Chapter 37: An Unspeakable Apology

The moment Master flashed into my body, his voice also came: "Hold on, Master will start to give you a heart now, there may be a little pain in the process, don't hum me." After the heart is opened, the immortal family can stay in your heart, and the fit with you will greatly increase the effect of spellcasting, and at the same time, it can also communicate with your heart, which is a process that every disciple must go through! ”

Master's words made me nervous, and I couldn't believe that there was only a little pain in his mouth. But I had already blown the cow out just now, and the that was pulled out must not be able to sit back, so I gritted my teeth and yelled: "Master, just come!" ”

Master didn't talk nonsense anymore, I only felt that the strength of my whole body was drained for a moment, and then my heart seemed to be grabbed by someone, and the feeling of atrial fibrillation and premature beats made me want to retch. I don't know if you've ever seen an oxygen-deprived carp in the vegetable market, but I'm like this at this time, desperately trying to let my mouth open and close to breathe, but I'm still suffocated by the green tendons. I wanted to give up for a moment, but I found that my consciousness was starting to blur and I couldn't stop.

I don't know how long it took, but just when I couldn't feel my body's presence, a sudden sharp pain pulled my mind back. I felt a pounding in my heart, just as hard as a Magnum bullet. I don't know if it's my delusion or what, but in the dark I heard the sound of "click" glass breaking, and I was in pain that even my brain was not normal, probably this is the feeling of heartbreak.

It's finally over, I thought. I struggled to lift my trembling arms and wipe the tears from the corners of my eyes, not because I was crying in pain, but because the pain was stimulating my tear ducts. It's like tears in the wind, not controlled at all.

Before I could rejoice that the pain was over, there was another "click", and my heart was hit again. And then every few seconds, just after I was taking a breath, the next blow came. I was like a prisoner tied to a target, and the cruel thing was that I was tortured by the executioner with a sniper shot at a time.

The pain was enough to break me down, but I miraculously persevered, I don't know how it compares to the torture of the secret service, but I imagine that the pain of giving birth is probably at this level. I don't know how long it took, but the pain began to wane until somewhere in the heart seemed to be ventilated. I didn't even have the strength to move my fingers, and I curled up in the corner of the bed tremblingly. The clothes were stuck to the body with sweat, and even the sheets were soaked.

I panted for breath, then struggled to move to the side, shrinking into a dry spot. All I have in my head now is one sentence, and that's why does it hurt so much?

"It's okay, I didn't cry and my father called my mother a gentleman. Master, I deliberately made a little heavier today, in order to teach you a lesson, so that you can understand that everything needs to be focused. Your fate is destined to be different from ordinary people, you did something wrong in front of your parents when you were a child, and your parents scolded you at most. If you make a mistake in front of Master and me, Master and I will teach you a lesson. Will everyone get used to you outside in the future? With your determination, you can't stand the temptation at every turn, you can't control your temperament, and your personality is still indecisive. If this kind of character is caught by the enemy, you are a waste in someone's hand. Do you know that people are valuable in self-control? If your heart doesn't move, it won't hurt, and you're still far from being hot in this area! "As soon as Master appeared, he began to educate me, and although he was scolding me, I could feel that he was doing it for my good.

Although my whole body was weak, I nodded slightly. When Master saw my humble appearance, his tone began to soften a little, and he said to me solemnly: "If you can't stand the temptation, you will be easy to fall for tricks, if you can't control your temperament, you will easily be confused, if you are indecisive, you will miss opportunities, and if you are suspicious, you will be distracted." You don't need me to say these things, you understand it, you are not stupid, Master, I don't have to say more. Rest early, and tomorrow Master will let you suffer less. ”

After the Master said these words, he walked towards the statue of the Medicine King and disappeared, leaving me alone to ponder the taste of his words. After a long time, I regained some strength and looked at the wall clock on the wall, it was half past two, this is still an early rest, tomorrow on the first day of school I will be late.

The master was a good talker, and the next process was not as painful as that night, nor was it exaggerated to the extent that he opened one trick in three days. Later, I learned that if Master had really given me that advice, I guess I would have broken my meridians long ago.

Master still feels very sorry for me, and he rests for three days and two days off. I usually play until the second half of the night, so I can only make up for sleep in class because of the severe lack of sleep, and during the two days of rest, I basically skipped class to find Bao'er, and played the role of escort with food, drink and car. In the last semester of my sophomore year of high school, I basically went through this way, for the college entrance examination a year later, I only prepared dice, with ABCD written on four sides and blank on two sides. The number of points I can score depends on how many multiple-choice questions I get right.

I have to sigh that time flies so fast, I feel that my love affair with Bao'er has just begun, but she is about to graduate. In the last few exams, Bao'er's grades were very good, and there should be no pressure to be admitted to her target university. In addition to blessings, I was encouraged, but there seemed to be a little more depression between the two of us, and I understood that it was a reluctance to part soon.

But neither of us dared to bring up this topic, but cherished the time we spent together. I told Bao'er to study hard after Shenyang, don't blame me for taking her badly. She smiled and said to me: "It's okay, when the time comes, if you can't pass the exam, you will come to Shenyang to find your sister, and my sister can support you with a scholarship alone." ”

In fact, it's not that I'm giving up on myself, I'm destined to get out of the horse road, and I feel that I have a specialization in the art industry. Since I'm done with my academic performance, I can't lose the chain in my future professional field, right? In other words, even if I get a Ph.D. from Tsinghua University, what's the use? Is it possible to go to the Chinese Academy of Sciences to dance the gods?

For a whole semester, except for nights and daytime sleep, I spent the rest of the time meditating on various mantra mantras. Hu Botao told me before that if there is no merit, if you want to play the role of the mantra, you have to rely on quantity, and if you recite it 100,000 times, you will start to have effective feelings. Later, I asked my master, and my master said that it was more than that. All mantras and mantras are created by the power of great wishes when Buddhas and Bodhisattvas attain enlightenment, and reciting the scriptures themselves is increasing the path of action.

So I began to chant the mantra frantically, I guess I was one of the wonderful flowers among all the disciples who came out of the horse, and before I could see things and accumulate merits, I had already started to cultivate the Tao first. A few days ago, in order to test my cultivation results, I asked Chang Xiangjiu to bring me down from the mountain an immortal family who had a lower Dao level and had not yet attained the Dao. I recited the six-character mantra at him, but I didn't expect to give him a big shock on the spot. At that time, even Chang Xiangjiu was stunned by me.

I made a slight judgment to myself, and now I just hate that I can't get out of the horse quickly, and let me directly show people things and catch ghosts. Brother, I am simply "empty of dragon slaying skills, but there are no dragons in the deep pool".

Someone is going to ask me, is it true that every person who recites the mantra has an effect after reciting it 100,000 times. The answer is yes, there is. However, you haven't opened your eyes, and you can't attack except to protect yourself······

When I was busy, the final exam of my sophomore year came, and I scored 130 points with my homemade dice, a 70% year-on-year decrease according to the previous semester. When my mother heard the news on the phone, she held it for a long time and said three words, "Don't be discouraged." I'm guilty, but I'll let her know that I'm just as good as I can live on the other hand.

Boa called me that night and told me that she had estimated it at more than six hundred and fifty. Although I was happy to hear the news, I had to admit that I was really jealous of her······ She told me that she was going to apply for Northeastern University as planned. Neither of us spoke, because it had been agreed early on that I would go to her.

The day after the results came down, my dad and my mom took the bullet train back to Daqing. The moment I saw my parents, I wanted to cry. I felt as if I hadn't seen them in a long time, and before I knew it, my dad had less hair on his head, his back was not straight, and wrinkles were crawling into the corners of my mom's eyes. It turns out that when I was willful, they were already silently old.

It was the first time in a decade or twenty that I sat at a table with my dad and dad, who was still so reticent, but he would always pour me a full glass while he toasted himself.

The spicy two-pot head stimulates my taste buds and also stimulates my tear ducts. I didn't want my parents to see my tears, so I went to the back room and took out the gifts I had prepared earlier.

"This is something I bought with the money I earned while working during the holidays, and my mother has a bad trachea, so I bought her a cashmere scarf. Dad, didn't you call and say that you have old cold legs, I thought about buying you a pair of knee pads, how much can be used at the top. "I don't know if it's the effect of alcohol or what, but I was a little choked up when I spoke.

My mom burst into tears when she took the scarf, and my dad's eyes turned red, but she didn't say anything, but filled me with another glass and said hoarsely, "Come on, it's done." ”

I know how uncomfortable I have been for so many years, and when I was young, I had many disasters and hardships, forcing my parents to take me with them wherever they went. Later, after my grandmother took me away, I survived the catastrophe of the child's life, and the family also had the medicine king Niangniang in charge. My mom and dad started working out again, desperately trying to provide for me to go to college. At the end of the day, I will repay them with such a result. That's it, my parents didn't scold me and hit me.

I can't say I'm sorry, I can only express my apologies with this small gesture. I didn't expect that the things that cost dozens of dollars poked the softest place in my parents' hearts. I remember hearing the saying before, "When a parent gives a child something, the child laughs." Parents always cry when children give things to their parents." I've been touched by this quote, but I've never put myself in my shoes like I have today.