Chapter Twenty-Three: Weigh Yourself in Time Then count out your frivolity and arrogance

I've always been unruly, but I've flipped your rook on your back

I was shocked and asked Beilu loudly, "Is there something wrong with Beichu, is there something wrong with Beichu, something must have happened to her, right?" ”

In the end, under my questioning, Beilu finally told the truth, in fact, he didn't find Beichu at all, he searched all the places that Beichu could go, but no one had seen Beichu, and no one had seen Beichu, and then Beilu walked to the bar that Beichu used to go to, and the waiter at the bar said that Beichu was drunk and was helped away by a middle-aged man, and the waiter said that the man seemed to know Beichu, and the two of them talked and laughed, so they didn't care. But North Road asked the people on the whole street outside the bar, but no one knew where they had gone, the man came in a car, and drove away not long after leaving the bar.

After he finished speaking, I couldn't hear any sound in my head anymore, only Beichu's crying face dangled in front of my eyes, I didn't dare to imagine how uncomfortable it was to lose Beichu, I didn't dare to imagine what Beichu was suffering, I couldn't imagine where Beichu was at this time, and what kind of torment he was suffering. There was only one voice in my ear, I had to get her back, I had to bring her back to me, I had to see her have an accident.

I handed the phone to Cangnan, and then hurriedly lifted the quilt and limped out of the ward, but just after reaching the corridor, I fell hard, and tears came out of my eyes. Cangnan hurriedly ran over to help me up and persuaded me to go back and have a good rest, but how could I rest, let alone have a good rest.

"Cangnan, will you accompany me to find Beichu? You take me to Beichu, I'm going to get her back! I grabbed Cangnan's collar with all my strength, like grasping the last straw, Cangnan looked at my embarrassed appearance and had to nod distressedly, he helped me go to one place after another, I walked through all the familiar places that Beichu had been to, we called Beilu over and over again to ask about the situation on his side, called Yin Taoze over and over again to ask about the situation at the police station, we called my mother who was staying at home again and again Beichu had not come home, but what I heard was always those four words, No news.

The arrival of late night makes the whole world gradually silent, as if all people have returned to the warm home for reunion, as if all people are shrinking in their own haven to avoid the ups and downs of the world, as if all people have fallen asleep peacefully and raised the corners of their mouths in their dreams, but our hearts are sinking little by little, and the light of hope is fading little by little, why is only Beichu still wandering outside? Where did you cry at the beginning of the North Dynasty, where did you endure loneliness, the wind in this city is so strong, and the night is so dark, but why are you still reluctant to go home, but why don't you want to return?

Cangnan and I sat on the steps of the street, looking at the street that seemed to pass through a gunsmoke, this street that was no longer lively and noisy, Bei Chu hated lonely people so much, how could she be used to pausing in such a lonely place? Bei Chu is such a smart girl in ice and snow, what makes her unable to escape? What is happening to her now, where has that man taken her, and where is he going to abandon her? I can't imagine any of this, because every time I think about it, my heart twitches.

The mother had already cried into tears, and while crying, she thought, "My child, come back quickly, where are you?" Then he walked outside the door and sat at the door and looked around, "It's all my mother's fault, it's all my fault, you come back, as long as you come back, you can punish me as much as you want." ”

I hugged my mother, who had lost her soul, and I didn't know how to comfort her, let alone how to comfort my own equally panicked heart, and every minute that passed, undoubtedly disappointed our hearts, and we didn't even dare to look up at the clock on the wall, for fear that it would remind me of the seriousness of the situation.

In the heavy work of washing the face with tears, in the panic, in the bitter waiting, time passed little by little, three days passed, ten days passed, half a month passed, I returned to school, but Beichu has not come back, why hasn't she come back, every time I think of her, think of her being taken away by others, my heart seems to be pulled hard.

Everyone comforted her mother, saying that it was the best news that there was no bad news from Beichu, and there was still hope for everything, so she guarded the door every day, walked the street in front of her house every day, and went to the police station every day to ask Beilu, but Beichu seemed to have evaporated from the world, without any news, without a trace.

The school said that it was going to remove the desk and chairs of Beichu, and asked me to clean up the things in the desk for her, I stood on her seat but didn't want to start, every book here is a trace of Beichu, every item still has her breath, the graffiti she drew in the textbook, the name she wrote on the scratch paper, it was all so clear and public, I watched Cangnan pull them out of the desk little by little, I watched Cangnan stack them neatly together and put them in the box and dust it, and then tears dripped down in tears, trying to stop Cangnan's movements, But I don't know what to do with them.

Are you really quitting my life like this? You have been with me since the moment my life came, but now how can you be willing to withdraw from my life?

Although everyone no longer mentions Beichu's affairs, even her name, trying to dust the memories of her, I always feel that Beichu must still be by our side, she will definitely come back, she is so smart and brave, she will definitely break through the suffering.

On the night of Christmas, our group sat on the bus on the North Road to greet our favorite people, to greet the heroes we had when we were children, to greet the girl who was not afraid to live frankly and unscrupulously, to welcome our long memories and the good times that we could not go back, to welcome our youth who went away to pay for our youth frivolity.

North Road was getting better and better at work at that time, he was already the manager of the car dealership, and his eyes were no longer the first time he was confused about the city, he finally succeeded with his own efforts, his body was no longer so timid and cowardly, his body exuded the charm of a mature man, his eyes were gentle, and his posture was straight, but he always kept a certain distance from strange girls, and he would not be annoying, but he also knew that he had a master in his heart.

Not long ago, a colleague from the North Road car dealership came to the school to find me and asked me what kind of woman I like on the North Road, whether it is gentle or hot, or a bird, in short, I am a resilient player, willing to make all changes for the North Road. I looked at the young and courageous girl, and inexplicably remembered Beichu, what a similar joy, what a similar look, but at that time I was still sighing for Beichu, just like now I sigh for that girl, Beilu's body has a unique aura, which is incomparable to everyone, and can not be imitated by anyone, and his eyes and movements seem to be so innate.

Cangnan once complained to me with low self-esteem, "You see that Beilu is really very good and popular with girls, and he is so good to you, so no wonder I am jealous, right?" ”

Although Cangnan's words undoubtedly got me a beating, scolding him for daring to think cranky, and at the same time, I had to re-examine this teenager who grew up with me and experienced ups and downs.

It turned out that before I knew it, Beilu was completely different in the eyes of others, but in my heart, he seemed to have been silently guarding me like that, carefully considering everything for me, and sharing my joys, sorrows, and sorrows. Or maybe from the first time I saw North Road, I believed in the clarity of this little boy's eyes, and was attracted and moved by his clean and calm face.

Dear Bei Chu, if you come back and see such a North Road, you will definitely be very happy, and you will definitely bless him, will you hold the North Road and laugh and tease regardless of your previous suspicions, "Ouch, yes, I didn't expect you to be so strong as a weak person." ”

Then will you shake your hair freely, handsomely pull out a person with clear eyebrows from the side to introduce to us, that is your mountain and water, that is your rose and nutrients, that is your companion on the road, is the bond that you are unwilling to let go of.

After so many years of wandering, where did you live, how many people did you meet, what kind of story happened, did they remember you and take care of you like us, and did you also meet the person who was heart-pounding on the way?

When she left Qu Yan's house, her surprise was so obvious, her eyes stared directly at Beilu with a solemn and panicked face, she was such a delicate woman, she must have guessed the general situation, she must know that the person in our mouth must be very important, it must be an unusual girl for Beilu, the panic in Beilu's eyes and the hazy eyes are so obvious, how can she not see it?

I remembered that when I went to see North Road not long ago, only Qu Qi was at home, this little rebellious and a little cute boy was still doing nothing all day long even if he was facing the college entrance examination, pestering me to play video games, in my heart he was a child, but he never let me call him a child, always said that he didn't have to be much younger than me, and he was also an adult.

When we were all exhausted, we sat down to rest, Qu Qi asked me half-jokingly, "Hey, Yin Beimo, let me ask you something, does your brother have someone he likes?" I always think he's weird, my sister is such a beautiful and sensible woman, he is unmoved, and he is often alone in a daze. ”

I was stunned by his question, and I was speechless for a while, I didn't know how to answer, but fortunately, he was not in a hurry for me to answer, and he muttered to himself, "I really don't understand their business, my sister, everyone knows that he is interested in the North Road, but he doesn't let me say it, your brother won't tell us if he has something in his heart, and it's good for my sister, do you like it or not?" I don't even know if I should help them or not. ”

Looking at Qu Qi's stunned appearance, I couldn't stop snickering next to me, but at this time, I looked at this young man well, and suddenly found that Qu Qi actually looked really good, with a tall nose bridge, enthusiastic and a little unruly, if I were a high school student, if I were still that teenage girl, if I grew up simply in this city, maybe I would have a crush on this boy with a flamboyant personality, attracted by his serious and flashing personality, and fall for his evil handsome face.

"Why do you keep staring at me, are you fascinated by me haha," Qu Qi suddenly stopped muttering, turned his face to me and said with a wicked smile, then stood up and took out a bottle of Coke from the refrigerator and handed it to me, smiling evilly as his face approached my face little by little, stopping at a distance of only about ten centimeters and saying with a smile, "I don't mind digging corners, as long as I like it." ”

Before I could react, he tapped me on the head and said, "But the president of our student council is so good that I'm not sure about it." ”

Listening to his words, I exhaled a long breath in an instant, it turned out that it wasn't me, blame me for being too self-indulgent? How could I think that I was talking about myself, he was my brother at all, I patted my unnatural face and calmed my mood.

If Bei Chu is such a strong girl who still remembers the North Road, then how should Sister Qu Yan end? The world of feelings is always so complicated, but I can't care so much now, I just hope to see Beichu sooner.

Sitting in the car, we didn't speak, I sat on the side of the North Road and quietly looked at this man who was usually as calm as water, at this moment he had beads of sweat on his face, and the steering wheel he held in his hand was also printed by the sweat in his palm, his brows were furrowed, biting his lips, for so many years he has been hiding guilt in his heart, has been hiding deep self-blame in life, there is a black hole in his heart, there is a name that we all touch and hurt, and now she is finally back, Beilu's guilt finally eased a little, and I gently comforted him, "Beichu will definitely be fine, she must be alive and well." ”

Cangnan looked out the window in the back, Xi Chen's thoughts seemed to drift to a few years ago, as if returning to the memories of childhood, and then quietly wiped a handful of tears, I knew that she must have thought of a lot of things, thinking of the ignorant years when a group of us were led by Bei Chu to break through the world, thinking of the righteous indignation and sincerity of Bei Chu and Haoran when they were angry for us, thinking of Bei Chu's sudden departure, everyone's crying and crying, and even too late to say goodbye and even not know whether it was dead or alive.

Beilu turned his head at me a little, but his smile was so far-fetched, so unnatural, so awkward and unfamiliar, anyone can see at a glance that his acting skills are clumsy, just like the clumsy slow motion at the beginning, so he will be chased and beaten by Beichu all day long, so he will be bullied by Beichu all day long, and that bullying will eventually transform into a strong love, flowing in Beichu's heart, burning the whole period of incomprehensible years.

Standing at the door of the police station, I held Cangnan's hand tightly, not daring to take a step forward, inexplicably timid, as if I had sensed that the situation inside was not as good as I imagined, and I trembled with fear.

"It's okay, let's go inside, haven't you always longed for this day?" Cangnan straightened my messy bangs for me and gently encouraged me.

After we explained our intentions, the police brought out a woman from inside, slightly chubby, about 1.7 meters tall, Beichu has always been taller than me, she was wearing a crimson coat with a little mud marks on it, and the boots on her feet were also about to fall off, layer by layer of black shredded skin hung thinly on the upper of the shoe drooping, her hair was messy and drooping on her shoulders, it looked uneven, as if she had cut it roughly, and there was the fluffy feeling that she had just tied, I don't know what kind of dirt is on it. Her eyes were hollow, not much of brilliance, and when she came out, she just lowered her head, lowered her eyes, and didn't dare to look at us directly, her hands desperately pinched the corners of her clothes, looking very twisted and unnatural, and very nervous. I couldn't imagine that this was Beichu, and I couldn't associate the nervous and twisting woman in front of me with the original Beichu. All of us were surprised and looked at each other.

"See if you're looking for them?" The policeman said to the woman with a coercion, and the woman was shocked, and then she slowly raised her head to look at us, and her eyes began to have a little tear, which slowly condensed, but we were all stunned and did not dare to come forward to hug us.

Because the face in front of her looks familiar but is no longer the youthful and beautiful she used to be, although her facial features are a little similar to Beichu, her eyebrows and eyes are as thick and strong as Beichu, but her expression is so timid and afraid, not at all like the Beichu who is strong and dares to love and dare to be, and she can't see the sunny girl who was dominant, walked with eyes and eyes, and did things in a hurry.

Her face was much larger than that of Beichu, and she looked yellow, with a little freckles on it, and the bangs on her forehead were also jagged like a girl in the eighties, her lips were purple, and the whole person looked haggard, but her slightly trembling double chin matched her body shape. Her face was solemn, her lips moved slightly, as if she wanted to say something, but after a pause, she still didn't say anything, I looked at the woman standing opposite, looked at the weather-beaten eyes, looked at the bag full of bitterness, and little by little I was sure that the person in front of me was the one who lived naturally every day and lived very real every day, even if he hit his head and broke the blood, he didn't want to look back.