That night, I sat on the mango bed and took out the album again and kept looking through it. Photos of me and Lin Jia when we were in love, photos when we got married, photos of our honeymoon, photos when we were pregnant with mangoes, until we had cream, a family photo of our family of four.

Yes, now that I have a child, what should I do if Lin Jia and I divorce the child? Can I let Little Cream and Mango live a strong and sunny life? It is said that the original family will affect the child for a lifetime, do you want to make the little mango and the little cream like me?

Everything is unimaginable, as soon as I think about it, my head starts to hurt, and I feel like I can't breathe. I put the photos back in the drawer, hid in Mango's small tent, leaned against the wall, and looked out the window at the lights on the upper floors not far away, hoping to give my tired heart a good rest.

Early in the morning, Lin Jia said goodbye to me and went to work, he was a doctor and didn't have much vacation, so he had to go back again. I'm okay, because I haven't had many surgeries recently, and I haven't taken my annual leave this year, so I asked the leader for leave to take my annual leave, and there was no one at home, so I could finally stay at home alone for a while.

It wasn't long before there was a knock on the door. When I opened the door, it was my mother and Little Cream, who was very excited to see me, waved her little hand, and grinned. I took the little cream in my arms. "But I'm tired, this little girl doesn't sit in a stroller, I have no choice but to hold her with one hand and one hand, I really don't know which of you two is as stubborn as this child." At this point, my mother glanced at me. "Have you eaten? Didn't you sleep well? Why is the face so bad. ”

"I didn't eat, I wasn't hungry, I slept well, but I was a little tired from dreaming" I was afraid that my mother would be worried, so I didn't tell her that I hadn't slept last night.

"Wait," my mother turned and went into the kitchen, and after a while she came out with tomato and egg noodle soup, which was my favorite meal. "What are you doing in a daze, the child will give me something to eat"

"If you collapse, what will happen to the two children? The sky is falling, with me and your dad, let's eat. You don't have to worry about anything, I told your dad that the two of you went to study in a closed state, and I didn't say when you came back, and you can't call or video in the middle, so you can just deal with the problem with confidence. ”

Although I couldn't eat it, I had to swallow a whole bowl of noodles quickly for my mother's reassurance.

"Feifei, my mother is from here, and my mother knows that there are some things that I shouldn't tell you, but does my mother think that divorce must be the best choice? Mom can see that you love Lin Jia, and Lin Jia also told his parents on the phone that he regretted it and didn't want to divorce. If you are really divorced, are you willing to give the child to Lin Jia? Even if Lin Jia doesn't get married, you can't see your children every day like now, will you be happy in your heart? ”

I hugged the little cream and didn't say a word. "Mom was also holding her breath in her heart for self-esteem, and she didn't even have to pay a point with that brute, so I relied on my own to survive, at that time, in order to earn more money, I did the dirtiest and most tiring overtime work in the factory, and I put you at your grandmother's house during the day, and I couldn't take you back to our house until midnight, and you forgot the days when you fell asleep on the back of your mother's bicycle in winter?"

"Do you remember when you first entered elementary school, when the teacher taught you about family relations, you were asked to fill in the names of your parents on your homework, and when you filled in your name in the father's column on your homework, and then erased it, didn't your mother feel sad?"

I pursed my lips and didn't know what to say. At that time, all the children's homework got a little red flower, but I didn't, because the teacher asked me to write my father's name, but since I was born, my mother took me alone, she never said my father's name, I don't know, and I can't fill it in, so I had to leave it blank, but I didn't expect to be mistaken by the teacher for me missing to write, so I gave me a cross, and I didn't cover the little red flower.

For the child, I can get the teacher's little red flower, I just got everything, so I made up a random name and filled it in when I corrected the mistake, just so that the teacher could reward me with a little red flower. That's when I suddenly realized that I was different from other kids, because I didn't have a dad, and I started to be very afraid of people talking about my dad, and every time I asked about my dad, I had to tell everyone that my dad was very busy with work and was not in the city.

Later, some children who lived in the neighborhood said at school that my father and my mother were divorced, and I didn't have a father at all. After that, I didn't play with my children anymore, and gradually I became less talkative, and I gradually lost my playmates.

Thinking of this, looking at the bright little cream with a smile, I suddenly felt a pain in my heart, I was afraid that they would re-experience what I experienced when I was a child, I hope that the two of them can grow up healthy, sunny, and happy, and can have playmates who laugh together, I hope they are confident and sunny, not grow up with inferiority complex in their bones like me.

"Fei Fei, are you happy when you are really divorced? You love Lin Jia so much, are you happy without him? It turns out that you are Lin Jia long and Lin Jia short every day, and now that you are separated, can you stand it? ”

"Mom, don't say it, you have to bear it if you can't stand it, it's all fate." I motioned for my mother to stop and say no more.

"Fei Fei, what my mother said is a very real problem, I know that you have always hated betrayal, because you see how difficult it is for your mother to live with you alone, so you hate betrayal so much. Mom believes that Lin Jia is different from him, and you are not a mother either. Back then, your animal father filed for divorce from me when I was on maternity leave, and he couldn't wait to marry that woman. If Lin Jia really wants to divorce you, then when you say divorce, he just agrees, why do you still come to beg the two of us to persuade you? ”

"It is said that the prodigal son will not change his money, if you forgive him this time, the two of you will go through this hurdle together, and you will definitely live better in the future." I still didn't answer, and my mother's words made me have to rethink this problem, my problem is no longer a problem, and the child's problem is indeed very tricky. If it is not handled well, it is indeed a disservice to the child.

Endured the sadness in my heart and sat on the floor mat with Xiao Cream to play together, watching Xiao Cream grow up day by day, from not even being able to turn over, to now climbing very fast, my heart is really full of emotion.

Before I knew it, it was close to noon, and my mother said, "Feifei, it's almost time for Xiao Cream to eat complementary food, I'm going back to make complementary food, do you want to go home with me for dinner?" ”

"It's okay Mom, don't worry about me, I'll call you a car, you go back quickly, I can take care of myself." Let's go, I'll send you away," so I called a taxi for my mother with my mobile phone, and then drank the cream with my mother, and walked towards the entrance of the community together.

"You have to take care of yourself, remember that if you fall, there will be nothing, you have to be strong at all times, you can't break down, don't be afraid that you have parents behind you." I nodded to my mother sitting in the car, kissed Cream goodbye, and went back to the community.

Child, marriage, I never thought that I would have such a headache one day.