My dear, if I really could, I wouldn't want to say goodbye to you at all, I wouldn't want to say goodbye to you, but what? You are such a naïve and cruel being.

You are as cruel as you are, my dear, and you will probably never know how many times, in those eight years, I wanted to kill you.

You really have a good family, there is a family that loves you, if it weren't for the fact that your family gave me substantial compensation, dear, I would have let you die in great humiliation.

You know why? Do you remember that person, my dear? The one who approaches you, then approaches you, and lures you into going somewhere that isn't so good.

That's right, my dear, it's the guy who hit it off at first sight and then treated you very well, and you were addicted to gangster movies and stuff like that all that time.

When you see such a person who suits your appetite, you immediately call him a brother, and then a brother and a brother, which is really ridiculous.

Honey, you keep saying you love me, you know? The so-called brother of you, the brother who is still willing to be your brother because you don't want to be a brother, even if he is older than you.

My dear, that person, the first time I saw you and me, I was sure that I was not your lover, and you never considered me a lover.

So, do you know who he thinks of me as you? Your toys, your playmates, your babysitters, anything can be, but it's not a lover.

My dear, he can see the things, but you are the only one, you can't see it, and then firmly think, I am your lover, ridiculous.

Honey, after you accepted this brother, you were coaxed into going to the bar to try something your family never let you try.

You thought it was very happy and funny, and I went with you because I was worried about you, and I advised you, but you didn't listen, but thought I was in the way, so you let them forcibly take me away.

I only drink and play games, all of which are the man's plans, after all, with your family background and the name of your 'girlfriend', all this is enough to 'buy' me a good price.

And you won't say anything yet, your family's tutor is so strict, once you eat this loss, you will keep your mouth shut, because you can't afford to lose this person.

Honey, none of this you know, you don't care, because no one can do anything to you, they can discuss what to do with me at will, because I'm not important.

And you're different, because no one can afford to hurt you, my dear, you know, in my life, the most hated thing is for others to manipulate my life.

These things disgusted me to the core, and in that moment, I wanted to kill you and kill everyone who wanted to destroy me.

That's what I thought, and I did, so I stayed until your family found me, and even if I died, I wouldn't let those people touch me.

But my dear, you don't know any of this, because you only care about yourself, and when you see me covered in blood, all you feel is dirty and disgusting.

How ridiculous, just like that, you still say you love me, you don't care if I'm hurt, you don't care if I'm paying for your existence, what you care about is that I'm embarrassed for you, what you care about is that I'm disgusting and dirty.

How ridiculous, isn't it?

Your family sent me to the hospital, I was not harmed, and you, after knowing all the reasons, regretted it and wanted to make it up to me, but dear, do you know what I was thinking?

I'm thinking, how can there be such a hypocritical person in this world, under such a beautiful shell, but such a hypocritical soul, how ridiculous? Isn't it?

My dear, after I returned to the house where you and I lived, you wandered outside my room all day, saying sorry words, but I didn't respond, and you felt bored and unaware of me.

Do you know why I forgive you? Because your family gave me a company, and with practical compensation, I will forgive you, forgive you, who is extremely hypocritical and ridiculous in my eyes.

Your family loves you, and I have only myself, and no matter how much I hate you, your family has told me that I can't leave you until you're completely tired of it.

Otherwise they will do the things that disgust me the most, they will destroy me, but I just want to live well, I just want to live forever.

So I gave in, my dear, and I have to admit that you still have a little conscience, and after that incident, you treated me better, but I only felt sick.

Just as you disgust me, my dear, you are naïve and naïve and have no idea what is going on or what a nightmare those things are for me.

You don't know, you're just being nice to me, making amends to me, and then asking my opinion on a lot of things, my dear, this time, I still don't think you love me, but I know, really trying to put me in your heart.

But it's too late, and if it weren't for these things, maybe you'd really love me, and I'd really love you, but it's too late, dear, and you're making me feel hypocritical.

Even the man who 'bought' me is more real than you, dear, you don't know, he found me afterwards because your family took revenge on him.

Revenge doesn't count, after all, it's just a few commands, and then you can get him into great trouble with the movement of your fingers, you don't know, my dear.

He was in trouble but didn't get angry, but sincerely apologized to me, saying that he had mistaken me, that I was very much to his liking, and at first I didn't believe it, but later, I did.

Because, my dear, he is more sincere than you, and he is more real than you, so since then, I have one more course on the weekend, and I have taken the initiative to learn self-defense skills with that person.

Your family has also given up on making trouble with him, even though I know that they are wondering if this is my ploy to marry into your family.

I didn't do anything to respond because it wasn't necessary, it was just an employment relationship, there was no need to explain anything, as long as it was good for me.

You see that my requirements are so low, but you still don't know this, you still simply think that we are still the same us, you don't know that I already had the idea of saying goodbye to you at that time.

My dear, at that time, I wanted to say goodbye to you, but no, I held back, no matter how good your tutor was, I still didn't dare to take the risk.

Who knows, once they want to deal with me on a whim, it is a simple thing, and your family's attitude makes me feel jealous, even if my jealousy comes inexplicably in their eyes, and it looks hypocritical.

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