Chapter 32: The Beginning of a New Life
Ai Mo grabbed his wrist and rubbed it gently.
"I didn't know what was wrong with me, why all of a sudden everyone didn't like me. I'm still the same as before, and I haven't changed! I didn't even know that people can change. ”
Ai Mo smiled bitterly, her eyes were a little dazed, as if she was looking at An Yu in front of her, and it seemed that she was just looking at something else through her.
Envy? Ai Mo was envious, during this time she checked some information about An Yu on the Internet, and finally matched this beautiful sister with the proud daughter of the An Group. She envies that she has a happy family, but although Ai Mo is simple, she is not stupid, she can faintly feel that this happiness seems to be equally hard-won.
So, Ai Mo thought, where does the envy in her heart come from? Why can't you help but get close to this person who has only met once, after thinking about it for a long time, Ai Mo finally found that the person she envied was probably someone like An Yu who could gain herself! That's a true self that Ai Mo has been hiding in a passive life.
Ai Mo did not live badly when she was a child, and she was even more free to do as she wanted than An Zhen, and the pampering of her family made her a carefree little princess since she was a child. No one has ever taught what is right and what is wrong, and she seems to have been born with it, so people ignore it. No one has ever told her what she should and shouldn't do, she can judge from other people's emotions, everyone thinks she is a genius, but when she grows up, this has become a shackle in Aimo's life.
Ai Mo's personality has not changed with age, when people think that she should restrain her personality at the age of her personality, she is still the same me as before, but the attitude of the people around her has taken a 180-degree turn, which makes Ai Mo do everything wrong.
"I've been correcting my words and actions according to other people's moods, when they're happy, I know I should do it, and when they're unhappy, I know I shouldn't do it, but I don't know why, so when they don't face me happily anymore, I lose myself. When I grew up, I seemed to understand a little bit and knew how to hide, but I couldn't do it well. Later, I once heard their conversation. ”
Ai Mo was reluctant to call them parents, which shows how hard her parents hit her at that time, and Ai Mo said that she was only ten years old.
"At that time, I heard them say, this child is no longer able to rule the law, and I am afraid that it will be like this for the rest of his life. They wanted to have another child, and at that moment, I realized that they were disgusted with me and were going to give up on me. ”
Hearing this, An Ju sighed.
She has met a lot of flawed personality geeks, they don't meet because of personality problems, and they are excluded because of paranoia about certain things, but An Cheng found the shining point in them, those people have re-recognized themselves after finding their own suitable positioning, and when a person succeeds, all the ups and downs in the past have become a kind of grinding in the eyes of others. Some character flaws have also become their trademarks, and no one talks about their past failures anymore, but laments their metamorphosis.
But Ai Mo is different, her character is completely shaped by the outside world, no one knows what the real her should be, so what kind of self should she find?
"You're not afraid that I'll give up on you too?"
An Ju asked after a deep groan, for An Ju, Ai Mo was still just a rescue object. Even if Ai Mo's experience is very sympathetic, even if An Cheng is a little unbearable and distressed, An Ju does not intend to treat it in a caring way.
Momo shook her head, then nodded again.
"Actually, I'm afraid, but there are a lot of things I'm afraid of, so it's nothing to be afraid of being abandoned." Ai Mo said, showing a smile for the first time, the smile was very faint and sad, which made An Xuan's heart suddenly ache, sighed, and then said.
"I will take you out, and I will not give up on you halfway, but you can only rely on yourself to change, and no one can help you with psychological things. Although you come to me, I will not give you a plan for the future, I will fully respect your wishes and provide all you need. Of course, I'm a businessman, and if you achieve something in the future, I hope you remember me. If not, being able to live life the way you like is also a nice reward. ”
"Yes, I see." Ai Mo responded, An Yu said very easily, but very sure, this affirmation made Ai Mo suddenly have a slight expectation for his future.
"But, if you don't have to, don't tell anyone about your ability in the future, believe me, this ability can help you, and it can also harm you."
Anju looked into Ai Mo's eyes, as if to tell her the importance of this with her own eyes.
Ai Mo subconsciously wanted to avoid this cautious gaze, but An Ling's seemed to be different. There are too many things in An Ju's eyes, but Ai Mo can still see real concern, even if An Ju's mouth is still cold, but Ai Mo believes that her feelings will not be wrong, and this long-lost feeling makes her feel at ease. And this faint expression made Ai Mo's heavy heart slowly relax, even if it was just a life-saving straw, Ai Mo was no longer willing to let go.
"Okay, let's try to be a normal person first, and the rest is a later story." An Ju smiled and patted Ai Mo's shoulder, this child's experience did make An Ge feel a little emotional, and she really hoped that she could help her, even if she was provided with a refuge in the future, it would not hurt to provide her with a refuge in the future, her Anqi Foundation was obviously a good haven.
An Yu didn't even notice it herself, although she said that she didn't plan for the future, she still thought of a way out for her.
"I'll try!"
After that, Anjun arranged for Ai Mo to go to the Angel Foundation and became one of the fundees of the foundation. Anju specially arranged for those geeks to meet Ai Mo, and the stories of those weird people made Ai Mo realize that special people also have their own special ways of living, although each of them is different, but it still gives her a little confidence in the future.
The Foundation also invited Chu Huaimiao to conduct a special psychological test for Ai Mo, Chu Huaimiao didn't care about this kind of routine test, after all, Ai Mo had already received too many such tests in the nursing home, especially when Ai Mo wanted to see An Mo again, almost every week of psychological counseling, Ai Mo would ask for a test.
However, when Chu Huaimiao knew that the test results of moxa foam were watery, he was really a little surprised. After all, those test methods and content have been verified by countless experts, and it is difficult for patients to find vulnerabilities through non-technical means.
"Ai Mo, tell Dr. Chu your story!"
The memories of the past are the reverse scales of Ai Mo, and it is extremely painful for Ai Mo to trace the past, but because it was An Ge's request, Ai Mo still nodded and retold the bits and pieces buried deep in her heart.
Chu Huaimiao's experience shocked Chu Huaimiao, he had seen countless psychologically different patients, but he had never seen such a case. Studying the causes of moxa's ability has become the main topic of Chu Huaimiao's spare time.
After discussing with Anju, they decided not to hire a special psychological counselor, after all, the less people know about Aimo's situation, the better. As a result, Ai Mo's psychological treatment and training were handed over to Chu Huaimiao.
Chu Huaimiao couldn't say for a while the reason for the production of this ability of moxa, but now that he understands the troubles of moxa, he can better target training. If you can't eradicate it, you have to at least learn to control it.