Chapter 20 May You Suffer Less When You Are Obsessed May You Wake Up to the Fact that Things Are People

What is the focus of life, is it just what I do every day, the people who accompany me every day, during that time, the focus of my life has been completely transformed into Cangnan and Xichen's body, every day with friends as companions, there is the person who misses the heart, everything seems to be coming as scheduled, I also began to stay outside as soon as I came home from school, and I began to like to invite three or two friends to play around, and gradually no longer dare to speak and dare not try, and gradually became cheerful, and gradually found my own beauty, no longer afraid of other people's eyes, No longer be afraid of what others say.

Every time I go home, I often hear my mother say, you are growing up and slowly not at home, the former lively home always feels strangely lonely, just me and your father are busy going back and forth with some noise.

I always feel very embarrassed when I hear these words, and I feel that I am really unfilial, but it is already common for Beichu not to go home, and I don't go home because of the appearance of Cangnan, but what about North Road? Why did North Road start lingering outside?

I looked at my mother who was sitting on a chair knitting a sweater, her hair was tied low on her shoulders, the white light shone in the corner of her eyes, her eyelashes trembled slightly and the wrinkles next to her were so obvious, I walked over and wrapped her neck around her warm shoulder, I didn't know what to say for a while, she still had a faint smell of oil smoke, and the family's business was a little better than before, probably because the more time passed, the greater the reputation and the more unique the flavor of the meal, although Yin Taoze also followed her to help with the dots, he was responsible for cooking, Mom is in charge of the fans under the following article, it sounds like it is not as tired and busy as before, but our growth has also made the burden of the family heavier, coupled with accidents again and again, although every day is very busy, but can only barely maintain the family's livelihood, not to say how much money can be made, but the passage of time also makes this woman who was in her prime clamoring to dislike bad business to accept the arrangement of fate, learn to accept the gift of fate, learn to be happy with destiny, as long as the health and happiness of the family is her greatest happiness, She said she didn't dare to ask for anything else.

That day I sat on the roof and looked at the starry sky, I held my cheeks and recalled the night a few years ago, we also sat in a row on the roof and watched the stars talk about some whimsical things, and occasionally I would hold the lollipop that my mother bought for us, which was the sweetest lollipop, except for the sweetness, there was no taste at all, but I still liked it, but the north road always disliked it and said it was not delicious and stuffed it into my pocket. At that time, we always liked to ask Beilu to tell us stories, but most of the stories on Beilu were well-known fairy tales such as Snow White or Cinderella, and then as soon as Beichu heard the beginning, he couldn't help but run to Beilu and knock his head helplessly, "Yin Beilu, are you an elm head?" It's always these old-fashioned stories that you won't be able to marry a wife in the future. ”

Then Hao Ran would coax Beichu to tell a story, but Beichu also didn't know anything about reading, so we had to give up and tell interesting stories about our class, Beichu always happily laughed at the little boy who was sitting quietly behind her, and always told us the details of bullying him, and we were amazed to hear it, applauding and marveling at Beichu's courage.

When I was a child, I didn't understand what the concept of a goddess was, but in my psychological North Chu was the girl I admired the most, she could do anything she liked, she could not hand in her homework when she didn't want to, she could sleep when she was bored in class, she really couldn't sleep and go out to breathe, she could not write a word at all during the exam, even if she was called by the teacher, even if she saw the teacher blowing her beard and staring at her, she didn't care, Even if Yin Taoze is often called to school to perform a bitter love scene, it can't stop her from thinking like this next time.

Beichu seems to be like that, and he will definitely do what he wants to do, and his mother always says that Beichu just doesn't hit the south wall and doesn't look back, but Beichu always retorts vaguely with braised pork in his mouth, "Even if I hit the south wall, I won't necessarily turn back, maybe I'll be addicted." ”

When did we all start to have our own wider world, meet more people and discover more wonderful things, forget the people at home, forget the laughter at home, forget to share the joys and sorrows of the day with our family, the time of each day seems to be so rushed, and it seems to be late at night when we stop every day.

My mother didn't know when she walked up to me and kindly touched my head and said, "I really can't think about it, in the blink of an eye, you are all so old, a few years ago you were just sitting here chattering about some strange children, and now you have grown into fifteen or sixteen-year-old girls, and my family is also a slim girl at the end of the north." ”

She stroked my hair, and after a while, a gust of wind blew and lifted her collar and said, "People are always more afraid of the cold when they get old, you should go back to the house early, this kid on the north road has been very busy with homework recently, and has not come back yet." ”

"What is he busy with, it feels like he is missing every day." Curious, I asked my mother if he was hiding a secret from us.

"I said I participated in an Olympiad class, but I'm not worried about him, it's mainly your sister, alas." She sighed and walked downstairs, I don't know what she was talking about along the way, I looked at her slightly hunched back, the wind blowing away her freshly washed hair, just like the hair she had worn as a girl.

When I looked back again, I saw a tall figure walking under the street lamp, the bag on his back still looked so heavy, and he was moving forward with concentration step by step, as if everything around him had nothing to do with him. When did North Road grow so tall? In my casual moment, he has grown into the handsome appearance he should be, no wonder Beichu always has a lot of rivals in love, so she has to strike first.

"North Road, come up here, I'm on the roof!" I waved my hand and shouted loudly to the north of the road, and the silence around me accentuated the decibel level of my voice. Beilu heard my voice and raised his head and smiled brightly at me, as if he had come by time machine under the yellowish street lamp, coming from the future world. Although his smile is separated by two floors, although it is separated by a road, it is still so vivid, so bright, like a spring breeze and summer rain, like this sky full of stars shining.

Many years later, Beilu became steady, elegant and meticulous, but no matter what he became in the end, that bright smile like the wind has always been preserved in my mind, and I can't delete it.

Within five minutes, Beilu walked up to the roof and sat next to me, smiling happily and teasing me, "Oh, today's happy girl from Beimo didn't go on a date and came back so early?" ”

"Because I miss you, I want to go home to accompany you," I replied with a smile, deliberately speaking very sensational, but Beilu is a person who knows me so well, naturally he won't believe that I will be such a delicate and squeamish person on a whim, and he glanced at me and said in disbelief at all, "It must be Cangnan who has something to do today and is not free to accompany you, right?" ”

"You are really a fairy on the north road, how can nothing escape your eyes." I couldn't help but exclaim, Cangnan's father came to see him today, so he had to stay at home with his father and couldn't come out, so I was embarrassed to disturb Xichen and had to go home in disgrace.

His eyes dimmed for a moment, and then it seemed like it was just my delusion. I sat on the roof with Beilu and talked about some messy gossip like before, and talked about some unattainable wishes for the future as before, and I asked Beilu if he still wanted to go far, and he said that he wanted to wander the world but also wanted to return. Beilu said that maybe the outside world is wonderful, but there will be no warmer place in his heart than this town. At that time, I only thought that this was a fallacy that the North Road had not yet seen the beautiful world outside, and it was only later that I realized how true and true these words were.

I share every moment of Cangnan with Beilu, share the childishness, share the warmth and simplicity of Cangnan, share all the things with Cangnan, Beilu listens and blesses me, and then jokes with me, imagining a beautiful scene for me in the future, I like to chat with Beilu, I like to see him smile softly and approve, I like to tell him all the things in his heart, whether it is good or bad, and then I heard others say that this is probably the most comfortable state between people.

The north road is still the north road, always standing in front of me like that, appearing when I need it, he said that no matter what the future looks like, no matter how far Cangnan and I will go smoothly or stumble, we must remember that there is a solid backing behind me, which is my eternal harbor.

Looking at his determined eyes, I thought of Beichu, who was desperate to see death as home. Because of the escape of the North Road, Bei Chu was almost crazy, she kept going out for three days and two ends, and then called the North Road to pick her up, she was happy to make trouble for herself and called the North Road to clean up the mess for her, in fact, she said that it was not her original intention, as long as the North Road told her to take good care of her, and said to her that I don't like the way you look, she could immediately throw away all the vanity and all the troubled life, but the North Road never said it, just silently cleaned up the mess for her. Beilu said he didn't believe that Beichu would really give up that kind of life.

Bei Lu said that Bei Chu is the kind of person who can't give up easily, and he said that if you think about her avenging me, you can imagine. What he said was that shortly after he was injured, Bei Chu went home one day in high spirits and called me and Beilu together, and then mysteriously told us that she finally avenged Beilu, and the person who hurt Beilu himself was also a little life, we were all shocked, I don't know what Bei Chu meant, Bei Chu told us the whole thing, she said that she called a group of sisters to find a gang of thugs to follow the bar girl and her boyfriend for three days, and finally found a wonderful chance to get off the phone, stabbed them in the thigh a few times, Although it is not in an important part, it is estimated that it is enough for them to suffer for a while.

Beichu was very happy that day, and he didn't dislike his mother's nagging all night.

If Bei Lu really agrees to be with Bei Chu, will Bei Chu become a well-behaved girl, will he go to class and study in a proper manner, listen carefully to the class and take the exam? We haven't been able to verify this question, but when we all thought that the feud between the bar girl and Beichu was over, we didn't expect her to find us again, but she couldn't find Beichu, who had disappeared all day, but found me through several inquiries.

It was Friday, Haoran had a basketball game, we promised to cheer him on, so after class, he and Xichen went to the nearby basketball hall in advance to prepare, saying that if Xichen accompanied him, he would be more motivated, and took Xichen away in advance, so I packed my schoolbag after doing my homework for a while and planned to find Cangnan, it was at that time that the mobile phone rang, I received a text message from Haoran, he said that his sneakers were broken, and he used to put a pair of sneakers in the utility room on the top floor, let me help him bring them over, The top floor is a small place that the four of us often go to, and they used to practice skateboarding on it, so I didn't think much about it, just lamented that this kid was too poorly prepared, and then shook my head and climbed up to the top floor.

When I walked to the top floor, there were a few girls standing on it smoking, and the smoke was everywhere, I looked at it and didn't make a sound, and then pushed open the door of the utility room, but it was dark inside, full of abandoned tables and chairs, I couldn't see where Haoran's shoes were so I had to lie down to look for them, just as I was looking for it, I was kicked the waist, I screamed loudly and turned my head to look at the girls who were still smoking in a row behind me.

"You're Yin Beichu's slutty sister, she looks quite delicate, not like your sister at all," the girl in the middle spit out the cigarette butt in her mouth, grabbed my collar viciously and pinched my face, laughed and continued, "Do you know that your sister almost crippled my boyfriend?" So don't stare at me with your big watery eyes, and don't blame me for being ruthless, who told your sister that crazy girl to be missing all day? If you want to blame it, blame you for having such a scourge sister! ”|

"You almost killed Beilu first, and Beichu was forced by you at all." I stared into her eyes and said word by word. Her fingernails were painted with crimson nail polish, her black hair was draped over her shoulders, and her eyes were painted with heavy smoky makeup, like Mei Chaofeng on TV, but she was tall and tall, wearing black high heels of more than ten centimeters, she listened to me and raised her foot and kicked me in the stomach fiercely, I felt that all my internal organs were cracked, rolling, I fell to the ground with my buttocks, and deep colic came from my abdomen one after another, I desperately covered my stomach and held my breath, and I knew in my heart that this time it was probably more auspicious.

As I expected, within a minute, the woman said to the person next to her, "Looking at the hard mouth, I guess it's the same as her sister, call me first." Then he waved.

Before I could react, the group of girls approached step by step, some grabbed my hair and tore it, some pinched my face and slapped me one by one, the rhythm was clear and the sound was crisp, some raised their feet and kicked me violently, my eyes were in chaos, I only felt that my head was about to bombard, my whole body was full of dense pain, and my face had already lost my intuition and was just hot.

Even though I struggled with all my might, it was still useless, would I be beaten to death like this? But I haven't had time to say goodbye yet.

My whole body seemed to have a convulsion, I don't know how long it would take for this pain, but I tried to divert my attention in order to relieve myself a little bit, maybe like it was said on TV, maybe it would be better to think about something nice when you were about to cry when you were on the verge of breaking down.

If my pain and my body injury can be exchanged for Beichu's peace and sound, then I think all this is worth it, at least Beichu's injury can be avoided, and Beilu's guilt can be spared, if this matter can be calmed down, then let her vent her anger, let everything return to peace, I am willing to resist the pain and suffering at this moment.

Thinking of this, my heart seems to be really a little less complaining, a little less fluctuating, a little less hate, I remember when Beichu pulled the corner of my mother's clothes for me, she cried and said, Mom, don't beat Bei Mo to death, don't beat her. "So from that time on, I was willing to resist all the wind and rain for this girl, for this sister who has bullied me since I was a child but also protected me, as long as I can make her unscathed, even if it makes me feel painful.

The mobile phone in my pocket rang, I thought about taking out my phone, but my hand was imprisoned by two women and I couldn't move, I remembered that I said to Cangnan that I would go to watch Haoran's basketball game together later, I remembered that Cangnan said that he wanted to surprise me, I remembered Cangnan's smile and remembered his excited face, would he be very anxious if he didn't see me in the classroom, and would he be flustered when he saw that I didn't answer the phone? How I wanted to tell him that everything was okay and let him go to the basketball game first, but how much I wanted to shout at him and tell him that I was really not good at all, that I was really going to die, that I was really going to be unable to survive, that every minute was an ordeal.

Not long ago, Cangnan celebrated his birthday together, and we were still laughing at that time, he grabbed a handful of cakes and wiped them on my face, so I instantly became a big flower face, so I ran after him unceremoniously, and then all of us undoubtedly became big flower cats, but even so, Cangnan still said, "Bei Mo you are more cute than before, all your looks are so cute." ”

"Really? Then I'll make you feel even cuter! I grabbed the cake next to me and wiped it on him, and he was all on his ass.

"Hahaha, now it's really a big white ass!" The people around were heckling.