One Saturday in late April, Zhu Boyan and I were discussing where to go for the May Day holiday. Before the result was discussed, she asked me to accompany her to the city shopping, and I was playing mahjong in the dormitory, so I shirked it and said another day.

This may make Zhu Boyan unhappy, she is going to go shopping by herself, I didn't compromise and let her go by herself. Later, she texted me that a high school classmate came to play with her, and she went to play with her high school classmate, and I replied to her that I said okay, and I said that when she came back, I would pick her up at the door.

Until the evening of the same day, Zhu Boyan had not returned. I texted her, she didn't reply, I called her, she didn't answer, and after several points in a row, no one answered. Then it just became unreachable, and I thought her phone was out of battery. I didn't know what was going on with her, where she was, and I didn't feel right, so I contacted her roommate to see if she was in the dorm.

Her roommates said they didn't know much either, and she wasn't in the dormitory. I don't know what the situation is, I don't know what the reason is, I had to call Zhu Boyan from time to time, and then wandered around the campus aimlessly looking for it, until the dormitory closed at night, and she didn't go back to the dormitory.

I guess where did I her off? Like a fool, I searched around for her all night, but still didn't find her. I didn't sleep all night, I don't understand what happened to me, what is the situation with her, she doesn't reply to my messages, doesn't answer my calls, and the phone is out of battery and should be able to find a place to charge. I thought about all kinds of reasons, all kinds of reasons to convince myself, but I still couldn't figure out the way.

I got up early the next day and asked her roommate if Zhu Boyan had returned, and her roommate said no. I had a sense of foreboding, and then begged her roommate to help me look around for Zhu Boyan, so that something really happened to her. At about 8 o'clock in the morning, her roommate told me that Zhu Boyan had returned and was walking back from the main entrance of the school. Knowing the news, I flew to the school gate as fast as I could, and when I first arrived at the library, I saw Zhu Boyan walking alone.

The first time I saw her, I rushed up excitedly and yelled, "What's the matter with you? Play disappear, or what, text messages don't reply, phone calls don't answer! What the hell is going on with you, do you know I was worried all night? "I didn't stop talking a lot in one breath.

Zhu Boyan looked at me and just said, "My phone is out of battery." ”

The phone was out of battery and it was a complete excuse, I was about to get angry, but when I saw her neck, I was stunned because there was a large dark purple kiss mark on her neck.

My mind went blank and I suddenly understood what was going on. Zhu Boyan went out with other men to open a room, and she must have been out all night.

I could barely tell how angry and sad I was, and I stomped my feet for a long time without saying a word. I was afraid that the students who came and went would see me arguing with her, so they trembled and pulled her to the edge of the small playground next to the library. Standing under the stout poplar tree, I couldn't help but ask Zhu Boyan: "Why are you doing this to me?" Who is that man? ”

Zhu Boyan didn't speak, I grabbed her arm and shook her vigorously, it should have hurt her, she told me that the man was her high school classmate, and she had been chasing her, but she didn't agree, and I contacted her again during the winter vacation, and this time I came to see her. Zhu Boyan's words, I listened to them like millions of thorns, piercing directly into my heart, making my already sore heart feel suffocated.

"I came to see you, and you opened a room with him outside, huh? Have you ever considered me? I screamed.

Zhu Boyan lowered her head and said that after they finished shopping in the city, they drank a lot of wine during the meal, and then they lived in the city, and they had a relationship half-pushed.

What a high-sounding word half pushed, I didn't hear a trace of guilt from Zhu Boyan's mouth. I raised my hand angrily, I really wanted to slap her in the mouth, but my trembling hand didn't go down, and I punched the poplar tree next to me, and my fingers hurt and broke a little skin.

I calmed down and said to Zhu Boyan: "Half push, half push, it's good, people push you, you are gone?" Give that guy a call, and I'll say a few words to him. "It's not that I said that to her with contempt, it's that what she did made me a little irrational.

Zhu Boyan resisted and refused to call the man. I snatched her bag and took out her mobile phone, which was a brand new Nokia, looking at this phone and asking Zhu Boyan, "He bought it for you?" Zhu Boyan nodded.

I laughed out loud, and I immediately understood, it turned out that what Zhu Boyan wanted was not my good to her, it should be material satisfaction, and the lipsticks and bags I bought when I accompanied her shopping were too pediatric. I looked through the call log of her phone, and the first name on it was supposed to be the man, and I asked her, but she didn't speak. I calmed down a bit and dialed it over.

A man's lazy voice answered the phone and asked, "What's wrong?" ”

As soon as I heard this voice, I was so angry that I said, "Why are you a mother, where are you?" ”

"Who are you, where do you care about me!" The man said.

"I'm Zhu Boyan's boyfriend." I shouted through gritted teeth.

"Oh, you're a coward." The man said in a contemptuous tone.

"Yes, I'm cowardly, you just say where are you? Let's talk to each other in person. "I only have one thought now, if I see that man, I think I will rush to the gang and repair him fiercely, as for whether I can beat him or not, I have to fight first.

"I'm in the sports institute, if you have the ability, you can come over." The man said very awesomely, provocative between the lines.

"Okay, you can wait for me." I hung up the phone, and I was about to go to the gymnasium.

Zhu Boyan stepped forward to stop me, she pulled me and didn't let me go. I looked at Zhu Boyan, didn't hold back the tears in my eyes, and asked her with tears: "Why are you doing this to me?" Am I treating you badly? Why are you doing this to me? ”

Although Zhu Boyan and I have never spoken the word of the alliance and made any promises, I have fantasized that I can go to the end with her, otherwise I will not show her photos to my mother, and I will not let my mother know about my affairs with her. Unfortunately, it really became my fantasy.

Zhu Boyan lowered her head and didn't speak, looking very innocent and stunned, I don't know if she was numb or so calm in her heart. Looking at her appearance, it suddenly made me feel that all this was meaningless, I just smiled bitterly, picked up the phone and dialed the man again.

The man said, "What? Arrived? ”

I smiled and said, "No, I hope you'll be kind to her in the future." ”

"You don't need to worry about this!" The man said arrogantly.

"Yes, yes, I can't take care of it. You guys have fun. "I laughed and said it so sadly, so indifferent, I even felt like a piece of shit, cheap and worthless.

Hung up the phone, I returned the phone to Zhu Boyan, looking at her uncomfortable appearance, the appearance of her rolling the sheets with others appeared in my mind, thinking about whether it was also like when I exercised, scratching my head charmingly, trying various postures, the shouts of satisfaction were endless, I was nauseating in my stomach, I beat my chest, and endured not throwing it out.

Suddenly felt that Zhu Boyan was also pitiful, relying on the flesh to satisfy selfish desires, not worth me to do, I said to her: "If you think it's not suitable for me and want to break up with me, you can tell me, let's get together and disperse, you use this way to break up with me, I don't know if you are to disgust me, or to practice yourself, you make me feel that you are not even a chicken, so do it yourself!" I wish you all happiness! ”

After saying that, I turned around and left, my face with tears was like an eggplant beaten by frost in the morning, and there were dewdrops. Along the way, I tried my best to control my thoughts, I didn't want to think of Zhu Boyan's appearance, I didn't want to think of the kiss marks on her neck, I didn't want to make up for the picture of the two of them crazy all night, my chest cramped, I stumbled back to the dormitory, Liu Haitao and Liu Rui hadn't gotten up yet, I didn't know what time they played cards yesterday, I didn't squeak, I got into the quilt, covered my head and slew.

I was depressed, I went to the dormitory for two days, I didn't wash, I didn't go out of the house, I asked Fan Xiaobo to bring me something to eat when I was hungry, I re-watched "Sunny Days" in the dormitory a few times, and I burst into tears when I watched it, in fact, this was mainly to cover up the wounds in my heart.

In "Animal Ferocity", it is said that they skip class, pick up girls, and fight in groups, and they have unprecedentedly liberated their animal instincts because they "don't have to learn useless knowledge that they are destined to forget later"; They know that their future is framed within a fixed range, so they are not worried about their future at all. "I don't have to fight for anything, I just have to wait, and it will naturally be my turn when I am eighteen." Therefore, in real life, they are only left with the energy to vent everywhere, the desire to search for excitement everywhere, the arrogance of self-righteousness, and the wandering mind of drifting with the tide. The world described in the book is a mountain king, a fox spirit, a courtesan, and a heartfelt infatuation with the opposite sex, but this romantic feeling is eventually swallowed up by uncontrollable animal desires. And 80% of them described by Wang Shuo have our shadows, which makes me have to be led by his nose, whether he takes you to eat or sugar, this may be the so-called spiritual resonance.

Later, Jiang Wen adapted the movie "Sunny Days" based on this novel, which is better than the original book, because the intuitive images can make you more immersive. The novel emphasizes looking back on the past through the eyes of an adult, and the film focuses on growing up, pushing you into a bygone era and growing up with the boy named Ma Xiaojun.