When I got home, I changed my clothes, tied my hair up, and looked in the mirror at my face that was yellow because I hadn't slept well. I washed my face and put on my makeup seriously, I was ready to meet Vivian, I don't know why, although I had only met her once, I felt that I could believe it, there was a sense of security.

Soon I came to the quiet bar near the hospital, this time I looked at the name "Tomorrow" carefully, it turned out that this quiet bar was called Tomorrow, although I came twice, I didn't know what it was called.

As soon as he pushed the door, the bell hanging from the door rang. "Sorry, it's not open yet." Vivien said a little lazily.

"It's me, can I make an exception for a drink?" I searched for where her voice came from.

I saw her jump out from behind the bar, staring at me and laughing, "It's you?" I thought you would come a few days ago, but I didn't expect to come today. Follow me."

I saw her say to the young girl who was cleaning in the house, "I'll go to the terrace, I'll come up to find me if there's something." She led me across the stage to a narrow aisle, and at the end of the aisle was the staircase, and I followed her up the stairs. I never knew there was a second floor, I always thought it was just a bar.

The second floor is a large platform, half of which is set up as a sun glass room, half as a terrace, and there are many plants planted on the terrace, although it is very cold today, but the sun is exceptionally good, Vivian turned to me and said, "Let's go to the sun room, it's cold outside, go in and get warm." ”

There were a few cats lying on their stomachs in the sun room, and when they saw us coming, they were still motionless on the ground, looking like they were not afraid of people. Indeed, the glass separates the cold air, leaving only the warm sunlight that refracts it, and after a while, I feel warm after being cold for several days.

"Here, this is for you, you and I have eyes, this cup is free of charge." Vivien laughed.

I took a sip of "This is not wine?" ”

"I didn't say that I would take you to drink, this is brown sugar ginger tea, although you wear makeup, but you can see that you are very haggard, drink some brown sugar to warm you and add some sugar to you happy."

"What about your friend? Why didn't you come?" Vivien handed me a glass of brown sugar water, but she poured herself a glass of wine and asked as she drank it.

"I didn't tell her I was here. It's my family affair, and I don't want to bother her with all this mess. ”

"So you're going to come to me and take care of your troubles?"

"How's it going, is it settled?" Vivien asked, shaking her glass.

I shook my head, I didn't know if I should continue, she was a stranger, we had only met once, was it really okay to confide in her heart like this?

Vivien saw that I didn't speak and continued, "If you don't want to talk, then, let's sit here and bask in the sun."

"Do you know why I opened this bar?" She put down the wine glass, walked towards the cats, squatted down and scratched them while talking to herself, "I broke up with my boyfriend in the imperial capital, ran back to the city alone, lay in bed every day, sleep when I was tired of crying, get up to eat when I am hungry, lie down when I am full, continue to cry, continue to sleep, this life lasted for about a month, suddenly one day, the sun shined into the house through the curtain cracks, I followed the sunlight, saw the dust floating in the house, and suddenly felt that I was still alive, I wiped the tears on my face at that time, I stood up and opened the curtains, and found that the sun was shining outside the house, for a month, eating instant noodles, sleeping, and crying every day, I thought I might not be able to live, but at the moment when the sun lit up the whole house, I suddenly understood that every day the sun will rise, evaporating all the tears you shed last night, even if it is dark tonight, as long as the sun rises tomorrow, all the darkness will be illuminated. ”

She turned to look at me, "So I found this place and opened a bar called 'Tomorrow,' and I hope that everyone who comes here to drink and drink away his sorrows will be fine as soon as the sun rises the next day." ”

"What about you? Are you alright? ”

"Of course, from the moment I opened the curtains, my boyfriend and I had already sent out invitations to get married, but he told me that he loved my best friend, so I came back in the car that night, I left the city where I had lived for more than 20 years to go to his city for him, and he finally gave me such an empty joy."

"Do you hate him?" I asked.

"I hated it at first, but then I didn't hate anymore, how tired it is to live with hatred. I'm going to live my own life. With so many fun things in the world, I've wasted my best years on him, why should I continue to waste it? ”

"My name is Xia Fei, I am a nurse in the hospital next door, my husband is a doctor here, he had a relationship with her intern, and then the girl became pregnant."

"It's also very common. And then what? I want to hear it after that day," she continued to tickle the cat.

"He didn't want to be separated from me, at first I was very firm, but now I'm wavering because of my children."

"I just want to hear it, do you still love him now?"

I thought for a long time, "I don't know. ”

"I don't know if I love or I don't love you?"

"If you asked me before, I can tell you for sure, I love him, I can give my life for him, but now I can't answer, I don't know if I love him or not, I know I hate him, I hate him for destroying the originally happy family with his own hands, I hate him for tearing up all my trust."

"Sometimes, hate is not a kind of love? How can you hate without love? ”

"If you still love him, try to forgive him, even if you separate again in the future, there is nothing to regret, if you want to live reluctantly because of the child, I advise you not to, because happiness is barely coming, rather than letting the child live in a family without love and happiness, it is better to break up as soon as possible, wait for the child to understand, and then tell her, there is no need to face a person who makes you sad all day long, after all, the days are to go on for 7 days or even 7 days."

I was silent, and I kept asking myself in my heart, do I love him? Do I love him? I asked I don't know how many times, but I still can't answer this question.

"Don't rush to answer, go back and think about the question, and you can really make a decision after thinking it through. Remember to be obedient to what you really want in your heart. ”

I saw Vivian stretch out her hand into the distance, "The sun is so good today, we should enjoy such good sunshine, instead of wasting time on this issue, enjoy the moment first, this question is left in your secretly sad night to pass the time." ”

I nodded, and my head was empty, ready to soak up the sun, and Vivien felt so relieved that she was a stranger.

I walked out of the sunroom and stood on the terrace, because I drank brown sugar ginger tea, and I felt very warm after being exposed to the sun in the glass room for a long time, so I didn't feel cold when I walked on the terrace, I opened my hands and tried to make myself inhale and exhale, hoping to inhale all the good smells of late autumn into my lungs.

There is a breeze today, and the wind is a good thing, it brings the sense of smell, it brings the sense of hearing. At this moment, I was standing upstairs listening to the sound of the car downstairs and the aroma of wheat straw in the distance, and I felt that the burden in my heart did not seem to be so heavy.

"If you still love him, work with him to solve problems, there is nothing that cannot be solved. If you don't love him anymore, let him roll up and leave as soon as possible, don't look at your heart all day long. Vivien patted me the shoulder from behind, as if she were an old friend I'd known for a long time.