I was completely stunned, completely overwhelmed, and completely forgot and didn't want to invite her in.

It was her, when she saw the indoor scene, she rushed in early.

"Auntie, are you sick again?"

The concern is palpable.

Zhang Ruolei and I looked at each other.

She already knew?

Restless snakes crawled up to the heart, and everywhere they passed, it was wet and cold.

My mom is like ...... with her

Slowly, they are more like a mother and daughter. I was inexplicably xenophobic, standing aside like a passerby, and it didn't feel good.

Zhang Ruolei also stared at the scene in front of him with wide eyes and remained silent. He gestured to me with his eyes, and watched the follow-up, don't be impulsive.

I quickly got to the message in his eyes, which should be regarded as a heart, and the long-term run-in finally became a fit that did not need to be repeated.

I remained silent, and at the same time the ambulance arrived, and the phone called Zhang Ruolei's mobile phone to confirm our location, and the ambulance personnel rushed to be in place.

The stretcher has come up, and my mother was carried on the stretcher by Zhang Ruolei.

The doctor asked, who are the family members?

I took a step forward and was about to get into the car, but Xiao Han stepped forward.

"Doctor, I know the specific situation of the old lady."

The doctor's suspicious gaze swept over us.

"You ......"

"I'm her classmate, and I'm the one who takes care of her when she's busy."

I tried to make the surprise on my face less obvious.

"Then you guys get in the car together."

The ECG monitoring equipment was working normally, and my mom was gradually becoming more and more peaceful in the car.

The ambulance drove smoothly out of the community, and I held her hand, with mixed feelings. Zhang Ruolei was behind the car mat, and I could see his car from the back window of the ambulance, following steadily behind. Xiao Han sat next to me, and when the doctor asked, she answered fluently. The doctor said, "This friend is really interesting." ”

None of us spoke, and all the grievances with her became unimportant at that moment, and all I was thinking about now was that she could live a few more days, so that I could have the opportunity to spend more time with her, and serve and keep my own filial piety.

She was ignored by fate for half her life, and finally raised her only daughter, and was ignored by her own daughter. She never complained about it, and she endured it silently, and when I finally knew that she was good and precious, she was like this, lying flat on the ambulance that roared past the hospital, at the mercy of fate.

The results soon came back and there was something growing near her brain stem, and it was probably a meningioma. And what meningioma is is unknown, the most important thing is that she has had such an examination a long time ago, she has known it for a long time, and Xiao Han also knows, when the doctor diagnoses her, she is still more like her daughter than me.

When did it first occur, what were the symptoms at the first onset, how long has this been going on, and how fast the tumor is growing.

I listened to it, and the more I listened, the more embarrassed I felt, and I felt that I didn't fit in with the qualification in front of me. I was ashamed, I felt a great shame, and I was all over the world, waving flags and shouting at me. Zhang Ruolei stood beside me, kept silent, and responded to all this with absolute silence. Occasionally

Remind me that the health of the elderly is the most important thing now, and everything will be talked about later.

I threw him a grateful glance. The reason why he is so touching to me is because he knows me so much, knows me so much. Perhaps he sees people in a subtle way, and has a deep understanding of every small movement and thought of each person, maybe this makes me feel that I am greatly respected and valued, and I am attached to him because of this.

No one has ever taken me as seriously as he has.

I turned my head and shook his hand again, and my heart suddenly settled down a lot.

After being admitted to the hospital and arranging surgery, I was entangled again, and the doctor said that I was so old, I didn't know the good luck and the bad luck, and the future was uncertain. You are determined, the family said that we will arrange the operation, if you want conservative treatment, we have no opinion.

I looked at Zhang Ruolei and expected him to give me advice.

He said he would do.

I'm sure that his answer coincides with mine.

Xiao Han ran up and down early, and all the spare parts were purchased. I looked at her busy figure in a trance, how long has it been since I have been like her? At that time, we lived in the same dormitory, listening to a late-night radio station in the middle of the night, and there were always people there to tell the host about their deaths and express their heartfelt feelings, and there were always some strange love stories that the parties wanted to share with the whole world, so that everyone could help them judge and make up their minds.

At that time, I was young and didn't know what it was like to be sad, and no matter how sad a love story was, I could listen to it as a joke. I despised those women, and said to Xiao Han lying on the bed, why do you have to be that person? Are all the men and women in the world dead? It's all done to him or her, why hasn't that person left?

Sometimes we laugh so much that our roommates protest or join us in gossiping.

At that time, the scenery was carefree, and no matter how cold the winter was, it was full of spring.

If the spring light room is also full of pale prosperity.

People grow up at a price.

The price is to finally become dull and sensitive---- sluggish to beauty and pleasure, and sensitive and affectionate to sorrow and pain.

What we never forget when we are young must be happy, and what we are haunted by when we grow up must be painful or unbearable.

It's a pity.

My mom didn't want to have surgery, and she couldn't bear to go against me.

At that time, I didn't know that Xiao Han had been spreading bad information in her ears, saying that so-and-so had a tumor in his head, but it grew again after half a year of cutting, and he didn't come off the operating table for the second operation.

She felt that my insistence on her surgery might be pushing her to the guillotine, but, despite this, she did not resist and silently accepted all my arrangements.

Even if she thinks it's unreasonable.

She even wrote a suicide note, explaining everything clearly. Of course, I only found out afterwards, and she was later cured, and she took out the suicide note and read it to me like a joke, and we laughed at first, and then listened and cried.

She hugged me and said, "I'm sorry." ”

What is she sorry for me? The party who gives more love is always more likely to fall into self-blame, they are always introspective, are they not giving enough to each other? Did you not pay as expected by the other party? I'm not

Don't have the ability to make the other person happy?

The one who loves the other side more is also the most likely to suffer from gains and losses, the easiest to be self-defeating, and the easiest to have inferiority and doubt about oneself.

The one who shrinks in love is usually the one who does not receive reciprocal love.

At that time, my mother and I could not have imagined that the beautiful woman who had been by her side with all her heart and soul would one day be mad and hysterical and shout at me: I just want you to have nothing, I just want to see you in pain, I just want to watch you lose your loved ones one after another. Yes, I did it on purpose, I saw something wrong with your mother on the street that day, I took her to get checked, I hinted to her that you were too busy at work at the time, too much pressure to be distracted to take care of her, it was I who told her that the tumor might grow after the cut. I just want to see it grow bigger and bigger in your mother's head, paralyze her, make her unable to take care of herself, make her feces and urine run sideways, make you look bad, and make her worse than dead. Let you live better than die.

If I had a knife then, I would have plunged it straight into the woman's heart. But I don't think the glittering silver blade was so bloody, because she was a cold-blooded animal.

I took the old lady over, she will take time, I thought that I should postpone the marriage, but Zhang Ruolei and my mother did not agree.

"So you want to marry me so much."

There was a lot of sarcasm in my tone. I thought he would sneer at each other, but he didn't want to admit it generously. Say I just want to make you my private property one day sooner.

"You're a rich woman now."

His body pressed against my body, conveying lust and affection.

The man looked up at him and said, "Your father is really not an ordinary man." ”

"How?"

"With so many shares transferred to me, don't worry. What if I had him wanted to abscond! ”

"My dad has read countless daughters in his life."

He's not in shape. "You can't escape from the palm of his son's hand when he sees you."

"It's true."

The two of them began to move their hands and feet, initially or just intentionally or unintentionally flirting, who knew that they didn't have much concentration on each other, and they couldn't help but fan the flames, and soon the sparks were on fire. Later, I pushed him, and I said that I wanted to save some money, and people said that men have quotas in their lifetimes.

He didn't do it, his eyes were as wide as copper bells, and his body was hot with a pot of old wine. Roaring and panting.

"No, no, I don't have a limit with you."

I smiled and rolled into his arms, let him be stormy, like a rushing waterfall looking down the river, the bottom of the pool was stirred up by the falling waterfall mist of water, and everything in the world in front of me was no longer real.

However, in the days when the old lady was just discharged from the hospital, I really discussed Xiao Han with Zhang Ruolei quite seriously. At that time, my mother was discharged from the hospital, and I didn't have to go over to accompany Wang every night, so I had already taken her to me and hired a little aunt to take care of her.

In our bedroom, I suddenly mentioned Xiao Han.

I was puzzled and didn't understand why she was so nice to my mother.

"You say......" I lay on my back on the bed with pillows in my hands, looking at the ceiling, which was not dazzling by the huge, graceful ceiling lamp.

"Xiao Han and I will not really have it

What is the origin? For example, is she really my half-sister, or half-sister? Otherwise, what's the reason why she's more concerned about my mom than I am about my mom? ”

Zhang Ruolei was sneering at my inference at the time. He moved my head over my lap and let my head rest on his lap, his big hands running through my hair over and over again, combing them through the veins.

"Don't worry, Xiao Han can't afford to be early. Not as dramatic as you think. You didn't see her? Just write two words all over your body. ”

"What?"

I rolled over to look at him.

He replied with a grin.

"I want to."

I glared at him, "Not in shape." ”

Immediately, he inevitably complained: "You didn't provoke it back?" ”

Zhang Ruolei grinned lightly. It's a bad thing to say that I said, that woman's every step was carefully calculated. We provoke her? Is it her intention to provoke us? And she torns her pants and wraps her legs, so it's not easy to get rid of it.

At the time, I thought that Zhang Ruolei was alarmist, but it would not be enough. Later, I found out that people can be naïve, but there must be a limit, and beyond that limit, that is not called childish, that is called stupid.

(End of chapter)