Chapter Twenty-Five: Time Falls into the Abyss of the Deep Sea Time flees with waiting

Cangnan said that his parents were divorced, and he had to accept his father's instructions to go back to study, and I asked him with tears in my eyes, "Then will you come back?" Are you going to never come back? Aren't we going to see each other again? ”

"Beimo, you don't want to be like this, I'm just afraid to see you cry so I have the courage to tell you until now, you are also very reluctant to you, reluctant to everyone, but I can't stay here forever," Cangnan wiped away my tears in a panic and explained desperately, "I'm sorry Beimo, I know it's me who is not good, I know that you are so sad but I still have to leave you." ”

"Fool, how could we not meet, you have to accompany me for the rest of your life," Cang Nan rubbed my hair and smiled to comfort me, "We can meet in two years, we can be admitted to the same university, and there will be nothing to stop us at that time, so you must study hard, you know?" ”

We agreed to meet again at the university gate in the future, so we all have to work hard because you are no longer alone.

On the morning of Cangnan's departure, a group of us who originally said that they would not send him off still couldn't help but skip class early in the morning and came to the train station. Didn't you promise me to study hard? I actually skipped class again. ”

"But you know, even if you tie me up in the classroom now, I won't listen to it, so start tomorrow, I will study hard from tomorrow, and I will be motivated like a fighter jet when I think of you." I said to him mischievously, but my heart was inevitably sad, and tears accidentally dripped in the blink of an eye.

It was the first person I had taken on the train in more than a decade, and I knew that from that day on he was the one I was going to be looking for on the train.

Beimo, you must take good care of yourself, you must think about me when you are sad, if you are unhappy, then I will be even sadder.

Cangnan, in the days when I go back, I hope you will no longer continue to be lonely, I hope you will have a partner on the road, have true love in your heart, and live calmly and mightily.

Cangnan left my world like this, and I will eventually tell myself to learn to grow up and learn to deal with life with a smile in the midst of people coming and going.

I grabbed Bei Chu's hands tightly, for fear that she would make a little mistake, I couldn't help crying the moment I walked out of the police station, the police's words just now seemed to be still in my ears, he said that Bei Chu was found in the police station by himself, at that time Bei Chu was so hungry that he was holding a worn-out train ticket in his hand, he said that his intuition told her that Bei Chu must have escaped in a hurry, and the address of the train ticket was Anhui, which was far away, but Bei Chu has been reluctant to tell the whole incident, and where she came from and how she came here, She was always reluctant to explain, but she kept saying that I want to find Yin Beilu, I want to find Yin Beimo, they must be here, you can help me find them, okay.

For Beichu's silence, the police finally had no choice but to investigate the name of Beilu, but they didn't expect to really find the registration information of Beilu's mobile phone number on the phone, so they hurriedly called Beilu.

I don't know if she escaped from the MLM organization, you better calm her emotions and contact us as soon as possible if you have any information. When the police sent us out, he gave us a deep instruction to the North Road, and his voice was as low as possible, but I still heard it when I stood in front of the North Road, and when I heard the word "pyramid scheme", my heart was suddenly shocked, where did Bei Chu come from, did she really escape from the tiger's mouth as the police expected? I covered my mouth and tried desperately to suppress my shock.

I looked at Bei Lu deeply, and the shock in his eyes was as clear as mine, but we looked at the scarred Bei Chu, looked at the Bei Chu who didn't say a word, and looked at the decadent Bei Chu, no one dared to talk more, lest saying a word more would be the trigger for her sad past.

After getting in the car, none of us spoke, opened our mouths several times but didn't know what to say, Cangnan wanted to break the deadlock on the side, pretending to be relaxed and said, "It's good to come back, you see what you all look like, this is the time to be happy." ”

"Yes, we should be happy, our dear Beichu has finally returned, shouldn't we celebrate haha." I echoed Cangnan's words, trying to break the cold tense air, patting my chest and smiling at everyone, Xichen seemed to have finally come back to his senses and said with a smile, "Sister Beichu, we missed you when you were away, and we look forward to your return every day, without you we have no motivation." ”

"Really? Are you happy when I'm back? But I'm not the big sister who led you on a journey to the north and south, and I'm not even as good as any of you. Bei Chu looked at the neon on the street outside the car window, and said with an expressionless face, her eyes were deep, and there was a darkness that I couldn't understand spreading, Bei Chu had never said this kind of thing before, she was the master in her world, she was the biggest person, she was the eldest sister who could hold up the sky, but now Bei Chu was so inferior, looking down on herself like that, her words even made everyone unable to say the next sentence, so that everyone was speechless, and she didn't know how to comfort, But it doesn't seem to be comforting.

"Beichu, don't say that, you're still young, you're only in your twenties, and you still have a long way to go," Beilu turned back to Beichu and continued guiltily, "Don't worry, you can do what you want to do in the future, you can definitely turn back to that beautiful Beichu, and we will all help you." ”

"Yes, I'm only in my twenties, why do I feel like I've been living a lifetime for so long, like I've walked the road of a lifetime," Bei Chu turned his head and smiled blankly at North Road, that smile was full of helplessness, it was empathy that none of us could do, and all understanding and tolerance couldn't do it after all, after all, those sufferings didn't happen to us, after all, the scars on our bodies were not imprinted on our skin, after all, the pain in our hearts was not left in our minds, And who can say that they can empathize? Who can tell her how you feel, and I know all your pain? That must not be true, it must have been just to comfort this scarred woman.

"Do you know that I was pretty? But why don't you like me? But I became like this to help me? Bei Chu glanced at the North Road contemptuously, as if it was just a moment and returned to the same sad look as always, her words and sentences were deeply rooted in the hearts of the people, all of us were a spirit, such a cold tone, it seemed to be cold to the bone marrow, so profound, the body shook violently, all of us fell forward, it turned out that our body almost hit the big truck in front, only a few centimeters apart, a sudden brake on all the North Road, so that everyone gasped.

I don't know if it's because of the rear-end collision just now, or because of Bei Chu's cold words just now, Beilu's face was frightened and drenched in cold sweat. He hurriedly wiped the sweat from his forehead and took a deep breath.

"Maybe this is fate, and it won't work if you don't accept it." Bei Chu didn't seem to be taken away by the bump just now, her sad and melancholy thoughts were still being broken by herself, her words were occasionally heard clearly, occasionally vague, but her tone was confused, like a lost child stretching out her hands in the sea of people but quickly retracting in fear.

And we don't want to hold on to Bei Chu's hands tightly, so as to save her from being lonely for a lifetime and give her a lifetime of sunshine, but we are afraid of being beaten back by her, so the palm of the hand stretched out trembles, and I am afraid in my heart.

Maybe you are the one who has lost your way in the group over the years, but it is we who are lost in the vast sea of people.

When we went back, it was already the dead of night, originally I wanted to stay by Beichu's side, but Cangnan said that you are tired enough, and it is difficult for you to accept these things for a while, and there is Xichen by your side, so it is still recommended that we go back to be quiet, Beilu also patted me on the shoulder and said with a smile, "Yes, you will go back first at the end of the north, I am tired for a day today, are you still not at ease with me taking care of Beichu?" ”

Bei Chu next to him stared at us deadly, and said with a smile, "Bei Mo, you go back and rest, I'm very good here, you see that Bei Lu is still thinking about you like this, it's really happy, how can you not appreciate it?" ”

Bei Chu's words always give people a very strange feeling, I can't say what's wrong, but I can't tell whether her words are joking or serious, I can't guess her inner thoughts, from what I said in the car to what I said now, it hurts my heart, sad that I can't walk into Bei Chu's heart, and I am annoyed that I can't comfort Bei Chu's distorted heart.

Xichen looked at me deeply, and whispered close to my ear and said, "Bei Mo, I think we should go back first today, and let Sister Bei Chu have a good rest." ”

Sister Qu Yan on the side came out at the right time, her eyes were sparkling like a wave of autumn water, slightly red and swollen, but she couldn't distinguish it if she didn't look carefully, she glanced at Beilu, as if she didn't mean it and seemed to have ulterior motives, she took my hand and said gently, "Beimo, you see how tired you are and you still refuse to go back to rest, I can take care of it here." ”

So Cangnan sent us back, walking on the street where there were few people in the lonely Liao, a cold wind blew, I quickly subconsciously pulled up the collar, eager to retract my head deeply, Cangnan took off his coat and wrapped it in me, and blamed me lovingly, "Look at you, I told you to wear more clothes and come out, you still say it's okay, now it's freezing, right?" ”

"Cangnan, I don't want to hide it from you, I'm really sad, I really can't accept such a Beichu, I really can't believe that all this is true." I hugged Cangnan tightly, howling and crying in his solid arms, in order not to make Beichu uncomfortable, I tried my best to hold back the tears that wanted to rush all the way back from the police station, and tried my best to make myself look happy, but now I heard Cangnan's gentle tone, and now I can't see Beichu's resentful eyes, so I dare to let go of my heart and cry.

"It's okay, it's okay, she's only just come back like this, and it'll be fine after a while, so we have to cheer her up and encourage her, right?" Cangnan gently patted my back with a sense of rhythm and comforted me softly, "I know it's hard for you to accept it for a while, sleep well when you go back, leave everything to think about tomorrow, leave it to me to help you want to know?" ”

Xichen also couldn't help crying with me on the side, she choked up and said, "Bei Mo, don't cry, I'm also very uncomfortable to see a completely different Sister Bei Chu, but at least she is still alive, she is still alive and everything will be fine." ”

Yes, today is the day when Beichu comes back, how can I cry, I should be happy. I wiped away the tears on my face, tried to squeeze out a smile and said, "Don't worry, I'm fine, Beichu will definitely be able to return to the way she was before, she will definitely be able to regroup, I won't give up." ”

Then I took Xichen in one hand and Cangnan in the other and said to them sincerely, "Thank you, thank you for always being with them." ”

The shadows of the three of us under the street lamp were stretched very long, but after taking a few steps forward, we changed our appearance, I don't know if Bei Chu also had a shadow of companionship under the street lamp in those days, whether she would not be lonely, whether she was not only a black shadow with her beyond recognition.

In fact, she is right, I am so lucky, so all her words can be understood, but I hope that one day she can find herself still cute and sigh for her luck.

When I was very young, the town had just been installed with street lights, and Bei Chu and I happily walked under the street lamps in front of the door, watching our shadows change back and forth, and then Bei Chu pointed to my shadow and said, "Bei Mo, you see how short and small your shadow is, so why don't you hurry up and eat more and grow taller, otherwise you will become a dwarf like your shadow haha." ”

Look how tall my shadow is, it's as tall as your two, I'm the tallest person in the world, the most beautiful person in the shadow.

At that time, even if she was alone, she could cheer, even if no one echoed her point of view, she would firmly believe that she was right, even if the whole world scolded her, she would refute mercilessly, just like when she was a child, she always thought that she was the tallest person in the world, and her shadow was the most beautiful person in the world, although she could dance and praise herself constantly when she looked at the black shadow, she has always stayed in the footprints of her childhood, and has always stayed in the picture of growth.

Back then, when the sun was not shining, the North Beginning would create a shining sun for himself, but now the North Beginning is still bloodless and listless even though the scorching sun hits his body.

Hao Ran called me that night as if telepathically, and he was very excited to hear that Bei Chu was back, and then said as easily as if he had unloaded a big stone, "I'm finally back, and I knew she would definitely come back." ”

You see, how much we miss you, we look forward to it every day, and we have been living in waiting for your departure. So, you have to cheer up, you have to be happy.

Haoran told me about what happened to him over there, and he said, "Beimo, we have been friends for many years, and I don't want to hide it from you, in fact, I'm not happy here at all, I've been having a bad time, I had a big fight with my boss a few days ago, and now I'm back to looking for a job, alas." ”

"If you're having a bad time, come and join us, although we don't have any money, but here are your relatives." I listened to Haoran's sad words, his words were full of disappointment with reality, at the beginning, with his courage, he ended up hitting his head and bleeding, he was still complaining to me about the unsatisfactory life, telling me about the hardships of the past two years, and then paused and asked me, "That, Xichen, is she okay?" ”

I looked at Xichen who was asleep next to me, her sleep was peaceful and quiet, like a sleeping beauty who didn't know anything about the world, remembering the picture of her and Wu Tianyi kissing and hugging today, I replied softly, "She's fine," and then hesitated for a moment and still didn't say anything about Xichen and Tianyi, maybe I don't know the best choice to make Haoran worse.

"That's good, it's good that she's doing well," Haoran said in a whisper, "It's good that she didn't come out with me to suffer at the beginning, it seems that my choice was right, and it didn't affect her in the end." ”

Haoran's last laugh was frozen in my mind, he had always laughed out loud before, and he had never pretended to laugh so deliberately, so lonely and forbearant laughter was distressing to listen to.

What have we all been going through all these years, all of us have been transformed by reality, and we are all transforming into an unknown soul?

That night was the quietest and heaviest night since the start of our dormitory, and everyone seemed to have their own agendas, and they had no time to care about the feelings of others or manage the grief of others.

Even Cai Qiang, who has the loudest voice on weekdays, is the same, and later I learned that when they came back first that day, Cai Qiang and He Xiaoxiao had a big fight, according to Ersi, this time it seems to be different from all previous quarrels, this time it seems to be really unhappy, Ersi said that Cai Qiang's face was red at that time, and even she was shocked, I don't know whether to persuade or ignore it like before.

And the reason for the quarrel is also very strange, I heard that He Xiaoxiao met an acquaintance halfway through, that is, a beautiful girl, and then the two talked very happily, and even agreed to go to play together tomorrow, Cai Qiang on the side has been staring at He Xiaoxiao, and after the girl left, he teased He Xiaoxiao sourly, "Ouch, congratulations to our most beautiful young lady for finding true love, haha, it seems that you can finally end your single life." ”