Wang Lei's birthday gift to Zhang Xin was inconvenient to get to the school, so he deliberately went to Hua Lian's seat and entrusted Hua Lin with a task: to go to the boutique that Zhang Xin and Hua Lin used to go to outside the school, talk to the proprietress and brush your face to receive it.

Zhang Wenli listened with relish on the side, and when Wang Lei left, she couldn't wait to ask Hua Lone: "Are Zhang Xin and Wang Lei together?" ”

"Nope."

"Then why did Wang Lei send things to Zhang Xin again?"

In Zhang Wenli's concept, she feels that there must be a response, and it is worth paying one by one, it is all real money, how can it be used on people who have no meaning.

So, Zhang Wenli sighed again: "Is Wang Lei's family also very rich?" You can send this and that. Do you know, in my family, the money I get in exchange for a year's hard work to grow food is not enough for the family to eat and wear, where is there such a condition to exchange courtesies? ”

Just now, Hua Lin felt that Zhang Wenli was a little troublesome, and when she heard this, her heart warmed, in some things, they actually resonated, but they never talked about it.

"Your parents only farm, did they go to work somewhere else?"

Zhang Wenli smiled bitterly, "I also have an uncle, who was born with dementia and has never been married, and my grandparents are not in good health, so my parents want to plant their own land, and they also want to plant their grandparents' land, and the land is not big, just in the rotten suburbs in the south of the city; I don't dare to go far to work, who will take care of them when they go far? ”

It's really a pain for each family.

Zhang Wenli has not finished speaking:

"I am the eldest sister in the family, and I have 2 younger sisters behind me, all of whom are my grandparents who want grandchildren, and my uncle's situation is impossible to count on, so I forced my parents, where can I give birth if I want to, and we are so poor, even if we are born as a son, look at the current conditions, we can't afford to raise it."

"It's so hard for your parents."

"It's hard to do anything. It's not just fate. ”

Hua Lin could hear that there was a sense of frustration in this sentence.

Zhang Wenli looked around at the classmates, Hua Lin followed her gaze, some were gossiping, such as Xu Keer and Cen Linmei Fei dancing chatting, and there were tapes of Twins and S.H.E on the table;

Some are eating snacks, which are mouth-watering;

Some are reading extracurricular books, and when they see the rising places, they use exaggerated expressions to show the students next to them, Su Ya is such a living treasure;

Some of the boys were wrestling their wrists, and Liang Che was also cheering and shouting beside him;

Some are flirting with girls, like the fat man who has a good time with Lu Yinuo next door, he likes to tease the girls in the class very much, and Bai Xingyi is also mingling with them next to him.

At this time, I heard Zhang Wenli say:

"You see, how happy they are, I envy the other people who are carefree, eat well and dress well, and have fun, my new clothes are school uniforms, and my two younger sisters can only wear my old clothes. Isn't it, how can all people be created equal? There are two classes of money and no money..."

“… And I don't study hard, if I don't have grades, my grandparents will ask me to drop out of school, thinking that it's useless to study and waste money, anyway, it's not a son, it's better to go out to work early. ”

“… As you can see, Mrs. Shi often sends clothes to my family, and I have received so many favors from her, and my grades cannot be dropped. But it's not so easy to read only the books of the sages..."

Speaking of which, there seems to be some light in Zhang Wenli's eyes, could it be that she also has something on her daughter's mind?

She didn't go any further, and looked at Hua Lin again, "I seem to have talked a little too much today." I don't usually know who to talk to, and I don't have any friends, unlike you. I haven't received any gifts, what a dream, princess, I've never felt it. ”

This look made Hua Li's heart tremble slightly.

In the class, it is a fact that Zhang Wenli is not cute, she is not as lucky as Hua Lone, she has Zhang Xin's preference, Su Ya's closeness, and her classmates, she is just the other one in the class, and no one has ever cared if she has something on her mind, right?

She seems to be indifferent to her title as a poor student, and she is also struggling and scared in her heart, and her grades are the only part of her that can make teachers or parents care about her and recognize her.

It turns out that loneliness is the norm in life?

Hua Lin fell into deep thought.

When Su Ya dragged her around the campus, Hua Lin asked Su Ya, did she have a lonely time? What is loneliness?

Su Ya said that questions that are too philosophical will take a lot of brains.

Hua Lin thought to herself.

Until Su Ya found a wild persimmon tree with scattered persimmon fruits on it, Su Ya went to pick up the long branches, and Hua Lin was still thinking.

Su Ya could only fight alone, like a thin monkey climbing the crooked-necked tree next to her, and easily knocked down a few yellow wild persimmons.

In front of Hua Lone, "What do you think?" Take a bite. ”

Hua Lin took the oval and oval wild persimmon, wiped it casually, and really bit it, the familiar crisp persimmon taste, the familiar "astringency", instantly occupied Hua Lone's tongue.

"It's really nice to look at, but I didn't expect it to be so astringent inside." Flowers are silent.

Su Ya laughed, took a few other beautiful wild persimmons, and then said to Hua Lian, "Isn't this the 'astringency' of loneliness?" ”

"Just look at the outside, you can see that everyone's astringency is hidden in the heart. I think you're right, I've always believed that loneliness is always the norm. ”

Hua Lin is really unexpected, Su Ya is a philosopher.

"When I was a kid, I used to think about the question, who am I?

Why am I?

Why can't I be someone else?

Why am I opening my eyes because I am controlling my flesh?

Where exactly am I going?

Will I awaken in the flesh of another person?

What exactly is the soul?

By what joint control does the soul and the body bind together? …

I asked my parents, and they didn't understand me at all and thought I was talking nonsense. I can only go crazy and think, do you say I'm lonely? Of course. ”

Hua Lin was a little excited after hearing this, Su Ya said these questions, she had thought about them all, and the ultimate three questions in her life, "Who am I?" Where am I from? Where am I going? ”。

Hua Lin hugged Su Ya very excitedly, and then pointed to her nose, "I've thought about it, I know you." ”

Su Ya patted Hua Lone's head arrogantly, "Calm down." The point is, do you get it? No one, no one. ”

"Understood, understood."

At the end, Hua Lin asked Su Ya:

"You just picked the persimmon for me to give me the answer?"

Su Ya laughed heartily and said honestly, "I want to say yes too." But, how is it possible, I just want to see if the persimmon can be eaten, I will pick a few more if it is delicious, but you say it is so astringent, I suddenly came to inspiration, just did I feel instantly sublimated? ”

"Alright, almost."

After going back, Su Ya brought the persimmons she brought to Cen Lin and Xu Ke'er, and gave Hua Lin a look and wanted to play a prank.

Hua Lonely Yuguang found that Liang Che's gaze was here, and secretly thought that the image burden could not be lost, so he paid attention to his words and deeds and tried to be as elegant as possible.

Su Ya has always rendered super sweet, and the acting is called realistic.

The two of them were about to eat, Cen Lin left a hand, deliberately slowing down for half a beat, Xu Keer took a small bite and immediately spit it out and frowned, Cen Lin immediately threw away the little persimmon and laughed so badly.

Xu Ke'er bared her teeth and said, "You rape flowers gather together to play me." ”

"It's Cen Lin who is too fine."

said that he would share the joys and sorrows, and let Xu Keer bear all the astringency alone, how can this work, Xu Keer strongly asked Cen Lin to take a bite, and if she didn't bite, she would do it.

Cen Lin couldn't dodge the killer move, "You pay attention to your temperament, your sweetheart seems to be looking at you." ”

is talking about Liang Che, and it is really effective for Xu Keer.

Xu Ke'er immediately switched to shyness mode, Hua Lin glanced at Xu Ke'er, and then blatantly glanced at Liang Che, their eyes met for a few seconds, and Hua Lin pretended to be nothing.

"Is he watching me?" Xu Ke'er turned her back to Liang Che, sat in her position and raised her head to ask Hua Lin who was standing.

Hua Lin nodded, yes.

Xu Ke'er, who got Hua Lone's affirmative answer, wiped a trace of crimson on her face, and immediately sat upright and stopped making trouble.

The power of this sweetheart is great.

If it weren't for his sweetheart, he would be 108,000 miles away from "greatness".

Hua Lin also has a task to complete the delivery of the birthday present.

When school was over, because she had to wait for Zhang Xin, Su Ya took the first step.

Zhang Xin came down the stairs and saw Hua Lin waiting for her, and happily shouted "dear" and ran over, holding Hua Lone's next door, very intimate.

Hearing that Wang Lei gave another gift, Zhang Xin took a deep breath and sighed and asked Hua Lonely.

"Did you send it to you?"

"No, I didn't need it."

"Then I don't need it. Besides, am I the kind of person who has no face and no skin to accept gifts and doesn't give people a response? I really don't want him to send it anymore, you tell him to save some money. ”

"Why don't you go and see what it is?"

"I won't take anything. I'm not going. ”

"You're just curious?"

"Then you go yourself."

"No, I'm not qualified to brush my face."

finally invited Zhang Xin to the boutique, the proprietress looked at Zhang Xin, smiled and went to hug the gift and came out, saying that a beauty is a beauty, and sure enough, a lot of boys pursued.

When the proprietress showed the gift, Zhang Xin and Hua Lin were stunned, oh my God, a teddy bear as big as a person, no wonder it was inconvenient to bring it to school.

Zhang Xin said to the proprietress that he would let it go first, and then leave with Hua Lone.

It's too big to accept while walking.

Hua Lin thought, where is the sin because it is "big"?

"Have you ever seen a picture of a teddy puppet in the middle of the night, incarnated as a superhero and fighting the devil to protect Sleeping Beauty?"

Blossom tried to add a little convincing.

"Who wants him to protect?" Zhang Xin immediately pierced the connotation of flower loneliness.

What can I do, such a huge puppet, it is impossible for Hua Lin to take it home, and Dad's fists and kicks are unreasonable.

Hua Lin went to ask Wang Lei if he wanted to retreat.

Wang Lei should be heartbroken, it is the kind of bitterness that Su Ya summed up that can't be seen, lonely in his heart.

But Wang Lei was still very stubborn and refused to cooperate with Hua Lone, and only said to Hua Lone, "You deal with it." I don't want to hear a word about this. ”

How is this handled?

Because Wang Lei refused to come forward, and she didn't spend money to buy it, she was not qualified to arrange for the proprietress to return or consign this large puppet; She just followed Zhang Xin to the boss lady and got a familiar face, trust, and the qualifications to pick up the goods.

Then Hua Lin thought of someone.

She first asked Zhang Wenli, if she gave her a doll and rushed her home, would her parents beat her?

Zhang Wenli's focus was, "Why did you beat me?" Although my family is very poor, my parents don't beat us three sisters. ”

"Huh?" Maybe it's because they're very well-behaved, Hua thought silently.

Zhang Wenli thought that Hua Lin was just asking casually, but when Hua Lin took Zhang Wenli outside the school, and then held the big teddy in front of Zhang Wenli, Zhang Wenli's eyes widened and she couldn't believe it.

"How can there be such a big doll in the world?"

Like Hua Lone, she has never seen the world, and it can be seen that she likes it very much.

Originally, the texture of this doll is very good, and it is not prickly, and it is very comfortable to hold, giving people an inexplicable sense of security.

"For you."

"Why? Where did this come from? ”

Hua Lin thought about it, but decided to tell the truth.

"You know that Wang Lei sent something to Zhang Xin, this is it. But Zhang Xin doesn't like him, and this doll can't be returned, and now it's trapped in my hands, and my family can't hide it. If, you don't want it either, it's homeless. You see, this teddy is obviously a smiling face, but his fate is not good. ”

As soon as he said this, he really made Zhang Wenli empathize.

She was not so high-minded, and felt that this was something that others did not want; Not to mention watching Hua Lin throw the trash can, even if you see a puppet like this in the trash can, you have to pick it up and go home.

She hasn't received a gift either, has she?

Everyone is a girl, who doesn't have a girl's heart?

She caught this huge puppet, how beautiful, what a pity to throw it?

"Then I'll take it back, thank you Zhang Xin. And you. ”

"With you taking it in, it can be considered a good home."

Hua Lin finally said this because she didn't want Zhang Wenli to respond in her heart.

But Hua Lin also understands that people born like "us" are lonely and barren, but if there is a little desire, where is there any qualification for "diaphragm"?

If there is no desire, it is rigid.

How many people can do it?

However, she still had to tell Zhang Xin when she turned around.

Hua Lin thought so.