My dear, you didn't say anything, just looked at me there, as if you wanted me to say something to comfort you, but I was tired and didn't want to say anything against my will, and I didn't want to continue to coax you and comfort you.

But at this time, you don't want to do it again, you say something upside down, I don't understand, I just look at your grievances and feel disgusted.

You talk for a while, it's like leaving, and my heart goes from anticipation to sadness and discomfort, you are always like this, never ask what I like, what you want, just care about yourself.

So I laughed, laughed ugly, laughed so neurotic, laughed so much that tears came out, I noticed you at the door, but I didn't want to act anymore, I just wanted to get an answer.

Honey, do you remember that guy we met in the bar? The man taught me self-defense, and when he asked me why I didn't just leave, why didn't I leave on my own.

I just shook my head because I wanted to hear you say that I should leave, even if it was okay to scold me, I don't know why, but I just want to hear you.

I sometimes feel like I'm just what the man said, making a fool of myself and letting others insult me like that, but I don't know what's wrong with me, I just want to know an explanation, an explanation that you gave me.

But you didn't, after that incident, you and I seemed to go back to our old ways of getting along, I followed you everywhere, and then you treated me like a show-off object.

I didn't think there was anything before, but now that I have a reference, that is, the woman who is respected and loved by you, I only feel tired and tired, I want to leave, I really want to.

But you seem to feel something, you look at me very tightly, and you don't give me all the documents or anything, as if if you don't pay attention, I will sneak away.

I don't understand what you were thinking, what you were doing, I don't want to guess because it doesn't make sense anymore, but I still can't understand what I'm doing.

Why, I know you don't love me, why, I don't think you love me, but I'm still struggling with these things? Like that person said, if I really hate you, why don't I leave, why do you have to say it.

I don't understand, I don't have the heart to deal with you, I can't figure out if I don't love you as I think I do, or if I've been hypnotizing myself that I don't love you.

What's going on here? My dear, I don't understand.

But before I could figure it out, that real girl of yours had something happening again, this time, it really made me hate it to the extreme, and when I was facing all this alone, I knew that I and that woman could only have a good time.

This woman wants to ruin me with despicable means to take control of my life, then you can't blame me, I thought so, but you know how scared I was at the time?

I was just an ordinary person after all, and at that time I discovered, my dear, I found myself expecting you to come to me, to save me, but you didn't come, it was the man who came, and at that time, I was going to despair when he came.

said that this was to compensate for the fact that he had 'bought' me in the first place, and I looked at him for a long time, and he was a little embarrassed to stare at him, and joked that I didn't have a crush on him.

I didn't answer him, but I realized a real thing that made me desperate, and that was that I love you, no matter how much I don't admit it, there are still some of them.

This fact is really quite scary, I feel scared, I think, I can't do this anymore, I can't go on anymore, I still know very well what kind of person you are.

So I made a bold decision, and when you came to me, when the woman was in a fake relationship, in fact to provoke a relationship between us, I took the sharp stone I picked up and scratched the woman's delicate face.

Sure enough, you got angry and yelled at me, the woman cried regardless of her image, not at all calm and coquettish when she met you before, but at this time I don't care about these things, she wanted to destroy me, but it didn't work.

Then my revenge was successful, I can only blame her for being stupid, I didn't think that I would retaliate against her, really when I was a vegetarian, when I was a weak toy that was harmless to humans and animals? Just kidding, I'm not that person.

I thought you were really angry this time and were going to kick me out, but you didn't, and instead went to your family to suppress all the negative aspects of the matter.

My dear, while your approach surprised me, it also made me feel your affection, and your heart can be so ruthless to treat such a beautiful woman.

My dear, you are terrible, but I am not afraid, I have understood, for your family, I am now a façade, and you will not let any stain appear on me, and then affect your family.

Therefore, I have no fear, besides, I am the real victim in this matter, I have no regrets, I am not weak-hearted, and anyone who dares to control my life must be prepared to be retaliated by me.

But some of the man's words reminded me, my dear, why on earth have I stayed with you for so long, since I hate others for taking control of my life, or ruining me by despicable means?

Is it just a threat from your family, or is it because of your beauty? No, it's not, but I can't think about it anymore, it's too late, these things can't shake me anymore.

But that person is still tearing down my desk, if I really don't care, why do I have to mention you every day, dear, you don't know how ugly my face was at that time.

The man was frightened, and asked me if I was okay, and his words made me feel that I had been determined all these years, you don't love me, and I don't love you, it became a joke.

Thinking about these things all day, then it's not a matter of caring, what is it? I don't know, but I know it's a slap in the face, a denial of myself, it's not normal, but I can't control myself.

It's a habit to talk to you, to sarcastically mock you, to belittle you, and then to elevate myself every day, but it's not normal, and not only does such a despicable act make me happy, but I don't notice anything wrong with it.

What the hell is going on? I don't understand, so when I ignore you when I think about it, your anger fuels my anger, and you make me sick.

At this time, you are still talking about that woman, and then trying to make me give my heart to you, which is ridiculous, what is all this? Are you amorous, or are you self-righteous?

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