Today, I brought fruit to the company, which I specially brought from my hometown in Gansu, traveled more than 1,000 kilometers, and was ready to give it to AH to eat, just five or six relatively large, bright colors and apples that have an appetite, and I promised AH to bring them to her and her roommates. It's cold today.,I woke up at six o'clock very early.,Thinking that N was almost to Xuzhou at this point.,Send a message to her.,This time the reply is faster.,Just chatted a few words at will.,N seems to have left my hometown to this side and started to pay attention to me again.,Maybe it's my delusion.,But I'm just up to the point.,No more entanglement.,Let her have fun with her classmates.,I didn't send her a message anymore.。

Today is busy, a week or so of accumulated warehousing records and orders need to be processed, but all kinds of errors and missing parts are extremely inefficient, tomorrow you need to deal with the expiration of the order. Seeing that AH's little messenger has not been online, I thought that she might not have read today, but I still hesitated, so I took the time to call AH's office, the public number that I knew by heart, I don't know if the phone was a problem or something else, I could hear AH's voice, but the voice was too small I couldn't hear it very clearly, she should be able to hear it when I spoke, I said I was going to send her the apple I brought before I got off work, and I hung up. Since then, I have been processing orders, and occasionally go to the workshop to walk around. When it was almost noon, AH suddenly added my friend about giving fruit. I was ready to explain, and I agreed casually, so I simply chatted, and I didn't know where to start talking about it for a long time. AH decisively refused to allow me to send her fruit, and this time it was very decisive. She said that what happened in the past was her mistake, and that she would be able to clear it up after inviting me to dinner once. I always feel that I hurt AH, she has someone she likes, and I seem to take advantage of others to let her do things she doesn't want to do, I've always felt guilty, and I'm always doing what I can to be grateful and make up for it. But AH looks at it more than me, she thinks it's nothing, but I always feel responsible.

To my surprise, AH read my early bedtime diary, and she said she wouldn't read it again. I think what AH said to me today should be true, I thought AH wouldn't read it, it was written a little arbitrarily and boldly, in fact, many of the real thoughts in my heart are impossible to write truthfully. I feel a little lost, my only reader and fan, and the protagonist of my work, and I like people who can't put it down. The courage and perseverance of my writing comes entirely from AH, and I said that maybe AH will not appear in my words in the future, but my writing will always be persistent. Did I really let go of AH, I guess so. Time and new love are two ways out, I didn't find a new love, and time is my trustworthy existence, I won't deceive anyone, more than two months have passed, I seem to have healed. I learned not to force it, the twisted melon is not sweet, and I can finally let go. I will learn to give up on you because I love you too much. I quit zw and started to quit sex to make myself sunny.

When no one loves, love yourself more. Accustomed to solitude, accustomed to all that life gives, good and bad, can be accepted calmly. Nobody likes me, and I don't try to like anyone easily, so I don't look forward to it, and I don't lose it, which is probably the right way for me to think it is.

Knowing that N arrived safely in the dormitory, I didn't send any more messages to disturb her. Although I really want to mention the matter of giving her fruit, of course, I still want to give it to AH by the way, after all, roommates, there are delicious things to share. It's because I've thought about it too much, N should still refuse, if I insist on giving it to her, she will be angry again, if AH knows about my apples, she should be angry and won't eat them. It was a much earlier day than I expected, and if nothing else, today should be the last time AH appears in my early bedtime diary. Without AH and N as my protagonists, they would have left my life and we would never have crossed paths ∩ again. I have to go to bed early and the diary may not be updated, and the frequency may be reduced, so I will update it when I need to record and update it in the future. Without AH as the only reader, I would have to write for myself, which may be meaningless, but the sustenance and direction I have found is what AH has brought me, and no matter what, my gratitude to AH has always existed.

Yesterday I got home at noon, and I watered the flowers, especially the mint that N sent me, and I woke up this morning to find that it was alive again, and I was still a little happy and excited. I used to raise several pots of mint. In the evening, I also went to watch the movie "My Hometown and Me" with tears in my laughter, and was moved and impressed by the plot of the story and the acting skills of the actors. I slept very early yesterday, and I didn't feel the urge to write, so I'll write a few sentences to mention it today. The weather is indeed a lot colder, the indoor temperature falls below 20 ° is a little cool, I began to use the electric blanket, and the air conditioner is also turned on before going to bed at night, the electric blanket has been at a low temperature, and I slept very well all night.

Today's S match was very exciting, as I expected, SN defeated the opponent, competed with G2 for the first position, and at the same time qualified for the quarterfinals, which bodes well for the other three teams in the LPL, and I still hope that this year's LPL will continue to win the championship. Now there's an extra round going on and I'm hoping for SN to win and qualify first. The game has already begun, so I'll write it here, and watch the game.