"Yizhuo, how do you feel after reading the previous ones? When did you say I fell in love with you? So which day do we make our day together? I think it's June 8th, it's a good day, let's make this day an anniversary. Lying in bed and looking at so many things recorded in the diary, I am really sorry that you have suffered so many grievances!

Yizhuo, I'm really not used to the days when you are not around, I can't do without your care and warmth, I am really happy to have such a person by my side, what touches me even more is your persistence, from the beginning to our real communication, the real establishment of the relationship, more than two years, you have always cared, meticulous care, let me feel like a princess. I remember that there was a time when you always had insomnia, and you had to rely on drugs to force yourself to fall asleep, I listened to it and felt very uncomfortable, I know that there are many reasons for me, I don't know how to refuse to the point, and I don't know how to persuade tactfully, just there selfishly enjoying your kindness to me, I'm really sorry! I know your love for me, I can't stand in front of your ideals and goals like a wall, you will always see me first, so you will be desperate, you have your home behind you, your parents, I will miss you so desperately, I even said, I only need you enough.

I can't remember which special moment when I'm the happiest, it seems that I'm always happy and happy with you, you always give me so many surprises, just like every birthday, you will give me special gifts, 99 crystal love, 1314 lucky stars, and a lot, I know it's all your love for me.

I know you gave up a lot for me, and came to Shijiazhuang for me, do you know how happy I am? When I talk to the people in the dormitory about you, they all have envious eyes, and I am full of pride. That time was my happiest time, because when I miss you, we can meet in this foreign land, no longer use the phone, the Internet, and letters to express our thoughts as before, and we can go for a walk in the park together on weekends, visit Xianglongtai together, buy my favorite mung bean cake, and do so many meaningful things together. It was such a beautiful thing, but because of me, it has come to this day, I'm really sorry, and I don't want to lose you.

To love someone is to give him courage, let him fly bravely, didn't you also tell me that our future has to be created by ourselves, and at this time I am not all of you, just as you are not all of me. At first, I didn't really understand this sentence, I didn't quite understand what you meant, but then I understood that no matter what kind of new people we meet, what kind of friends we make, we decide to do everything with only one purpose, and that is our future life. I began to work hard to improve myself, and I also know the cruelty of society, just like you can't resist repetition and accidents in life, I can't resist the changes in my body day by day, I have to leave you before you find out, so you stay in Shijiazhuang, and I go to Tianjin for treatment. Why did fate arrange it this way? It's an irresistible life, and I don't want to ruin your future because of me.

In my limited life, I am very content to be able to meet you, I really wish I could be ruthless and cut you off, but unfortunately I can't, so I asked that uncle for help, as long as I can separate from you, it's fine. That way, you won't be sad because of me in the future, or the long pain is better than the short pain, and after a few days you meet new friends, you will forget about me, then I will be relieved.

Yizhuo, in fact, I have tried to persevere more than once, thinking of handing over a complete, healthy and healthy self to you, whenever I think of your warm appearance, I grit my teeth and hold on, but now I have changed, no hair, ugly, I am afraid that you will be sad to see me.

Goodbye, dear Yizhuo, if you can receive this letter, it proves that you are still the same in my heart, thank you for not changing. But please promise me, forget me, you must love yourself well in the future, and you must be happy!

I'm sorry, I love you! I can only say goodbye to you here.

Love your ocean forever.

September 2006. ”

After reading the letter that Yang wrote to me, I burst into tears, and I knew that she still loved me, and something must have happened to make her treat me like this. I packed the letter, flew back to Yang's house, I knocked on the door, and rushed into the house, Yang's mother came out of the east house, looked at me in amazement, I asked her, "Auntie, what's wrong with Yang?" Tell me, what's wrong with her? ”

My aunt looked at me sad and whispered, "Child, don't be sad, she is gone." ”

"What does it mean to be gone? Where did it go, or what's wrong? I listened to my aunt's words and was anxious.

"Don't worry, she's gone to Yunnan." My aunt saw that I was in a hurry, so she hurriedly told me.

"Oh, it's scary, I thought something was wrong." I breathed a sigh of relief, no, what about the letter to me that Yang said about going to Tianjin for treatment?

"Auntie, what did she do in Yunnan? What did she say about going to Tianjin for treatment? Is she sick? I couldn't help but ask.

"Well, she's not in good health, and she's pretty stable now." Auntie said.

"Huh? What kind of disease, is it serious? So why do you go to Yunnan to see a doctor or what? "I knew there must be something to hide from me.

"It's stable, she was okay when she left, saying that she went to a friend in Yunnan to recuperate, and she didn't contact us a few times after walking for half a year, and she went to Dali to talk to us, and rarely called back. We're not going to be able to do that as well. Yang's mother also had a sad face.

"Didn't she say who to go to?" I followed her words and asked.

"No, just say that she has a friend over there, and the climate is good for recuperation, so she will go." Auntie said.

"That shouldn't be fine, she's so old and has friends around her, what's wrong with her, she still needs to recuperate?" I asked.

"She is not in good health, after chemotherapy, the doctor said that she is quite stable, and she needs to be observed and recuperated, and I am really afraid that no one will take care of her when she runs so far this time."

"What's wrong with her, did she go alone? Didn't you call her and ask her? "There are a lot of questions I don't understand.

"She left alone, without consulting me and her father, and only told us when she got to the place that I had called her for the past two days, and that she had not been able to get through. So I'm not at ease. ”

"It's okay, I guess there's a problem with her phone, and it's time to contact you when it's handled. And what did she say about this letter you gave me today? ”

"She later called me and told me that there was a letter in her desk drawer, and if I met you at the door, let me pass it on to you, and if I didn't, I wouldn't give it to you."

"Oh, then I see. Then don't be too anxious, she's not fine, I guess I haven't bothered to contact you in the past two days, you give me her phone number, I also called her, and called me to let her report her safety to you. After that, I wrote down Yang's phone number from Yang's mother.

"Well, if you call me, I'll rest assured, she can't be outside alone, if there is no one around, I'll go over and look at her." Yang's mother told me.

"Auntie, what's wrong with her?" I never asked.

"She didn't let me tell anyone that her blood was not good, and she had been seeing a doctor in Tianjin, and the doctor said that she would come back after the chemotherapy was basically stable." Yang's mother said very sadly, I think Yang must have suffered a lot.

"It's good to be stable, so did she go to Dali by herself to go to her boyfriend?" I couldn't help but ask something I didn't know if I should ask.

"I didn't hear her say she talked about her boyfriend." Yang's mother told me.

Hearing her say this, it seems that Yang has never talked about her boyfriend again, so all the things she told me before were pure fabricated lies?