Chapter 20 Meeting You is the spring blossom of my life All the tribulations are no longer arrogant

I really can't imagine how ugly I am now, my face must have been swollen, otherwise how would I feel that my eyes are a little smaller and I feel that everything is not clear, my hair is torn like a crazy woman, otherwise how can I have a torn scalp, and the hair of my shawl is like a clump of knotted wool, like this grudge and hatred, when it will be unraveled, we don't know.

My clothes were rubbing around in the dark and dirty utility room, stained with dust, and the original beige skirt was already white, black, and gray, and I was like a clown rolling in the dirt, like a wanderer rolling in the world.

If Cangnan sees me like this, will I still think I'm cute, do I still think I'm that clean and smart girl, but how I don't want him to see me like this, how I don't want his heartache eyes and helpless movements, it's not like him at all, it's not suitable for him at all.

Thinking about it, I couldn't help but cry out loud.

How lucky I am to be able to meet you and be pampered by you, so I just want you to be happy, I just want you to see my good side, I just hope that you will never have to panic, you don't have to cry without tears, you don't have to face life with your teeth and claws.

Just when I thought I was about to be beaten unconscious, I suddenly heard the woman in the lead shouting, "Okay, stop!" ”

The women threw me to the ground viciously, then patted the ashes on their palms and stood back in their original positions, their faces expressionless, as if the torture they had just beaten was not a living person, but a puppet, a rag doll, a vegetative person with no heart, no lungs, no blood, and no pulse.

I raised my head and stared at the girl, the smile on her face was full of pleasure after revenge, and she smiled triumphantly, but I suddenly felt that she was very sad, because her body made me unable to see the warmth and tenderness of the world, maybe her heart was completely full of dissatisfaction with others, maybe just an action, maybe just a word, or maybe just a disdainful look could make her difficult to accept hysteria, in fact, her heart was very inferior and sensitive, right, It's just that the more this happens, the more they put up high spikes and desperately try to protect themselves.

The mobile phone rang again unexpectedly, and I quietly put my hand into my pocket to ask for help, but I was still snatched away by a girl on the side, she twisted my arm fiercely, stared at me viciously, rolled my eyes and said fiercely, "At this point, you still want to answer the phone, you dream." ”

Then that person hung up the phone, Cangnan must be in a hurry over there, he must have thought I was angry, but he must have wondered why I was angry, would he realize that something happened to me, would he call the police? But if it's too late, who will believe it?

"Give her the phone," the woman at the head unexpectedly ordered the person holding the phone, I don't know what she was going to do, she slowly lowered her head and stared at me, picked up my chin and said with a smile, "Give you a chance to call your sister and let her die herself, I want to see if her self-proclaimed righteous person will not go to life and die in order to save her sister!" ”

"I'm not going to fight, I'm not going to let you hurt her." I turned my face to the side and said word by word, I know that if it is not me but Bei Chu who is standing opposite her at this moment, then her fate is definitely not just a violent beating like me, their hatred of Bei Chu may lead to unpredictable consequences, if Bei Chu comes, it must be more than auspicious, both of them are so fearless and reckless that they see death as home, and they will not give up if they don't hit their heads and break their blood.

A slap was thrown over fiercely, I only felt a strong smell of blood flowing into the corner of my mouth, my head was buzzing, and I heard the woman's illusory voice, "Yo, I can't see that your sister's relationship is quite good, I don't know if she will sacrifice herself like you when she hears the news that your life is worse than death Haha, the show has just begun." ”

I heard her last words, an ominous premonition hit, and then I heard the sound of the phone dialing, and there was only a strong feeling in my mind telling me that I must stop her, so I threw all my strength to knock off the mobile phone in her hand, and the mobile phone fell heavily to the ground, and the screen shattered into cracks one by one, and after a trance, the stone in my heart was put down, but I also knew that I had no chance to use my mobile phone for help again, and it was impossible to receive a call from Cangnan again. 、

Undoubtedly, my actions completely angered the other party, she kicked me to the ground and spat next to me, scolding fiercely, "Bitch, I think you can't save you if you want to, ask for it, then let you taste the taste of injury." After saying that, he kicked me hard, every kick was venting hatred and anger, I only felt a stream of water slowly flowing from my forehead, like an ant crawling down from the scalp, itchy and crispy but I didn't feel the pain, but I didn't feel how terrible, compared to the blood flow on my forehead, what made me more painful was the sharp pain in my abdomen.

I screamed desperately for help, but it was Friday, most of the people had already gone home, and it was on the top floor, and few people would come up, so I knew that my shouting would not bring a trace of life to my throat, let alone the hero who stepped on the colorful auspicious clouds to meet me.

Maybe God heard my heart, maybe my blessing was as good as he said, or maybe God felt that people like me didn't deserve to go to hell and didn't deserve to go to hell, so he simply let me stay on earth and experience the joys and sorrows of the world again. In short, the footsteps in the corridor were like my life-saving voice at that moment, I heard the voice of hope, it was like heaven, everyone held their breath, but just as I opened my mouth before I could make a sound, a girl covered her mouth, and then several other girls hurriedly took out the rope prepared in advance to tie my hands and feet tightly, grabbed a rag next to me and tightly plugged my mouth. Then they threw me into the utility room, slammed the door slammed shut, and locked the door tightly before I even had time to look at me, and I grabbed it before I went in, blocking the broken phone behind me from noticing, which was my last and only hope. In the moment I closed the door, it became pitch black and I couldn't see a single light, I remembered the scene when I was a child, I remembered the night my grandmother died, she was also locked in a black box and carried away, never to come back, if no one found me here, if no one came here, would I also slowly wither in this small dark house, how long will it take to be discovered? Will anyone still remember my existence at that time? I was suddenly afraid, I suddenly couldn't stop shivering, I suddenly didn't dare to think further, I suddenly felt as if I had never existed in this world, as if I was just a part of this darkness.

The doorman's uncle's voice sounded at the door, maybe he heard a noise so he came to see, maybe the teaching building was about to close so he came to check, but the women didn't know what to say, and then they heard the voice of the security guard's disgust and the footsteps of a group of people going downstairs, the footsteps became smaller and smaller, and finally there was no sound at all, and there was silence around, as if it was frozen, it was terrifyingly quiet, and the silence was so quiet that it made people's backs chill.

After confirming that they had left, I grabbed the mobile phone behind me with my hand, intuitively pressed the power button, and then moved my arm to the side little by little, and the moment I saw the phone screen lit up, I felt that my breathing was about to stop, how glad it could still be turned on, how glad it was still with me, bringing me a glimmer of hope, bringing me a glimmer of light. I moved to the position of my feet with my legs, my hands were tightly tied behind my back, so I couldn't control the phone with my hands, so I couldn't see the picture, so I had to rub off the shoes of the other foot with one foot, and before I was ready to press the button, the phone vibrated desperately on the ground, I put the phone back a little with my foot, and the tears I had been holding back instantly gushed out when I saw the familiar words, it was Cangnan calling, he must be very anxious, he must still be waiting for my appearance, He must have wondered why I disappeared in half an hour.

I wanted to tell him how bad I was now, how panicked I was, how scared I was now, but I kept my mouth open and couldn't make any sound until I watched the picture change with tears in my eyes and turned to missing the phone.

I held back my tears and reminded myself that I must be calm, I must send the distress message first, it is useless to call, because I can't make a sound at all, it will only make the phone faster and have no battery, I had to click on the text message, there are still dozens of messages sent by Cangnan that I didn't have time to read, I clicked on the latest one, it was a warm tone in a hurry, where are you at the end of the north, can you hurry up and reply to my call? I'm really flustered, I really don't know what's wrong with you, I have a very ominous premonition.

The utility room on the top floor rescued me, just a few words, but I moved with my toes for a long time, and I felt that my whole leg was about to go numb, because the bruises that had just been beaten were still so obvious on the snow-white legs, like indelible stains, and it was a pain to touch.

The moment the mobile phone prompt was successfully sent, I raised my head and thanked God, thanked God for giving me another chance to live, and thanked me for being able to see Cangnan's words at the end, if there was no mobile phone at that time, there was no Cangnan's phone, I don't know if I still have the courage to wait for rescue, waiting for a slim chance of survival.

I slowly clicked on the message, the light of the screen in the dark night was like a torch to warm my heart, those anxious and worried heart-wrenching words moved me, every word made me cry. The blood on my forehead seems to be flowing and slowly drying up, gradually coagulating, is it a thick scab, otherwise why would my head be so heavy, the pain up and down my body is no longer so deep, but it seems that every touch is a dull pain.

Gradually, I closed my eyes, how I wanted to have a good rest, how I wanted to sleep well, but a second before my eyes were about to close, it seemed that the sky suddenly brightened, as if the whole world was clear, as if I had come to heaven, and I, the messenger of darkness, could not open my eyes by the bright light.

It's my illusion, I saw Cangnan's figure, that youthful teenager wearing a white sportswear but stepping on colorful auspicious clouds. He is still so sunny and handsome, he is still so cute and playful, but why is there tears in his eyes, but why can't he stop crying?

His face was getting closer and closer, clearer and clearer, and the tears were becoming more and more crystalline, I reached out to wipe the tears from his face and smiled at him, "Who made you cry, don't cry, I want to cry when you cry." ”

"Fool, why are you so stupid, how can you make yourself look like this." His voice was choked and nasal.

If only you had come, you would be my messenger of light, driving away all the darkness that surrounds me.

Bumps along the way, I only heard the chaotic footsteps, I lay in Cangnan's arms as if I had a good sleep, there was still sweat left by running in his arms, mixed with a faint smell of vanilla, sometimes I feel that the breath on everyone's body is a specific manifestation of a person, just like the smell of oil smoke on my mother's body, the faint smell of tobacco on the North Road, are they so profound and specific, where are they now, are they still waiting for me to go home, I suddenly remembered the sad and light eyes of the North Road, Suddenly, I really want him to be by my side, I have always been accustomed to being sad, after pain and injury, there is always a pair of hands open for me, giving me warmth and comfort.

All the way, Cangnan was babbling and comforting me, he seemed to run very fast, even the wind couldn't catch up, we seemed to have come to the clouds, but there was no blue sky and no marshmallow-like clouds. I didn't even have the strength to answer Cangnan's words, I didn't have the strength to chat with him, soothe his anxious emotions, and tell him that I don't have to be nervous, I'm all right, I'm sure nothing will happen, I'm just a little tired, just a little sleepy, just a little want to cry, just a little dependent on his warm embrace.

I don't know how long it took, in a trance, I saw the figures of Xichen and Haoran running desperately, approaching little by little, their faces were covered with beads of sweat the size of beans, Xichen's face was shining like a protective film, and after approaching, I realized that this was the trace left by the tears after washing. Xichen held my hand and sobbed silently, and he couldn't breathe when he spoke, "Bei Mo...... I'm sorry...... You must ...... Be ...... well."

"I'm fine, you see I'm not dead, don't cry, you tell Beichu not to take revenge." I looked at her red and swollen eye frames and tried my best to squeeze out a bright smile, trying to prove that I was still just as vibrant, but it didn't seem to work, Haoran clenched his fists and said indignantly, "It's really not human, I actually beat you like this, don't worry, I will clean them up for you." ”

"Don't bother anymore, just be okay with everyone." As soon as I heard Haoran's words, I quickly shook my head desperately, how afraid I was that he and Bei Chu would really go to someone else to settle accounts, so that they would never learn, instead of looking at the people I love all over their bodies, I might as well suffer a little in exchange for their peace and quiet, "Anyway, the suffering has passed now, isn't it?" ”

"Don't talk Beimo, let's go to the hospital first, let's go to the hospital first, okay?" Cangnan leaned down and looked at me gently, his eyes were red, sweat wet the bangs on his forehead, tightly attached to his forehead, he looked so embarrassed, so not like his usual temperament, but I didn't have the energy to help him wipe the sweat, I slowly closed my eyes, Cangnan is sorry, just let me be selfish, just let me have a good rest, I really don't want to lie to you, I'm really tired, I really want to find a warm haven to sleep well, and then wake up to see the spring season.

It seems to have a long dream, in the dream we have not experienced life and death, in the dream we are all family harmony and growth, happy and simple, in the dream we are all princesses are growing up under all kinds of pampering, waiting for the prince who married us, waiting for the castle bell to ring.

And my grandmother, she still lovingly pinched my face, her eyes narrowed into a slit with a smile, and praised me vigorously, "Our family is the most sensible, always thinking about others first, and it is everyone's intimate little padded jacket." Then she hugged me into her arms, the veins of the palm were so clear, each palm print represented a different trace of time, it was her story, her hands were getting drier and drier, her pace was getting slower and slower, she had to stop for a while when we walked on the road, she called us behind her, "Beimo, don't go so fast, grandma can't catch up." ”

So I turned around and wanted to run over to help my grandmother, but I ran and ran, but I couldn't run to my grandmother's side, she was always separated from me by a distance, a distance that I couldn't cross even if I tried my best, farther and farther, her smile was engraved on her face, and the deep wrinkles on her face slowly smoothed out, and she slowly turned into a painting, hanging on the wall and hanging on the grave on my heart.

When I was crying in front of the grave, Cangnan came over, he quietly sat next to me, quietly watched me cry, and then paused and said sincerely, "Don't be sad at the end of the north, I want to cry when you are sad, I have never seen my grandmother, and I don't know what she looks like." ”

His sad face, with a slight regret, froze in my dreams and disappeared into the darkness. I gradually opened my eyes and looked at everything in front of me, at the real world.