The morning sun rises at dusk, the diligent birds come out of the forest, the colorful clouds are thousands of miles, the branches and shadows are heavy, and the bright sunlight that is shot into the wall is cut out of the left one, the right one, the traces of different shades. But I didn't have the heart to think about what was reflected above, but I felt a depressed feeling of vastness pressing over me, as if a stone was so cramped there that I couldn't move for a minute.

Ju Xiang's figure became thinner and thinner, holding a bowl of soup, looking at me and saying, "Second Miss, you have been sitting here motionless since you came back last night, not eating grains of rice and not resting, aren't you tired?" ”

I smiled lightly at her, "I'm fine, I just want to be quiet." ”

Ju Xiang's expression was gloomy, and she raised her hand slightly, so that the soup bowl could be supported in front of me, looked at me and said, "This is the egg custard that the slave maid just warmed for the second miss, and the second miss should eat a little." ”

The indescribable emotion swept over my heart like a tide, and for a moment my mind wandered, I heard the wind outside the window, my chest was dull, and I had no appetite at all, so I had to wave my hand and say, "I'm not hungry." ”

After Ju Xiang put the soup bowl on the table, she quietly came over and comforted me: "Second Miss, everything will pass, it will be fine, the second Miss has not come over in the difficult days before, and Miss Wanwang must cherish herself." ”

I smiled, shook my head slowly, and said, "It's different." ”

Ju Xiang asked, "What's the difference?" ”

The bitterness in my heart spread to the corners of my mouth, and then turned into a wry smile, "No matter how sad I was before, I would think that he was still there, he cherished me, he loved me, and after the current suffering, the days after that would get better and better, and there was something to look forward to in my heart," sighed, lowered his head, and stared at the obsidian on his wrist, one by one round and glowing with sunspot-colored light, which was a terrible irony, and every time the afterglow was swept away, my heart would ache incomparably, "But now...... Faith and expectation are gone. ”

Ju Xiang's face oozed a thick worry, and she whispered, "What did Your Majesty say to Second Miss?" ”

I pondered for a moment, gently rubbing the smooth beads, a little bit of chill fell on my heart like cold rain, cold, wet, no matter how warm the light color was not dry, laughing at myself: "It's not that Your Majesty said anything to me, but if those words can't convince me at all, how can I believe it." ”

Ju Xiang's eyes seemed to show a deep and faint light, "The slave doesn't understand, the 'he' in the second lady's mouth naturally refers to Ming Shizi, but Ming Shizi has always been very good to the second miss, a sincere and sincere, the slave and the maid see it in their eyes, and they don't lose a point, that is true affection." ”

I looked up at Juxiang, my pale brows furrowed like a branch bent into the autumn wind, fluttering and covering the blue and black mountains in the distance, "A sincere heart, you were also deceived by him, didn't you?" ”

Sighing lightly, I sneered again: "How good it is, how trustworthy it is!" ”

The pupils in Juxiang's eyes flickered, "Pretending?" ”

I nodded silently, "It turns out that he was lying to me and using me from the beginning. ”

Ju Xiang said in disbelief: "Ming Shizi? He shook his head again, "Impossible! ”

I just smiled, I didn't want to say anything more to Ju Xiang, because every time I said it, every time I thought about him, it was equivalent to hurting myself a little more, "It's not impossible, my mother is really right, in this world, people's hearts are the most unpredictable," glanced at Ju Xiang, "Before you fall into the same abyss as me, I will tell you first, there are some things that you can't trust your eyes, many times, you are often deceived by your own eyes, otherwise, in the end, it is only yourself who gets bruised all over your body." ”

Ju Xiang slowly squatted at my feet, stroked my knees with both hands and said, "Second Miss's words, the slave maid remembers, the slave maid only hopes to be by the side of the second lady for the rest of her life." ”

I patted her hand and said, "Impossible, there is no feast in the world that will not be dispersed." ”

Ju Xiang looked at me and said, "No, where the second lady goes, the slave and maid will follow." ”

I let out a long sigh and said, "You also have to experience the pain caused by the reluctance to separate," after a pause, "When you stop serving me one day in the future, remember that the only person you can fully trust in this world is yourself." ”

Ju Xiang asked, "Why did the second lady say this?" ”

I took a deep breath, thinking of Jianning, I would feel a warm moisture surging up in my eyes, and the big tears couldn't stop fainting on my face, as if a small light color of the dark plum bloomed scatteredly, "The complex changes in people's hearts are very diverse, I always thought that the princess was the most innocent person, but she could hide so many things in her heart, and her face was silent for many years, I treated her sincerely, and in the end I found out that it was all my own yellow sorghum dream, and I would eventually wake up from a dream, but I never thought about it, When I wake up from a dream, my heart hurts like this. ”

Ju Xiang soothed: "The princess herself is a person who grew up in the palace, and many things have been seen in her eyes, red walls and red shadows, and constant disputes, which are probably common, and it should have become instinct for the princess to hide things in her heart and keep quiet." It's a good thing that the second miss has recognized the character of the people around her at this moment, otherwise she will always be kept in the dark, the longer the world, the more painful her heart hurts, and now this situation is really a great luck in the misfortune of the second lady. ”

I stretched out my hand to wipe away the tears on my face, and my eyes were unbearably dry, like a dry stream, only the thick earth was clogged, and there was no ripple fluctuation, "You said yes." ”

Ju Xiang said cautiously: "But having said that, the slave maid doesn't believe that Ming Shizi and the princess are fake to the second lady after all, although the slave and maid don't know what the human relationship is, and I don't know what the second miss experienced three years ago, but, in these days in the Yunnan Palace, the slave and maid watched the time and many accidents, and the emotions in those eyes really didn't seem to be fake." ”

I tried my best to restrain the great sadness in my heart, and my tone changed from trembling to flat, "It's not like it's fake, they have lied to me for four whole years after all." ”

Ju Xiang said: "What the slave maid means, maybe the princess and Ming Shizi have the trouble of not being able to tell the second lady?" ”

I lowered my head and smiled, "No, if they want to tell me, they will finally have the opportunity to tell me that we have been in the Yunnan Palace for three years, and he has countless opportunities to confess to me, but he didn't, he still chooses to hide from me," The hot tears that burst out of my eyes were really hot, and they crossed my cheeks, as if they burned a piece of skin, "Your Majesty is right, I have always been his plaything, I can tease him if I like it, and give it to others if I don't like it," I muttered repeatedly, "No wonder, he sees many things so lightly." , all don't seem to care. ”

Ju Xiang was slightly surprised, "So, what will the second miss do in the future?" ”

I bowed my head, but my tone was firm, "I can't hide from the things I should face, some things, some doubts, I must also go to them to ask clearly, I must not be confused like this." "We can't just leave in the dark like this. I want to tell them that I am not their plaything, and that I am not something they can control. I'm going to tell them that once I'm disappointed, I'll never look back. And my soul will always belong to me alone.

Ju Xiang's expression was in a trance for a moment, sad and sentimental, clearly revealing her concern for me, "Second Miss, you can't leave the slave and maid." ”

I regretted it or a hint of desolation that I was determined to die flashed in my eyes, which frightened her, and smiled lightly, "Didn't I say it just now, the feast of life will never be dissolved." ”

Ju Xiang shook her head, "That's not what the slave meant. ”

I laughed, "So what do you mean?" ”

Ju Xiang stared at me for a long time, and quickly turned to a smile and said: "Xu is slave maid is wrong, the second lady is such a strong and resolute woman, how can she ...... easily"

I smiled and asked, "Easy what?" ”

She replied, "Nothing, Second Miss." ”

I smiled secretly, thinking of death easily......

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