Monday is usually a busy day, and today or tomorrow of the month is a time of annoyance, and the nasty formalistic lean deliverables make me mentally explode, burnt out, and exhausted every time.

Before getting off work, I sent a message to the AH messenger, asking her what she likes to eat tomorrow and what she is going to bring to her, after all, tomorrow is the ancient Chinese Valentine's Day - Qixi Festival.

Maybe it's just my rough idea, she said everything is fine, but I'm still planning to add a meal tomorrow and have something different.

It's not a surprise, but I think that the annual festival at least has something different to commemorate.

When I went home in the evening, I cooked the simplest noodles with the only little dish left, and after eating, I watched the movie "Miracle in the Green Mile" recommended by Xiaobai on the computer, a very thought-provoking good movie, which lasted for three hours.

The good and evil of human nature seem to be insignificant at the end of life. Instead of living in self-blame and remorse for a long time, it is better to be like God's angels to save a lifetime from suffering.

It's already past ten o'clock after watching the movie, and I'm usually ready to rest at this point. Maybe it's because of the relationship between tomorrow's Tanabata Festival, and I'm a little restless and looking forward to it or being lost, which is a feeling I've never felt before, and I've never felt the festival before, and I'm used to it.

AH probably went back early today, and didn't call me again, and I didn't call the office again.

I found that my self-control is slowly improving, although I have a lot to talk to her, but thinking of her advice and troubles, I still decided not to disturb her, I promised to let go, I will definitely be able to do it and can do it well.

I don't know what to write today, but I just go out for habits and daily life, listen to NetEase Cloud and write casually for half an hour, and go to bed on time.

Originally, it was a diary of going to bed early, but if I felt it, the words I wrote after staying up late may be real but meaningless, and I lost my original intention and motivation to write.

Thinking about how to plan and arrange each day in the future would be more meaningful, maybe I really need a long trip.

Due to the epidemic and the fact that this year's work has not been idle, there are very few opportunities to go out.

However, during the National Day holiday, I still decided to take the opportunity to go home, go to Qinghai or Zhangye, the road is not very far, the provident fund for the travel expenses, the trip does not cost much, for the time being.

About blind dates or falling in love or liking someone, I think it's getting harder and harder, I seem to have lost the ability and impulse to like someone, once this person appeared and made me reborn and had a desire, but it was just a flash in the pan, and I seemed to be back to the previous rhythm of life.

Once upon a time, there was someone who loved you for a long time, but the wind gradually blew the distance so far...... Tomorrow's Qixi Festival, there shouldn't be many changes and waves, I should still go home to watch the LOL game and write my early bedtime diary, and then go to bed early and get up early.

Such days are simple and repetitive, boring and monotonous, but they are also easy to sink in. It's sad to not have someone you like, not to be liked by others, or to be disliked by someone you like.

So I don't look forward to any festivals, I just want to have a normal heart and deal with it calmly, and that's enough.

In fact, many things are too complicated and want to change too much, which adds invisible pressure to yourself.

When you see your current situation and preferences, you won't force yourself to do things that you are not good at or don't like at all.

Then go with the flow and be your truest and best self! Good night to yourself!