Volume II: Chapter 106 Quietly Changed
However, the cheerfulness on Gu Yun's face disappeared after only maintaining a blink of an eye, and instead of it, there was a panicked face. Gu Yun's expression at the moment was a little unnatural, and her eyes when she looked at Nan Nan were also a little dodgy, and her cheeks were originally a little pale, but at this time, they were already stained with an unnatural pink. Of course, it is only limited to the left half of her face, Gu Yun's right cheek is still the brown and black of the scar, no matter how pink it is, it still can't show its opposite color. Gu Yun pursed his lips obviously, and the lip bead was also ravaged by this repeated action several times, and it was much more prominent, round, and extremely cute.
Gu Yun seemed to be a little ashamed, his eyes glanced at Nan Nan's face once, and then quickly moved elsewhere. But it didn't take long for me to sneak my eyes away and pretend to look at it again inadvertently. Such an action of watching and hiding, hiding and watching, but was stunned by Gu Yun over and over again, and it was repeated many times. It's like a child who has done something wrong happens to be watching if his parents will see what they are. Clumsy, funny, but also cautious, aggrieved, I am afraid that it will provoke it. Looking at it, it can't help but make people laugh dumbly, but it's also strange and pitiful.
When Nan Nan saw Gu Yun's appearance, she understood that she was embarrassed and worried about something. Just act as if nothing has happened and don't care about anything. Naturally, Nan Nan didn't care about this, in order to make Gu Yun feel at ease, she had to divert the topic, deliberately snorted, fooled the past, and called her so embarrassed and embarrassed now, "Did you find the canvas bag?" Nan Nan asked like this, and as she spoke, she walked in the direction of Gu Yun. The expression was natural, and there was nothing abnormal, as if he hadn't heard Gu Yun's self-talk at all, and asked and answered himself.
"Ah, yes, yes, I found it." Gu Yun saw that Nan Nan quickly changed the topic, so he hurriedly agreed, and took it down this step. She didn't avoid Tong Nannan's direct gaze, so she hurriedly looked at it head-on. Gu Yun looked at Nan Nan's expression, and didn't see anything unusual, people are just a posture of calmness. I couldn't help but feel relieved and relieved. However, Gu Yun knew very well that Nan Nan heard it, but she didn't care, at least, it was the kind of indifference that she showed on her face. However, it was enough to give Gu Yun a kind of dignity. No matter what, Gu Yun was still sincere and felt a sense of respect. For Nan Nan, she seems to be more and more fond of it, and she is happy with the feeling that Nan Nan gives herself, equal, and takes care of everything everywhere. It was as if it was always under her thoughtful wrapping, safe and uneasy. Because, Gu Yun is sure that Nan Nan will not hurt herself. Therefore, this is also the fundamental reason why Gu Yun unconsciously revealed the most secret corner of her heart in front of Nannan.
"Well, you put this insulated box in a canvas bag along with the contents of this bag and this rosemary. It's more than enough, and it saves a lot of trouble. Otherwise, you won't be able to take so many things. By this time, Nan Nan had already walked in front of Gu Yun. Naturally, she stretched out her hands, held a canvas bag, and came to Nan Nan's eyes. Spread out, in the air, as if to confirm to Nan Nan, comparing the size of the canvas bag, so that she can be sure that the capacity of the canvas bag is indeed the same as what she said, which is true. Gu Yun said as he pouted towards the insulated box and two cans of tea on the wooden table. Since the plastic bag containing the tea was not transparent, Gu Yun couldn't see what it was in for a while. After she finished speaking, she raised her eyes again and looked at Nannan. The crimson on Gu Yun's cheeks still hadn't faded, but it had faded a little, a little like the style of a peach, watery and pink. Xu Yes, because his face was too pale before, and his complexion was not good-looking. Now, it's a faint color, but it looks a lot more alive.
Nan Nan lowered her head and glanced at the canvas bag. It looks like a brand new look, white, with only one English word "flower" on the face, black font, neat, not fancy. But it is very large, taking up the entire middle part of the front of this canvas bag, full, simple, and very solid. This canvas bag is indeed as Gu Yun said, it has a large capacity, the width is about the size of half of a person's forearm, and the distance of the hand from the fingers to the elbows. The height is half as much as the width. With this pot of rosemary, as well as a thermos box and tea leaves, it is indeed much richer. And there are no traces of use on the surface of this canvas bag, it is very clean, and it is still so white that a little dust can be clearly seen.
"Your canvas bag is still new, I still want that ordinary plastic bag." Nan Nan looked at the canvas bag, looked at it, thought about it, and finally refused. After speaking, he raised his head, also looked at Gu Yun, and looked directly. It was also such a raising eye, but Nan Nan saw a kind of tenderness leaking in Gu Yun's eyes. Nan Nan was a little taken aback, and couldn't help but be stunned for a moment, presumably Gu Yun was only able to react completely at this time. She looked at Nannan, and her eyes were full of gratitude. gathered in her eyes, like a mist of water vapor, blinking, the mist in those eyes unconsciously swayed. provoked the light in Gu Yun's eyes to flicker, trembling and trembling, it was really like the stars in the sky, twinkling. Gu Yun's eyes are too clean and pure, and all emotions will inevitably accumulate in them, so that people can guess what she is thinking at a glance.
When Nan Nan saw Gu Yun's appearance, her heart trembled for some reason, it didn't hurt, it was different, she didn't feel palpitations, she didn't feel anything. It's just, ordinary, so shaky. Regarding Gu Yun's emotions, Nan Nan suddenly became a little blurred, not so repulsive, but still as if separated by a thin membrane. Always, it's impossible to get completely close. Suddenly, she regretted that she had just said that refusal, Nan Nan felt that after she said this, she would hurt Gu Yun more or less. However, it was too late now, and after I found out, the words had already been spoken, and it was difficult to take it away.
Sure enough, the veil-like mist in Gu Yun's eyes disappeared most of it after she blinked her eyes a few times in a row. The gratitude in his eyes was still there, but there was another emotion. Nan Nan was difficult to distinguish for a while, such feelings were hidden behind a diaphragm by Gu Yun. The diaphragm was faint, as if it could be punctured fairly easily with just one finger. But in fact, Nan Nan noticed that it was by no means the case, and the diaphragm was very difficult to access, even if it was extremely soft. However, it also gives people a strong sense of distance. The difficult thing is not to puncture this membrane, but to get close to it. Nan Nan knew that this was caused by herself, and she had inadvertently brought a potential harm to Gu Yun. In addition to making her close, it inevitably adds a kind of alienation from it.
"You take it, it's just a bag." Gu Yun didn't say much, and his tone was also light, as soft as ever. But Nan Nan is well aware that there is a connection between them, a fragile, fragile connection. Just like that, abruptly, I was interrupted by myself, and I made such a crisp sound of "pounding". It was obviously a very light and small sound, but in Nannan's ears, it was a sudden sound. It was as if something had exploded, and everything around it had been torn apart.
Nan Nan regretted it a little, but in the end, it was not that serious. It's just a matter of going with the flow, and since it can't be stopped, it can't be made up, so it's just a matter of letting it go. However, her heart felt a sense of loss. I also felt a little blocked in my heart, like a small pebble stuffed in my chest. It's only the size of two or three soybeans, but it makes people care more. You can't ignore it like that, you deserve it. I can't spit it out, I can't swallow it, I can't swallow it, I hold it, it's really uncomfortable.
But Nan Nan didn't know where this sense of loss came from, and why it came to her heart so suddenly, and she couldn't get up or down, so she was stuck there. Vaguely, she noticed something, and she also sensed something. It seems that it is not completely for Gu Yuncai to feel it, of course, she is still one of the reasons, but it is not fundamental. Gu Yun is just a button, playing a role in fueling the fire. really, it's because of Nan Nan's own heart, the darkest and most selfish corner.
Nan Nan's insecurity is true, she knows, she has always known. What I need is a feeling of being loved, a feeling of being protected, and being favored. These are all buried by themselves, not discovered by others, of course, in order to hide themselves, to conceal the darkest existence in their hearts. Quietly, without any notice.