Perhaps few people are firm when it comes to what will happen in the future.

Because the future is full of too many uncertainties, sometimes just a small choice can change a big direction.

Xinrou is afraid of the uncertain things that will happen in the future, and she can't imagine what it will be like to face this big city alone.

In the past, when my brother was there, at least I could have a spiritual support, but now my brother is leaving, and he has to return to that dark place, and now there is no one who can rely on him.

Why is it always so unfair, some people are born with a golden spoon in their mouths, and some people are destined to wander for a lifetime.....

If I could, I really wanted to find a personal theory, but no one seemed to be able to answer this question, yes, who would want to answer this kind of question, I'm afraid that some people can't even live well!

"Don't cry, I know what will happen after I go back, but I really have no choice, I really can't survive here, we all think of the big city too simply, we think that as long as we come here, we can stay, but we are all wrong, we have to pay hundreds of times more than ordinary people, or even thousands of times the effort to stay here, in the past few years, I am really tired" The kind of effort that does not know the direction and is constantly confused is in vain after all, when is this kind of day the end.

Maybe this girl, who is a few years younger than herself, can't understand these words, maybe when she gets in touch with her for a while, she will also have such thoughts.

"But are you really going to go back? Are you just giving up on the faith and determination we wanted to stay here in the first place? Xinrou is full of infinite panic about the future, it seems that there is no one who can save her, a deep sense of powerlessness, and she does not know what she is seeking to live in this world.

"Life is always like this, there is no way, if you can't even live a good life, what energy and time do you have to think about other things? In the past few years, I have been really tired, sometimes I can't sleep for a few hours a day, I always feel in a trance in the face of everything around me, I don't know when I will be able to get through this kind of day, instead of continuing like this, I still want to go back, back to that dark place, so I should have adapted to that environment a long time ago"

He kept telling about the pain that happened at that time, but this period of time was really a life that was difficult for people to understand, going out early and returning late, and he didn't know what he was busy with, and he couldn't eat a good meal a day, so he lived in embarrassment, and lived here secretly? It seems that some can't do it, but she can't go back when she turns around, and she thinks about this matter for a long, long time, and finally makes this decision.

"But we have hope only if we stay here, don't we? You told me these words at the time, how could you forget? Xinrou said.

There was silence for a long time on the other side, yes, these words were all said by him, out of a kind of encouragement and out of an emotional sustenance, now that I think about those words, it is no longer enough for me to be able to stay in the support of this big city, only to know how naïve those words have been so far, and it is not a simple matter to want to stay in this city.

Everywhere he goes, it's an abyss, he would rather go back to the familiar place before, he also wants to have a good normal rest, in fact, there are not many people who want it, but there are very few people who can understand.....

"So if you can stay, of course I hope that you can change your life in the future by staying here, but if you will make the same choice as me in the future, then I will also support you, because I can deeply experience this feeling, maybe you will understand it when you reach my stage"

Brother's words always make Xinrou feel inexplicably panicked, do you really have to go alone in the future? The future is unknown, it's blank, and there's not even a person to accompany you, it's really scary to think about.

But since my brother has made a choice, there is no way to persuade him anyway, he is such a stubborn person, he wanted to come to this city, but he also insisted on going his own way, and now he wants to leave, no one can persuade him.

"Now that my brother has thought about it, then I have nothing more to say, but I still hope to put the future in the hands of this city, I can't go back" After going back, fate can not be in his own hands, and he will marry someone he doesn't like at all like everyone else to give him a child, husband and children, but that is not the life he yearns for, but it is the long-cherished wish of someone who has not been firmly chosen.

Indeed, they will find a good family, and the so-called good family is one with better living conditions, more wealth, and can support the mother's medical expenses, which is the most important thing.

And the so-called love and affection are the least important ranks, because they don't realize this, maybe they are destined from the age of nine.

"A person must be here well, if there is anything in the future, tell me as soon as possible, no matter how far away I am from you, I will rush over as soon as possible"

My brother's words are still so heartwarming, but the distance is very far, and if I want to rush over, I'm afraid it's impossible, and I guess this sentence is just a casual remark.

"No, since my brother has made a decision, then I will naturally respect my brother's choice, and I will work hard in the future, I will work hard to stay in this city, hoping to get my share of the light from this city" Xinrou said.

After hanging up the phone, I couldn't calm down for a long time, and my brother left like this, and there was originally a familiar person in this strange city, but now it's completely gone.

Life is so cruel in the first place, everything that happens will make people become unprepared, and few things can be smooth sailing, as if there are no such praise words in their dictionary......

If life can make new choices, perhaps most people will still lose some things in disguise for the so-called profit points, and those things that are lost are often very precious.

The yearning for the future and the innocence for the future will slowly be consumed in this process.....

But that's not what they just wanted to do when they came here! Sure enough, time will verify many things, and many things will change.

"I believe in you, you are a very smart girl, since you were a child, I hope you can break into your world here"

My world? Will there really be that day?

Xinrou couldn't believe it, and she didn't dare to think that her brother was a very talented person, but he chose to leave at such a juncture, what did he experience during this time? Why didn't he talk about it, he just said he was tired?

Will you be more tired after work than when you were in school? Is it more tiring than studying at night.....

"It seems that I'll be the only one in the future, it's really just...."Xinrou was alone in the house, and there was an indescribable sense of loneliness, as if there was no one here who was like-minded with her except her brother, just like their home had always been here, and they didn't have to think about housing.

Xinrou's whole mood is extremely low, to be precise, it can be negative, but there are a lot of inner words, it seems that she can't talk to anyone, and she can't become a point of ridicule in others' hearts because of these words, after all, people are separated from their stomachs, and she is always very cautious.

Carefully hiding his thoughts, and not knowing whether this will work, always brings a feeling of not being good at words to the people around him.

It's not that Xinrou doesn't like to talk, but she doesn't know what to say when she gets along with her peers, there are a lot of bad things in life, they can't understand, because they haven't experienced it, they have a lot of happy places, even if they tell themselves, they don't understand, this is a primitive person who has just crossed over from ancient times, facing everything around him so new, like a dirt bun who has just entered the city.

It seems that no one in the city wants to play with a local bun, and he is not willing to introduce those brands too much, at most he will smile and never say anything again, and he will not take her with him next time he goes shopping.

This seems to be a tacit understanding between them, the kind of tacit understanding that they didn't say hello beforehand.

Xinrou is not used to being alone, but she has to be alone, many consumption levels are beyond her reach, and they can sometimes spend half a month's living expenses on a meal, which is a very terrible nightmare for herself.

Spending money so lavishly, how to live in this city in the future, Xinrou is afraid.

She doesn't participate in every event held in the dormitory, because when it comes to expenses, there are many things that she doesn't want to participate in and don't want to answer, and it seems that this day has reached a common agreement with most people, and sometimes they don't call themselves when they go out to eat, and that feeling is really indescribably sad.

When will Tubaozi be able to integrate into the city, and why can't this city be friendly to a newcomer?

Of course, there are a lot of lights in the big city, but a meal costs a lot of money, and it is too difficult to make money and save money, Xinrou seems to understand her brother's pain points in an instant, but she is still full of hope for the future.

As long as you save some money, you can still save some money, she thought.

After hanging up the phone, my heart couldn't be calm for a long time, my brother chose to leave like this, giving up the plan he had made before, and everything ended quietly.....

Xinrou doesn't want to accept such a result, especially in the face of a like-minded person with her, he has always been her role model, but one day the role model will become a person she doesn't like very much, she firmly believes that as long as she can stay in this city, everything will be settled.

Because as long as you turn back, everything is uncontrollable, and if you go back to that dark place, there is really no turning back.

At that time, life is not something you can choose, and it is really not interesting to live like that.

"Xinrou, didn't you go out to eat today?" Malt pushed the door and walked in.

The dormitory has become much more active during the mealtime.