Chapter 10 If I Could Accompany You Through Every Spring, Summer, Autumn and Winter

Beilu seems to have been to this town, but it seems that I have never been here, maybe it is because he has brought me too much warmth, or maybe my childhood is really too lacking in love.

It's just that occasionally I dream, and I dream of many things, but I can't dream of the clear face of the North Road, and I wake up thinking that I am only four or five years old, and I haven't grown up yet, and I haven't passed these two years.

If I could do it all over again, would I still have chosen to meet him if I had known in advance that North Road would be leaving? Will I ever be as good as he is? Will I still believe the distant future he said and the things that he had to do with me, but which made my heart flutter?

Although in the days after the North Road left, I was very depressed in life, and there was hardly a moment when I didn't think about the North Road around me, and sometimes I would habitually turn my face and talk to the North Road.

But when I turned my head, there was only air to work, and there was no clean little boy who responded to all my gossip with a shallow smile, tolerated my joys, sorrows, and sorrows, and knew all my trivial things but never made a show.

But I'm glad that someone was so attentive to me, because even if he couldn't grow up with me, he made me try to look up and smile, try to be friendly to others, and have more beautiful fantasies and expectations in the years to come.

My mother is a thousand times sadder than me, I may have lost a childhood friend, maybe I will have the opportunity to meet in the vast sea of people in the future, although the possibility is very small, but my life has just begun, and there are many beautiful things waiting for me to grow up in the future.

She is different, she is so single-mindedly entrusting her heart to Yin Taoze, even desperate, but she didn't expect the same result in exchange.

What she lost was her lifelong partner, and what she regained was the same despair and sorrow that she had at the beginning.

On the day Beilu left, after her mother came home, she took out the scarf that Yin Taoze gave her, and cut it into sections with tears and gritted her teeth, until it became a pile of pieces, she put down the scissors, picked up the pieces, sat on the ground and cried bitterly, crying stubbornly like a child abandoned by the world.

Since that day, Beilu and his father's name have naturally become forbidden words in our lives, whether it is in front of my mother or in front of Beichu and Haoran, we are very tacitly silent, even if sometimes inadvertently rush out, we immediately change the topic.

Beichu is much sadder than I imagined, but she has always been so strong to live among us, so she doesn't show it, just a casual sigh to let us know that in fact, Beichu also remembered him, Beichu said that Bei Chu didn't think it was important to follow Beilu in the past, but it was really only one person left behind to find that no matter who was missing among us, she would not be used to it and would miss.

Yes, at that time, I thought that we were all following Beichu, and fortunately, Beichu was in front of me to give me directions and take me home, but I didn't think about how uncomfortable it would be if Beichu fell down one day, and I never felt that it was possible.

When people are sad and sad, they will always accidentally turn their anger to the people around them, even adults seem to be inevitable.

When my mother is sad, she will think of Bei Chu's reluctance to accept Yin Taoze's affairs, she will magnify those details, and she will think of Bei Chu's stubborn words, she blames Bei Chu for her willfulness, she imposed Yin Taoze's charge of quietly leaving Bei Chu's head, she said that Bei Chu just couldn't see her well, and she even said that Bei Chu has been constantly looking for trouble to retaliate against her since she was a child, and she owed her in her previous life.

From childhood to Dabeichu, she grew up under the care of her mother, even if she was not particularly careful, she had not been beaten or subjected to any heavy words, which is why she has been very sunny and confident since she was a child, and I am completely different from me who has always been beaten and hidden in the corner.

This time, how could Bei Chu accept such a serious crime at once, and how could he bear such a heavy topic?

When I first heard these words, Bei Chu retorted with a red face, and pushed my mother to the ground in a fit of anger, and then listened to Bei Chu no longer refute and no longer angrily closed the door for these words, she just became no longer fond of taking care of her mother, and slowly no longer liked to go home and listen to the daily thoughts, although it was no longer about her bad, she would also feel very annoying, and even slowly stopped liking to talk at home.

In the years that followed, my mother always blamed herself for the words she said impulsively, and her indifference to Beichu, because it was at that time that Beichu began to change a little differently, and I can't say what was different, but I hated this environment from the bottom of my bones, and hated everyone around me.

However, the young Beichu did not show much performance, and he did not have particularly rebellious and outrageous behavior.

Every day after school, I will go to see the railway, carrying my school bag, I like to sit quietly on the hillside by the railway, looking at the winding and endless railway, I like to pick a few wild flowers and pin them to my ears and then unconsciously think that if the north road sees it, I will praise me for being beautiful, I like to be alone in a daze, biting the pen to think about the problem, but there is no north road to guide as if all the problems are problems.

You okay? North Road, where are you studying now? Did you also meet a girl who is more lively and cheerful and kinder than me? Did you go all the way along the railway? If you are where the railroad is built, can I still walk along the railroad and find you?

When I grow up, I must get on the train until the end of this railway, and then I get off the train happily, maybe the north road is where I live, and every time I go home, I tell myself like this, and suddenly my mood is inexplicably bright.

That's how Xichen appeared in my sight at sunset, her straight black hair, which had been so unique since she was a child, and her straight black hair was as smooth and shiny as the heroine of a shampoo commercial on TV in the days when we all wore ponytails or mushroom heads.

Wearing a pink skirt, white pantyhose and black leather shoes, she walked step by step on the side of the railway, her hands spread like angels falling from the earth.

I sat on the hillside next to me and looked at Xichen's petite figure, although I couldn't see her face clearly, but as long as I looked at her beautiful figure, I could imagine that her face must be more moving, I had never seen this girl, she seemed to have arrived from another time and space, spotless, and stood on the railroad tracks to keep her balance.

That was the first time I saw Xichen, maybe this is fate, I am also the first girl of the same age that Xichen met after coming to this town. I stared blankly at this unusual girl, fascinated by her steps.

I also thought about talking to her, but what should I say? I hesitated, my palms were covered with sweat.

Just when I didn't know whether to go down or not, the loose ground under my feet helped me, and because it had just rained the day before, the mud on the mountain was so slippery that I accidentally fell down.

"Ahh I broke all the silence with a scream, and when I was about to fall, I was so frightened that I broke out in a cold sweat, and in a hurry, I quickly grabbed a branch on the way, and hung upside down on the fork of the tree, feeling that my arms were not my own.

It's over, I won't die so young, will I? No, no, Yingnian refers to useful people, I haven't done anything yet, I cried loudly when I thought of this, if only the North Road was here!

"Hey, how are you? You wait, I'll come up and save you. Xichen was attracted by my scream, and looked back to see that my whole body was hanging in the air, she was probably frightened underneath, and hurriedly tried to climb up from the side, but she had never climbed the mountain for a long time and could not climb up, I looked at her clumsy movements and unskilled skills, as if every step was so difficult.

I took a good look at this angel-like girl, her face is very white, her skin is tender and tender, a little baby fat, but her face is a standard goose egg face, the most special thing is that her mouth is really small, I feel that I can't stuff a cherry, because of the force, her neat bangs are blown by the wind, revealing a smooth forehead, well, the hairline is a little high.

She didn't give up, she kept pushing her legs there desperately, and it was at this time that I suddenly had a strong feeling that this girl would definitely be an indispensable part of my life in the future, and she must be an angel sent by God to save me, just like the North Road.

But my angel still didn't have time to save me, and at the moment when she finally climbed up, the thin branch finally lost patience and decided to give up on herself, so I fell down with the branch, and I felt dizzy in my head, and I was about to die. I didn't dare to look around, my eyes were tightly closed, could I just not wake up?

The strong pain in my butt stimulated me for a while, I rubbed my ass and opened my eyes, my eyes were still the same, Xichen stood on it and the whole person was sluggish, and his big eyes didn't come back to his senses for a long time, sure enough, the world is still not worth it, and the angel will faint with fright.

I limped to my feet and called out to her, "Hey, you come down, I'm fine." ”

"Oh, okay." She replied dumbfoundedly, then looked around, trying to walk down slowly, but as soon as her feet slipped and she sat down, she looked at her dirt-covered clothes, and cried out in a shocking cry, "My new clothes! ”

I hurried up to meet her, feeling very embarrassed in my heart, after all, she still walked up for me, to be exact, with the difficulty of dog-planing to climb.

"Hey, don't cry, I'll pull you down." I comforted her while stretching out my hand and handed it to her, although I am also a girl and like to cry, but being afraid of girls crying is definitely one of the most feared things in my life, every time I see others crying, my hands and feet will be numb unconsciously, and then I don't know what to do and panic in my heart, so every time I say that I am the most unproductive person in the world.

Cai Qiang and I maintain absolutely consistent revolutionary feelings in this matter, but the difference is that although I am afraid of others crying, I still can't help but shed tears when I encounter something, but Cai Qiang is different, she doesn't like to cry even if she is sad, so she always says that she is very aggrieved and obviously sad, but as a person who can't cry, others will not treat it as a serious matter.

After Xichen and I jumped back on the railroad tracks with great effort, Xichen had stopped crying, and there were still some tear stains on her face, the key was that she couldn't help wiping her tears with her mud-stained hands, and as a result, her whole face bloomed, and I couldn't hold back my laughter every time I turned around, but when I saw her innocent eyes, I felt like a sinner.

I didn't know what I thought, but it seemed to be an instinctive reaction, so I took out a handkerchief to wipe away her tears and introduced myself a little nervously, "That, just ...... I'm sorry, my name is Bai Beimo, I'm twelve years old this year, what's your name? ”

It was at this time that I saw the little freckles on Xichen's face clearly, jumping up and down very cheerfully, arranged on both sides of the nose, which was not annoying at all, but added a touch of agility to her too white face.

Although Xichen's facial features are not exquisite, because of her big watery eyes and fair complexion, her whole person gives people a feeling of being a lady.

I used to think it was because she preferred Qi bangs, until one time when she clamped her bangs in order to squeeze acne, I knew that she really only had this hairstyle to set off her hairstyle, because her forehead was very high and wide, and other hairstyles suddenly made her a few years older, and her whole temperament has changed.

It was Xichen's first day in the town, her parents were both teachers, because her parents were transferred to our town's primary school, so Xichen also followed her parents here, before that Xichen lived in the city, but due to her father's mistake at work was transferred here to stimulate her strong curiosity, can't wait to come to play on the railroad tracks.

Xichen had never climbed a mountain before, let alone a small hill with no path at all, so it was no wonder she was afraid.

When I was young, it was always very easy to become a good friend, Xichen said that she had never seen a girl as active as me, I said I took you to see Beichu, you will know that I am still a very quiet girl, I told her a lot of glorious deeds in Beichu, and talked about how we went to blow up other people's fish ponds and go to other people's orchards to steal grapefruits, she opened her mouth wide and couldn't believe that there were such bold children in the world.

Xichen told me about things in the city, she said that the parents of children in the city generally don't let them go out because they are worried that there are bad people outside, they usually play the piano and do homework at home, and they have to take a few training classes on weekends, so they don't have time to think about things to play.

"I cried when I came here this morning, but now I'm not sad at all, I like this place, I like the mountains and the railway, and you, we are good friends, right?" Before parting, Xichen took my hand and was reluctant.

The two of us seemed to see each other late, and I liked each other very much, so I nodded happily and replied to her loudly, "Of course, we have to be good friends all the time." ”

The next day of class, the teacher took Xichen's hand and walked into the classroom, she said that this is the new student in our class, Xichen and I smiled happily across five seats, all these years I always remember Xichen standing on the podium and smiling happily at me, at that time she had not experienced all the things, at that time she was the happiest and most innocent appearance.

On the 201st day after the departure of the North Road, I met Zhao Xichen, I think she must be the angel sent by the North Road to call God to make me happy and accompany me, Xichen is very good at studying, she will teach me to do my homework like the North Road, she will go to the side of the railway with me every day to pick flowers, and then smile happily on the side of her ears.

She will accompany me quietly when I am sad, she will tell me when I miss the North Road that the North Road will definitely come back, she said it as if she knew the North Road, we agreed to wait until we grow up in the future and we will take the train together to find the North Road, no matter the ends of the world, the vicissitudes of the sea.

The first time Hao Ran saw Xi Chen was when he came home from school, Xi Chen and I were waiting for Beichu to come out at the door, Hao Ran walked from the playground locally, and when he was about to approach, he suddenly became very serious, and he walked over to Xi Chen's eyes and couldn't help but exclaim, "Wow, it's so beautiful!" ”

This sentence was heard by Bei Chu, who happened to come over, and he couldn't straighten up with laughter on the spot, "Haoran, you big pervert, you expose your true nature when you see a beautiful girl, haha." ”

We laughed at him unceremoniously all the way, and this sentence undoubtedly became a joke for many years after, and became a sore spot for Haoran, every time he laughed that he liked Xichen, he immediately had no way to refute.

Some feelings, some fate, it seems that the real thing is destined from the beginning, it doesn't take much time and doesn't need much in-depth understanding, just at a glance, it is destined that the story will happen in the future, just like Haoran likes Xichen, from the first sight, it seems to foreshadow all the plots in the future.

Maybe it's just a child's exclamation, but it warms the hearts of two people and drives all the jokes and ambiguities in the future.

Why do I remember every word of that day so clearly? For I vividly remember that it was the day I missed so much that I thought I would never see again until I grew up, and I was waiting for the day when he would find him, and he returned.

He was still carrying a small travel bag, still following closely behind the tired man without saying a word, still smiling quietly with his shabby and old clothes and clean face.

We met again, although we were only absent for a winter and summer, but it seemed that we had met in the previous life.