The more you care about a thing, the more disgusting a place is, you break away with great fanfare, it's really unnecessary, there's no need to engage in such a big battle, just like a killer who is determined to kill a person, she will not tell others about her motives and behaviors, and it is about a sunny morning, maybe you will still be greeted with a smile, the knife has been stabbed in the chest, everything that you have made up your mind to do, you will be done.

I came to the underworld, and that day I ran around this city, and I have to say that this city was like a living city, and I mixed and mixed the gates all open for me, and there were no ghosts to beat the walls.

I grinned, and the ghosts around me said to me: "You little fox still forget about becoming a god, there are really not many monsters who become gods, almost none, the thunder will make you disappear, just be a demon, is it not good to live comfortably?" Be at ease. ”

Many people persuaded me, but most of them thought I was stubborn and felt that I should keep to myself.

Why! I don't.

Another ghost said to me, "Yes, your qualifications are mediocre, don't care about one or the other." ”

Maybe it was influenced by Lu Juan: "Get out!"

They were stunned.

I wiped away my tears and said loudly, "Didn't you hear you telling you to go?!"

There are always gods, do those who are gods know that they can be gods? Are they born to succeed? What if I hold on a little longer and I find my gem? What if it digs another shovel and I give up because my psychological defenses have collapsed? It's a shame.

The price is nothing more than achievement, defeat is dregs, so what, it is nothing more than death. I'm not afraid, because I don't really want to live.

I walked back to the dormitory in discouragement, I was empty behind me, very lonely and lonely, because I knew what I had lost, so I was extremely determined, there was nothing, I was afraid of losing something, living advice: don't be like a beggar to compromise and humble and flattering life, and be shy to fulfill others disgusting themselves.

I used to be too compromised, I thought about others in everything, aren't you getting more and more disgusting with me, as if I deserve to be bullied, I deserve to compromise and then lose, I don't seem to have a heart, you are my words, does it hurt?

I used to think that I was silent, and time would tell, but the world is sometimes blind.

When Lu Juan saw me, he stretched out his arms and smiled at me: "If you're tired, just rest." ”

The injured 'bird' threw himself into that big embrace, crying bitterly and not afraid of being disgusted and ridiculed.

He said to me, "It's all right, that's how I used to be." It's okay if the road is difficult, what I'm afraid of is that you give up by yourself. The opportunity must be seized. ”

Of course I know, it's really hard to become a god. I'm not convinced, I just don't want to give up, it's a demon dream, it's very important.

He took me to a place, it was a deep sea, and we went into the sea. I watched the fish, shrimp and crabs running inside, watching the algae swaying with the water, and the bubbles floating around, and suddenly I met the shrimp soldiers and crabs.

Lu Juan stopped to greet them.

The crab soldier ate relatively fat, and his stomach was bulging: "Judge Lu hasn't been here for a while." ”

Lu replied: "It's been a while. ”

The shrimp soldier's two long beards swayed with the water: "Let's go and report to our dragon king." ”

Lu Juan hurriedly smiled and shook his hand: "No, no, no, let's change the day, today is to bring a friend to see something." ”

The shrimp soldiers and crab generals laughed one after another: "We understand." ”

The shrimp soldier said: "This little girl is your friend, we won't ask more, and we will leave if there is something else." ”

The crab general also hurriedly said, "Farewell." ”

I watched them walk away and asked, "They all know you, you know a lot of people, where do you want to take me?" ”

He looked mysterious: "It's a secret, you'll know it when you arrive." Then he suddenly stood behind me and blindfolded me with his hands.

"Hey, what?" I panicked.

He said, "Shhhhh ”

I just walked and walked with my feelings, and then I felt that Lu Juan didn't push me away, and I also stopped. "Is it there?"

Lu Juan said: "It's here." Then he let go.

I opened my eyes and was stunned by the spectacle before me.

The high water gate shone with golden light, and above our heads, there were whirlpools, and the road to there was not easy, and I watched the fish swim there.

His left arm was on my shoulder: "It's my favorite thing to watch." ”

This is the carp jumping dragon gate.

I stared intently, and the fish were eager to try.

Some pluck up the courage to swim forward to the moment they are jumped, but they lose their courage and swim back before they jump.

Some jumped, but they were still far, far, far away.

None of those fish had to give up.

He said: "What you have to do is also being done by others, fortunately you are not alone, everyone is the same, but don't be happy, there are many hard workers, and there are many competitors." ”

I nodded.

He said, "If you are one of the fish, why do you go up to the dragon gate?" You know, your hard work and strength can, the moment you jump the dragon gate, you have the same kind but not the same kind of companion. ”

Who has not worked hard, who has not spared no effort. We are one kind, but not companions.

He said, "Do you feel lonely? But how can there be any fish that leap over the dragon gate to discuss together, 'Oh, brother, let's one, two, three, jump together, cross together.' He laughed wantonly, "Okay, brother, count three together, one, two, three, and go." ”

I think it's funny.

He said, "Think it's funny, you think it's funny, then what is a person afraid of." ”

It dawned on me that his words were not hurricanes, but they were like cat's paws, scratching my heart again and again, and hurting again and again. Every time.

I said sincerely, "You are a good teacher. ”

He said: "That's how I persuaded myself, I survived one lonely day after another, you're okay, you have me." Do you know that the land judgment back then was only the land judgment. He looked into my eyes.

I was flustered and sour.

That sentence: Do you know that the Lu judgment back then was only the Lu judgment.

It is conceivable that he is really hard.

I said, "It's okay, you'll have me from now on." I paused, because I didn't have much confidence, "Even though you've gotten through it." ”

He pointed to the dragon gate and said, "Look." ”

I looked in the direction he was pointing, and one of the fish was the one that had just dared not jump, and it arched itself and jumped up, and it shook as it crossed the whirlpool, and it fell.

My heart clenched: "It's over, it's a pity." ”

I saw it writhe in pain, then took a few steps back, and jumped up again.

This time it crossed the whirlpool and crossed the dragon gate? Yes, that's right, isn't the big dragon with a golden light shining at the Dragon Gate just a little carp that has just flinched!

My heart is complicated: "Everything in the world is diverse, only faith cannot be abandoned." ”

He said: "To be honest, the fish thinks it is hanging, but the difference between this fish is that the moment it jumps, it thinks it will be able to do it!"

If you don't try, how do you know that you can't do it, and what if you fail once, there is a word in this world called repeated triples.

What we need in this world is certainty.

I said, "It's really shocking." ”

He said: "The answer is that you look at the people who work hard, it doesn't matter if you hold back, everything is the best answer." ”

Sometimes the answer is not asked, and the answer is understood without a word. No matter what kind of question you have, you don't even need to ask it, you will be very clear if you use your heart.

Like I once asked Lu Juan if you would leave?

Even if you answer that you won't leave, you won't leave anyone who should leave at that time. What he did was the best answer, and I firmly believed that he would not leave, and the silence was realized.

He said: "You have to understand what is truly your own, your ability is your own, others are someone else's, I am my own." ”

There is a story like this, there are two people who agreed together, you are mine, I am yours, unswerving, never abandoned. There is a person who once gave up something for a person, and others felt very envious and convinced that they could go to the end unless the universe was destroyed, but the centrifugal person was the person who gave up something very important for a person in the first place.

What should you believe, what do you dare to believe, will you complain? My youth was handed over, and I was sure that it was you, but you were centrifuged. But when I resolutely gave up some things, others didn't blink.

I said, "I understand, I must not give up the opportunity to make myself more and more powerful, because without emotion, at least there is something else to surround me, and I will not have nothing." ”

He said, "If one day I am gone, you will not be afraid, because you are strong enough. ”

Don't take a person forever, everything is empty and empty, some are soap bubbles that burst at the touch of a button, and some are indeed as solid as a rock.

I want to say: you can leave at any time, I was ready for a long time.

Just like the thousands of family fortunes earned by a businessman, he is ready to scatter his wealth every day, even if a catastrophe comes, it will not be painful.

I said, "I know." ”

Because I have seen too much discrete and been abandoned too much, I dare not be too full of anything when I touch anything, and I have room to sit and plan for the worst. The closer I get, the more I stab myself when I'm happy, and I'll go, I'll leave, I'll lose. I couldn't really be happy about any achievement, because I understood it too well, so I kept stabbing myself a few times first.

Possession is a gift, and it is not very normal to have it. Live with a heart that feels like a gift in everything, and survive if you lose it.

The dragon gate made of water collapsed at this moment, and the fish left in disgrace. Wait for the next year......

He said: "If you don't try, you won't be able to, and if you try, you may not be able to do it, but you won't regret it." ”

I nodded: "Actually, if you say that, I have already prepared for you to leave, and then I began to think about how not to be sad." ”

He smiled, "You can think carefully, but you don't need to use it on me." ”

I laughed, "Do you have that kind of plan?"

He shrugged: "Always calculated. ”

It's not that it's cool and thin, it's called being strong and open-minded, because many things that are sure have come to this. This is a sequelae, that is, once bitten by a snake, ten years afraid of the well rope. I can't forget that kind of labor pain, because I will add bricks and tiles, and then become stronger day by day. Whatever you're afraid of, you can stand it!