After a while, the sun was like a huge fireball, burning red for half of the sky, red and yellow, like a child's face.

Zhao Xun wanted to remember this moment firmly, the rumbling train sound covered the shouts of the herdsmen in the field, the sound of Mu Mu outside the window was mixed with the noise on the train, the 17,8 teenagers sitting by the window holding guitars and singing, and the snoring of a few big men with greasy bellies, there was a moment when Zhao Xun had a feeling of enjoying running around on this kind of train.

She no longer seems to be looking at each other's oily faces, or someone in the crowded aisle constantly shouting and selling for twenty or thirty pieces of beer and peanut instant noodles, nor is she selling milk slices and milk shellfish beef jerky from the Inner Mongolia prairie to complete the train task.

At noon, everyone was eating their own instant noodles and ham on the train, and only a few people bought a 10 or 20 yuan train lunch.

"Hello, get me one."

"This one is 10 yuan, this one is 20 yuan, which one do you want?" A female flight attendant who spoke in a slightly hurried voice and wanted to immediately push to the next side, as if selling, pushed the dining cart to Zhao Xun's side and said.

"What kind of meat is in this for twenty dollars?"

"Braised pork, do you want it?" When the conductor was almost about to bring out a 20-yuan train meal, suddenly my father stretched out his old and ugly hands.

The father stretched out his hand and snatched the 10 yuan lunch box placed at the bottom, and didn't say anything.

That was the first time Zhao Xun had been up close, so carefully observing his father's hands, the back of his dark and shiny hands were covered with layers of calluses, and they looked like they weighed several kilograms.

In addition to speaking Mandarin, his father's hands were enough to attract all kinds of strange eyes in the crowd, but Zhao Xun said that it was these rough kraft paper-like hands that raised her young and accompanied her to grow.

The train seemed to have traveled a long way that day, and Zhao looked for many places that she hadn't seen before, and she believed that her father was too.

The father looked out of the car window vigorously, Zhao Xun and the aunt sitting in the back changed seats, the aunt was very talkative, and immediately answered.

Suddenly, for a moment, Zhao Xun felt a bitterness in his heart, if they were according to the plan, they should actually be on the way to Tibet at this time.

The father looked at the passing scenery seriously, and occasionally the train that passed through the raglan and didn't know what was transporting the goods, the father would also fight a cold war, and then smile himself.

Zhao Xun took out her headphones and looked at the trees and flowers flashing outside the window, she didn't know what kind of things would happen to Tianjin, or in other words, she didn't know where her father's illness would go, she felt a little sleepy.

The headphones echoed Ma Di's "Nanshan Nan", you are in the sunny sun in the south, the snow is falling, I am in the cold night in the north, the four seasons are like spring, at this moment Zhao Zhao does not have so much sadness, she is ready to accept any result.

Even if time lingers, even if time brutally knocks her to the ground again, she is ready for the storm.

At this level, no matter how difficult it is, she has to go down bravely and bravely accompany her father.

She herself sometimes asks herself, she is obviously a woman, obviously she has no support, why she lives like a man.

Looking at the occasional overlapping trains coming and going, Zhao Xun suddenly remembered Xiao Lulu from the landlord's cat family that he had met many years ago.

Zhao Xun especially wanted to know what Xiao Lulu's situation was now, whether her parents gave her better medical conditions, and whether she had found more courage to live.

If they meet, Xiao Lulu should be as tall as a computer desk, and she will definitely be a big beauty in the future.

After arriving in Tianjin, Zhao Xun first found a hotel near the hospital, and before coming, his younger brother made an appointment with the expert's number online, as long as he went to the queue tomorrow morning to get it.

Father seemed to be very well-behaved that day, there was no running around like before, and there was no nonsense before, Zhao Xun felt that maybe his father was a little tired from running all the way, and she felt that when she returned, she must buy a sleeper for her father to go back.

Zhao Xun said that it seems that after going to their small town, the scenery there is very gorgeous, the crowd there is very dense, and the food there is very expensive.

Eating a famous Tianjin dog buli bun, the cheapest also costs 5 yuan.

's father is in the stage of being rich in nutrition, so Zhao Zhao doesn't dare to be sloppy in eating and drinking, plus his younger brother has been promoted and his salary has been raised, their family is now considered to be an upper-middle family, and it can also be said that they have begun to live a well-off life.

Zhao Xun didn't dare to put his father alone in the hotel, after all, in such a big place as Tianjin, they really didn't worry about letting their father be alone in a room, she had to take her father with her wherever she went.

Sometimes you think it will be a solid thing, but it often turns out that something goes wrong, and even the result is that you don't want to see the most you want to bear.

The next day, Zhao Xun got up early in the morning and called his father for a long time, and his father slowly got up, because he took into account the blood draw or some other examinations, Zhao Xun did not let his father eat and drink, of course, Zhao Xun also accompanied his father not to eat or drink.

But my father didn't understand, and he always shouted that he was hungry, hungry, and wanted to have breakfast......

Later, when he was waiting for the elevator, his father was too awake from his sleep, and suddenly squatted on the ground and said that he would not leave.

Seeing his father almost lying on the ground rolling on the ground like a child, Zhao Xun was distressed and wanted to laugh.

I feel sorry for my father who is tormented by illness like a child, but I am comforted that my father can live like a child.

In fact, sometimes I think about it, as long as my father doesn't hurt himself and doesn't do anything bad, it's good to be like this in this life, I don't have to be bothered by trivial things, I don't have to think about anything but be happy every day, I don't have to do anything.

But she felt that that kind of life was unfair to her father, and she felt that her father had the right to choose the life he wanted.

It is said that what mountain to sing what song, sure enough, the hospital is not an ordinary place, there are many people who come to queue early in the morning, just queuing in the self-service ticket machine is a full distance of more than ten meters.

After finally getting the registration slip, Zhao Xun hurriedly took his father over to line up, and it was good to feel at ease if he finished reading it early, and his father didn't have to be hungry and shouting to eat anymore.

"What about the 36th, 36th, 36th, 36th, is the 36th? It's your turn. ”

It was a blink of an eye, and after turning around, his father was gone.

"Hello, can you wait a minute? We'll be right in, okay? ”

A young nurse dressed in white and wearing a cylindrical blue sterile hat poked out of the consultation room with a beautiful little face and said with a smile.

"It's patient number 36 who isn't there, is it?"

"I'm really sorry, the patient will come back right away, and he will go to the bathroom."

"The consultation room can't be empty, there are a lot of people queuing up at the back, let's call the next number first, and you can knock on the door when the patient comes back."

"Huh, okay, okay, thank you!" In fact, Zhao Xun didn't know where his father had gone, and what he said was that going to the bathroom was purely a delaying tactic, and he finally made an appointment for so long, but he couldn't be ruined because of her.

Zhao Xun hurriedly went to find his father, since his father's last rain incident, it has been rare to get lost, but this time, far away in Tianjin, she really didn't dare to speculate.

Zhao Xun first looked for it on a nearby bench and asked a few uncles and aunts sitting next to him, and most of the answers were either not seen or noticed.

Zhao Xun walked forward along the road when he came, and finally had to go to the bathroom to take a look, in case his father wanted to go to the bathroom, he couldn't keep it.

But he was a girl, so Zhao Xun could only call his father's name a few times at the door, but no one answered, and in the end, Zhao Xun could only move to the next position.

Just as Zhao Xun was about to go downstairs to the registration hall on the first floor, Zhao Xun saw his father sitting on the ground at the staircase.

In front of his father, there is a little boy in his 10s.

The little boy pressed his fingers tightly against the crook of his arm, and his red eyes must have just cried.

"Kid, who are you? Why are you here? What about your parents? ”

"I'm Zhao Yue, my mother said that she went to deliver the specimen, and if it was late, the test results would not be available in the morning, so I asked me to wait for her at the staircase and not let me run blind."

"Oh, I see, it doesn't hurt to draw blood."

"It hurts." may really be talking about the child's heart, wiping two little hands and about to start wiping tears.

"Okay, okay, stop crying, mom will be back soon!"

"Really?" The child stood up suddenly, and something seemed to be flashing in his eyes.

When I was a child, the things I wanted were actually very simple, a word of praise when I was happy, and a piece of candy when I was sad, was enough to comfort the little heart that wanted to grow up.

"Of course it's true, Mom is on her way back."

"It's really amazing, thank you, sister."

"Dad, let's go, Dad, it's your turn." Zhao patted his father, who was still immersed in the little boy.

"This uncle just saw me crying here, so he came over to comfort me, and none of the uncles and aunts who walked by me cared about me, only this uncle is a good uncle."

Probably because the father understood the little boy's words, but in any case the father smiled, and smiled sweetly, just like when he was with his brother.

After returning to the clinic, Zhao Xun actually couldn't explain his father's illness to the doctor, because Zhao Xun really couldn't say whether his father really didn't understand anything. Don't know anything? Forgot everything?

Because of what happened just now, Zhao Xun couldn't explain his father's psychological reaction at that time, maybe at that moment, his father was awake, or maybe at that moment, his father regarded the little boy who was only in his teens as his own son, so she couldn't understand it at all.

At the end of the consultation, the doctor said something like this, sometimes some people will choose a way to relieve their stress under certain stress, maybe this is the way my father chooses.

And the reason why your father appeared before all kinds of seemingly unrelated things happened, but when you put them together, they can actually be combined into one sentence, that is:

"Even if I forget the whole world, I won't forget to love you."