"Melancholy, suffocating? Memories come to an abrupt end? Mind blank? ”

I remember writing this late at night in bed, and it was the title page, and I wrote a poem as a preface.

But, am I really so depressed that I'm suffocating? I'm choking on something!

I, I can't remember, what kind of melancholy it was.

I flipped down.

"When the fake is true, the truth is also false, and there is no place for inaction"

"Even though we have no reasonable reason to believe in an objective reality, we have no choice but to pretend as if it were true."

What is this? Where did it come from?

"The world described in The Matrix: We live in a virtual world made up of giant computers (regardless of the feasibility and cost of doing so), and everything we perceive is nothing more than supercomputers or extraterrestrials with ultra-high technology. How can we who live in the "Matrix" know if the world is real or illusory? ”

That's a philosophical question! You are real

Still is?

Am I depressed about these things?

Wait, as if I remember reading a book that discusses drama, he said that no matter how complete the script is, it is incomplete, it is impossible to show the whole person's life in great detail, and the actor must use his own life experience, knowledge, and fantasy to fill the gap of a role, but how to fill it, it can only be close to the truth, and can never be real.......

Because this man does not exist in the world.

Gu Jinjin, why are you so like what the book says, you are not real at all, and a panic wells up in my heart! I can hear, touch, and see the world, but I feel that there are many gaps in my body, gaps that I can't fill!

You're like a character in a script!

These thoughts fill my head! I'm bored! I can still hear my mom talking on the phone in the living room, it's real!

The weather of the typhoon was a little cold in the past two days, I didn't pay attention to it, and then I caught a cold, and the cough and itchy throat and dry eyes were very real!

The wind you feel while riding outside is very real!

But I do feel like I'm missing a lot!

Yes! Can't figure it out! It's annoying! It's uncomfortable!

I closed my journal and got up and walked to the balcony! The air is shady and cool, and the summer typhoon has the effect of relieving the heat and making people comfortable.

The cool breeze and dark sky made me quieter!

I'm really in a trance!

How could it not be true!

Of course, it may not be true!

This is a philosophical question, but also a scientific question, and there has been no result in so many years of controversy and discussion.

Don't think about it!

I looked at the distant lights in the dim sky outside the balcony and was stunned, now, I couldn't see the stars in the sky, the stars on the ground were too bright!

What is the purpose of the lights that are kept on all night?

Is it to wait for the return of a lover, or is it to fear the darkness of loneliness?

There is a warm aroma in the cool air, oh, it's a steamed pork cake with plum vegetables!

How comfortable that aroma is! The taste of home, the taste of life! How real!

But also wonderful and illusory! The thought casually crossed my mind, "Go eat!" ”

I turned around and shook off the faint thought.

After dinner, I made a cup of black tea and sat at my desk and flipped through the newly purchased "Classic of Mountains and Seas".

I turned a page at random, "Mountains and seas are newly compiled, and strange beasts are interesting." ”

"There is a white horse with long wings in Kuanrong Mountain, which can soar through the sky and reach the place where the gods live. His name is Xiao Lake", and the white horse with the picture is blazing.

"There's a strange bird there, but it has three heads and six tails, and it likes to grin. Its name is "The picture is red, red, green and green, and it is extremely gorgeous, and the three heads always feel like they are scratching their heads and posing to pursue the object."

"There is a bird like a crane on Zhanggu Mountain, but it has only one foot, and its blue body is decorated with beautiful red patterns, but its mouth is white, and its name is Bifang, and if you see it chirping anywhere, then this place is about to catch fire."

The accompanying pictures are still colorful. The red fur on the top of his head was like a flame.

"Qishan is the birthplace of Mengshui, which gradually flows southward, and there are many yellow shellfish in it; There is also a fish with wings that chirps like mandarin ducks, and the name of this fish is silverfish, and if you see it somewhere there will be flooding. “

The picture is actually a bit of a flying fish flying map.

I closed the book and sighed that there were enough ancient natural species.

The red-haired Bi Fang who set the fire, and the flying fish and silverfish that overflowed the water are all a scourge! One set fire, the other flooded.

"Huh! If these two guys are on the bar, is it the red-haired Bi Fang who roasted the flying fish, or the flying fish who poured the red hair Bi Fang's dog blood! It's fun to think about."

I couldn't help but muttered to myself.

I read it with great interest, commenting on one mythical beast after another, "This book is worth buying!" It's so much fun! By the way, if those divine beasts knew that I had hurt them like this, they wouldn't have come to me for revenge, right? Huh? Thinking too much again! ”

I smiled at myself and continued reading.

I was looking down at the book, and there was a giggling laugh in my ears, a very treacherous feeling, and I thought about what weird TV series my mother was watching!

In the blink of an eye, it felt strange, no, the voice came from in front of me, and there was a window in front of my desk!

I looked up and was dumbfounded, why is there a colorful big bird in front of me, there is a lake behind the big bird, and the lush trees surround the mirror-like lake, eh, my house is on the sixth floor, how can there be a lake outside, there are birds and it is reasonable, but there is no such weird big bird!

Wait, where's my window? Where's my desk?

I looked down and saw that the Classic of Mountains and Seas was still in my hand, but I didn't seem to be sitting in my chair now, I was sitting on a rock.

Stone? I look back, what about my room!? It's all a lush forest! I'm confused!

"Hee-hee-hee, hee-hee, hee-hee" There was another laugh behind me, and I remembered the big bird I had just seen. I turned around slowly, yes, the same colorful guy! I'm staring at it! Why is it so familiar?

Why is this Christmas tree-like guy so weird in head, there are three? I looked down from its head, oh my god, what another big tail! 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, no! Three songs and six tails, good laughter, that and that, not the ostrich in the "Classic of Mountains and Seas".

"Ahh ~~~~" The decibel gradually increased and exclaimed, "Ah! You're not coming to me for revenge, are you? I was wrong! I shouldn't have hurt you! "I fell to the ground.

"Hee-hee, hee-hee, hee-hee" but the owl only kept smiling!

As I was crouching on the ground with my head in my hands, I suddenly heard something from the lake.......

I looked at the source of the sound and saw a big silver fish shining in the sun, very dazzling

Fly? I rubbed my eyes and looked at the fish, yes, it was flying, and the wings on the belly of the silverfish fluttered, popping out a little crystal splash!

It's so beautiful! But how can that fish have wings, how can a fish fly? There are wings! Can fly! The illustration of the hot day is staged right in front of you.

I was in amazement when suddenly a bright red flame swooped down on the flying fish

"Ahh Fire! I exclaimed. The flying fish was not in a hurry, and with a flap of its wings, it quickly dodged the flames.

The flying fish then plunged into the water, wow, zero splash, ten! I looked at the mirror-calm water and marveled. After that, I saw a gentle ripple on the surface of the lake, strangely, there was no wind, and the lake was still calm just now. The ripples became more and more intense, all of them were rolling waves, the blue lake seemed to be boiling, with a whoosh, the flying fish suddenly rushed out of the water like a rocket, and a silver light appeared brightly, followed by layers of big waves, the lake was lifted by the flying fish a few feet high, and I still squatted in place in a daze, and only stood up after a few seconds

"Ahh Help me! "At this time, the huge wave was less than a meter away from me. I thought I was going to die, how wronged I was! I came to this place for some reason, and then I saw these strange animals.

Just as I thought I was dying, I felt a gust of wind rush towards me, and then I jumped into the air, avoiding the waves

"Ahh I looked down and saw that the waves were indeed below, and I was in the air, and to be correct, a horse was flying in the air. Yes, I sat on a white horse with big white wings on both sides, and it fluttered smoothly in the wind.

"This is?" I watched my white wings swim in the white clouds, and I unconsciously spat out the word "Yihu".

The white horse turned his head lightly, and it was actually a human face, with a pair of eyes blazing. The face smiled.

I actually sat in the "Classic of Mountains and Seas" flying white horse lake, still flying in the sky, just now I was almost sprayed by fire, flooded, I can't recover my sanity for a while, but I feel that I am not afraid of white horses, there is an inexplicable sense of trust, probably because I was saved just now! Thinking of this, I tried to speak to him, "Are you a lake?" “

Bai Ma looked back and smiled lightly, "The weather has been sunny these days, and the scenery is good!" “

Saying that, he spread his wings and soared forward, the breeze came slowly, and his heart was relaxed. The white clouds seemed to be like mist, I walked through it like this, this is an experience I have never experienced, I looked curiously at the lush distant mountains, verdant plains, dotted with glittering river belts, as if entering the world of bird's-eye view of the earth documentary, however, this should be a horse's view of the earth haha!

When I was sightseeing on the back of the lake, there was a big bird standing on the lake after the huge waves, this big bird had only one head, yes, the red hair Bi Fang saw that it was wet all over, and the red hair on its head was a mess.

It coughed, took a few mouthfuls of water from its long white mouth, and cursed angrily

"Dead fish, you wait for me, see if I don't cook you for a day!"