"I'm sorry." Bai Sijin put her head against Li Nanzhi's back, tears were already wet, she should be content, at least he once loved her, and there were good memories between them.

It was she who personally ruined the love between them and put herself in a desperate situation, but now nothing can make up for the mistakes she made, only one sentence "I'm sorry", but is this sorry useful?

"I know it's too late to say anything, and the tragedy has already been done, so I'm going to turn myself in and atone for the mistakes I've made." Bai Sijin hugged Li Nanzhi and quietly repented.

Outside the floor-to-ceiling window is the entire splendid city, which is wrapped in various neon lights, giving people a gorgeous and noble sense of déjà vu, so that countless people follow one after another, even if they hit their heads and bleed, they still want to enter this vulgar world.

In this material world, too many people have lost to money, even if their bodies are already piled up in front of them, but they can still only see the moon on the top of the mountain, and finally disappear in the drift.

"Nanzhi, please believe that my original intention with you was out of love, but in the end, I still couldn't escape the shackles of reality, and the dream I once had could only become a dream."

"Actually, self-deception is nothing more than that, I know that you love Nan Yuxi, but I still want to grab your hand and keep you by your side selfishly, thinking that you can always be with me."

Saying that, Bai Sijin hugged Li Nanzhi tightly, she knew that he was about to leave her side and go to find the woman who really made his heart move, love what she loved, think about what she thought, and always accompany her, never abandon, forever.

And this is the dream she has always thought of! She has been material, but she has also been sincere, she has dedicated all her youth to the man in front of her, but she only got the love she once had, leaving her alone to pursue the past that was forgotten by time.

Li Nan's heart moved slightly, Bai Sijin's words touched his heart, he is not a ruthless and unrighteous person, on the contrary, he is still sensitive to the people around him.

"Sijin." Li Nanzhi wanted to turn around and hug Bai Sijin, but he was hugged tightly by Bai Sijin just slightly.

"Don't move, that's it, please don't give me hope again, otherwise, I don't know what else I will do, in fact, I always thought that the harm to Nan Yuxi was just relying on your favor for me, and I felt that you would always be by my side and would not abandon me."

"But it's different now, since you have chosen Nan Yuxi, please leave decisively, don't give me any hope, let me be nostalgic for you, shake for you, the decision that was finally made, I don't want it to change again, I think, this is not what you want to see." Bai Sijin said behind Li Nanzhi.

is still wearing the white gauze dress, she puts her head against the back of her beloved man, trying to let herself stick to him, smelling the smell that belongs to him.

Waist-length curly hair, innocent face, no trace of metallic decoration on the body, not even a little trinkets.

It's like an angel, but this angel is an angel who has fallen into the mortal world, and her wings have been polluted, and I'm afraid it will be a long, long time before she wants to take off again.

And during this period, everyone has their own life.

Time passes minute by minute, it will not speed up, nor will it slow down to get rid of anyone, but in this mediocre reality, who is not racing against time? How many people will remember her in the future? Will you talk about her?

What is the purpose of man coming to this world? What is not brought by life and not brought by death, is it just like a flower that appears for a while, the flower blooms, and finally returns to the soil?

But with so many flowers, not to mention the variety, only to say the same kind, who will remember you alone? It's just a faint remark: "These flowers are so beautiful." Then he turned away, smiling at the corners of his mouth, but not nostalgic at all.

Maybe from the next moment, this man will not belong to him at all, Bai Sijin thought.

So she tried to remember all of him, this was all the company of Qinchun, sadness filled the whole room, and only Bai Sijin's subtle voice was quiet.

"Nanzhi, please allow me to call you that one last time, please remember that there was a person who once loved you." Bai Sijin said that the tears fell even more violently.

She mustered up the courage to let go of Li Nanzhi, but every word she said was extremely painful, so that she couldn't help herself, she wanted to let go of Li Nanzhi and let her go to Nan Yuxi, but as she let go of her mind sentence by sentence, she hugged her tighter, as if someone wanted to forcibly separate her and Li Nanzhi.

In the end, enough of crying, enough stubbornness, let go.

Bai Sijin hung his hands weakly on his sides, lowered his head, and said lightly: "You go, Nan Yuxi needs your company very much now, if you stay here, she will be very angry, she is angry, you will be heartbroken, your heart hurts,...... Let's go! ”

Li Nanzhi looked at the front and breathed heavily, his heart seemed to be pressing on a thousand golden stones, and the heaviness made him breathless.

But he understands that this is not love, just reluctance to accompany Bai Sijin for a long time, but no matter how much he doesn't love, he still has feelings.

Li Nanzhi hesitated for a moment, turned around and hugged Bai Sijin in his arms, and after only two seconds, he retreated, without saying a word, and turned around and left with a depressed face.

Bai Sijin saw it, his steps were a little anxious, maybe he wanted to escape, afraid that he would regret him, maybe he was worried about Nan Yuxi, who was still lying on the hospital bed, and now, only she could make him so nervous.

"Smack!" The door closed.

Lonely, lonely, depressed, lonely... The room was filled all over the place for a moment, and Bai Sijin felt that the air was extremely cold, which gave her goosebumps.

A night without you, even standing in a room at thirty-eight degrees feels cold and terrifying.

Bai Sijin slowly squatted down, hugged his arms tightly, because he had been suppressed for too long just now, suddenly burst out, buried his head in the crook of his arm and cried.

There is no starlight behind him, only ants-like crowds and high-rise buildings, how can such a city be full of stars? Sometimes, even the moon is reluctant to come out to see the hustle and bustle of the city.

Bai Sijin cleaned up the room little by little, and the past was vivid.

Bai Sijin looked at the big bed, remembering that he was sick before, Li Nanzhi fed himself medicine, he still refused to take it, all kinds of temper, at that time he would always coax her in various ways, now think about it, why was he so cheap at the beginning, now, let alone feeding medicine, even his figure is gone.

When he left, he not only took himself, but also all his breath here, and he really didn't leave a trace of thought.

How warm this room used to be! Bai Sijin couldn't help but sigh, he only knew how to cherish when he lost, but no matter how much he cherished it, he had already lost it.

She remembered that if she accidentally slipped in the bathroom, he would kick the door open and rush in, and she just looked at him with a confused look on his face and said, "I just accidentally slipped a little." And he looked at her with an embarrassed face.

She remembered that when she was hungry, he would cook for her, scold her for being stupid to death, and not pour oil on scrambled eggs, and she just looked at him and giggled as he was busy.

He remembered that he held her on the balcony to bask in the sun, which was warm and very comfortable.

……

But that's just before, since Nan Yuxi appeared, everything has changed.

Now, she's lost, and she's lost completely.

Bai Sijin looked at everything in the room, his eyes were full of reluctance, that feeling... Those who have not experienced it cannot feel the heartache from the perspective of the equal.

Bai Sijin turned on all the lights that could be turned on in the room, and the whole person curled up on the sofa, as if this could give her enough security.

But why? The emptiness continued to eat away at her body. Bai Sijin hugged himself tightly.

On TV, the variety show "Run, Brother" was playing, and the people on TV laughed and laughed so brightly, as if the sun was blazing above their heads, shining with dazzling light.

But Bai Sijin cried, the happier the people on TV laughed, the more fierce she cried, just crying and crying, but the tears never stopped.

How can a vision blurred by tears see everything in front of him?

Bai Sijin smiled and cried. It's like you're talking to someone.

Li Nanzhi rushed to the hospital in a hurry, and all that echoed in his mind was Xi Lingyan's words. In his heart, he kept praying that Nam Yuxi was safe.

In the end, tears flowed down with sweat on both cheeks.

On the other side –

Xi Lingyan sat on the chair and looked at the operating room in front of her in a daze, thinking about everything about herself and Nan Yuxi, it seemed that she had always been protecting her, every time, Nan Yuxi would stand in front of her, pull out all the thorns for her, and not let her suffer the slightest grievance.

It's just that why she has never been hurt, just because she loves someone deeply, she has to go through so many hardships, and the safety of her life is also affected.

When did her Yu-hee suffer so much? She's never been on the operating table, will she be afraid? Wouldn't a person be very aggrieved and bored after being quiet for so long?

Xi Lingyan's eyes were red, and his mind was full of Nan Yuxi.

As soon as Li Nanzhi arrived, he saw Xi Lingyan with red eyes, his face was pale and he was lying on the side of the chair retching, and he hurriedly stepped forward to ask Xi Lingyan.

"It's okay, did you catch Bai Sijin?" Xi Lingyan looked at Li Nanzhi with dry eyes, and asked lightly, since Nan Yuxi fell, she has always been strong, but this time she really can't be strong.

"Nope." Li Nanzhi faced Xi Lingyan's inquiry, and turned to look at the three big characters in the operation lightly.

In the face of Bai Sijin, he still has selfish intentions, he hopes that she can turn herself in instead of being arrested, the gap between the two is very big.

"How is she?"

"You can be in a vegetative state and never wake up." Xi Lingyan also looked at the words "during surgery".

Li Nanzhi's eyelashes trembled, his hands clenched unconsciously, and he turned his head to look at Xi Lingyan incredulously.

It's just that before he could speak, Nan Mu came, looking at Li Nanzhi looking at the front of the operation door, Nan Mu rushed to Li Nanzhi and yelled at him, telling him to get out.

Xi Lingyan hurriedly stepped forward to appease Nan's mother, and seeing that Nan's mother was emotionally unstable, she had to let Li Nanzhi leave first.