"I really wasn't going to tell you, but only if it's just a matter of the two of us. I'm also thinking that it's up to you to vent this breath in your heart, but seeing that your hatred for me is only undiminished, in that case, it is better to stop now. Two years is enough. ”

Her face became darker and darker, her eyes became redder and redder, and the green tendons on her neck were also tightened, as if she was extremely depressed.

She was silent for a few seconds, snorted coldly, hooked a sarcastic smile, and cynically said, "Then should I thank you?" Well? ”

I suddenly felt extremely tired, and the exhaustion that burst out from my heart traveled to my skin inch by inch, making my whole body depressed, painful, and weak, and even my voice was soft: "Peng Meixin, I know that no matter how you make up for it, the scar in the corner of your eye will follow you for the rest of your life." But I always owe you an apology. ”

"I'm sorry, Peng Meixin. Back then, it was me who was wrong, and I'm sorry for you. ”

She didn't speak, I didn't look up. So I don't know what kind of expression she had on her face to face this belated apology. I just felt that I had finally made up for all my debts, and the tiredness from the inside out was unscrupulously radiated to all my limbs, and the ensuing relaxation and relief also enveloped every nerve in me, and it turned out to be the most relaxed and brisk in the past two years.

I didn't speak again, and she didn't speak again. I slowly filled the wine glass in front of me, slowly, lazily, seriously, watching the wine glass fill little by little, watching the hot pot boiling with a gurgling boil, as if the emptiness in my heart was also filled.

I picked up a glass and drank it slowly, the grape-flavored shochu was a little sour, but the grape flavor was very strong, and I drank it happily, and I just drank it one cup after another, until I drank the whole bottle.

I felt a little satisfied, raised my eyes to look at Peng Meixin, and found that there was less hatred in her eyes, but more unease.

I waited for her to speak, and watched her eyes slowly become more unwilling, more complaining, more remorseful, and more incredible: "What's the use of you saying this now?" Do you think I'm going to be happy? Do you think I'm going to feel like I'm trampling you under my feet? Do you think I'll feel relieved? I have to apologize, it's not like that. Obviously not like that. ”

After saying this, she began to cry, her voice was sad and sad, with heart-rending pain and wail, and her tears fell down in large pieces, like an abandoned child.

I couldn't tell how I was feeling, so I could only open the remaining two bottles of soju, fill the glass again, and drink it one by one.

She cried like this for a while, suddenly raised her head to look at me, looked at me with a resentful expression, her voice was full of hatred and unwillingness, as well as indescribable guilt and regret: "Fang Jinyu, you should apologize to me under everyone's accusatory eyes." At that time, you had no friends, the people who loved you were on your side, and everyone was blaming you! Instead of being like this, you are expressionless, and you say sorry three words lightly, so high, light and light! ”

"What I hate the most is that you are light and light! It seems that you don't care about anything! Anything, you are confident! What I hate most is the way you are! What I hate even more is that everyone can't see your original ugly face clearly, and is willing to give everything for you! ”

"Obviously I am the victim, obviously I deserve everyone's care! Why is everyone accusing me!? Why?! ”

I looked at her gradually crazy eyes, and my heart couldn't stop being desolate, and I couldn't stop being sad.

To this day, she doesn't know how wrong she was. She is still jealous of what others have and does not value what she has.

She stared at me unconsciously, smiling cruelly and playfully: "Fang Jinyu, tell me, what kind of magic power do you have to make everyone revolve around you?" When you had an accident in high school, Lu Zhixin came to protect you in the science building; Soon after you left, Ren Zijin accompanied Jiang Yueze to the hospital to ask me about your whereabouts; Even our homeroom teacher has opened his mouth to intercede for you. And when you get to college, it's even more terrible, Chen Wan, as your rival in love, can't even take care of the sixth-level exam, and comes to protect you. What kind of ecstasy soup did you pour into them? ”

When I mentioned Chen Wan, my heart chuckled, and I couldn't stop panicking when I remembered how she did the sixth-level questions in the duty room.

Could it be that she handed in the paper ahead of schedule? Is she, to protect me?

The more I thought about it, the more panicked I became, but I pretended to be calm and drank the rest of the wine, I slowly put the glass on the table, looked up at her, and whispered, "That's it." ”

"Whether it's our grievances or your grudges against me, let's stop here."

She stared at me, tears rolling down her face.

I couldn't bear to look at it anymore, got up and picked up my clothes and bag, and said seriously: "The wine is very good, and the food is delicious, thank you." ”

With that, I turned and left.

"Fang Jinyu!" She stopped me loudly, with a little panic and disbelief, and a little bit of fear and fear, and asked me in a choked voice: "You told me the truth because you knew that I couldn't say sorry to you, so I felt guilty and couldn't hate you with peace of mind in the days to come, and struggled to live my life as punishment, didn't you?" ”

My hand clenched at my coat, not knowing how to answer.

I was silent for a few seconds before I slowly spoke, "I don't need your apology. Anyway, we won't see each other again, what to do, how to live, that's your business, it's none of mine. ”

"Sure enough!" She laughed, "You're as cruel as ever. ”

I heard it so harshly, slowly, very tiredly, that I breathed a sigh of relief, and at last slowly, firmly took a step away.

"In that case, then I'll tell you something that you can't feel at ease." She hurriedly stopped my steps, her voice was calm and cold, with a calm and stormy serenity: "Xu Siyang, who takes care of you in every way, came to me. He originally warned me not to provoke you again, but I told him everything about you and Jiang Yueze, you and me, and in the end, the person who left alone became him, not me. "Qishu.com

My whole body began to tremble slightly, and I fell into an involuntary panic.

"You accept his kindness to you with peace of mind, but you can't respond to him, Fang Jinyu, you are so hypocritical, you must feel very unhappy, right?"

"On one side is an old love, and on the other side is a new love. Respond to one and hurt the other. You can't have it both ways, you know? ”

My expression immediately cooled, and I replied coldly without looking back: "Don't worry about it." ”

"Of course I don't have to worry about it. It's not me who suffers. I'm just reminding you, don't think about stepping on two boats, be careful that you can't step on both boats well and turn over in the gutter. ”

I turned my head to look at her, stared at her with warning, and said lightly, "To be honest, I don't want to talk to you so quickly. But for the sake of my old classmates, I need to remind you that I was silent for too long about what happened back then, and everyone thought that the widely spread version was the truth. But if I open my mouth and say another version, you will feel more uneasy and guilty now, and what you have lost, what you have suffered, will be more difficult to imagine than you are now. ”

Her face immediately changed, and her whole person froze in place, not saying a word.

"As I said, at this point, what is owed to you has been paid off. If you think I'm a bully and want to make a splash, you can try. But I want you to make it clear that you owe me something you haven't paid yet. ”

"There will be no time in the future."

After I finished speaking, I strode away without looking at her expression.

It wasn't until I went out and the cold air around me invaded my brain and body that I felt the hot temperature on my face slowly cool down and my brain slowly calmed down.

I stood there for three seconds, and my sanity slowly returned. I put on my coat and looked at the traffic light not far away, and I just felt confused.

I walked forward slowly, passing by the Fududu Malatang restaurant, and casually caught a glimpse of a girl serving a meal, and stepped on a boy behind me. Both of them smiled awkwardly and unnaturally, and politely bent down to apologize.

I looked at this scene and suddenly stopped. I can't help but think of the scene when I first met Xu Siyang in the cafeteria.

At that time, his smile was warm and sunny, but he was polite and detached, and he also had a bit of a big boy's ruffian and childishness, which made people feel good at first glance and couldn't help but want to be close.

After that, his smile was still warm and warm, healing the sun, but his eyes had more content, and he no longer saw the ruffian and alienation at first sight.

After that, if I hadn't seen it with my own eyes, I wouldn't have believed what Senior Sister Wang Min said, Xu Siyang also has a ruthless and indifferent side, which surprised me, but it didn't make me feel strange and terrible......

I carefully recalled the bits and pieces of my relationship with him, and remembered what Peng Meixin said, and couldn't help but imagine, what kind of expression did he have when he heard about me and Jiang Yueze? What will be the expression of my face when you hear my past?

Is it disappointment, sadness, pain, or distress? I do not know. I only know that there is a thought that keeps popping up in my heart, a strong thought, that is, if Xu Siyang doesn't like me, it will be fine.

If he doesn't like me, that's fine.

I felt that my chest was full of suffocating turbidity, and even if I exhaled a long breath, the weakness and depression in my body still couldn't get rid of.

I stood there watching the people in the store through the door, and suddenly it occurred to me that I didn't want to leave.

"Why are you standing here?" I was in a trance, a familiar voice called me back, the hand hanging by my side was also wrapped in the familiar body temperature and touch, and the fingers automatically turned into a ten-finger interlocking posture, such a subconscious action, let my whole person break free from the confusion and restlessness, and returned to the comfortable and warm haven.

"Didn't you say I'd pick you up?" Jiang Yueze put my hand in the pocket of his coat, his expression was light, but his eyes were affectionate and serious: "Why is it standing alone on the street blowing cold wind?" ”

I looked up at him, at his starry eyes, at his thick and graceful sword eyebrows, at his straight and heroic nose, at his sexy and ascetic lips, and finally couldn't help but smile.

"Aze, haven't you noticed that you're talking more and more now?"

He hummed and admitted happily, not forgetting to bury me: "It's probably because you're too disobedient and I have to worry a lot." ”

I sighed, very unconvinced: "Obviously affected by my personality charm, you are a little bit good now." ”

He touched my head, and Hall smiled.

"Well, that's how it is now, it's good."