In those days, there was a continuous light rain in the sky, a few days at a time, I often looked at the gray sky, my thoughts flew in the rain, the scene that appeared most in my mind was when I was in middle school, Sun Keyi rode a car to speed in the rain, I shivered in the early autumn rain but kept raising the corners of my mouth and laughing.

I always felt that I could give my whole heart to Sun Keyi without warning, and it is the same now.

When I was fine, Sun Keyi would take me out, he drove the car, and I sat in the car and watched the scenery. He likes to take me to the lake or a rambling road, I don't like to socialize, he rarely takes me to crowded places, but he always thinks that I don't like to talk to people because of psychological problems, he has been tentatively trying to remind me to find a psychiatrist, I don't like him to mention this, I have been avoiding.

In addition to going out with Sun Keyi, I will keep running to two places, the cemetery and the prison.

I often stayed in the cemetery for a day, until Sun Keyi came to me after work, and every time he took me home, he couldn't help frowning, I knew he wanted to talk about me, but every time he didn't say a word.

And the prison, I was afraid to go in, lingering at the door until someone came to chase me out.

I haven't seen my father once since my mother passed away, and I don't know how to face him, let alone how to tell him, and I'm afraid that he will break down and I will break down myself.

When I was at home, I was bored and would only do one thing, that is, to learn to cook with my aunt at home, and gradually I felt that this was actually a very beautiful thing, and that a dish could be appreciated by others, even if it was firewood, rice, oil and salt.

I told Sun Keyi that in the future, I can run a restaurant by myself, and it doesn't matter if I sell a few home-cooked dishes every day, even if there are not many people who eat them, as long as it is enough to subsidize the ordinary family.

Sun Keyi touched my head and said with a smile, Okay, then we will go to open a home-style restaurant and live an ordinary life.

Sun Keyi's mother in my memory is a gentle woman who loves to laugh, especially when I was young, she always liked to hold my hand and say, I really envy you to have a daughter, if only I had a daughter, you see how naughty my son is. At that time, my mother always said that if a daughter has anything good, she will eventually get married. At that time, I didn't know what it meant to be married, but I knew that it must mean bad, otherwise why would my mother say that her daughter was bad.

And when the woman in my memory reappeared in front of my eyes, my hands trembled and I didn't know how to put it.

She walked in with her high heels, looked at everything, and finally her eyes fell on me, and my aunt went up and greeted her, "Madame, why are you here?" ”

When Zhao tilted back to his aunt's words, he looked at me unswervingly and said, "Come and see, what my son is doing outside all day when he doesn't come home all day." ”

Auntie didn't speak anymore, poured her a cup of tea, she took it, walked to the sofa opposite me and sat down.

I stood, obviously looking down at her, but I was inexplicably frightened by her aura.

She said, "Sit down." ”

I sat down and tried to speak to lighten the mood, but I couldn't get my mouth out.

She spoke, "I know a little bit about you and my son, I allow him to play, but you should never think of entering the grandson's house." ”

Enter the door of the grandson's house? I really didn't think about this matter, I just felt that if I missed Sun Keyi again, there would be no possibility between us, I felt that I had taken 10,000 steps back before choosing to be with him, but entering the door of the Sun family was also an impossible thing for me, I knew what it meant to enter the door of the Sun family, which meant that I was committed to marrying Sun Keyi, which meant that I was greedy for wealth and even the deep hatred of my parents could be ignored.

And it will never be possible to enter the door of Sun's house, this sentence came out of Zhao Tian's mouth, which is not only ridiculous but also insulting to me.

I chuckled.

Zhao Tian's eyes became confused when she looked at me, she didn't understand what my meaningful smile meant.

I said, "Ah aunt, don't worry, I will never be able to enter the door of the Sun family in my life." ”

She seemed to understand what I meant, in fact, she knew me very well since I was a child, after all, she accompanied me for half of my childhood. She said, "Okay, I hope you do what you say." ”

In fact, before Sun Keyi's mother came, I never thought about marrying Sun Keyi, but now that she came, she reminded me that I like Sun Keyi, but this doesn't mean that I don't hate the Sun family, my hatred includes Sun Keyi.

When Sun Keyi came back, I cooked the meal, he put down the briefcase and took off his coat, went straight to the dining table, and said "It's hard work." ”

Like a husband's gentle condolences to his wife when he came home from work, I was stunned, this is actually the life I have been looking forward to, but how can we have this kind of life, obviously we are the two people who should not be together.

Sun Keyi stretched out his hand and touched the tip of my nose, and he said, "What do you want." ”

I shook my head.

But the aunt spoke, and she said, "Madame is here today." ”

Sun Keyi looked at me, his eyes were full of worry, and he asked, "Did she say anything?" ”

I shook my head again and said, "Don't worry, Aunt Zhao didn't say anything, she just came to see you." ”

Actually, Zhao Tian and I have the same idea, I can't marry Sun Keyi, regardless of whether his parents or my father in prison will not agree. What's more, my dead mother will never come back to life, and I have no way to ask for her permission.

Sun Keyi nodded, still uneasy in his eyes, but he didn't say anything more.

On the weekend, Sun Keyi took me to a shopping mall, and he said that proper socialization should be there, otherwise I would really become the walking dead, and besides, I should buy myself some clothes.

I surprisingly didn't object, it's autumn, it's really time to add a few clothes.

There were more people in the mall than usual, and I took Sun Keyi's hand and shuttled through the crowd, with an inexplicable sense of security.

We walked around a few times and I didn't see anything I liked, and I said, "It must be that I haven't been to this place for a long time and can't keep up with the trends." ”

He said, "It's okay, pick slowly, if you don't like to buy it, you won't wear it." ”

I nodded, according to Sun Keyi's meaning.

In fact, I have always been a woman with no taste, I don't have much research in terms of buying clothes, and I don't know a few brands, let alone what preferences there are.

In the end, I chose a few autumn clothes, and when I was in school, my clothes were always brightly colored, but later they became darker and darker.

When I chose clothes, I picked up a piece of black, white and gray, Sun Keyi stood next to me, and he smiled, "Xu Qijun, do you know?" You are not at all like you used to be. ”

How can I be exactly the same as before, and the situation I am in now is very different from what I was before. I asked him, "What, you don't like it?" ”

He looked at me as if he was seriously thinking about it, but I saw that his eyes suddenly lost their brilliance, and after a long time he said, "No, I just think you should be as happy as before." ”

I picked up a light blue trench coat and asked him, "What is this?" "I deliberately chose a color that wasn't so dark.

He said, "It's beautiful, try it." ”

I took off my coat and put on my trench coat, and he nodded and said, "This color suits you perfectly." ”

I said, "Then I want this." ”

He said, "Okay." Then he turned to the waiter and said, "Wrap this garment." ”