"Uncle, may I ask if heaven is to the left or to the right?" Just when I was fascinated by this inexplicable warmth and walked forward in confusion, a little boy's childish voice suddenly appeared in front of me.

I stopped and looked at the little boy in front of me, it should be a child of about five or six years old, very delicate, his eyes were also very clear, he was dressed in white clothes, spotless, and even there was a faint halo on his body, which was brighter than the sun, and suddenly, I felt that the sky seemed to be overcast, and some fog was also faintly floating around the two of us.

"Paradise? My uncle hasn't been there either, and if there really is a paradise, my uncle wants to see it too. Listening to his words, I suddenly remembered those things that had happened recently, and my heart was sour, and I was inexplicably a little sad, and said in a distracted manner.

"You don't know, I've been walking for many, many days, I'm so tired, I can't walk, and one shoe has fallen off, grandma is still waiting for me in heaven, I want to find another shoe, this pair of shoes was made for me by my grandma, I don't want to disappoint grandma in heaven, I lost one of the shoes she made for me, but unfortunately I can't find my shoes, and I don't know the direction if I want to go to heaven." The little boy sat down in disappointment, rubbing his legs, his eyes looking into the distance as if he were thinking, and I saw that one of his feet was bare, and the other was rotten, and it seemed that he had really been walking for a long time.

"My father is in heaven too, and I miss him too, I miss him very much, I really miss him." I sat down and looked in the direction of his gaze, and in the deep fog, the fog was constantly churning, and it also turned up my most heartbreaking memories, and my mouth was also muttering in pieces.

"Really? Then let's go together, I'm scared alone, and I'm so lonely, uncle, you go with me to find it, I know where it is, it's there, but I don't know if it's left or right, maybe my shoes are on the road ahead, if I don't go back, grandma should be in a hurry, I hear grandma calling me. The little boy said with some surprise, and pointed in a direction.

"You...... Well, uncle goes with you. I suddenly came to my senses, looked at the little boy with some surprise, and just wanted to refuse him, let him go home obediently, and wanted to tell him that heaven was not a place he should go to at his age, and he still had a happy and beautiful future, but seeing his eyes so innocent and expectant, my words came to my mouth and did not come out, I really couldn't bear to refuse him, I didn't know why I agreed to him, maybe it was just a little unbearable, maybe I wanted him to take me there who was also lost, and then coax him back.

"Oh! Great! I've got company! Uncle, just follow me, let's go! The little boy jumped up with joy, and even the only shoe he had fell off, but he didn't bother to pick it up, so he jumped up and ran forward, and I got up quickly, picked up his shoe, and chased after it. Along the way, looking at his cheerful back, I also remembered the happiest childhood when I was his age, my father took me to go boating, bought me new clothes, and ate delicious snacks with me, all the memories turned into the happiest smile on the corner of my mouth.

But soon my heart sank again, and the experience of growing up flashed in my mind one by one, it seemed that the experience was very rich, and I got a lot of things that ordinary people did not get, and I was drunk every day, but at this moment, I felt that I had lost too much, in those most prosperous years, I first lost my dearest, and then I lost my loved one, and then I also lost myself, step by step towards the abyss, lost farther and farther, as if in this fog, every step, it seems to be a little closer to hope, But in fact, it is becoming more and more desperate, so desperate that there is no direction.

"Uncle, why did you go to heaven?" When I finally caught up with the little boy, he asked earnestly as he walked.

"Because my uncle has experienced a lot of things, I thought I got what I wanted the most, but in the end I found that the things I cared about and wanted the most were actually by my side before, but unfortunately when I understood, they were all lost forever, just like going to another world, so my uncle also wanted to go to heaven to see, whether he could find the ones he once cared about the most but were ignored, and keep them forever, if I found them this time, I should never lose them again." I said nostalgically, and at the end there was an unmistakable firmness.

"Uncle, is heaven beautiful?"

"It should be beautiful, right?"

"Can I come back if I go to heaven?"

"Probably not, at least my uncle hasn't seen anyone who has come back from heaven, by the way, why do you want to go to heaven?"

"Because Mom hasn't come back for a long time, Dad either doesn't come back, or he comes back drunk, I asked his mother what it was, and he beat me, and said that Mom didn't want us anymore, that Mom ran away with a bad man! Uncle, why doesn't Mom want me and Dad anymore? I really miss the days when my mother is here, I like the days when my mother is here, my father never drinks and beats me, and now they don't want me, if my grandmother is here, they will definitely want me, I don't like this home, I miss my grandmother, I really want it. ”

"......" little boy's words, let me be speechless for a while, I don't know how to answer, why my mother doesn't want him, I myself is because my ex-wife went with someone else, I have become a lonely person now, I can understand his father's mood at this time, but I am still a little disgusted by him beating the child, the child is innocent, fortunately I have no children with my ex-wife, otherwise my child will live in a family without maternal love, even if I am good to the child, he will always leave a shadow in his heart, a family without maternal love, The flower of happiness in the child's heart will gradually wither.

As for why I suddenly have the idea of going to heaven, I can't say clearly, it may be affected by the boy's mood, or it may be extremely sad, and it is not excluded that alcohol is doing the trick, but I suddenly feel that many things in this world have been seen through, and even seen through, and I am tired of everything from the bottom of my heart, and I feel that I have nothing to love, every day is like the walking dead, without any pursuit, without any desire, and without any hope, what I really care about seems to be no longer in this world, but in this world, Rather than living for the sake of the body, it is better to try to change the world, maybe the body is gone, but it is a rebirth of the soul, but I also have a trace of reluctance in the dark, and this reluctance, let me also hesitate, suddenly I feel very ridiculous, like a dream, but I don't know if there is a day to wake up.

"Uncle, here, there's no road, I don't know if it's left or right, you know?" Just as I was in a state of emotion, the little boy stopped in one of the foggy places, pointed to me left and right, and said. I retracted my thoughts and looked around, except that there was a road behind us, the front was indeed blocked by a thick fog, and there was a road on the left and right sides, I took a closer look at the road on both sides, and found that the road on the right led far away, and even had the illusion that I could go all the way to the sky, but the road on the left was interrupted after not going far, and beyond that was the endless abyss, because the little boy was not tall, so from his perspective I could not see the difference between the two roads, in his eyes the two roads were the same, So he couldn't make a choice.

So I reasoned that the left side should be a dead end, and the right side was the road to heaven, I squatted down, looked at the little boy and said seriously: "Well, uncle can't see that direction, let's play a game, one person walks in one direction, if anyone finds that there is no road ahead, turn back, go back to this intersection and wait for the other party to come back, if you can't wait for each other to count to a hundred, go home, and after you go back, don't come here again, okay?" ”

"However, I don't want to go back, I think grandma, I'm afraid that my father will beat me again and say that he doesn't want me, even if I go back, will my mother come back? Does Mom still want me? The little boy said with great fear and frustration. "If you go back, your parents will want you, and they will never beat you and scold you again, uncle promises, they will love you very much, you still have a very bright future, grandma will be able to see you when you are old in the future, good, after doing this game, go home obediently." I stared into the little boy's eyes and said seriously.

"Okay, I listen to my uncle, if I don't come back, uncle, you have to go home, if you see my parents, tell them that I actually love them very much, and I am very reluctant to them, but unfortunately if I see grandma, I will never come back, let them go to see grandma often, and they can see me." The little boy hesitated, stared into my eyes, and said seriously.

"Good! Let's pull the hook, whoever talks doesn't count, it's a little turtle! I stretched out the smallest thumb of my right hand, bent slightly, he also stretched out his right hand, bent the little thumb like me, and pulled it tightly with me, and at the moment when the little boy said that he would never come back, I suddenly understood what the reluctance in my heart was, it was an unfinished love, even if it went to heaven, this love will always exist.

"Which way am I going? Uncle. "You go to the left, uncle to the right, remember, come back when there is no way, you just shout uncle, I will come back too, we will finish this game, and we will go home together, okay?" I suddenly had an epiphany, and I made a decision in my heart, and pointed to the left and said to him.

"Okay uncle, we'll see you later!"

"See you later!" Then, the two of us went in one direction, back to back, he went to the left, and I went to the right, at this moment, it no longer matters whether heaven is left or right, in my heart, it is just a game, after doing this game, everyone can let go of everything in their hearts, go home, everything is a new beginning.

When I walked out of a distance, I suddenly found that I was still holding the little boy's shoes in my hand, so, I stopped, turned around and wanted to go back, I didn't want to do this game anymore, I just wanted to take the little boy home, I guess his parents should be in a hurry, but when I turned around, I found that I couldn't go forward at all, it turned out that this was a road of no return, I called the little boy loudly, far away I saw that the little boy had come to the broken intersection, turned around and was about to go back, just like me, was blocked by an invisible push, Under the effect of the thrust, the two of us were still involuntarily falling backwards.

I watched the little boy fall into the abyss by the thrust, and I was crazy and wanted to rush over to save the little boy, but I was pushed back by the thrust, and then, I saw the little boy slowly rising up again, waving to me while rising, I seemed to hear him shouting to me: "Uncle, I have found my way to heaven, you see, grandma is coming to pick me up, don't wait for me, you go home, help me hand over my shoes to my parents, tell them, I will miss them, remember to let them go to see grandma often, You'll be able to see me! Grandma, grandma, I'm here! ”

I waved my hands desperately forward, trying to pull the little boy back, I saw a kind old man waiting for the little boy in the sky, she looked at me, and said: "Young man, you have done your best, this is his life, and it is also the will of God, the road to heaven can be chosen, but there is no way back, you have to accept the consequences when you go, you remember to promise him, live well." After that, they flew hand in hand towards the sun, and as the fog dissipated, and I gradually lost all consciousness, and the moment I lost consciousness, I realized that heaven was actually to the left, and to the right could be reborn.