After meeting Di Yan, I locked myself in the room again, and Sun Keyi said, I would not have taken you to see her if I had known.

I drew the curtains so tightly that no light came in, and I never turned on the lights. Sun Keyi came in, opened the curtains, the dazzling sunlight shone in violently, my pupils constricted violently, I blocked my eyes with my hand, Sun Keyi forcibly pulled my hand away, he said, "Go out for a walk." ”

I withdrew my hand from his palm, got up to draw the curtains, and in an instant, the room was dark again, Sun Keyi walked behind me, his voice drifted from the top of my head to my ears, and he said, "Xu Qijun, how long are you going to lock yourself up." ”

I turned to face him, my heart was suddenly very stuffy, although I was with Sun Keyi every day, but I actually rarely looked at him seriously, sometimes I felt that I didn't know the man in front of me at all, but I looked at him more, but suddenly separated from the world, his indifferent eyes were actually full of tenderness. He said, "Don't close yourself off, okay?" ”

I nodded, my eyes met him, and with each glance I felt that something in my heart was slowly being taken away, not painful, but getting more and more empty.

S city, there is a lake, in summer, the lake is blue, the lake is crowded at any time, Sun Keyi took my hand and walked forward step by step along the crowd, he looked back at me from time to time, I was held by him, I would not be lost, but his worry was still written on his face. I wanted to laugh at him for being stupid, but I couldn't, and in the end, I could only look at him with red eyes.

A tall man with something on his shoulders passed by my head, and before he hit me, Sun Keyi reached out to protect my head, and my head smacked softly in his palm. The man turned around and looked at me apologetically, said sorry, and turned away.

Sun Keyi said, "Are you okay? ”

I shook my head and he said, "It's okay." "Turned around, he changed his other hand to lead me, I looked down at his hand that was knocked off, the back of the hand was scratched, I didn't speak, just looked at his hand, after a long time, I looked away, Sun Keyi may have noticed my gaze, he turned his head and smiled at me, that look seemed to say, don't worry, it's okay.

I followed him for a long time, from crowded to sparsely populated, and I quietly pulled out of his palm. The surface of the lake became dark, and the warm summer breeze blew gently, and Sun Keyi's short hair on his forehead fluttered in the warm wind. I said, "You don't have to spend time with me. ”

He didn't speak, but his face sank, and soon, he smiled again. I don't bother to look at it, that smile is too harsh. He stepped aside, lit a cigarette, and when he was done, he came up to me and asked me, "Would you like to eat?" ”

I shook my head and just stared at the lake.

He went shopping anyway and came back with my favorite flavor of ice cream in his hand. He handed it to me and said, "Take a bite." ”

I looked at him, and stared at the lake, what mood did I have at the moment to eat ice cream, but forced by Sun Keyi's expectant eyes, I took a bite, it was too sweet, and it was cool and melted in my mouth. Sun Keyi's eyes were like little stars, which were reflected in the fluctuations of the lake, and he said, "Is it delicious?" ”

I nodded and took another bite.

For a long time, we didn't speak, I was busy eating, and Sun Keyi stared at the lake and didn't know what to think. When I finished eating, he took my hand and wiped the juice from the ice cream with a paper towel, and he said, "You're still the same as before, and you're going to eat the ice cream until you melt on your hands." "I didn't smile at him like I used to, not only because we didn't have the same relationship as before, but also because he didn't handle it the same way, he used to just pull out a tissue and throw it at me, and now he wiped my hands so carefully, not as gentle as he was.

When he was done, he let go of my hand, and I turned to stare at the lake again, and I don't know when, there was nothing to say between us.

But that afternoon, it was unprecedentedly quiet, so quiet that I became comfortable, and even had the heart to enjoy the scenery on the side of the road, and all the pain and anxiety in my heart were left behind that afternoon.

It seems to be cursed, the tranquility between me and Sun Keyi will always be broken by someone, and that person can only be Li Munan forever. He suddenly appeared, and then hurried by, I stopped, and Sun Keyi also saw Li Munan, and stopped like me. I turned around, Li Munan also turned to look at me, his eyes seemed to have an abyss, I sank, and I couldn't open my eyes again. We looked at each other like that, and I watched his eyes slowly turn red, and then he turned his gaze away at Sun Keyi, and I saw a smile tug at the corner of his mouth, and quickly regained his composure. Sun Keyi's face was not very good, he stepped forward and grabbed my wrist, and pulled me in the opposite direction of Li Munan, I struggled, but I couldn't shake off his hand, until I couldn't see Li Munan, he let go of me.

I looked at his red wrist and imagined how hard he had just exerted it, and now he clenched his fists and the joints in his hands turned white. I glanced at him and hated his self-righteous control, it has always been like this, I never thought about turning back since I was deprived of my right to like him in the first place, and now he has deprived him of the freedom to even see Li Munan. I wanted to stay away from him, but in his opinion, I walked away in a hurry, just because he took me away from Li Munan, so he followed me unhurriedly. Until I get tired, take me back to the car and take it home.

When I got home, it was already dark, from sunset to starry sky, I looked up in the car and looked all the way, when the car stopped, I regained consciousness, I opened the car door, and walked down, Sun Keyi still followed me unhurriedly, and at the end I almost ran, I said, "Sun Keyi, you let me go, I won't go to Li Munan, let me go alone, okay?" ”

In the night, Sun Keyi's eyes were slightly red, and he said, "Xu Qijun, am I so unbearable in your eyes?" You always feel that I am controlling you and not letting you see Li Munan? ”

I said, "Isn't it?" ”

He laughed, with bitterness in his voice, and said, "If you think so, then so be it." ”

He was leaving, and I rushed up to stop him, and I said, "Let me go." ”

He got angry, grabbed my hand and dragged me home, and I tried to open his hand, but to no avail.

Sun Keyi dragged me into my room, I hit him, bit him, and he was unmoved. It wasn't until I got tired and let go of the hand that was holding his arm tightly that he said softly, "You just miss him like that." ”

I slowly moved my gaze from the locked door to his face, and I said, "Yes." ”

Looking at Sun Keyi's pale face again, I actually felt very uncomfortable, but I didn't know why I just wanted to say those words that hurt him, obviously his every emotion tugged at my heartstrings. After a long time, he slowly got up, did not speak, and walked out.

That night, I spent the night staring at the empty room after Sun Keyi left. The next morning, at dawn, I climbed into bed and locked the door.

I heard the man outside the door say, "Lock the door again." ”

Then came Sun Keyi's voice, with a tired hoarseness in his voice, he said, "Look at her, report to me at any time." ”

It wasn't until Sun Keyi's footsteps disappeared into the corridor that my tense heartstrings slowly let go.