153 Life as First Seen (4)
Jianning rolled up the bead curtain in the window, the fragrance rose at a glance, the leaves were full of gold, and with an indescribable Qingyan style, he leaned out half of his body, "Who is it?" ”
Osmanthus climbed up the branches, blocking the light through the cracks in the tree, a piece of green, exuding a trace of fragrance, invading the heart and spleen, I stood on tiptoe, broke the branches, held in my hand, in the pale yellow laurel, seemed to see a trace of reluctance and desolation, slowly walked forward, gloomily: "Princess, it's me." ”
When Jian Ning saw that it was me, he showed a rare smile on his face, and said peacefully: "Miao Miao, are you here to say goodbye to me?" ”
I looked at Jianning, frowned and asked, "Farewell?" ”
Jian Ning smiled lightly, coupled with her current weak willow wind-like figure than Xizi, I felt even more pity, "Yes, I will return to Jiankang with my third brother in two days." Didn't the third brother tell you about it? ”
I shook my head, approached her, and whispered, "I didn't know that the princess was going back," I raised my eyes and carefully looked at every expression on Jian Ning's face, I couldn't believe that it was such a woman who looked as simple as a peach blossom who had deceived me for four years, never confided a word to me, and didn't have a trace of guilt when facing me, I regarded her as my best friend, but she treated me like this, my heart felt as if someone had pulled out a bloody hole," I thought His Majesty would let the princess stay in the Yunnan palace to recuperate. ”
Jian Ning smiled puzzledly and asked, "Recuperate?" ”
I glanced at Jian Ning, and then laughed at myself, yes, how can people from the royal family like Jian Ning, who grew up in the palace, be hurt, they have always hurt others, since they are not injured at all, they can't talk about recuperating from injuries.
Jian Ning stared at me with a worried look and asked, "Miao Miao, what's wrong with you today?" After a pause, he took my hand, "Looks weird." ”
Jianning's palms are still so warm, maybe it is this warmth that confuses me, making me all sincere, without a trace of defense, "It's nothing," smiled faintly, "I'm talking about heartbroken," his eyes meandered like a small snake into Jianning's pupils, observing her, "However, the princess doesn't seem to be as serious as I thought, if I don't know the past, I can't even see that the princess is sad and sad for her brother!" ”
Jian Ning's expression was indifferent and calm, "Isn't it possible that sadness and pain must be shown on the outside?" ”
I smiled and asked, "So is the princess still sad in her heart?" With a sigh, he changed his words and said, "No, I shouldn't have asked that, I should have asked the princess if she had ever felt the slightest pain for her brother?" ”
Jian Ning's thin clothes were blown up by the cool breeze that came late, and she looked a little unbearable, her expression was a little lost, and a little desolate, and her voice seemed to rise and fall with the cool breeze, "Miao Miao, why do you say that?" How can you completely deny my feelings for Wu Yao, how can you? ”
My tone was eerie, angry and sad, "Because you're royal." ”
Jianning asked, "What's wrong with me being a royal?" frowned and said, "You can't deny me because of my third brother, you know, I am not the same as my third brother." ”
I sighed, it sounded too unreal, too ironic, and my tone couldn't stop being sonorous, "No," I took a deep breath on my back, looked at Jian Ning, and said, "You are the same at all, the same heartless, no feelings, you have power in your hearts, you are using it, and you are plotting, and I am just a chess piece in your hands." Princess, do you secretly laugh at my stupidity whenever you see me digging out my heart and lungs for you? The wind curled the broken hair on his sideburns and gently rubbed against his cheeks, a little itchy, "I am like this, and so is my brother." ”
Jian Ning hurriedly grabbed my hand, "No, it's not like this. ”
I looked at her, "Your Majesty has told me," and pulled my hand out of her hand, "I know it all, and the princess doesn't have to play anymore." ”
Jian Ning hurriedly said: "I am true to you, and I am also true to Wu Yao, is it possible that all these years of getting along with each other are not enough to show my sincerity?" Her face looked a little red, "What did the third brother tell you?" ”
"Really?" My expression froze, "The princess doesn't need to say any more, leave some room for the other party, there is no room to turn back when some words are said clearly." ”
Jian Ning stared at me, his eyes were as bright as the only star in a rainy night, "The third brother is the third brother, I am me, you can't confuse the two of us, you can't just listen to his words, you can tell me, what did he tell you?" ”
I asked, "Does the princess want me to make it clear?" ”
Jian Ning said: "Yes, I must not tolerate others wantonly smearing me!" ”
I said, "What if it's not a smear?" ”
Jian Ning said: "Then I also want to know what the hell is going on!" ”
I looked at her in a daze, cold and sad, "Do you know that you are planning to send me to the palace to do the matter of a concubine for the first emperor?" ”
Jian Ning's eyebrows trembled, he was silent for a long time, and said in a low voice: "I know." ”
I asked, "When did you find out?" ”
Jian Ning frowned tightly and replied, "I have always known it, since I first saw you in the Jinsu Temple. ”
My heart throbbed, and I held back my tears, "You've been lying to me all along." ”
The evening breeze was cool, and a trace of pale was blown out of Jianning's peach-like ruddy face, "It's not like this, you listen to me, there are too many people involved, and I really can't tell you at that time." ”
My heart was sour, and I said with tears in my eyes: "But then you didn't tell me." ”
Jian Ning said: "Since everything has passed, why should I tell you to make you sad?" ”
I said, "So, I've been kept in the dark and played with by you like a fool, and I'm still moved?" ”
Jian Ning shook his head and said: "I have thought about telling you, just a few days after I came to Yunnan Palace, I really thought about telling you, but I saw you and Cang again...... How can I bear to tell you such a cruel truth when you are together? ”
My lips trembled and I asked, "Did he come to you?" ”
Jian Ning nodded, "Yes, I found it." ”
I asked, "What are you talking about?" ”
Jian Ning said: "Yes." ”
A light flashed in my heart, my eyes stared at Jian Ning, and I asked quietly, "Does my brother know about this?" ”
Jian Ning's flustered gaze at me already said it all, "I know." ”
Know.
It turns out that the whole world knows that only me, only I don't know.
The belief in my heart was crumbling bit by bit, I didn't know what the meaning of my life in the world was, everything around me was either a lie, or wrapped in a lie, I couldn't hold back anymore, tears burst out of my eyes, and my voice trembled and said, "You should tell me, at least, I can choose." ”
Jianning said: "We all think that it is the best choice for you to let this matter go away with the wind." ”
I shook my head, "Is the best option for me to be with someone with such a dirty mind?" ”
Jianning said: "But you are already together. ”
I looked at me firmly, "If I knew, I would never have been entangled for so long." ”
Jian Ning frowned and asked, "What will happen to you?" Leave? Where to go? She looked at me with a hint of kinship in her eyes, "Although the world is big, it is not easy to find a place to stay, not to mention the whole world, it is not the king's land, do you think that if you leave, my third brother will not send people to look for you?" Sigh, "If you are found by the third brother, even if you don't want to enter the palace, you have to enter, are you willing?" ”
I whispered, "I don't want to." ”
Jian Ning patted the back of my hand and said, "That's not it, if you stay here, someone can protect you, at least you are free, you don't have to be forced into the palace as a concubine by the third brother." ”
I scoffed, "Protect me? I shook my head, "Of course, I don't want to enter the palace as a concubine, but I will never stay by my side." ”
Jianning said: "Then what do you want?" ”
I muttered, "I don't know. ”
Jian Ning said: "Why do you want to make yourself like this, the words have come to this point, I have nothing to hide, whether it is my third brother or Cangyang, they are all dragons and phoenixes among people, and they all love you, you choose one of the two, there is nothing to be wronged about, yes, even if they have done something sorry for you before, but now it has passed, people always have to look forward, don't they?" ”
My silence was like a star in the night sky, and after a long time, I spoke, "No, no, their minds are so terrible, and with such a deep person as them, where can there be real happiness, there are only endless desires and calculations," and the voice whispered, "they can't let go." ”
Jian Ning sighed: "Then what can I do? Who made them so born, so experienced, what was destined by heaven, who can change it? ”
I lowered my eyes and said: "How good it would be if life was only as pure and clear as it was when I first saw it, but the funny thing is that even when I first saw it, it was not pure, and a pure white picture scroll was actually stained at the first sight, but because I was dull, I never found it." ”l0ns3v3