My mother said that I had a strange personality since I was a child, and the double standard was serious, and I couldn't look at it with conventional eyes, so she also took Mr. An and Jiang Li as examples.

She thinks that for Mr. An, I have always been a dog-legged mode, and there is no lower limit to his favor, and for Jiang Li, I am a small-bellied chicken intestine, and I am careful. As for if Jiang Li can't contact me one day, it must be that I deliberately turn a blind eye. As her only biological child, I also wonder when the balance in her heart was tilted in favor of Jiang Li.

For example, the last time we stayed at a friend's house on a business trip, I was working at the desk in the room, and my mother came from the living room with her mobile phone, and she complained to me, to the effect that I didn't know what was wrong and bullied Jiang Li.

When she finished speaking, I asked blankly, "Why do you want this?" ”

"What?!" She asked rhetorically, "Ah Li called you, did you not answer." ”

She calmed down after getting angry, and stared straight at me for two seconds before she said in frustration, "Hurry up, answer the phone!" I'm too lazy to tell you. ”

I explained to Jiang Li that my mother really wronged me, and my phone was turned off when I came back, and I was busy writing. Jiang Li didn't react, of course, I couldn't see the expression on his face thousands of miles away.

He told me that it was nothing serious, but this time he went to Wenzhou with the medical team to study and stayed in Richmond for a month. But he also knew from my mother that I was already in Durango for work. This time, I will be with a local archaeological team and go deep into the heart of Colorado to shoot archaeological documentaries.

I said, "It's a very meaningful thing, and when it comes to archaeology, people are curious about what it's all about." ”

He said, "You must be a good shot." Then he asked me, "When are you leaving?" ”

I said, "Two days later, Mom stayed in Durango. ”

"So fast."

As soon as he said that, I suddenly remembered that this Saturday was my birthday, so this birthday was at work again.

Jiang Li arrived in the morning when we left for the train station, and although he mentioned it on the phone, it really surprised me when he appeared in front of me.

Jiang Li said to me, I'll give you a birthday, haven't you been telling your mother that you haven't had a happy birthday for a long time?

Birthday...... In fact, it is not necessary, and I am probably used to it, and the sentence "I wish you a happy birthday" is actually a birthday.

Before I left for the UK, my birthday was also the busiest day in our family. On this day, Chef Ho would start preparing my favorite food early in the morning, and Uncle Yao would go to the garden to pick fresh flowers and plants and come back to decorate the house. Jiang Li always found an excuse to take me out at this time, so that the family had time to decorate my birthday surprise. Even though I later saw through this excuse, they enjoyed it until I was in junior high school.

My father was a very particular person, he lived very poor in his childhood and adolescence, but after he developed in middle age, he began to improve the quality of life and the standard of life, and also paid attention to the rituals of life. In my impression, he has always been a very generous person, in addition to the New Year's holidays, the gifts he usually gave to my mother, me and Jiang Li are also innumerable. Of course, he is also very generous to the workers hired by the family, Yun Niang always secretly tells his mother that Mr. is generous, and everyone is very happy to work here. Of course, she doesn't mind stingy with her praise in front of me, but for her, staying in this home is happier because of me, she has taken care of her for many years, and I cherish my affection with her very much.

Since I turned 17, my birthday has been deserted, and I was a little unaccustomed to it for the first two years. In a foreign place, it is still quite melancholy to think about it at this time. Later, my mother's health gradually recovered, and I felt a little comfort.

"What do you want to eat? How about steamed sea bass, or shredded potatoes? Aren't they all what you like? ”

Jiang Li took off his coat directly, he went into the kitchen to find an apron, and picked up water to wash vegetables while looking for it. I was a little frightened by his posture, because he didn't just talk about it. My mother went out to buy early in the morning, and it turned out that they had already "premeditated".

I said, "When did you learn to cook?" ”

"After a few years of reading outside, you'll be fine."

"Why wouldn't I."

He smiled, just slightly curled the corners of his mouth when he first got up, and then he couldn't help but show his teeth. "It's strange if you do. Remember how delicious you were when you were a kid, a piece of spiced meat can trick you away. ”

"I don't like pork belly right now."

"Do you want to lose weight?" He didn't want me to answer, and said to himself: "I still like to eat fish, steaming, frying, cooking and frying are not the same, and it is not enough to eat for a few days, but I don't eat eggs at all, right, and I hate chrysanthemum." ”

"You didn't learn this dish for me, did you?"

"Why not?" Jiang Li asked me as he handled the fish scales.

"What do you mean?"

He sighed: "When you were a child, you were in very bad health, you were always sick, and the doctor wanted to give you an injection, and you cried when you heard it." At that time, when I saw you crying, I thought that I would become a doctor in the future, and you wouldn't have to be afraid if I gave you a needle. ”

I looked at him carefully, Jiang Li has been a very thoughtful child since he was a child, and he also knows very well what he wants and how to do it to achieve his goal. I rarely see him emotional, so to be honest, after he said this, although I couldn't see anything on the surface, I was "incredible" on the one hand, and "grateful" on the other.

But Jiang Li is suddenly so sensational, I'm a little unused to it. We had such a close relationship when we were young, but he was seven years older than me, and he was stricter to me than the average brother, so there weren't many times when I played with him in my memory, and then we didn't live together for so long, and the tacit understanding and emotional concentration between each other seemed to have decreased a few points. Give him a hug or something nice, but it's a bit impossible to do in that situation. However, Jiang Li never cared about these details, and he didn't know my psychological struggle at that time.

Jiang Li said: "Actually, those nurse sisters don't hurt when they get needles, don't you, you just want us to sympathize with you and feel sorry for you?" ”

Still surprised, I asked him, "Really?" ”

He said: "Hinder, Xiaoxi, you have a conscience, don't lose it all."

I said seriously, "I didn't lose it, I didn't lose it, I didn't lose it." ”

I asked, "Can I pick it up if I lose it?" ”

Jiang Li said: "Brother will let you." ”

He said this to my tears, when I was a child, he often talked about me, and he was more accommodating to me in everything, because he didn't give up his father to me for 17 years?

"You can let me do more in the future." I said, after all, I also gave it back to him.

He was finally pleased, touched my head, and before leaving, he told me not to be reckless, and to take care of myself in everything.

Before there was a sudden change in my family of origin, I thought I had everything, so I didn't think about what I could lose. After that, my life was like being fast-forwarded, and I thought I would lose forever if I didn't keep it, so I was desperately trying to figure out what I could keep. In the past few years, my life seems to have only left to move forward, without thinking and weight. But after this birthday, I suddenly understood what my weight and thinking came from, and what I carried it for in life.

It is not for the sake of creating wealth, fame and fortune, nor for the sake of filial piety and love between father and son, but not to forget where you came from, to go home, to love the people you should love, and to see the scenery you should see.

When I arrived in the central Colorado city of Springs, I filmed the group getting off the train station, and I knew that this 10-day, nine-night trip to the jungle valley would start from this moment. Every time this happens, I start to miss, at least for a little bit of time with the people I cherish. Then I would look behind me for the responsibilities and work that I should have.

Mr. An once popularized the "window theory" to me, and although it has not been confirmed by famous people, it seems to be a good reason. The first time he mentioned it to me, I didn't wait for him to finish because I was angry, and then I listened to his explanation. Opening the windows to the dark room, letting in the sunlight, and greedy for the sky outside, the child struggled to climb up to the roof, in order to walk down, to the middle of the road and the grass. In order to be free and successful, what is needed is to be grounded.

The year after I left, my aunt recovered, and Mr. An spent half a year preparing for the opportunity to study architecture at the University of California, Berkeley. In September, his first day in Berkeley, East Bay, San Francisco, USA, happened to be the first day of his 21-year-old. After three years of undergraduate life, Mr. Ann applied twice to enter the University of Michigan's School of Architecture and Urban Planning to pursue a graduate degree, and his first project was in Denver, Colorado.

From London to the central United States, Mr. Ann successfully completed his internship and graduation ceremony to begin his first project as an urban architecture professional. "The Infinite Road" is a world tour from London to Rome, from Rome to Shenzhen and China**, from Sydney to the eastern city of New York in the United States, and back to St. Louis in the middle. In just over half a year, Mr. Ann and I only met once in Ann Arbor, and then we were in contact in Denver and Springs.

At the temporary residence in Springs, Mr. Ann's letter was forwarded to me by a local guide, in which he wrote: "I am not thinking, I am willing to carry my heart and bear with me, and slowly try to do it." ”

I replied to him: "Don't you think about it, the Qing comes to the morning and the twilight, the day is the beginning, and I will wait for it." ”