I heard that there is a kind of love called letting go, and that must be an excuse for self-comfort.

I want to grow my hair long, not blow the evening breeze, don't drink spirits, stop thinking about him, clean myself up, and learn to smile.

None of us thought that everyone's words would not work for Xichen, and tonight I was actually conquered by Luo Tianyi's impropriety, and at that time, I had a hundred thanks to Tianyi, thanking him for making Xichen happy, although it may only be temporary.

"Now you should rest assured, crying fool." Cangnan wiped away the tears that came out of nowhere, holding my head with both hands and turning to the other side, "Now you can enjoy your happiness?" You can be happy without pressure or burden, right? ”

"Well, I've wronged you this time, Cangnan, you're so good." I leaned on his shoulder and watched the sky full of stars, there was a heavy rain yesterday, and today the stars came out again, and I knew that tomorrow would definitely be a good day.

Since Xichen and Haoran had an accident, I have never dared to get close to Cangnan, for fear that she would feel uncomfortable and irritated when she saw us intimate.

Xichen is different from me, her sadness and her unhappiness will not be shown many times, but she is thoughtful and sensitive, and often sees some irrelevant things and thinks of her relationship with Haoran, but she still smiles and says it's okay when she has red eyes.

So I didn't dare to leave, and I didn't dare to let her think crankily alone.

"But this is not a solution, it is not possible to treat the symptoms without curing the root cause, we still have to find a way to make her happy." Cangnan's words hit the most fundamental problem, so a group of us thought of a lot of ways, but it still didn't work, until tonight Tianyi followed Cangnan to our class, sat next to Xichen and listened to her, and the two of them chatted for more than an hour and were reluctant to leave.

"That, Beimo, let me ask you something." Cangnan suddenly changed the topic, and said in a hurry, his eyes were also dodgy, he rarely did this, unless he had something on his mind.

"What's the matter, do you think you're still an eighteen-year-old girl?" I pinched his face and asked him with a playful smile.

"North Road, is he also here? I seem to have seen him yesterday, when it was raining heavily. He asked quietly.

"Yes, he came here half a year ago, he works in a car city on the south side of the city, I heard that he shares a house with someone else now, I haven't been to see it yet, let's go see him together another day." I was talking about the North Road for a day, and I immediately opened up the conversation and talked about it endlessly.

Yesterday morning there was a heavy rain, all of us were trapped in the playground, everyone hurried to the rostrum to hide from the rain, I looked at the people running around, listening to the sound of raindrops falling on the ground, it has not rained for a long time, so a happy rain is not a hearty thing.

So I stopped in the rain to enjoy the baptism of the heavy rain, and there was no response when they called me on the rostrum.

At this time, a piece of clothing shrouded my head, I thought it was Cangnan, and smiled and pulled the clothes away, "Cangnan, don't you think it's an interesting thing to get drenched in the rain?" ”

"Really? You seem to have loved the rain since you were a child, but catching a cold is not a fun thing. "The clear sound passed through the eardrums, so loud, and I hadn't heard this pampering tone so close in a long time.

But the voice that has been with me for more than ten years is still so familiar, which makes me feel so relieved, and my heart is also shocked.

"North Road, why did you get here? Why didn't you say hello to me in advance? I was pleasantly surprised to turn my head to look at the emaciated face that was also drenched all over, his hair wet from the rain sticking to the sides of his face, reminding me of Hua Dan who was singing.

His clean face was a little haggard, and his face was more angular, and he couldn't squeeze out a little excess fat. Wearing a white shirt, he looks like an adult, and he can't see the impulsiveness and willfulness of a teenager, as if he is a social master who is not surprised.

The heavy dark circles under his eyes reminded him how tired he was these days, and how much he imagined that an eraser would erase all the hardships and heaviness for him.

The North Road, which has been clear and beautiful since he was a child, is still so gentle, still so unwavering, sometimes it makes people feel as if he is from another planet, like a strong fairy who has seen through everything in the world, and his sleeves are calm and unhurried.

In the past, as long as I was unhappy, I would find the north road as soon as possible, hug him and cry bitterly, not that he would say a lot of words to comfort me, but that he could always make me feel at ease instantly, and my heart would be steady, all the unhappiness would pass, he would gently pat my back, even if he didn't say a word, he could make me quiet.

When I was a child, fortune tellers always said that this child was clear-eyed and calm, and he must be a person who has achieved great things when he grows up, either a boss or a big official, so he has always been pinned on high hopes.

In my impression, he is still such a small and thin man, and his hair is either left long and there is no time to cut it, or it is cut very short to save money, but I am not afraid of him at all, no matter what he looks like, I always feel that he is so otherworldly.

"If you don't worry, you can come and take a look yourself, it's really not as good as you say, I still like the rain and won't take care of myself." Beilu said with a light smile, with a little angry face.

"North Road, do you remember how long it has been since we rained together like this? I'm afraid I won't have a chance in the future. I whispered blankly, as if asking him and myself, when did I grow up, when did I stop being so carefree in the rain and the sun?

Twenty-one-year-old North Road and nineteen-year-old me waited for the quiet of the world in the rain, time seemed to go back to when I was a child, when I was sad, when I was wronged, I always loved to stand in the rain to wash away all the unhappiness, and the North Road at that time was the same, standing quietly next to me, silent.

But after this rain stopped, we walked for so many years.

Cangnan seemed a little unhappy that I didn't tell him about it, but she still smiled and said, "Why haven't I heard you say it?" ”

"You didn't ask me, and then I forgot." I replied embarrassedly, and then remembered that I saw Cangnan and Yindi kissing each other on the forehead while playing a game, and she said that the whole world was making fun of them, and you were still in the dark. "Cangnan, is the scale of your class playing games very large?" I asked him softly.

"Okay, that's okay with me." He nodded thoughtfully.

Then we all naturally changed the subject, as if it were a joke as well.

The breeze blows lightly through the impetuous youth, whether the time of reunion after a long absence is still unharmed.

After the military training, a group of us went out to party for a night, and then lay motionless in bed like a serious patient recovering from a serious illness, even in the morning there was still a scream from the Lori girl in the dormitory next door, "Oh my God, I've gained another pound!" What to do, what to do? ”

There's a little Lori living in the dormitory next door.,I've envied her petite figure countless times.,But she still doesn't seem to be satisfied.,To be exact, very dissatisfied.。

There is a habit of weighing every morning, and I don't know if it's her memory error or the weight electronic scale is a problem, almost never a day is not a pound or two pounds, if a pound is a little bit better, one morning to gain three pounds, the deafening shouts estimate that no one in the whole building is inaudible, attracting countless girls to scold, it was the most lively morning.

Lu Ersi said that with her trend of only increasing and not decreasing, she has grown from a fair lady to a fat man in less than half a year, but looking at her every day is the same, it is estimated that she wakes up every morning and imagines herself to be the weight of a year ago.

"What you said is not right, no matter how fat a woman is, she is still a woman, how can she grow into a man?" Xichen simply pointed out her language mistakes, turning us all from irritable emotions to happiness.

Later, the four of us decided to decorate the dormitory on a whim, mainly because Cai Qiang suddenly found a big spider on the wall before going to bed last night.

I thought that Cai Ye, who was not afraid of heaven and earth, actually screamed in fright, and jumped on my bed with the speed of a swift wind, this series of actions stunned all of us, and then couldn't help laughing.

As a result, Cai Qiang's psychological area for spiders was beyond our imagination, and he didn't dare to go back to sleep, so he followed me all night, and almost didn't kick me into a cripple in the middle of the night.

The next day she concluded that the spider must have a strong sense of dependence on the wall, as long as the color and scene were changed, the spider would definitely not adapt to it, and it would not come again, she pointed to the bare wall with disgust and said, "Look at you, such ugly and dirty walls, if I were a spider, I would think I was home, so I must let it understand that this is not its home, and there is no food." ”

Although Lu Ersi told her that this was a ridiculous idea in a less scientific biology, Cai Qiang did not listen to it at all, still insisted on her idea, and threatened to continue to sleep with me if we did not agree. Thinking of the tragic experience last night, I immediately obediently covered Lu Ersi's mouth that was still talking, dragged Xichen and ran.

But for the color of the wallpaper, everyone's opinions are also different, Cai Qiang wants to make it black, but we all feel that black is too heavy, not suitable for such a sunny youth, don't scare others, maybe I think that this dormitory lives a group of depressed people, and when the time comes, even the spider can't see clearly, and it will be miserable if you can't catch it if you are bitten.

Xichen likes pink, but Cai Qiang said that he resolutely can't accept pink, and when he opens his eyes every day and sees his head full of pink, he will definitely be drowned in goosebumps. In the end, there was no choice but to use the colors of the rainbow, so that everyone was taken care of, and everyone didn't have too many opinions, but our dormitory became very strange, and it was like coming to the picture in "The Adventures of Alice", colorful and dazzling.

After dressing up the dormitory, we went to develop the photos we had taken before and pasted them on the doors and walls, Lu Ersi exclaimed, "Do you look like these photos?" It's just right to ward off evil spirits. ”

Then she succeeded in getting a violent beating, Cai Qiang said that he never thought that one day he would sleep in such an environment, don't tell others, it's too embarrassing.

"I don't know who made it like this." The three of us said in unison very tacitly.

I took a picture to show Cangnan, he laughed so much that tears were about to come out, opened a jelly and stuffed it into my mouth, "A little girl is a little girl, I always like this kind of dreamy scene, but your color is too ......"

"How's it going?" I looked at him with a wicked smile and glanced at my expression, he swallowed, patted his chest and smiled and said, "It's so beautiful, it's so beautiful." ”

"Don't think I don't know what's going on in your heart? Look at my overwhelming load. I opened my hands to push him, but he was dexterous enough to dodge him and ran away in an instant.

Just as we were having fun, his phone rang, and I heard him say "okay" a few times in a row, and then hung up, and he said apologetically that Yinti's mother came to see her and invited him to dinner, and he couldn't stay with me today.

"Uh-huh, you go, it's okay." I smiled and waved goodbye to him, and suddenly remembered that I had said that I would go to see the North Road together today, and hurriedly shouted, "Cangnan." ”

"What's wrong?" He looked back at me suspiciously, smiling and looking back in the sun, such a warm boy, so brilliant him, I paused and beckoned to him, "Remember to come back early." ”

"Haha, I know." He waved his hand away, his back disappeared little by little, I stayed where I was, imagining if the morning would be like this many years from now, he went to work after breakfast, I went to the courtyard door to see him off, and then he waved his hand and said, it is very windy, come into the house.

I said, remember to get home early from work, and I'll make you your favorite chopped pepper fish head.

You listen to the wind, I'm waiting for you to return.

When I returned to the dormitory, everyone was not there, and after a while, I got up and decided to go to my house on North Road, watching the people on the street on the bus, and inexplicably there were some feelings, so many people in the world, we are just a drop in the ocean, no matter how tempting the story is, it will become history and drift away with the wind.

That was the first time I met Qu Yan and her younger brother Qu Qi, who was Beilu's roommate, because Beilu hadn't come back when I went, and I didn't tell him in advance, I wanted to surprise him.

Qu Yan said that it was their own house, which was left to them by their deceased grandfather, but their parents were working in other places, so they rented out the extra house, which happened to be multiple companions.

Qu Yan is a gentle and virtuous woman, she is a little similar to Xichen, maybe it gives people the feeling that they are so gentle and demure, but it is a little different, Qu Yan's life experience makes her look more mature and stable than Xichen, and a little more worldly charm.

Her hair is slightly curly, quietly tied back, wearing a knee-high crimson dress, the simple dress looks very simple, but there is a story between her eyebrows.

Later, she told me that she didn't look like this at the beginning when she came out to work hard at the age of sixteen, and that the girl at that time was very arrogant, very dismissive, and looked down on the world and everyone in this world.

Before she could finish telling me her story, we had to cook and wait for Beilu and Qu Qi to come home, the way she put on an apron reminded me of my mother when I was a child, and I also had to put on a beautiful floral apron every time I cooked, and I used to pull the lace on the apron and argued that I should also wear a beautiful floral skirt.

At this time, she had no choice but to call Beichu to take me away, so I couldn't avoid a lesson, until one day Beilu came to coax me.

Do you cook for them every night and wait for them to come back? I was a little surprised at what she was used to.

"That's right, I can't eat well when I see that I can't eat alone on North Road, how can my body stand it? I thought that everyone should make do with it, and let him eat a bite of the hot food. She replied to me with a smile as she skillfully stir-fried the vegetables. It was at that moment that I suddenly fell in love with this woman full of affection and stories, like a sister.

It didn't take long for Beilu and Qu Qi to come back, no doubt the two of them were stunned when they saw me, and Beilu asked me in surprise, "Why didn't you come here without saying hello, I would have asked for leave if I knew it." ”

"Didn't I learn from you, didn't you do the same last time?" I stuck my tongue out at him mischievously, turned to the blank young man next to me and introduced myself, "I'm his sister, my name is Beimo, what's your name, little brat?" ”

"It's good that it's just my sister," he muttered quietly, but I didn't care, and I heard him quibble dissatisfiedly, "I'm not a little kid, I'm already in my second year of high school, and my name is Qu Qi." ”

Qu Qi's first impression on me was that he was a little kid, so much so that many years later, even a long, long time later, I still felt that he was still the little kid who liked to go against me, the rebellious but immature little boy who wore a high school uniform and a crossbody backpack, and never thought that one day he would grow up to be more mature than me.

His spilling hair falls on his shoulders, thick eyebrows and big eyes, he always feels like a star in the 90s, but he can't say who he looks like.

Qu Yan is very good at cooking, and after eating at school for half a month, I suddenly ate the home-cooked dishes I made, and suddenly felt that it was very delicious.

We had a very happy day that day, and the North Road was also smiling happily, the dimples that had not been seen for a long time were faint, like a touch of spring breeze. He's been picking up vegetables for me, and he's always been like that, always like to give me the best, and it's been a long time since I've seen him, and it's been a long time since I've seen him laugh so heartily, and this smile seems to scare away all the unhappiness and all the stress, leaving only pure happiness.

When I left, I picked up my phone and saw that there were more than ten missed calls, all of which were from Cangnan, I quickly replied to him, he asked me anxiously where I was, and then told me to go back quickly.

I thought there was something urgent, so I had to rush back, but I didn't expect to be greeted by a big fight.

And this quarrel quietly closed the curtain of fairy tales and revealed the reality that he had been unwilling to face.