Rubbing my sore shoulders, I returned to the room, in the room, Lin Jia was still asleep, leaning on the bed and reading.

"Asleep?"

"Hmm." I didn't want to talk to him, because I was actually very sad and anxious, and I thought he would understand as much as I did that money was important to the family now, but in fact he didn't seem to know.

I brushed my hair and went to bed.

"You're not happy today?" He closed the book.

"Well, a little."

"Just because I bought balloons for the kids?"

"Yes." I lay down and closed my eyes to talk to him, I didn't know how to look into his eyes and say what was in my heart in one breath.

"Isn't it just a balloon?" Lin Jia was surprised.

"It's not a balloon problem."

"What's that?"

"Lin Jia." I sat up suddenly, "Lin Jia, do you know how much money we have to pay back every month?" Do you know how much milk powder your two daughters drink each month? Do you know how much you smoke and drink every month? I spat out these words in one breath, because I was more or less excited because I didn't take any medicine.

"Sure enough, you're because of the money." Lin Jia actually let out a chuckle, and this chuckle really stimulated me.

"What are you laughing at? I take into account your feelings, I never said in the afternoon, you insist on asking, I just said, it's for money, yes, it's because of money, because the two of us have a high fixed phone bill every month, I have to pay you back, I have to save fixed expenses, mango and little cream will pay next year's kindergarten nursery fee in the second half of the year, one person is 18,000, two people are 30,006, I don't save money now to spend the net light every month, where do I get the tuition? I spoke my mind.

"I'll work hard, I told you, I'll go out and earn extra money."

I shook my head, "No matter how much Lin Jia earns, if I don't know how to save or will spend it, what we have to do now is to save money, not only to make more money than before, but also to save money, and save all the money that should not be spent." ”

"Xia Fei, I don't want to treat the child badly."

"I don't want to be disadvantaged by this, and I don't want to be disadvantaged by that, so where can I save money? There is no better life now, what we can do is to save more money and pay off our debts quickly. ”

When I thought that I owed two million to others, my heart trembled, I grew so big, I had never borrowed money from others, but this time because of Lin Jia, I emptied all my parents' money.

Lin Jia sighed, got out of bed, and went outside, I knew he was smoking, but I didn't want to comfort him because I was so tired today.

Early the next morning, my mother came early to send our children to school, and the two of us went to work with peace of mind.

So, now every time I see my mother, I feel a sense of guilt, but now is not the time for my feelings to overflow, I have to hurry up and make money to buy a house to give them peace of mind.

For people of my mother's generation, maybe the house really represents everything, I didn't understand it before, but I didn't understand it until I experienced the sale of the house this time.

Because when the house is your own, there is no need to worry about someone suddenly taking the house one day in the future. I guess that's security.

Since Lin Jia owes money, I have become extra careful and economical, reducing all the gatherings with my colleagues, and even going out shopping with Jingxin anymore.

People are always like this, I accompany you for a while, you give me a ride, because there is less and less communication and maintaining feelings, the relationship between me and Jingxin is getting weaker and weaker, she will no longer want to go shopping with me after work, and the arrival of new colleagues seems to make her have more fun.

All of this is because of my lack of initiative, which makes this friendship slowly fade.

When lunch arrived, I was very embarrassed to finish the meal, everyone was sitting together in twos and threes, eating and chatting, and I saw that I was sitting in a different row from everyone.

Because I don't want to talk to anyone, I seem to have withdrawal syndrome again, runny nose, yawning, and malaise because of the recent withdrawal of medication.

After quickly sitting there and eating, I quickly left the cafeteria and returned to the operating room to continue my work.

"Finished eating so soon?" Haozi asked in surprise when he saw me coming back.

"Go ahead, I'll wait for the patient."

"You've eaten it all back, okay, I'll go."

Haozi turned around and washed his hands and left the operating room.

I sat alone in the operating room, and it was impossible to say that I was not alone, in fact, I really wanted to communicate with everyone, but I don't know why there was always no topic to talk about, and in the end I was silent, so it was better not to talk at all.

After a day's work in a mess, and then the child went back to his mother's house, Lin Jia worked the night shift today, and he happened to go to work after work, and the basic state was that they would not meet for a day.

Opening the door, my mother was just putting the meal on the table, "Coming back?" My mother smiled at me.

"Yes, it's back." I took my two children to wash my hands.

"Where's my dad?" I asked my mother.

"Your dad went to buy fries for the two children, and the two children said they wanted to eat fries for a few days."

Hearing this, I unconsciously frowned again, "Don't let my dad buy it in the future, save money." ”

I felt a fire in my heart, and then I went back to my room and lay down, and threw the two children to my mother.

I lay down on the bed in a big shape, feeling irritable, feeling that no one understood me, and that my life was particularly difficult. Thinking about it, I had an emotional breakdown and cried, and then I cried and cried and fell asleep, and when I woke up again, it was already eight o'clock in the evening.

I opened the door, the children were playing with blocks in the living room, my parents were watching TV, and when they saw me coming out, my mother quickly asked, "Are you hungry?" I'll give you a hot meal. ”

"Not hungry." I said coldly, and then prepared to go to the bathroom.

"Stop me." My father said to me.

"Oh, don't call her." The mother hurriedly stopped the father, "You don't want to go to the bathroom and hurry up." ”

"I can't talk about her yet?" It seems that my father is really angry today, and for the first time he lost his temper at his mother, "Look at what she looks like now?" ”

"What does it look like?" My father's words made me a little angry, and I was very aggrieved.

"What's wrong with me, you say, I save money every day, I'm afraid of you every day I'm angry and I'm afraid of you, what's wrong with me?" Tears welled up in my eyes as I spoke.

My mother slapped me in the back, "How did you talk to your dad?" Then he wheeled me back into my room.

I sat in the dark and was very aggrieved, and I cried regardless of it.

Then there was a slamming sound on the door, "What are you crying about, your father and your mother are still alive, what are you crying about?" "My father knocked on the door violently, and I rarely saw him angry, especially when he didn't get angry after having two children in the family.