I would also like to thank Liu Haitao for that. Because I once ate too many fried beans, but I didn't think that the beans were not fried, so I was poisoned, vomiting and diarrhea at night, has not been good, Liu Haitao is holding and carrying me to the school hospital, after the doctor read it, and moved me back to the fifth floor, I lay in the dormitory for two days, he gave me two days of millet porridge, I think he is still a little kind.

Just after the orientation party, this will start to prepare for the school sports day. With freshmen, there are a lot of things that you don't have to do by yourself, so it's a little negative. People often ask me why I don't look for a girlfriend recently, I don't know how to answer them, just say that some need fate, and there should be natural appearance, in fact, I think I'm afraid, afraid of a lot of promises and the uncertainty of people's hearts, afraid of hollowing out myself again and again in exchange for only the same place and not leaving themselves. Or maybe I really have a knot in my heart, a knot that I don't know how to untie yet.

I was also looking forward to my fate, and even felt that my fate had appeared. There was a little girl in the freshman year who made my heart flutter. She is Gao Wei of our department of logistics management, the first time I saw her was when the etiquette team rehearsed, the department for the sports meeting, selected a group of people as cheerleaders and etiquette team, the cheerleading team is mainly to dance cheerleading and cheering, the etiquette team is mainly to send flowers and medals to the winning athletes. When the ceremonial team was rehearsing in the rehearsal hall, I stood next to them and watched them practice the steps, standing straight with their chests upright, their hands crossed in front of their little belly, the pale pink cheongsam wrapped around her well-proportioned body, her long hair coiled on her head, she looked capable and neat, the skin on her face was tight and smooth, revealing the breath of youth, her deep eyes revealed a noble temperament, a round and tall nose bridge, full and beautiful lips, delicate facial features, beautiful and moving.

I looked at her and was fascinated, and when they were resting, I got to know the girls separately, and said some beautiful words, praising them as a cool scenery. Of course, the main purpose is to know Gao Wei, and it can be regarded as achieved.

Later, I found out that Gao Wei is also a native of Shijiazhuang, her father is the leader of the Propaganda Department of the Provincial Party Committee, and her mother is the president of the Qiaodong District Court. Maybe I left a good impression on her, or maybe I was too good at messing around in text messages, but I just showed admiration and didn't have any other extravagant hopes.

Suddenly, one day, Gao Wei sent me a text message: "Be my boyfriend, right?" I can't put into words how excited I was at the time, I don't know why she suddenly said that, I called her excitedly, told her that I agreed, and then asked her to meet downstairs in her dormitory.

Gao Wei was a little shy when he saw me, I took her hand for the first time, and then went for a walk behind the first teaching, we walked around the teaching building several times, listening to her tell me about the people and interesting things in the dormitory, at that moment I felt that I had been happy, like a happy heart-to-heart sympathy, and like a lifelong sustenance, my heart was full of joy.

However, within three days of the good thing, Gao Wei sent me a message and told me: "Let's break up, my parents don't agree with me to fall in love with you." "This text message made me nervous, I don't understand what's going on, but after this text message, Gao Wei disappeared, no matter I send her a message or call, she won't have any feedback, she has become a easily emotional, and extremely ruthless goblin. And this sweet dream of mine only lasted three days.

The world of young people, the world of the post-90s, made me confused, trance, sentimental, and panicked.

Actually, it's just a dream I've been having, a fairy tale dream about a frog prince and a noble princess. When I met the princess, I forgot the time, because I was still a frog and didn't become a prince, the princess was very beautiful, lively and cheerful, and always appeared around the frog when there was an accident. The frog was glad that God had arranged this, because the frog knew that when he changed from a prince to a frog, he was waiting for a kiss from the princess.

The prince has a beautiful voice, the princess may be looking for this, the princess also has troubles, often to the prince to complain, the prince feels that the princess is simply a little fragile, can't bear to let the princess suffer any harm, the prince wants to always be by the princess's side, but the prince is still a frog, can't do that, so he has to pray for the princess.

One day, the princess said to the prince, "Be my boyfriend." The prince was glad to hear this, and became helpless and jumped for joy. The prince promised the princess, hooked his finger with the princess and said that he would always be good to her, and hoped that we could go on forever. But the prince still didn't get a kiss from the princess, because he couldn't say it, and it was up to the princess to experience the prince's goodness, and a sincere kiss could make the prince become a real prince again.

The prince took the princess's hand, and the prince could be the prince back at nine to ten o'clock in the evening, and the princess was very busy every day, and the prince also had his own affairs, and only in this short hour, they could be real princes and princesses together, and happily stroll in the garden. The prince respects the princess and can't ask the princess with his own will, the princess doesn't know, the prince is waiting for a kiss, so that the curse can be broken and the prince can truly become a prince.

Suddenly one day, the princess said to the prince let's separate, and my father and mother did not agree that I was in love. The prince was saddened, as if he had returned to the thousand-year-old curse, and everything had lost its direction again.

The prince calculated, this dream has been made for three days, only three days, it turned out that he met not a princess, but a goblin who would hollow out people's hearts, they were originally two worlds.

The Games are over, and we're back to where we started.

Through everyone's efforts, our results are very good, and we are very happy that the good ones are not good. The department organizes everyone to go to dinner together in the evening, which is a celebration banquet. But after eating, everyone cried, indeed this time everyone was too hard, all kinds of grievances, all kinds of sadness, everyone took advantage of the effect of alcohol to talk unscrupulously for a long time, we laughed together, shed tears together, it is a kind of relaxation, no matter sweet and sour, no matter bitter and spicy, we fight together brothers and sisters, cherish and bless each other.

The cold bed is lonely and turns over early, and the night touches the sorrow. Personnel is too embarrassing, shocked and dreamy, where to find a beautiful woman? There is no news in the third autumn, and when I wake up and remember Beiyi, my shirt is full of tears!

I don't know what kind of dream I had, I wet my pillow towel with tears.

It was a rare good day, and the sun was shining. It's rare to be able to stick to a class similar to a book from heaven, but today I persevered, and I began to feel that it was a real pleasure to be able to sit quietly in the classroom and listen to the lectures. At noon, I came out of the cafeteria and met a person, I saw this person for the second time, her smile impressed me deeply, a little bit of Ying Caier's meaning, I really like Ying Caier. It's such a simple thing, it can make people happy, life is like this, you can make inexplicable things make you sad, and you can also make things that have nothing to do with you very happy. Just like in the evening, the fiery sunset is napping in the sky, accidentally seen by you, the heart is warm, walking in the schoolyard, although the leaves of the trees are beginning to wither, but seeing three or two children there riding a three-wheeled BMX, chasing back and forth and playing, we will still smile comfortably.

A person who puts on a black sportswear at night, changes into sneakers, and runs wildly on the playground is just to run indulgently, and then run the past into a circle, slowly forget, and slowly experience the perfection. Although many things are not so satisfactory, it is better to accept and face them from a different perspective. Running sweaty, you can go back to get a good night's sleep.

This haggard being tortured by goblins, I have listened to this song for a long time, many times.

"I had to let go of my hand in love

Calmly look at the gentleness of no one else

had to be at the door where people were coming

Learn slowly

Calm acceptance

I thought I had finally gotten rid of the old days

Owned by a person

to have a lifetime

I didn't think we would repeat the mistakes of the past

It turned out to be just as naïve

You always say one day

If we still have fate

After walking around, you will still return to each other's side

I'm always afraid of one day

Even if the relationship hasn't changed

You and I met after meeting someone else."

I always feel that life is full of surprises and helplessness, more or less. Some people will miss you at some point, but they don't necessarily mean it. It's too cruel to break off friendship, and if you hurt yourself, you will hurt the people who care about you. We don't have the right or the ability to change anyone, and in fact we're not willing to change ourselves. That's why we hurt each other.

Yesterday I had a drink with Xiao Na and Fan Xiaobo, Xiao Bo and we joked, which reminded me of a sentence: I am just a fly, looking for eggs with seams, the eggs are basically seamless, and the eggs I find are those broken and unsightly eggs.

Later, when I told Cortana about it, she didn't understand what it meant, but then I told her that it was about men and women, and she understood it and got into a fight with me. Maybe next year I should also find a good egg without a gap to guard well, and when she cracks, I will fly up, but I can't let the things that come out of the egg kill me, who called me a fly, but maybe, when I evolve when I am guarding, I may become a powerful character, but eggs are also hard to find. In fact, Xiaobo said that I was too cheap, always doing things that were undignified and hurt myself, and when I looked back, it was all self-inflicted, so I was like a fly, and I was quite helpless!