Xiao Xia, my mother is thinking about making a will for a while, and she will write down all her belongings, and she will leave them to her grandfather and grandmother to support them. As for you, Mom chooses not to pave the way for your future.

Mom wants to explain something to you here today.

The flattery and sense of responsibility for grandparents is a belief that my mother can hardly escape, and it is inherited. This feeling is very distorted, and in the eyes of my mother, this is almost the beginning of the tragedy of my mother's life. Mom didn't understand, and she hated the tragic responsibility that came with this sense of oppression. But this kind of tradition that cannot be inquired about, and the unquestionable morality, has become a great law in the mouths of grandparents, no matter how disgusted my mother is, but it is like being suppressed by Wuzhi Mountain, and she can't turn over.

As mentioned here, one is all the mother's substance, and the other is the mother's all the behavior. Mom will make a will for them now, and Mom will force herself to help her realize any wish because of Grandma's wishes.

In my mother's eyes, this state is sick. But Mom seemed to need to do it. Mother's life seems to be to win the smile of this old couple.

When it came to satisfying them, Mom felt that the impossible wish of nothingness, the painful torment, was like an active and towering volcano, which made Mom grow old and dry up in an instant. Mom will never satisfy them, but she still climbs where the lava flows.

Nowadays, my mother has learned a lot of ways to live under active consciousness, and knows that as long as you live with active thinking, you will always have a choice. But my mother sometimes thinks of the moths that put out the fire, and the temptation of fate they are subjected to can be thrown away by life and death, and there is no choice. Mother's situation, could this be the case?

Mom longs so much for grandpa to smile. The kind of satisfaction, the satisfaction of feeling that I have passed. Mom felt that it was difficult, it was difficult to go to the sky, but she didn't want the life she longed for.

The reason why the mother wants to give everything to them may be partly because she hopes that they will feel that the mother has paid off the debt according to the agreement between life and death, and partly because of something else.

This kind of debt repayment routine can often be felt by my mother. This is the kind of feeling, not just for grandparents, but on their basis, it can be felt in many people.

When Mom and Dad just got married, Mom's family didn't contribute money, and Dad's family didn't contribute money. Such a rebellious scene that my mother will never understand in her life made my mother bear a double sin.

Grandpa completely lost money, and Dad completely lost money, all because of Mom.

For grandparents, the image of my mother repaying debts and pleasing them is eternal. As for Dad, Mom feels that long after getting married, Dad takes Mom's salary as it should be, as if Mom is paying off debts, which is both familiar and unfamiliar.

It's familiar because mom is also pleasing dad. When Dad thought that he would make some money, he didn't get anything, so Mom used his monthly salary to make up for his expectations. This kind of flattering feeling is very familiar to my mother in herself. And the strangeness is because grandpa is more of a disappointment, a kind of contempt, and dad is also a shrewd look of the boss who has made a loss-making deal.

If you want to bear it, in fact, Dad looks even better.

When my mother got married, she fell into more debts than before. After my mother disappointed my grandfather and my father, my mother was in debt and lived for a few years, until today, she recovers as a person.

In addition to my father, my mother will also have the illusion of paying off her debts from time to time.

Now Mom thinks, maybe it's all a mother's hallucination, and no one has the idea of collecting debts from Mom. Everything was done voluntarily by my mother to put out the fire, because this is what my mother was born to do.

So, my mother wanted to pay off some of the debts after leaving. Even if it's just a little, even if it's just a little, I want to put out the fire and see.

As for you, your mother is out of trust in your father's ability to pave the way for you, and secondly, she has once again inherited a part of her destiny, and there is no deep-rooted awareness of the need to pave the way for you, just like grandpa grandpa has begun to think about feeding back when his mother was still a minor, and they never think that there should be anything to pave for. In addition to the must-haves, the others do not ask for quick returns, which is already a great favor that cannot be sought.

In my mother's consciousness, the dross that is independent and cleaned up is probably only the idea of giving back what I expect from you, but whether it should pave the way for you is still not a high priority.

Xiao Xia, in her mother's life, the support she has received, or the road she has stepped on, the extent to which it has been paved in advance, and what her mother expects, is almost less than half.

In my mother's life, the love I received and the reason my mother expected, no matter what kind of origin, were almost less than half.

What kind of feeling is that?

That feeling is patience with the unsatisfactory performance of others. To your grandfather, to your father, to the people around you, the reluctant patience of the unsatisfactory performance.

Mom wants so much love, wants understanding, and wants so many things, and when she was young, it was very different from what she received. Now that I think about it, I can still say that it was because I didn't understand the boundaries of material and psychological desires when I was a child. And now, the gap between the comfort, support and what mom wants is so big that there is no reason to explain it. The gap between the ideal and the reality is so great that it is like a person who is dying of thirst in the desert.

But on both sides of the line, needs and demands have changed, and these changes have only increased the gap, but have not narrowed the distance with age. Mom's needs no longer involve material things, and grandpa has almost completely stopped the output of the mind. This distance is so pulled, we have nothing to do with it.

When Mom and Dad were together, until we were separated, Dad made a lot of effort for Mom, if Mom had to give an evaluation, it was very weak and not enough to leave an impression.

If you want a whole cake for your mother's birthday, then your mother may only get a dime, or nothing.

That feeling, mom might pass on to you. That feeling that no one is paying for you or paving the way, or rather, you always get a feeling that you are not as good as you should be.

Xiaoxia, my mother will not tell you like my grandfather said to my mother, everything in life depends on you. No, Mom doesn't want to kick you out of the cold pool all at once. The reason why Mom can't give you the kind of life Mom wants is just because Mom has it now, and she can only pay the debts that come from it.

Mom said a lot, in fact, I want to explain to you that the master of fate may have the upper hand at the last moment of Mom. I hope you can see your mother's compromise with yourself and her confession to you.

Xiao Xia, if in the end, Mom leaves everything to Grandpa, if you want to blame Mom, Mom fully understands. If you can understand your mother a little bit, then it will be a blessing for your mother in this life.