There has been no taste in the mouth for the past two days, and some of it is just a faint bitterness, I don't know if it's on fire, or if it's smoking too much in the past two days, it's not a taste. In the evening, I took Fan Xiaobo to the newly opened Heqi Bar at the entrance of the school for a drink, a newly opened small shop, no dance floor, a few small tables, and soothing soft music. There were not many guests and the hostess welcomed us warmly. With a wine glass in my hand and looking around the bar, I saw Xia Yufei in the corner. She is also a member of the etiquette team of our department, and her first impression is that she has a gloomy temperament, a little cold, and gray eyes. I watched curiously as she sat alone in the corner drinking, not knowing if it was wine or a drink. I told Fan Xiaobo, you see this person must have a lot of stories. He said if there is one, don't worry about it, and go back later.

After saying goodbye to the beautiful boss and being fooled into getting a membership card, we went back to school, and the only gain was that I remembered Xia Yufei.

Sometimes, we don't feel the way we want to feel; Sometimes, we don't get what we want; Sometimes, what happens doesn't make sense; Sometimes, life pulls us into situations that are beyond our own control.

Cortana set a study plan for me, and if I didn't follow it, she would break off my friendship, and she wrote very decisively, maybe her cynicism began to bored her, and I signed it, and I was Party B. It's also nice to have someone to push me to learn, at least to let me know what I need to do every day and what to think about in my free time.

When I was bored, I wandered around the campus, wanting to go to a small restaurant to eat oily noodles. Before I walked to the office building of the department, I saw Yuan Jie and a man downstairs very close, she was waiting for the man to unlock the bicycle, laughing and holding the man's waist, sitting on the back seat of the bicycle, the two of them walked sweetly in the evening of the setting sun.

Looking at the appearance of two people, it looks like love. The frozen picture at this moment, like a movie poster, reminds me of the way Yang Zheng carried Wen Hui on a bicycle in the end of love, and at the moment of trance, I wanted to be the one who carried Yuan Jie, but unfortunately before I could figure it out, they had already drawn out my sight. That man is Yuan Jie's legendary boyfriend, I heard that it was her classmate, I think it should be.

I lowered my head, walked to the small dining room, asked for a bowl of oily noodles, drank four bottles of beer, walked on the path behind the principal's office building, leaned on the corner, and wanted to spit out the whole person, but unfortunately it only diluted Yuan Jie's shadow, I understood that I should have stayed away from her.

The origin is extinguished, and the flowers bloom and are grateful.

A friend once said, "When a person loses his first love, he will be in love." "I remember hearing it and I was surprised. Because I don't believe that people are like this, but when it's calm, I always silently think, "Where is my love?" What's the most important thing? "Late at night, let the fireworks be around, lightly describe my own depravity, I am afraid of loneliness, alone in the corner of the night, hugging my knees and licking my wounds, adding a little loneliness, on the way to find true love, I meet all kinds of people, meet all kinds of attraction, I may be abusive.

I sent a text message to Xia Yufei: "I want to hear your story. ”

"The story is too long to tell," she said. ”

"You speak slowly, I listen slowly."

"Then let's wait until we have time."

"Maybe we're all lonely, that's why there's gray forbearance in your eyes."

"How did you see that?"

"Intuition."

"Then your instincts aren't right."

"Well, I'll have time for you to dinner." briefly chatted with Xia Yufei for a few words, which seemed a little abrupt and presumptuous.

When she has nothing to do, she will go to the Internet, play billiards, and like to eat "red beans" the most. Of course, these are all known by texting when you are free.

I made an appointment to invite Xia Yufei to ice cream. This is the first time we have met, and she is better than I thought she would be in contact with at the "quack" cold drink shop, not as cold as I imagined.

I fiddled with the scattered black and white pieces on the board, and she used her spoon to stir the half-melted ice cream in the goblet. I didn't speak, just listened quietly to her story, occasionally smiling or saying a few simple words. She wasn't afraid of my presence, and she talked about all the pain in her heart.

Xia Yufei's hometown is in the Northeast, she has followed her mother, she is a child of a divorced family, her mother has remarried three times before and after, and she doesn't know which home she should go back to now, or whether she has a home now. Every holiday, or the New Year, she usually wanders around, going to her grandmother's house for two days, going to her aunt's house for two days, and staying in a hotel for a few days, even if she survives. It's better at school, so you don't have to think about these problems. Of course, there are also her emotional problems, she should have had a boyfriend before, because of what separation, she didn't say, and I didn't ask. Just listening to her story made me feel dull, with her pity, but also a little helpless.

I looked at her, I couldn't use any words to comfort her, I just flattened out my right hand, Xia Yufei looked at me, as if without thinking, she also stretched out her hand and put it on my palm.

I don't know why she believed me so easily and told me her story, why she wasn't afraid of me, didn't guard against me, and didn't understand why she held out her hand without thinking when I reached out. After sending Xia Yufei back to the dormitory, I sent her a text message: "You are the first girl to high-five me when I stretch out my hand, good dreams." ”

I may just want to be a listener, or also a confidant, all the immature naivety in my heart, can find a person to confide in, can't talk to others, there is also a way to vent, and even occasionally can feel a certain response and temperature, then I am content, Xia Yufei is the person who appeared at this time to give me such a feeling, she can listen to my story, can understand my little careful thinking without saying anything, and what I can do is also a listener, A companion, not a suitor, confused not to position himself.

When I woke up at six o'clock in the morning, I sent a text message to Xia Yufei: "In the future, you can use one of my shoulders to rely on, and tell me when you need it." She replied, "Thank you!" ”

Tang Nan is the president of the student union of our School of Finance, a slightly chubby and very capable girl, a native of Handan. We met when we had a sports day at school, and she thought that our cheerleading team and etiquette team were very good, so she came to learn from us, and later we all cheered each other on what activities were held between the colleges, mainly because of the school debate tournament and football match, our respective teams often became competitors, and in the end, it was almost always our two teams PK to compete for the championship. Standing on the edge of the arena, we are familiar with each other, occasionally joking and bickering, at that time she often told us allusions about Handan, and we always joked with her about Weichubby.

One day, she was at the Bigg Pizza buffet next to the Northland Mall, inviting me, Cortana, and the head of our student union to dinner, and we laughed and joked about it. Cortana told me that she didn't look at me right, and that it might be a woman's sixth sense.

Later, I had more contact, and Tang Nan asked me if I liked her? I didn't reply right away, thought about it for a long time, and then told her I liked it. She said that would be my boyfriend, right? I thought about it for a long time, and then told her that I wasn't worthy of her. Because of Tang Nan's ability and strength, including his strong character, I don't think I can control it. Later, she didn't pay attention to me, and I knew that I didn't deserve her love and hate.

I also sent a text message to Xia Yufei: "Do you like me? "She may have been in class and it took her half a day to reply to me with a message that was not answered. I had to chat vaguely about text messages. Xia Yufei asked me rhetorically, "Do you like me?" "yes, the same question, a question I've answered many times, but I don't know how to answer her. I told her that I no longer have love, just a shell, and it doesn't matter whether I like it or not, "The moment I turned back on my loneliness, I realized that I couldn't talk about love anymore." ”

Xia Yufei didn't believe it, she was asking me about the result, I didn't answer her directly, so I posted: "Aren't you afraid that I'm playing?" ”。 She didn't reply to my messages.

I called her in the evening and asked her to go for a walk with her, and she agreed. Inexplicably a little excited, I changed my clothes and ran to the agreed playground, where she stood quietly waiting for me.

"I'm sorry, I'm late, I've kept you waiting." I said breathlessly.

"No, I just arrived." Xia Yufei took off the headphones on her ears, she was listening to a song, a song "We Are All Good Boys". "Why are you in such a hurry?"

"I didn't know, so I trotted here." I really didn't know why I had to run to the appointment, so I went to the small supermarket to buy some snacks and fruit to ease the embarrassment, and then found a place to sit and chat at school.

We had a great time chatting while eating, and for some reason, it seemed to be very intimate. I told her about the foreign and my buddies, and she also got to know me a lot, and time passed quickly, and I sent her back to the dormitory at ten o'clock. When we parted, I smiled and stretched out my right hand, and Xia Yufei smiled and high-fived me.

Everything good in the world seems to be accompanied by sporadic defects, as it is often said, "God is fair, and He does not favor one person and give him too much." "All beauty always comes with flaws or blemishes, and nothing is truly perfect. I strive for perfection and my zodiac sign is Virgo. Along the way, there have been too many shortcomings, too many helplessness, and too much helplessness. In fact, there is no so-called perfection in the world, and all the "perfection" is precisely because of the shortcomings that the ethereal existence and beauty are beautiful, just like my feelings for Xia Yufei, between love or non-love.