I haven't updated my early bedtime diary for several days, and the reason why I haven't updated it is not because I'm sick or I didn't go to bed early because I stayed up late, but because I didn't have anything meaningful to record. Today, because I drank a little wine, I suddenly want to write casually, so I can write something when I think of it, which is also in line with the style of the diary. I boiled hot water, made a cup of black tea, watched the tiebreaker match between DWG and G2, and I didn't have to chat with N You, and I felt very relaxed while enjoying the wine.

Just now N told me that it was embarrassing, and the male classmate who contacted her yesterday was looking for her again tonight, and the video was not answered, so she called directly. I teased her, of course, there is no shortage of likes and suitors for such an excellent girl as you, and I am also one of the insignificant suitors. N has a male ticket.,Of course, you have your own principles.,I will definitely refuse.,Just like rejecting me, rejecting other boys.,I feel very down-to-earth.,I don't have a chance.。

Yesterday N came to the house, I didn't agree in advance before, and I sent a message after work saying that I suddenly wanted to come to the house, and I came to store chicken breasts. She is losing weight, chicken breast should be very nutritious and necessary supplementary food, there is no refrigerator in the dormitory, it was mentioned before to be stored in my refrigerator. I thought she was just joking, and I agreed to her without even thinking about it. Yesterday she also came by bus, and when she left, she didn't wear a mask, and she went back to the dormitory to pick up a trip, which she sent me a message to tell me. Also, she didn't catch the first bus and said she was very angry, so I told her that every time, the bus always missed me, just a minute or two, and I had to wait for the next one. I'm used to it, and I don't seem to have a lot of luck.

When N was about to get off work, he sent a message asking me if I was working overtime on weekends, and the words were a little slurred, asking me what I ate at night, etc., I should have guessed that there was something. When I was about to get off work, I went to the technical department to find the department leader to sign, it was outrageous and not smooth, I don't know why my temper would be so big one day, some let go of myself, said something that should not be said, I regretted it a little afterwards, although it may not have much impact on my development and work opportunities, but I was a little surprised by my honest and peaceful personality. I said at the time: "You blame each other and do nothing." "The person in charge of the technical department and the leader were very surprised, and immediately refuted that I had a problem with my speech, I seemed to be a little stubborn, and my temper was a little big, and other colleagues in the office at that time were probably surprised, I admitted that I had offended some people, and I couldn't manage so much. In the future, I still have to be wise and protect myself, don't say things that shouldn't be said, just do my best, and some things in the system are not something I can control.

After all, the report was still not signed, and neither the quality department nor the technical department felt very defeated. When I returned to the office, I happened to see N, and a big man from their first class, who was about to clean up and get off work. Today seems to be the first day that N gets off work at the earliest, and she gets off work at half past four and is consistent with the workshop, because she is in the office this morning and only went to the workshop in the afternoon. A few casual greetings.,N in work clothes is very different from what I usually remember.,It's also a very casual polite word when chatting.。 I remember I said that I got off work very early today, you won't work overtime today, I said yes, I'm coming tomorrow anyway, and the work will be done slowly.

N asked me what I was going to eat at night, I said I wanted to make porridge and drink, she asked me if I was home, and I said that I was already here and was buying steamed buns. She said she was a little hungry and immediately set off to come home. I'm actually looking forward to being a little happy, I usually live alone, and I really want to have uninvited guests to visit. When I went home, I found that the elevator was out of power, I thought that the house was also out of power, climbed up the tenth floor from the stairs, and after opening the door with the home key, I found that the millet night light was on, I knew that there was electricity at home, and finally put down the hanging heart. If there is no electricity, it will be inconvenient for N to come, let alone store chicken breasts in the refrigerator.

I asked N what she wanted to eat and if she wanted a big meal, and I came to ask her and she said no. It's almost there, so I'm ready to cook porridge right away, and cut some cold dishes such as peppers, carrots and onions, the kind that is mixed with salt and vinegar, and the cakes I bought are already cold and ready to be eaten in the microwave when N comes. She said that the road was very congested, and she suddenly didn't want to come and wanted to go back, and I knew she was joking. I said that the elevator is out of power today, and you need to climb to the tenth floor to lose weight. She was out of breath and should be very tired, and when I walked to the seventh floor with a flashlight, she had already come up so fast, so I took what she was carrying and slowly went upstairs to get home. The living room is a little cold without air conditioning, I turned on the Xiaomi hot air fan, I said I feel that you are very tired, sit and rest for a while. I washed a few apples for her, and she probably didn't want to eat it, so she didn't move. Store the chicken breast in the refrigerator first, the refrigerator is very empty and put it in a compartment, there is ice cream bought in the summer in the refrigerator, I haven't remembered to eat it, N took one and ate it today, it can be regarded as quenching my thirst, I can't remember the last time I ate ice cream, it seems to be still very hot, chatting with Xiaoxi She is eating ice cream, I also took one and ate it, my memory seems to be left at this time.

Liu Bu sent me back just now, Lili invited guests to dinner, in Linhuai Town, although I didn't drink much, but I was still a little relaxed and fluttering, and I felt that I had returned to my true self. On the way, Liu Bu kept telling me how to chase a girl, especially to his fellow countryman N. I told Liu Bu N some of the situation, many things can't be forced, I still remember that AH used to teach me that the twisted melon is not sweet. Just now I said something more open to N, she ignored me for a long time, I thought she was angry or ignored me anymore, I was a little flustered. After a long time she replied to me, no, she just answered the phone. Don't let me be cautious, do what you would like to her as you would treat my brother, this should be a kind of euphemistic refusal, I am self-aware.

Yesterday N came to the house, as usual, very relaxed, as if every time she took the initiative to find a topic to chat, I always echoed. She showed me a photo of her brother wearing a military uniform, and I said that he was really handsome, I felt that the soldiers were all handsome, the same uniform, the same size, very temperamental and spiritual. This time N seems to be very interested in my book collection, I flipped through it at random, and took two books with me when I left, one "The Man Who Stole the Shadow" said that her sister had read it with her but she didn't remember, and one was Baby Anne's "Farewell to Vivian", which I used to redeem with Alipay points, although the version was a little old, she said "July and Ansheng" Baby Anne wrote it, I said yes, the movie has also been seen well, "Farewell to Vivian" is Baby Anne's first work, and "July and Ansheng" is a short story inside. I remember lending AH all of Anne's work and finally wanting to give her a book as a souvenir, but she didn't accept it. Last time, AH warned me not to look at Anne's works in the future, and I said that I wouldn't watch them for a long time, and Anne's works accompanied me out of the abyss, and now it's Gyeongsan, and I'm not the same person I used to be. Today, my college classmate W took the initiative to contact me again, and sent me an old photo of the dinner party and a solo photo of me, I am very grateful to her, many years have passed, I have only gained some weight, and the rest has not changed. talked about many topics, stock speculation and financial management, etc., and finally she also advised me not to read Baby Anne anymore, listen to Guo Degang's cross talk, you can change yourself, become no longer negative and pessimistic, I have written it down, but it still takes time to change, accumulate over time.

In the past few days, I have been interacting with Qi, from her in Zhagana, to Langmu Temple, to today's trip to Jiuzhaigou, she always sends me the beautiful scenery of the journey, and I also habitually like and comment on her circle of friends. Coincidentally, as she wished, she saw the heavenly burial at the Tianbao Platform of Langmu Temple, which was worth the trip, and it was considered to have fulfilled her wish. She posted on Moments and asked me if I would disrespect the deceased. I said no, the beliefs are different, there is no blasphemy and disrespect, and the heavenly burial is the most noble ritual and destination of the Holy Spirit. We also talked about the meaning of traveling, and of course she always asked me about the route and how to get there, and although I hadn't been there before, I could always provide some necessary help. She sent me a message, "I suddenly feel that people are like ants, nothing matters, everything is like dust, and living in the moment is it." I replied: "Yes, the mayfly is in the heavens and the earth, a drop in the ocean, and I have the most profound feeling during my journey, especially on the way to Tibet, and it is very similar to you at this moment." "Feeling small and inadequate, maybe that's the meaning of travel. She should be able to arrive in Jiuzhaigou smoothly at night, and tomorrow I may be able to receive the beautiful scenery of the journey on time, and I can go to Weibo!

Just took advantage of a little drunk, and had the courage to say something inappropriate to N, which means that I also want to like and pursue her, and I don't know that Yumu has a chance. She finally replied to me, "You treat me like a brother, don't think about anything else." As I expected, she just regarded me as a fellow countryman and brother, I was self-righteous, and I shouldn't have a chance to like her. I replied that I was afraid that I would not be able to control the distance well and exceed a certain range. This is the range of friends she talked about last time. She won't ignore me, she promises not to bother me, sometimes she doesn't reply to messages in time, she's just busy. But I wondered why she told me that a male classmate confessed to her or something, and said that she would lend me a bear heart and leopard gall to me and confess to the person she liked. It turns out that girls can't believe all their words, they will always deceive people, and they will avoid the important and don't mention a word, so I feel very embarrassed! Today is my chance to try to tease and show my heart again, but fortunately I explained that I was a little incoherent after drinking, and I didn't know that she knew my intentions, so I refused anyway. It's just a brother, you can't think nonsense. I think I can do it, after all, I have been single for so many years, I have missed a lot of likes and beauty, and I have never had a story, so I calmly accept everything that happened and the result, and continue to be a person without a story, which is good, and if I have no expectations, I will not be disappointed; Without a beginning, there will be no ending, so good! I'll update it here today.,Today's S10 game is boring.,Crushing of man-machine mode,DWG has the strength to win the championship this year.,It depends on LPL Youmu has this strength.,It should be a tough battle later.,Wait and see tomorrow night.,See if it's SN or TES semi-finals.,My prediction is that SN won.,I hope I can continue to keep the trophy.,I hope to hear it again.,We're the champions! Good night!