There will always be someone in this world who will treat you as a treasure and love you as life.

This love is neither love nor friendship, it seems to be above life and death, but it is beyond life and death.

I didn't expect my brother to come back suddenly that day, Zhao Xun actually thought that sooner or later she would face this day, but she didn't expect that this day would come so quickly, so fast that she was a little overwhelmed.

"Dad! Sister! I got a promotion and a raise! Father! Sister! Open the door! ”

At nine o'clock in the morning, there was an urgent knock at the door, but the sound had long been drowned out by the delightful annunciation of the younger brother.

Zhao Xun didn't dare to open the door, so the knock outside the door became more and more rapid and higher than one another.

"I'll open the door, Xiao Zhao."

"Uh-oh, okay."

In the face of Zhao Xun's abnormality, the kind nanny didn't see that something was wrong, she didn't know that her father's illness was that Zhao Xun had been hiding from everyone.

After opening the door, it was exactly the same ending as Zhao Xun expected, for a family like the family that few people came to the door for more than 20 years, it was really a strange thing to suddenly have a middle-aged woman of the same age as her father.

"Who is this?"

"Well, this is ......" For a while, Zhao Xun didn't have time to summarize how to explain these things to his younger brother.

"Sister, you are talking! Who is she? The younger brother confronted Zhao Xun with an almost shouting momentum.

"Don't worry, the family has been busy recently, and she is the aunt invited by her sister on 58."

Zhao Xun knew that his father's illness must be impossible to hide now, and his younger brother would see his father sooner or later, so it was better to tell the truth.

"Auntie please? Sister, when did our family get so busy? ”

"It's a long story, sister will tell you slowly when I go back."

Although the younger brother was a little confused, in the face of Zhao Xun's explanation, the younger brother didn't say anything anymore, after all, his sister was the closest and most trusted person to him.

"By the way, sister, what about our dad? Did Dad go to a restaurant? ”

Before Zhao Xun could answer, his younger brother had already run straight to his father's bedroom.

Sure enough, in his father's bedroom, the younger brother saw the side of his father that Zhao Xun didn't want his younger brother to see.

The younger brother pushed the door open, and the most unbearable and vicissitudes of his father were vividly displayed in front of his younger brother.

"Dad, why are you sitting here still, didn't you hear that I was back? It's okay, it's okay, but none of this matters, Dad, I came back to tell you and my sister, I've been promoted! I got promoted Dad! I'm now the manager of our company's project department, Dad! ”

After listening to his brother's long series of words, the father didn't say anything, as if he was still nothing.

Although Zhao Xun understands the reason for this, he is confused for his younger brother who has just returned from Beijing.

"Dad? Father? What's wrong with you? Aren't you glad I'm back? Why don't you say a word! ”

Faced with his younger brother's questioning, his father finally spoke.

"It's looking for a child back, the lamps are all installed for you, don't use that small table lamp in our house if you don't need it in the future."

Before his father's voice landed, the younger brother had a close contact with the heavy bag in his hand and the earth, and dropped the scented Peking duck ** on the ground, and Zhao Xun also saw the plane tickets from the capital airport to Lhasa that came out of nowhere, a total of three.

"Dad!"

"Dad! What happened to you! Father! The younger brother howled in a tone that was almost silent, and it was clear that the younger brother had seen that something was wrong with his father.

The father looked at the voiceless boy in front of him, and forgot that this was his precious son for more than 20 years, but at this moment, he forgot, forgot his most precious son.

"Sister, tell me quickly, what's wrong with our dad, I beg you, can you tell me quickly?"

"I'm sorry, it's me...... It's me who didn't take good care of my dad, it's me who is sorry for dad. ”

"Sister, are you trying to kill me in a hurry? Just tell me quickly, I'm ready to accept everything! ”

"Dad, he's sick and was diagnosed with depression just last month!"

"What, depression?"

"Well, depression."

"Isn't it! How can a good person become depressed! When I left, my father was obviously in such a good state, we still bought a big house for my father to live in, and my father cooked for us. ”

"I don't know why Dad suddenly became like this, Dad was fine before, I really don't know ......"

"No, I don't believe it, I don't believe that Dad has depression, in which hospital did you get it out? Is it a regular hospital? Is it a tertiary hospital? ”

"Actually, Dad had a little symptom before, do you remember that Dad would always give guests in the restaurant either forgot to add salt, or sometimes simply didn't go to the restaurant to open the door, but at that time we thought that Dad's memory had declined, who would have thought that this was a precursor to this disease."

This sudden news made his younger brother dumbfounded, he didn't expect that he had a good life in Beijing, he couldn't say to his old father who had supported him for 20 years, Dad, you have worked hard, and now your son is really promising, he really can't believe that all this in front of him is true.

Life may be so dramatic, and great sorrow and joy are nothing more than that, so it is not surprising that there will be allusions like Fan Jinzhongju in history.

When his younger brother calmed down, Zhao Xun popularized some knowledge about this disease and his father's treatment to his younger brother.

It may be that most people are like my younger brother, and when they hear about depression, they may have a lot of misunderstandings or ignore or even stay away.

In fact, this is not the case, depression is not a terminal disease, nor is it a neuropathy as you imagine, in our country's current good psychology, diagnosis and treatment nursing to achieve a complete cure is not a little problem.

The younger brother picked up the plane ticket that fell on the ground, and originally thought that he would take advantage of the opportunity of promotion and salary increase to take his sister and father, who had never been on a plane, out for a spin, but he didn't expect such a thing to be inserted.

When he was young, his father nagged that the place he wanted to go to the most was Tibet, and his father said that if he had the opportunity, he would definitely visit the Potala Palace in Lhasa, which is the holy place of Tibetan Buddhism and the paradise of his dreams.

This sentence of his father, the younger brother firmly remembered, and remembered it for more than ten years, and now when he finally has the ability to take his father to the place he wants to go, but his father is sick.

As Zhao Xun thought, his younger brother resolutely wanted to give up the high-paying job in Beijing that had just been promoted and raised, he said that he would come back full-time to take care of his father, and he would see his father's illness get better day by day, so that he could feel at ease.

Zhao Xun was very angry, angry at his brother's childlike behavior, angry at his younger brother for this impulsive decision he made when his mind was not clear.

"Dad, it's not like there's no one around to take care of you now, you're in a hurry, you resign, I'm not in a hurry? Don't I want to be with my dad? Just with my little salary, how to take care of Dad's illness, where do the medical expenses come from, can you calm down and think about these problems, at this time, there is no one who does not feel sorry for Dad, but if we both don't do it, and then stay at home, Dad's illness will be cured, right? ”

Maybe it's acquiescence, maybe there's no reason to refute it, anyway, the younger brother doesn't speak anymore, and he doesn't shout anymore to go back and resign.

In fact, Zhao Xun understands everything, understands his impulsiveness, understands his stinky temper, and understands his unsatisfactory, but Zhao Xun has to bow his head in the face of expensive medical expenses, she is a sister, she is the only pillar of the family under her father, everyone looks at her, at this time, she can't fall, but what she needs is stronger.

The younger brother didn't say a word, and transferred almost all of his savings directly to Zhao Xun's bank card.

With my brother's financial help, it was much easier to see a doctor, and at my brother's request, I made a great effort to make an appointment with my father's attending doctor on the weekend and gave my father another treatment.

The younger brother took the attending doctor's hand and asked questions, from the origin to the development of depression, to the successful cases, and finally the doctor was a little impatient, and when he left, Zhao Zhaochao gave the attending doctor 500 yuan.

After the doctor's explanation, the younger brother seemed to be in much better condition than before, and he also worked out some specific plans for his father's recovery with Zhao Xun.

It may be like all the sick people who rush to the doctor or find the life-saving straw of a certain specialist, everyone puts all their hopes on them, some to express gratitude, and of course, there are also to make others take more care, to say something unpleasant, maybe this is the bribery that people in the society talk about.

Zhao Zhao was disdainful, because she was also a poor person, and she had no money, but she did it anyway, she didn't want this situation to grow wantonly, but she was still fueling this flame, maybe this is the common problem of this generation.

He clearly says that he is unwilling, but his thoughts and actions are often not unified, and then he is confused in the entanglement of materialism and idealism.

Living in this colorful world, it is really difficult to clear the ripples without demons, so we have to talk about helplessness over and over again.

The younger brother came back to stay with his father for two whole days, which can be said to be the kind that never leaves, sleeping with his father, eating together, no matter where his father is, no matter what his father is doing, his younger brother accompanies him.

Before leaving, my brother refunded the ticket, and my brother also said that this was the first time our family was going to go out to play.

After his younger brother went back, Zhao Xun still came back from work at noon every day to visit his father as before, but her aunt cooked at noon, and she didn't have to bring food back from the unit.

Now my father has a lot of money to see a doctor, and after my younger brother returned to Beijing, he also used some of his social connections to contact my father with several authoritative hospitals for the treatment of depression.

After arranging the itinerary, Zhao Xun asked for half a month's leave with the unit, and she was going to accompany her father to Tianjin XXX Hospital for another comprehensive examination, and then decide on the next treatment plan.

My father is still like a child, he needs to be watched wherever he goes, and sometimes he will say things for no reason, but my father will occasionally be awake.

Every time she was sober, her father would mention the business of the restaurant, and he would also ask about her brother's situation in Beijing, and when Zhao Zhao didn't know how to answer, she desperately changed the topic, and she also said that she was going to take her father to Tianjin for a visit in the future.

At first, my father said that it was too expensive, and he was too old to go out, and he couldn't walk anymore, so it was good to stay in this small place, but he couldn't stand Zhao Xun's stalking, so he could only agree in the end.

Zhao Xun has never prayed for anything, because there seems to be only the desert Gobi in front of her, and there is an endless wilderness, there is no rising sun on the grassland at all, and there is no sunny day after the wind and rain, everything is just her own burden.

Sometimes Zhao Xun also feels that her negative energy is bursting, and she also wants to release it.

Maybe she thinks the world is too bad, or maybe she thinks the world is too good.

She thought that if she survived the worst days, she would definitely usher in light, and she thought that the law of conservation of energy written in the textbook was "true", and it was really bad things that accumulated and then slowly got better.