Xiao Xia, my mother's last farewell essay has not been written yet, and she has really left our past home. Before leaving, Mom secretly sniffed Dad's closet, hugged your photo, and finally came here so blandly. I really hope that this part of my life will pass soon.

In the final stage of packing up, my mother took some of my father's things, one was for souvenirs, and the other was for what reason, and my mother couldn't say clearly.

Dad said today that Mom is stealing, that's the second reason, nothing is unclear. But my mother felt that things should be much more complicated than that. I don't know if every thief has a complex kernel of drama. If so, there is no shortage of mothers who sublimated their own theft.

Today, Mom and Dad said that they hoped that as the people who left this apartment, the former nominal owner of this apartment, they could take everything they wanted. After all, the house was left for Dad, and Mom started from scratch and needed some basic daily necessities. And that's what Dad had promised.

But here my mother forgot something, that is, when my mother was the nominal owner of this apartment, she did not have such a right, and at that time, after my mother handed over the money to my father, even if she went out to eat, my father did not forget to say, this is what I asked you, return the money to me. Of course, it was a joke at the time, but it was also a bit of an inside story. In fact, since then, my mother has already felt that the situation is as if my mother's money has never been counted, but only the number on his account. Dedication to the family is not recognized.

So Dad naturally won't get used to it, Mom still wants to compensate herself and take away all the daily necessities and souvenirs.

There are two vacuum cleaners in the house, and when my mother proposed to take one away today, my father said that he would use the video of my mother not wearing clothes to sue my mother for falling in love with other people after my father left with the marriage certificate. A vacuum cleaner, a compensation for it, a warning to me not to lose a big one.

Mom also said that Dad's cheating and domestic violence came first. So Dad used his killer weapon, saying that Mom had no evidence, but Dad had Mom's video.

In fact, such quarrels and arguments are not very interesting.

Mom just felt that through the current scene, two things really shocked her.

One is the kind of dispute that we think will arise when we get divorced, no matter how much we think that we have not grown up yet, and we are still full of innocence, the kind of dispute that arises for money and interests will really appear, almost inevitably. The second is that everyone has to find a way to avoid cognitive separation, so they will eventually convince themselves. As my mother heard, even the executioner thinks that he is righteous, let alone divorce, which is difficult to distinguish between the two parties.

Today Dad is very excited, or Mom thinks he is very excited, I feel that it is easy for him to talk about things on the line, and he has been involved in all the problems until after he left, and Mom started a relationship without signing with him, this matter. wanted to take out the video and make it public, and he also mentioned it twice.

Mom also-for-tat, telling him that he cheated online, and people ran away and took away the marriage certificate, do you have to wait for him for the rest of his life.

Look at it now, my mother has said this kind of thing many times, and in the end, half of it is for my father, and half for myself.

Like Dad's approach, in fact, you always have to give yourself a satisfactory explanation. The difficulty of accepting a glorified memory is obvious compared to accepting that you are a wicked person.

Dad didn't admit that he cheated first, and second, he would never trust his mother, and then mention it in front of his mother. He is also worried that the evidence he values the most will be held by his mother because he leaked his mouth for a while.

Xiao Xia, in fact, Mom and Dad are partners like children. All these things I am doing now are a bit parroting. But I guess no one is going to be so experienced in divorce and arguments right away. But Mom felt that Dad and Dad were really pediatrics.

What does the final separation have to do with what we are talking about, but there is no love, plus selfishness. This is true for both people. But it is not necessary to blame the other party. In exchange, it's probably a fantasy that has been beautified. Finally, in the dark, there is only one person who needs to accept what he has done, at that time, whether we cry bitterly, regret it, or feel at ease, the sin is not mine, it may depend on who is faster at this time.

Dad also said today that Mom's behavior like this is expected by him. When my mother cleaned up, she took away the daily necessities, and not only that, but also touched his territory. Dad said that Mom would be like this, he had already thought of it.

Mom coped with it and Dad answered a few words. Explain that the things will be cleaned up and returned to him anyway, so that he doesn't have to go on the platform, stand on the moral high ground, and say ugly things. Mom behaved well, calmly, and decently, no matter how sarcastic and humiliated she was, Mom stood up.

But when I took a shower tonight, my mother cried silently again. This is another very intense silent cry after the last one. Second.

While crying, my mother thought that she had expected to steal, so what could be unexpected?

Mom should silently take only her own clothes, leave everything behind, or even take nothing at all, and just leave. That's unexpected, isn't it?

In fact, my mother also wants to be so chic. Who doesn't want to be so chic.

Let's think about this setting, yes, everything from my mother, including you, was given to my father, but now, my mother wants to give up everything and leave in style, and at the same time, my father will be shocked by my mother's free and easy, and maybe he will look at my mother differently.

In this way, it really starts from scratch. Go to the new room, sleep on the floor for a while, and slowly, build a small home, buy cups, chopsticks, and toilet paper.

Don't trouble your father, don't trouble other people, really run around and get tired, start again.

Such an advantage is that even the father who is now speaking ill of each other, he will also admire it, and he will also feel that his mother is really free and easy.

And what my mother has to face may be a stronger sense of grievance and unworthiness than now, but in addition, there should be nothing wrong with it.

When it comes to this feeling of grievance and rough worthiness, it feels funny, much like getting drunk and wanting to vomit. An uncomfortable feeling in my chest, very strong, but every time the vomit comes up, I try to suppress it. Every time I think about this divorce, this time my father's video and the means of calculating money, my mother will have a feeling of wanting to vomit and can't stop it.