On the train from London to Paris, I received a call from the doctor. This is the first time in half a month that the doctor has taken the initiative to call me, and I am a little "flattered".

My first instinct was to wonder if I had done something "bad" recently to let my mother know and sue him. The second reaction was to throw a wink at the little assistant sitting across from me. The little assistant suddenly made an expression of "thunder and thunder", and then ran out of the carriage.

My relationship with the doctor has become a bit strange lately, and we used to have a purely doctor-patient relationship. I only came to him when I felt I needed him, and instead of actively following his treatment plan, the doctor called me every once in a while to remind me. Now we seem to be more familiar, this status has quietly changed, he is less active, I am a little afraid of him, more like a friend.

I thought that the doctor called me this time to care about my psychological state, because I didn't take the initiative to report to him. I didn't think that the doctor was because I had a disease last time, and based on his keen professional judgment, he helped me to analyze the cocoon.

He asked me, "Su."

Y, have you recently come into contact with someone that has stimulated you? ”

I first told him no in no uncertain terms, and then suddenly I was silent. At that time, I thought in my heart, Mr. An should be counted.

There must be a demon when things go wrong, and the doctor can guess that he knows my illness best besides me. He developed my mood barometer, stabilized the line, and used algorithms to predict my mental health, which is simply the most math of any psychiatrist. He didn't push me, but he was very resolute.

He said, "Su

Y, your current state of mind is not suitable for staying outside alone, you come back and we'll try again. ”

I don't want to, explain it to him. He still insisted on his judgment: "The situation has changed now, have you forgotten what you were like before?" Don't take any chances. ”

He was convinced that there was instability around me, that it was a new threat to me, and I believed in him, but this time I wanted him to believe in me even more. I'm so strong, how can I be defeated by that kind of imp who only dares to hide behind my back. I am a sound person and will eventually become a happy person as well.

I said to the doctor, you know I'm going to Rome next, right, but we're on the train to Paris right now. We will transfer in Paris, pass through Turin, and from there board the bus to Rome. I didn't come out alone, and Ge

She was standing outside the box taking pictures and told me that the scenery outside was very beautiful.

I also told him that my mother used to be in a very bad mood for a while, sensitive and vulnerable, and I was there for her to take care of her. I'm experienced, and I don't even have a solution to myself.

The doctor was silent for a moment, saying that he really didn't know it was happening.

He said helplessly: "No wonder your mother asked me to persuade you, I know that if you think about it, nine cows can't pull it back." ”

I said, "Yes, my mother knows me best, and you go back to her and tell her that she is not the one who knows best what her daughter is thinking, and why she doesn't trust her at all." ”

After the call, the smile on my face hung up. Ge

E saw my face change, standing outside the carriage and not knowing whether to come in or not. I told her it was okay and I didn't know if she had taken any nice pictures. She smiled.

In fact, I have to admit that although I am cheerful and positive on the surface, I am still pessimistic on the inside, but I don't want to sit still. Ge

E has a cheerful personality, an optimistic heart, and is full of curiosity, and having her by her side along the way is also another kind of enlightenment for me.

Ge

E is two years younger than me, she is Korean, immigrated to China with her parents when she was a child, lived in Northeast China for more than a decade, and then returned to South Korea to finish high school and then study in Vancouver.

The first time she came to report from me, I was not satisfied, so I said to her, "Go and tell the vice president that it is not appropriate for you to stay with me, and let him arrange another job for you." ”

The little girl seemed to have suffered a bolt from the blue, and with tears in her eyes, she stubbornly asked me, "Why?" ”

I said, "It's hard work for a girl to come here." ”

She was both aggrieved and dissatisfied: "But aren't you also a girl?" Why should there be such discrimination against women? ”

I said, "It's because I'm a girl that I know how hard it is." ”

She insisted on staying, proving to me that she could. I insisted that she was not suitable, and I didn't like her crying, and in the end, no one could convince her, so I invited the vice president to come out.

The vice president said, "Ge

E hardworking and serious, she can speak Japanese, Chinese, Korean and English, and can help you in your future work, not to mention that she is Korean like you. ”

I said, "What does it matter, I'm Chinese." I also speak English, French, Chinese and Shanghainese. ”

The vice president was speechless for a moment of shame. He was usually busy, and he lacked understanding of the basic situation of his subordinates, so he told me that he misunderstood that I was Korean because I was with Ge

E Both of them are dressed similarly. He asked me again what Shanghainese was. I replied to him that it was a language of the Chinese in the East.

And asked him, "Listen to your accent I've always been a Western American, so you're a native Canadian?" ”

Ge

E ended up working with me, and for half a month I pretended to turn a blind eye to this girl, but she was indomitable and persevered in brushing her presence in front of me.

Later, I asked her why she was so dead-eyed, and she told me that she was a native of the Northeast. I was a little touched by her tenacity with a little simple personality, so I asked her to stay by my side first, but I didn't expect this girl to be tough and able to endure hardships, so I stayed until now.

It's just the two of us when we get along, me and Ge

e communicates in Chinese, she has a taste of the Northeast, and I deliberately bring a bit of Beijing. Sometimes we got into an argument, and she couldn't speak fluently in the Northeastern, so she picked up English, with a few words of Korean that I didn't understand. And I only said to her in Korean if I didn't want to argue with her anymore, "Don't argue, stupid, let's turn off the fire." ”

Ge

E speaks Northeast dialect is easy to be flat and undistinguishable, and likes to use mood particles, the most typical is to use "old" and "whole" in sentences to strengthen the tone. The duration is applied to this situation, for example, when she sees a photo I take, she will say "old and beautiful", "old and excellent". What also impressed me was when she said to me, "Xiaoxi, we have been doing these pictures all afternoon." ”

It made me and Mr. An laugh so much that I couldn't do it.

See Ge

e, I often can't help but want to "transform" her Northeast dialect into authentic Beijing dialect, but in the end, my accent was taken away by her, speaking a Beijing dialect, and it became Northeast dialect, and she was also taken away by me, and speaking Northeast dialect became Beijing dialect again. We are all "transformed" half and half.

We can't control ourselves, and as soon as we start to discuss it, we enter into communication in such a strange state. Mr. An came back from work to see Funny, and deliberately pretended to help to participate in the discussion and spoke Shanghainese to us. As a result, the three of you and I said one sentence at a time, and in the end, no one knew what they were talking about, and the discussion was nullified.

Mr. Ahn succeeds in his prank and always gloats. I then ordered him to communicate with me in Mandarin when he returned home, and helped me get rid of my problem of speaking Northeast dialect, and he readily agreed.

However, Mr. An pretended to talk to me, and when he opened his mouth, he learned my Northeast accent. I was so angry that I covered his mouth, and as soon as I let go, he said again, "It's like teasing a pet." I jumped on him, and he welcomed him with both hands, and he wanted to say, I pulled his ear, and pinched his arm, and he also said that he would always make trouble with me like this for a while.

When I told my mother about this, she first laughed at me and then gave me advice. The next time Mr. An did the same trick again, he didn't get angry or jump to his feet, he puffed up his mouth and pretended to shed tears, which really scared him, and hurriedly ran over to hug me and admit his mistake to me.

Mr. An sighed and often said, sure enough, a woman's most tender weapon is tears. But I know that these tears are of no use to others, so they are only useful to him.

He had to have a heart to make this weapon a good shot.

Ge

E said that when he first met me at the Academy of Fine Arts, his first impression was that I was a cold, poisonous and unsympathetic person. I told her that my idol is the cold and handsome villain of all anime heroes, but unfortunately in life, I always play such a character and fail once. She was amused and said to me, "You should be the cutest of your looks."

This time, I didn't expect Mr. An to follow him to Paris, and I don't know how he came with me, and I didn't have time to ask. It was freezing cold, and he stood in the falling snow, straight and firm, his eyes affectionate and gentle. I felt like I had been kidnapped by him, and the surprise made my head hot, and I only knew that his kiss and heartbeat dispelled the cold around me, and there was warmth in my arms and heart.

Ge

E covered his mouth that couldn't stop laughing, and used the camera to commemorate this scene, afraid that I would blame him and retreat while shooting.

Mr. An raised his head and smiled, and said, "He Xi, you can really run, I almost couldn't catch up." ”

I don't understand why I chased him, because I left him a message saying that I had to leave London first because of work.

Mr. An pouted: "Are you saying goodbye to you, you sent people away with a text message, and you refuse to see me in such a hurry?" When is the opportunity? ”

"Yes, I'm sure."

"You're not mad at me? We didn't quarrel either? ”

"Angry, no quarrels, really!"

How can it be said that it is a quarrel, it is not even a quarrel. With Mr. An's character, he can't say the heavy things he said during the quarrel, and with my attitude towards him, this quarrel can't be quarreled. The most between us is awkwardness and cooling. It's awkward that I haven't seen him for so many years, how do I face it when he suddenly appears, in what mood, and with what emotion. The cooling is no longer as hot as before, and it must be reserved. In conclusion, as the doctor said, Mr. An is now an instability and a "threat" to me.

Mr. An thinks a lot, but he is arrogant and doesn't admit it. Later, I asked him what he thought about going from London to Paris in the first place.

Mr. An's face did not change, and his heart did not beat: "I didn't think about anything, I just wanted to chase you back." ”

"Recovery? Obviously a misword, I wasn't your wife or your girlfriend at the time. ”

"How not? You wrote me love poems when I was in junior high school, and I replied to you, I thought that at that time you were mine and I was yours. Mr. An's big eyes were full of doubt, and he raised his eyebrows and asked.

I looked at him in amazement, "No. I didn't write that poem, I just excerpted it, and I just wanted you to see my words. ”

Mr. An was not convinced: "Then you asked me to go to the UK with you after the college entrance examination, yes or no?" ”

I was sure, "Yes, that's because you've been talking about going to Oxford." ”

His mind was full of questions: "Didn't you want to elope with me?" ”

"Didn't you even ask me what I wanted?" I almost rolled my eyes in anger from him.

"Then what are you going to England with?" Mr. An asked rhetorically.

"I can't go on."

I forgot about the questions he didn't want to answer, he used to gag, change the subject, and pretend to be cute. So he picked up the camera and threatened him, "If you don't tell the truth, I'll run away from home." ”

He used this trick and replied solemnly: "No." I also thought about it a lot, but I was afraid that you would be angry, and I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to see you when I got there, and I was afraid that it would be useless to see you, and I was afraid that I wouldn't know what to say when I saw you. But after thinking about so many results, I still can't watch you go. I also know that at least He Xi eats soft and not hard, and you feel sorry for me if I am miserable. ”

I smiled helplessly: "You don't have to say the latter sentence." ”

"That's not going to work." Mr. An didn't mean to joke at all, "If you run away from home and regret it, blame me for not keeping you." ”

".......," I said, "didn't you think what if you didn't catch up with me?" ”

"Didn't think about it."

"How so?"

Mr. An asked rhetorically: "When I was a child, you chased me all the way, have you ever thought about what I would do if I ran away halfway and left you, such a big wood, are you afraid?" ”

I thought about it for a moment, "I didn't think about it. ”

I remember that at that time, Grandma An had just passed away, and after the funeral, Mr. An quietly walked into the forest by himself, and I was afraid that something would happen to him, so I followed him all the way.

I said, "I'll be honest, I was afraid you'd kill yourself." ”

He opened his mouth slightly, reacted in surprise, and then smiled again, a little pity: "Well, I've thought about it for so long, I never thought it was because of this." ”

I said, "What do you think?" ”

Mr. An said no more. Sitting on his lap, he hugged me and said that it really felt like the sky was going to fall. But now that I think about it, in addition to remembering the deep pain, I can also remember that there was no wind in the leafy forest that day, and the sun passed through the forest, looking up like seeing the stars twinkle and twinkle, and when I turned around, my back was still following you.