Today is a normal day of overtime on Saturday, not very busy, and I leave work early and normally. Deliver the apples to the student apartment, where I used to live for five or six years. I made an appointment to play table tennis with AH and N, but AH had a toothache and didn't want to play overtime, so I had to play with N first. I took the apple downstairs to the apartment, parked the car, and brought it in, and I saw it, and I said send it upstairs, it's inconvenient for you to move your roommate and you're not there. She said that she would put it in the activity room first, and then talk about it after playing table tennis. N and I have two colleagues, and the four of us play table tennis casually. The reason why I haven't played for a long time is that my hand is out of order. N may have deliberately taken care of my feelings, and she played with me with a horizontal shot that she was not good at. To be honest, N's skill level is really good, and the girls play very well.

In the middle of the way, a new colleague came, a total of five people, alternately playing, who was tired would take a break and change play. I haven't exercised for a long time, and I'm sweating while playing, and the time is really fast, it's almost seven o'clock in a blink of an eye. I was really tired and didn't want to play, so N seemed to shout to play together. I only saw AH's back, she went back to the dormitory early today, maybe tired and toothache didn't want to play and didn't come to the activity room. At this time, I didn't want to play N and I wanted to go back to accompany AH, so I took the opportunity to leave. I was going to move the apple to the fifth floor, but N didn't let me out of the apartment. I was so stupid that I didn't think to ask them for water or food. I was so thirsty that I bought a bottle of ice cola and a bottle of Cestbon mineral water at Baile supermarket, and then accelerated the battery car home.

When I got home, I told N that I ate instant noodles by myself. I asked her and AH what they had tonight, and forgot to invite you to dinner. She said that AH was obsessed with fried noodles, and I said that it was the first time she ate it yesterday. There is Lanzhou ramen in the community below, and she said that she helped AH bring it, and N really has to take care of your roommate. She ate the rice, and then there was no news.

Actually, I've been wanting to send a message to AH today or call to confirm whether I will work overtime tomorrow. Originally, I had planned to come to the house on Sunday to play, but I also pushed down the leader's plan to arrange overtime on Sunday, and I was hesitating whether to work overtime tomorrow. If AH still reads books, I still need to work overtime, at least bring breakfast for AH. By the way, N has been in the AH office today, and I didn't call the AH office when I felt inconvenient, and I didn't know that she had talked about me. I thought that tomorrow would be more boring to be at home, so I would go to work overtime normally, the workshop is so busy that there is always something to do.

The main reason is that I am used to the days of bringing breakfast to AH, and I am afraid that AH will starve if he forgets to eat breakfast and does not buy it himself. She had a toothache for the past two days and couldn't eat spicy food. I'll still bring steamed buns and porridge with bean paste tomorrow. Even if AH doesn't come to work overtime, I bring food normally, and it seems that this habit has become a part of my life now. I really want to do the thing of taking care of AH, and of course take care of my fellow countryman Hehe. 😬

It was quite unexpected at noon today, I didn't know that N was with AH, and if I sent an overtime meal, it would really not be enough to eat. AH is a make-up shift, and I guess I reported for lunch. But I sent it to the office together, so I wouldn't have to pick it up myself.

Today I tentatively asked if I will send you overtime meals tomorrow, N may be embarrassed, he is not willing to accept my kindness and says that it is not good for me, so I don't care. This is what I am willing to do, to have someone who can take care of me, like AH I feel that she needs me and will not refuse me, I am very grateful to her. AH seems to say that he needs me, so he never questions it, he doesn't dislike it, he doesn't say it's useless, etc., which is very gratifying to me, which is different from N. Anyway, I don't have a female ticket, I don't want to make anyone angry with whoever wants to take care of that girl. N is a male ticket AH at least has people he likes, but they are not around, and my friend will come to see it as a male girlfriend, and I will be very content and happy to help them as much as I can. I didn't actually let go of my love for AH, but I knew I couldn't think too much about it and couldn't expect some impossible results. If AH was interested in me, I promised a long time ago that I liked her and chased her, and she would not have asked me to delete WeChat so decisively. So, I just still like AH and I can't show it, and I can't put any more pressure on her. I think I'm in a good state now, at least I still have the opportunity to get along and talk, and I will cherish every opportunity, and that's probably the only thing I can do well.

Let's talk about N, the big grinning female paper has no heart and lungs, people have male tickets, I can't have any thoughts, I also asked N tentatively before, she said that we are more suitable to be friends, I know I will grasp the distance from my fellow countrymen, to be normal, I can't also put pressure on her. I said how good I would be if I was a girl, we thought I would be good girlfriends, and AH could often go in and out together, eat delicious food everywhere and go to play, etc. I don't know what kind of existence I am in the eyes of AH and N. AH only regards me as a colleague or friend, and N should be my fellow countryman's confidant big brother and male girlfriend. I may be able to accept and understand all of this, but it doesn't seem to matter so much about liking or not.

Today, I used my mobile phone to code words, because I was using the computer to watch the second season of "Tomb Robbery Notes" Jihai Listening to Lei, which is really getting more and more exciting, and I can't put it down. Watching TV can also release stress, and while reading and writing a diary, I don't feel like I'm doing it twice. I did have insomnia for a long time last night, and I woke up from a nightmare not long after the trip. I'm going to go to bed early today, and I hope the mosquitoes don't bother me anymore. I didn't go to bed early after writing an early bedtime diary, which is really disappointing. I don't know if AH has time to read my diary of going to bed early, today is the thirty-seventh issue, and there are more than 80,000 words, and I have changed a lot of things. These good changes are inspired by AH, and I will continue to update them. Maybe one day AH or N will leave my life, and I will continue to record it. I didn't tell the second person about the things I wrote about, except for AH alone. Tomorrow I will still go to work overtime, bring breakfast to AH normally, and if I need it at noon, I will still give her two overtime meals. After watching this episode of Tomb Robbery Notes, I went to sleep, good night!