Since Yang didn't talk about a boyfriend, was she afraid that she would get sick and affect me, so she chose to leave? Is it because I'm still a student and I'm going to study in school, and she's already graduated, so she's free and can decide for herself? Isn't love a matter of two people? She made the decision directly to me herself, which is too bloody. I thought that Yang must have watched too many TV series, learned the plot of the heroine in it, got sick, and was afraid of affecting me, so he left by himself, and found such a reason to add guilt to me, and broke up with me. That's all I can think about.

But Yang's mother said that she was indeed sick, and it was very serious, and now that she is stable, will her life be in danger? I tried my best to calm down the uneasiness and confusion in my heart, and I tentatively asked Yang's mother: "Auntie, is Yang very seriously ill and in danger of his life?" ”

"The doctor said that it was a kind of leukemia similar to acute lymphoid type, and now there should be nothing wrong, the recovery is very good, if it is serious, you have to do a stem cell transplant." Yang's mother told me.

Listening to her say this, Yang's condition is still very serious, but fortunately, he is recovering well, but why don't you tell me, do you think I can't trust and trust me so much? I'm not sure.

I don't know if Yang's mother knows about my relationship with Yang, when we graduated from high school together, Yang arranged for a group of our classmates to have dinner at Yang's grandmother's house, Yang's mother prepared a meal for us, and I also toasted her a few glasses of wine at that time, at that time it was also the first time to see Yang's mother, when I was young and ignorant, I didn't know how to behave in front of Yang's mother, anyway, I drank a lot of wine, a noisy group of people, and left after eating.

Now that I see my mother again, my state of mind is very different from before, and it's not good to ask this and that, so I simply understand it. I guess that Yang's mother can't contact Yang, so she will go out to see it when she is in a hurry, and she will meet me by chance.

Yang's physical condition was during the period when I returned to my hometown from foreign translation to prepare for the college entrance examination again, and I needed to prepare for various unified exams and mock exams, as well as things like registration, and I had to step up my study every day, after all, it was another opportunity to change my fate. I guess she was afraid that I would be distracted and didn't want to burden me, so she didn't tell me, maybe she didn't expect such a state in her body, so she made the decision not to tell me after knowing the result.

I can't imagine the pain she's been through for the past two years, and I can't imagine if she'll miss me as much as she used to, and I feel a pain in my heart that can't be greater.

I called Yang on my mobile phone, but I still couldn't get through. I tried to call my original best friend Hai Jing again.

In general, I don't contact Hai Jing very much unless necessary. Because I know that my appearance has created a big gap between Yang and Haijing, I don't know if the two of them are still very good now. I remember Yang told me that Hai Jing felt that Yang and I had given her a lot of baggage, and she thought that Yang and I were very mean and shrewd, especially me. Hai Jing always felt that I treated her as a chess piece, and used her to get close to Yang, and when I got along with Yang, I threw her away. Hai Jing also wrote a letter of despair to Yang, probably because she thought that the way I looked at her was that kind of smug and proud, she felt that my pride was an insult and a kind of disdain for her, and she actually didn't have that kind of idea at all. I even felt sorry for her, but unfortunately I couldn't explain it. Hai Jing once asked Yang, asked her if she thought about her feelings when she was merry and happy, and Yang who asked me cried sadly when I thought of this question in front of me. I know it's all my fault, and it's my fault that I crossed paths with the two of them. But you can't blame me, two sisters should be shit when they like the same person.

Hai Jing was also surprised to receive my call, I asked her if she knew Yang's whereabouts, she said she didn't, and they hadn't been in touch for a long time. I didn't say anything else, I guess she didn't tell anyone about it. I texted again and asked the people I thought I could get in touch with, and the result was the same, saying that they hadn't been in touch for a long time and didn't know the specific situation.

There was no other way, so I had to tell Yang's mother that if I could contact her, I would ask her to call back as soon as possible.

Leaving Yang's home, I took the letter Yang gave me and kept praying that Yang must be well and that there would be no problems. When I went home to pack my things, I didn't have any bottom in my heart, I really wanted to tell my mother about it, ask her opinion, but I didn't dare to open my mouth, afraid that my mother would think about me and do something impulsive. I made a lot of phone calls to Yang in between, but I couldn't get through. I sent a few text messages asking her to contact me after turning on the phone, but it was like a stone in the sea, and there was no news.

I began to have other plans in my heart, I wanted to go to Dali to find foreigners. I had all kinds of thoughts in my head, whether she was going to Erhai Lake, whether she was going to Jade Dragon Snow Mountain, whether she was going to Butterfly Spring, all kinds of conjectures made me really impulsive.

I called Yuan Jie as soon as possible, and I asked her, should I not go to be a soldier? She asked why, and I said for personal reasons, a little bit I didn't want to go. She told me that according to the conscription policy and the notice of the college, it should not work, and if there is any force majeure, it can not be said. She asked me if there was any force majeure, don't make trouble after the political trial, this conscription is a very serious matter, not a joke.

I told her that I was okay and I would just ask and I would go back to school.

I didn't expect such a thing to happen in the short time I went home, and I felt a wave in my heart, the things I had decided were not affected by these things, but now that this situation has happened, I am a little hesitant. But there are some things that cannot be changed, and the matter of signing up for the army, after passing the physical examination and the political examination, it is not that I want to be a soldier, and if I don't want to be a bad thing, I must obey the organizational arrangements now, otherwise even if I desert, I will be punished, and even the risk of imprisonment.

I said goodbye to my parents and rushed back to school. I'm going to take a good look at what that conscription policy looks like.

I found Yuan Jie, and I still couldn't help but tell her what I knew when I went home, and I also told her about the situation in the foreign country, and I wanted her to help me with advice, because I really didn't know what to do.

"She still has feelings for you, I think she must have a hard time, or she just doesn't want to cause you trouble." Yuan Jie enlightened me.

"She doesn't want to cause me trouble, so don't let me know forever, what's going on, why should she let me know. I don't know what to do when I know it. I complained to Yuan Jie.

"She's not very good now, so don't worry, it's just that she hasn't been contacted now, and I'll ask her about it when you get in touch." If she really wants to be nice to you, I think she'll come back to you. Yuan Jie said, "What's more, even if you decide to go to her, you can't contact her, where can you find such a big place, and you will delay your own affairs, if you contact her in the future, you can just find time to find her." ”

It seems that I can only do this now, otherwise I really don't know where to find foreign in the vast crowd, and I will delay the school affairs.

I listened to Yuan Jie's words, let's go and become a soldier. Regardless of whether Yang is good or bad, I know that she is still alive, it is good to be alive, and there will be hope if she is alive!

Someone, somewhere, someday

Let me tell you, I'm so desperate

There is a kind of love that I can't express, and there is a kind of longing that you can't understand

We are ambiguous and hurt each other

Maybe you're just confused and don't understand what to do

Or maybe you understand it completely but look helpless

This makes me hate and can't help myself

So you gave me a reason to compromise

Time will tell

You're going to ask me questions like and that

It was a mess in my mind

And then you snickered and thought I wouldn't talk about my love at all

It's a pity that it's because of these trivial loves that my heart is in turmoil

infatuated

So desperate

Somewhere, somebody, someday

Let me tell you, I'm so desperate

At first sight, the sky is dark and gray

It's extremely depressing, and it accumulates along with the mood

The scorching light bakes the skin

It was as if you could hear the sound of meat frying on an iron plate

Look for meager shadows to cool your dreams

It's a pity that the light and shadow are intertwined

I have seen you grow and develop

But you abandoned me when I was growing up

I'll remember your cruelty

Miss

So desperate

Someday, somebody, somewhere

Let me tell you, I'm so desperate

Never find the familiar taste again

No more unbridled chases

I was trapped in a circular subway station

The street lights are still bright

Leaves blown off by the cold wind

We walked in a hurry

Eagerly longed for warmth

It seems to be just ahead

Stand up your collar

I hid my tearful face