Later, the school really expelled her. That day was the last time she came back to school, and the last time I saw her. With my perjury, the people in the school talked about her even more unscrupulously, they insulted her, called her a bitch and a slut, called her disgusting, and called her a sell. Anyway, all the ugly, unpleasant words were used on her. I was annoyed and irritated when I heard it, they were still bullying me, but I didn't plan to resist anymore, I thought that I deserved all this, and that I was doing it all for myself. I hurt her, she shouldn't have been burdened with these infamy, I regret it, I blame myself every day and every night. I couldn't sleep, as soon as I closed my eyes, I would see her, her smiling face, her appearance repeatedly hovering in my mind, it was so vivid that I couldn't forget it. As soon as I fell asleep, she would appear in my dreams, and she would question me in my dreams why I was doing it, and she would point to me and say that she hated me, and she would hate me for the rest of her life. ”

"But why don't I hate myself, every time I wake up in such a dream, I always break out in a cold sweat, and then I dare not close my eyes again. From then on, I couldn't sleep all night long. My insomnia is getting worse and worse, even to the point of fainting frequently. I didn't eat, I didn't drink, I didn't sleep, and during that time, I didn't live like a person at all, and I spent every day in remorse, under mental torture. I wish that more people would come to me in a difficult way, to trample on my self-esteem, to despise my dignity, and to let them do whatever they can to make me fall and embarrass me, and I don't care anymore. It became something I couldn't ask for, and it alleviated my mental pain. ”

"But in the near future, it will be about a month. Her father came to me, and I thought he had come to attack me, to accuse me. I was ready to bear the consequences of all this, even if I was expelled from school, even if I went to the detention center, I had no regrets, and besides, I had no right to resent anyone. ”

"But what I didn't expect was that her father came to handle the transfer procedures for me, and was willing to pay all my tuition fees, as well as my living expenses, until I successfully graduated from high school. I asked her father why he did this, and he told me that she had begged for it, and that she begged her father to give me a bouquet of yellow roses on the day he saw me, and she said that it was my favorite, and that she wanted to see me smile and be happy. ”

"I took the bouquet of yellow roses that her father had given me, and the flowers were in such a splendid bloom that each one was blooming, and there were some droplets of water that were fragrant. Her father said that she had repeatedly taken it off, and that he was going to pick the best and freshest one for me. ”

So I asked her father how she was doing. But her father told me that she had been circumcised twice and attempted suicide, but she was found in time and rescued. In the end, she left a letter to her family and left with the thug, and the letter did not mention anything except for the special care she took care of me. ”

"Listening to her father's words, I felt that my world had become dark, that the whole thing had collapsed, that it had become a piece of gravel. I remember kneeling down to her father and apologizing all the time, but her father told me that it had nothing to do with me, that everything was the crime of her daughter's ignorance. It turned out that she didn't tell the truth of the matter in the end, even with her parents, she despised not being able to tell the truth, but chose to die to prove her innocence. She is such a person who is afraid of pain, I still can't imagine how she cut her skin, how much pain she had at that time, so that she would not hesitate to hurt herself twice, I don't know all of this, and I don't dare to think about it. ”

"All I know is that she chose to defend me, refusing to tell the truth, she can't say it, and she can't say it. As a result, her parents were reluctant to trust her, disappointed in her, and ashamed of it. And she, at this point, had no choice but to flee with the thug. According to her father, she had taken nothing with her, but a single garment and a piece of ornament had been left at home untouched, along with her letter concerning me. ”

"It turns out that she never hated me, she was always thinking about me, even if she knew that I had betrayed her. But in the end, she still thought about me, she didn't say anything to her parents, except that she arranged everything for me in detail. ”

"One day when I packed everything up and was about to be transferred, I still heard a few male and female classmates abusing her. I couldn't hold myself back anymore, and driven by my remorse, self-blame, and nostalgia, I went mad and crazy. I rushed at the men, grabbed them by the hair, and hit them, kicked them, and bit them. Naturally, in the end, I was outnumbered and wounded, my face was cut, my mouth was bleeding, and my arm was dislocated. But I don't regret it, I don't run away, I willingly let them call me crazy and let them beat me together. I'd rather do that, I thought I'd just be killed by them. But no, I still survived, and I didn't tell her parents, I lied all this, and I shamelessly used her father's funding to graduate from another high school. No one came to bully me in the new campus, because they knew that I had a special relationship with the principal, and no one came to provoke me, but I was always alone, and I had no friends. ”

Mother said this, it can be regarded as a real stop, she leaned on Nan Nan's arms, did not make a sound, but Nan Nan clearly felt that her clothes were wet, which made her mother's tears go away.

Nan Nan didn't know what to say, she felt sorry for all that Aunt He Qin had suffered, but at the same time, Nan Nan also felt sorry for any pain her mother had carried, and she couldn't blame her mother, so she had to stroke her mother's back again and again.

"Nannan, do you think that your mother is particularly annoying and hated now?" The mother finally spoke, but she didn't look up at Nannan, she just moved her body uneasily. The mother's voice sounded dull and faint.

"No, Mom, not really. I don't hate you, you're my mother, you're my most beloved person, I can't hate you. Nan Nan stopped reassuring her mother, but instead used her hands to circle her mother's body more tightly, and she replied to her mother, her voice was very soft and her tone was very serious.

Then the mother stopped talking, and she didn't move. And Nan Nan, too, knelt on the carpet, hugged her mother, and did not move.

After about a quarter of an hour, my mother finally left Nannan's embrace, and she wiped the tears on her face and said, "Mom is tired and wants to go back to her room to rest." But her mother never looked up at Nan Nan from beginning to end.

"Okay, I'll help you into the house." Nan Nan didn't force it, just stood up and knelt on the ground for too long, her legs were numb. But Nan Nan didn't say anything, she just put her hands on one of her mother's shoulders, and gestured to pick her up. And her mother didn't shirk, so she stood up from the sofa with Nannan's strength, and Nannan felt that her mother was very weak now, and she was very weak all over.

In this way, the mother borrowed Nannan's strength and went back to the room with her support. In the process, because her mother was powerless, she leaned half of her body on Nan Nan's body, and Nan Nan's legs were numb, and this time it was even more thorny

It hurts. But Nan Nan didn't say anything, she covered it up one by one. It wasn't until Nan Nan accompanied her mother back to her room that Nan Nan's legs were no longer tingling and better.

Nan Nan watched her mother sit on the bed and lay down, so she covered her mother with a quilt and saw that her mother was closed with her eyes closed. Nan Nan had no choice but to walk out of the room lightly, open the door for her mother, walk to the living room, and sit on the sofa.

For a while, Nan Nan couldn't describe what her own mood was, distressed and sad, sad and lost, and guilty and sorry. Nan Nan sighed, her head was heavy, and her mind was also very messy. Nan Nan needed time to digest everything her mother had just said, and she couldn't absorb everything quickly.

Nan Nan lowered her head and saw the teacup that had been knocked over by her mother, and the tea in it was, not a drop was left, all of it was spilled

On the carpet, Nan Nan bent down, picked up the teacup, and put it on the coffee table. There was still a rose left in the teacup, and the rest fell on the carpet, and Nan Nan also picked them up, which were soft and moist in her hand, but she still threw them into the trash.

Nan Nan also took out a few paper towels from the napkin box and absorbed the tea on the carpet as much as possible. After that, Nan Nan threw the wet tissue into the trash can and picked up the teacup again. I went to the kitchen, rinsed it, and put it back on the shelf.

After Nan Nan did this, she came out of the kitchen, glanced at the clock hanging on the wall, and before she knew it, it was already six o'clock in the evening.