was hesitating whether to choose Eason Chan or Jay Chou for his last record, I said out loud, "Why don't you try Desperado on the cabinet on the left?" (Outlaws)

Ano gave me one look, then picked up the record on the counter.

I love the Eagles, so I wish someone could have the same appetite as me.

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"Outlaws are good, you don't lose money when you buy them."

"Well, I know the eagles."

"Do you listen to them, then?" I asked.

He looked at me and pointed to the tape recorder that was playing Hotel California.

"I've heard this song, but I haven't heard you—" He stopped abruptly at this point.

At that time, only the radio was ringing in the store:

"Myheadgrewheavyandmysightgrewdim (My head is getting heavier and my vision is getting more and more molded)

Ihadtostopforthenight (I had to stop for the night)

Thereshestoodinthedoorway (she stood there at the door and greeted me)

Iheardthemissionbell (I hear church bells in the distance)

AndIwasthinkingtomyself (I said to myself in my heart)

ThiscouldbeHeavenorthiscouldbeHell (Heaven or hell here). ”

When the music passed, we looked at each other and smiled, and I knew why Ano stopped suddenly.

Say in unison: "You like this paragraph too?" ”

Although this section does not have too many ups and downs, it seems to be more exciting than the climax.

It's not easy to meet someone with the same taste, and I left his contact information with my incorruptible tongue.

Familiarize yourself with this.

I'm not the only one who is interested in each other, and after that day, Ano will come to me almost every day.

I listened to a song on a deck chair, and he watched my daily comics.

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It's Eagle's "NewKidinTown", and the prelude is a bit of a little love song.

I yawned: "We have lived the life of a young couple, if I have a girlfriend in the future, I must pull her to listen to songs and read comics." ”

Ano: "Think about it, you." ”

I don't know why, but I felt a little tentative when I said this.

Maybe I had feelings for Ano at the time, maybe I was an out-and-out gay person from the beginning.

Teenagers like eating popsicles in the summer, and when they eat popsicles, their tongues stick to them and they can't pull them out.

The process is embarrassing and anxious, and it hurts half to death if you pull it out strongly.

Do you know why crows resemble writing desks?

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Three

Crows are like writing desks, and it doesn't make sense like I like you.

It's disgusting, but I met such an amazing person at that age.

I suddenly wanted to encourage my mother to open a bookstore so that she could see the latest version of the manga as soon as possible.

Then lent it to Ano.

My love for Ano came to fruition at the beginning of high school.

We were sent by the devil and were put into a class.

The heart-pounding joy is something no one else has.

But in high school, Ano had a new circle of friends, and I was just one of his many friends.

It was at this time that I discovered my special feelings for Aye, and Sang Xu also appeared at this time.

I don't know what kind of heart I have, I must have a girlfriend first, and bring her to Aye as if I was innocent.

"Qiu Ye, let me introduce, my girlfriend."

I don't even remember who my girlfriend was at the beginning, but I remember that Ano looked at me enviously at that time.

"How nice are you, Sang Xu hasn't bothered me yet."

The heart was sour in that moment.

How old am I? It's so feeling for a person.

How long have we known each other? That's how I like him.

How long have I liked him? Why is it so painful to hear this from his own ears?

I broke up within three days, because Ano chased Sang Zhao into his hands.

The drama I performed for myself had to come to an early curtain call.

I was like crazy on the court, hitting people, breaking the rules, and finally not throwing the ball in.

The mind is not in the goal at all.

I hate myself like this, and I'm angry for a relationship I can't get.

But who will hold back when they are sad?

The liking for Ano is inexplicable, and the source of the liking is in the clouds, but the feeling of heartache is so real.

At the end of the day, when I was about to dry on the court, Ano pulled me off the court, and I was sweating all over my face and mixed with tears that I don't know when.

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Four

After a few months of work, the company arranges a business trip.

My boss went with me in the company, and he was very handsome, and he was the best-looking person I had ever met.

He seemed to take care of me, and his every move hinted at something.

Sure enough, I guessed correctly, he had a crush on me.

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